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January 12, 2020

Given January 2, 2020

1 John 2: 18-21

Fourth condition:
to be on guard against Antichrists

Children, this is the final hour;
you have heard
    that the Antichrist is coming,
and now many Antichrists
    have already come;
from this we know
    that it is the final hour.
They have gone from among us,
but they never really belonged to us;
if they had belonged to us,
    they would have stayed with us.
But this was to prove
that not one of them belonged to us.
But you have been anointed
    by the Holy One,
and have all received knowledge.
I have written to you
not because you are ignorant of the truth,
but because you are well aware of it,
and because no lie
    can come from the truth.

John 1: 1-18

A: PROLOGUE

In the beginning was the Word:
the Word was with God
and the Word was God.
He was with God in the beginning.
Through him all things came into being,
not one thing came into being
   except through him.
What has come into being in him was life,
life that was the light of men;
and light shines in darkness,
and darkness could not overpower it.

A man came, sent by God.
His name was John.
He came as a witness,
to bear witness to the light,
so that everyone might believe
   through him.
He was not the light,
he was to bear witness to the light.

The Word was the real light
that gives light to everyone;
he was coming into the world.
He was in the world
that had come into being through him,
and the world did not recognise him.
He came to his own
and his own people did not accept him.

But to those who did accept him
he gave power to become children of God,
to those who believed in his name
who were born not from human stock
or human desire
or human will
but from God himself.
The Word became flesh,
he lived among us,
and we saw his glory,
the glory that he has from the Father
   as only Son of the Father,
full of grace and truth.

John witnesses to him. He proclaims:
‘This is the one of whom I said:
He who comes after me
has passed ahead of me
because he existed before me.’

Indeed, from his fullness
    we have, all of us, received—
one gift replacing another,
for the Law was given through Moses,
grace and truth have come
   through Jesus Christ.
No one has ever seen God;
it is the only Son,
   who is close to the Father’s heart,
who has made him known.

A Prayer for Intimacy with the Lamb, the Bridegroom of the Soul

Oh Lamb of God, Who take away the sins of the world, come and act on my soul most intimately. I surrender myself, as I ask for the grace to let go, to just be as I exist in You and You act most intimately on my soul. You are the Initiator. I am the soul waiting Your favors as You act in me. I love You. I adore You. I worship You. Come and possess my soul with Your Divine Grace, as I experience You most intimately.

R. We see Jesus – Lamb of God –

Jesus shows Himself to us a servant –

We study the life of Jesus, we were created
in His image and likeness –

Jesus gave.

Jesus shows us He gave Himself –

                He gave Himself willingly – He was directed –
                    He obeyed the Father's will –
                    He was other focused –
                    He came to teach us about Himself,
                        about His Father, the love of
                        the Holy Spirit –

If a ball has a hole in it – it doesn't
operate properly.

                A ball is to be full of air and it has
                    no holes, it can bounce and it
                    can be used for games etc.

                A ball with a hole is a dud – it
                    can't be used for any games –
                    all the air leaks out –

In a message Jesus gave to me on
May 13, 1993.

Cling to Me

May 13, 1993

Jesus: My dear child, if you stay close to Me, then I live in you and you live in Me. I am He Who created you and I love you with such an intensity that you will never know. My words are your truth. You must abide in My heart in all things. There is no room for doubt. My ways are steadfast, direct, and without error.

    You must stay rooted in Me to ward off the power of the evil one. His grip is paralyzing and crippling. His power is stronger every day.

    When you live in Me, I am in your heart and he has no power over Me. I am your God. I am your true lover. I want to protect you. I want to guard you from this force. Stay rooted firmly in Me and he will have no power.

    I am He Who comforts you. My hand is upon you. Hold tight to Me, My child. My eyes are fixed right on you. You are My most precious child. I love you as no other can. My arms are about you. My tenderness surrounds you. My love is in your heart. You go not alone. I walk with you.

    I share every aspect of your life with you. Cling to Me, feel My presence. It is warm and secure within your chest. There is no room for fear, for I cast out fear and bring you comfort and joy. end of May 13, 1993

R. He wants us to be one in Him –

He gives us Himself in the Eucharist –

He gives us a sharing in His life in
baptism.

He is life –

                When a person fills themselves with
                    themselves, they are like a ball
                    with a hole in it –

God is Divine –

God gives us a sharing of Divine Life
in baptism –

God fills us with Himself –

The Bread of Life is the Eucharist and
the Word –

Mary carried the child Jesus inside of her –

She gave us the child Jesus – so Jesus'
love could go out to the world –

The more Jesus is in us, the more we
bring Jesus to the world –

We are made of body, mind and spirit.

                We need to be filled in our interior life
                    with Jesus, so we can take His
                    love – in our hearts – out to the
                    world –

Jesus is the Lamb of God –
the servant of God –

God commands us to love others –

                When the devil works in the mind – he
                    tells a person – they must be safe –
                    closed in, selfish – collapsed –
                    like the ball with the hole –

Our interior life must be filled with
Jesus –

                God commands us to have relationships
                    of love –
                    (1) Love of God (2) Love of others (3) Love of self –

                A person can be told over and over again and shown
                    love, over and over again, but
                    they have a free will to choose to be
                    shut down, closed, collapsed and
                    seek only the familiar messages in
                    their minds –
                    "I am cheated" –
                    "People aren't safe" –
                    be collapsed – with no interior life
                        rooted in God –

A collapsed ball doesn't bounce.

R. An empty well doesn't give water –

God is life.

God is love.

Jesus says
"I am the way, the truth and the life."

But a person with their free will can
refuse to even look up –

                They have a free will to say –
                    same old, same old
                    same messages, same victim
                    rule – black darkness.

                And when they want, act out on others
                    blaming them because they refuse
                    to fix the ball and fill it
                    with life and love –

The Shepherds of Christ is about the music of the
interior life rooted in God –

Balls are made to be filled with air –

Our bodies, brains have systems
that need balance –

There is a fight or flight in our brain
to get us acting and going.

There is a place of rest – needed in
sleep, relaxation, rest, music

These systems need balance –

Our hearts were made to pump life in
the body –

Our hearts were made for love –

                If we live in a war zone in our hearts,
                    and listen to dark messages of
                    hate in our heads –
                    we will have a war zone –
                    a fight coming out of us –
                    seeing through this very dark filter
                    we refuse to change –
                        seeing others as enemies
                        wanting no one in our space –
                        ruling in control – like all that
                        exists is us that is safe.

We are a work in progress –

                We see the message of Jesus in the stable –
                    He is perfect and He comes to
                    an imperfect world to teach us
                    to be more like Him –

                We can be shut down and never want
                    to change –
                    seeing ourselves as the source –

God is the source –

God fills us –

Jesus is the Light

God is love and the source of
happiness and peace.

                Jesus gives us the Blue Books to teach us,
                    to grow, to learn, to love, to see
                    His love for us, to come from
                    the source of love – we need
                    to dwell in the Heart of Jesus,
                    on fire with Love in His Heart –

A collapsed ball, shut down is not
going to bring joy to others –

Our hearts were made for love –

                Giving our heart to Jesus and spreading
                    this devotion to His Sacred Heart
                    is the work of the Shepherds of Christ.

Jesus came and died for us so we could
have eternal life with Him in heaven –

He is our eternal King –

                If we make ourselves the king of our
                    hearts – we are like a collapsed
                    ball –

                We are wounded, imperfect, satan is real,
                    he lies in telling people – "people
                    are enemies, there is no love" –
                    satan is hate –

                But a person trapped in the familiar
                    with controlling everything by
                    their own source –
                    with their free will can enjoy in
                    darkness their own choice
                    to be in power –
                    over everything – and
                    the power they feel when they raise
                    themselves up with abusing others
                    makes them darker.

Fr. Carter says being unloving is sinning –

Excerpt from Response in Christ by Fr. Edward J. Carter, S. J.

The Christian and Sin - Chapter Six

The Nature of Sin

What is the nature of sin? Contemporary theology emphasizes that sin is not primarily a violation of a law, but a disruption of personal relationships. Sin is a refusal to love. Serious sin is a radical refusal to love. Venial sin is a partial refusal to love.

The most obvious personal relationship that is affected by sin is that between God and the sinner. In sinning a man fails, to a lesser or greater degree, to accept God's loving gift of Himself. He fails also to respond with his own gift of love. In serious sin man refuses intimate friendship with God. In venial sin he dulls the ardor of that friendship. Man, in so far as he sins, maintains that he does not want his life to be directed by the loving hand of his heavenly Father. He wants to be a law for himself; he wants to be the one who decides what is good for himself and what is not. Schoonenberg observes: "Especially in the prophets sin is an aversion from and an unfaithfulness to Yahweh himself; hence it is placed in the heart rather than in the wrong deed. We see that aversion, that rebelliousness, that lack of faith which precede the act of transgressing the Law already in the story of the sin in paradise, where it is presented as the wish of possessing autonomously the knowledge of good and evil, of being independently the Law unto oneself. . .”¹

1. P. Schoonenberg, Man and Sin (Notre Dame, Indiana: Fides, 1965), p. 8.

R. The interior life –

The Father, Son and Holy Spirit dwell in
the graced, baptized soul –

God put us here to help each other
go more and more to Him –

We are a work in progress

                A stone being molded into the image of Christ,
                A person full of love and life
                    carrying Jesus out to the world –

                The individual Christian, the Church
                    and the world is to be growing
                    more and more in the image of Christ.

We are to be transformed –

Have the mystical marriage –

                A person who disobeys authority, laws,
                    the commandments, God's will,
                    invites darkness in their
                    hearts –
                    They aren't independents –
                    Satan comes inside stronger
                        the more we turn away from
                        God and disobey Him –

                We can have an interior life – the
                    more we seek God –
                    seek obedience –
                    love His will –
                    seek purity –

                Independence isn't hating others,
                    being collapsed in your heart –
                    inviting unloving sinful hate
                    of our brothers –

God created others too in His image and
likeness –

We are imperfect – a work in progress –

                The dark person is the one who thinks they
                    have arrived and need not the light –
                    the gift of God's love –
                    Satan tells them – It's not safe to
                    love – to trust others
                    We must discern because we're all
                    imperfect, but living with our
                    god being ourselves is a very
                    bad place to be in.

Jesus was the suffering servant.

                God is a light to the Nations that His
                    salvation may reach the ends of the
                    earth.

We carry Jesus out to the world –

                We are not the source – God in
                    us, operates in us in love –
                    but we constantly are growing
                    in Him – being transformed –

Jesus is the Pascal sacrifice –
the Lamb of God!!

Jesus is the Pascal sacrifice who
takes away the sins of the world –

                Some who are in darkness and see themselves
                    as the source –
                    see themselves without any sins
                    they are the end and beginning –
                    collapsed in like a ball with a hole –

Jesus is the Savior –

Blue Book 11 tells us how we help in the Work
of Redemption –

Satan wants to fill a person with pride –
"I am right" I am the god –

                The person full of Jesus – knows
                    He is the source –
                    They walk humbly –
                    They surrender control –
                    They have peace in their
                        hearts not war fighting
                        to beat the rule of Jesus
                        to love and give themselves –

They have so much to learn about Jesus.

Jesus is the Messiah –

Baptism changes us forever –

                We don't receive it and forget
                    about it thinking we know
                    it all –

                It elevates our capacity to know and
                    our capacity to love – that is
                    to grow ever more supernaturally.

Pride is a deadly sin –

                Pride puts ourselves on top –
                    it's a very bad habit – a person
                    can then choose all their actions
                    making themselves on top and
                    others below them –
                    How far do they go to grow
                        ever deeper in the
                        darkness of pride, while
                        they turn their backs on
                        who is God – not them.

                    The devil tells them
                        They are ALL in ALL – WRONG
                        God IS

Our job is to grow in the Light
of Jesus –

Our interior life rooted in Him –

Surrendering to His way –

Prayer for Union with Jesus

Come to me, Lord, and possess my soul. Come into my heart and permeate my soul. Help me to sit in silence with You and let You work in my heart.

    I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I want to be selfless and only exist in You. Help me to spoon out all that is me and be an empty vessel ready to be filled by You. Help me to die to myself and live only for You. Use me as You will. Let me never draw my attention back to myself. I only want to operate as You do, dwelling within me.

    I am Yours, Lord. I want to have my life in You. I want to do the will of the Father. Give me the strength to put aside the world and let You operate my very being. Help me to act as You desire. Strengthen me against the distractions of the devil to take me from Your work.

    When I worry, I have taken my focus off of You and placed it on myself. Help me not to give in to the promptings of others to change what in my heart You are making very clear to me. I worship You, I adore You and I love You. Come and dwell in me now.

-God's Blue Book, January 17, 1994

A Prayer for Intimacy with the Lamb, the Bridegroom of the Soul

Oh Lamb of God, Who take away the sins of the world, come and act on my soul most intimately. I surrender myself, as I ask for the grace to let go, to just be as I exist in You and You act most intimately on my soul. You are the Initiator. I am the soul waiting Your favors as You act in me. I love You. I adore You. I worship You. Come and possess my soul with Your Divine Grace, as I experience You most intimately.

December 25, 2019

R. Today is the ultimate gift –
    the beginning of Jesus'
    life on earth.

Jesus the gift of love –

Jesus is love –

Jesus is the gift of love –

The Father's gift to us –

Jesus, Our Savior,
and the world lay in
darkness – waiting the
birth of Jesus –

The gift of love –

The gift of Our Savior –

The Father's love for us –

And the light shown in
the darkness –

Our Father's love given
    to us –

How can we receive
    this gift?

In gratitude –

In love for Him –

Receiving such a gift and
    being satisfied with
    His generosity –

Fr. Frank said
    "Some people are
    never satisfied."

We give gifts because
We are walking in the
    footprints of God –

Love is giving, from the
    heart –

To give and not count
    the cost –

To give whatever we
    can because we
    are following Jesus –

    We are created by Our Father
who is love –

    How are we growing
in love to be likened
to Him –

    The ultimate gift –
Love –

Jesus gives us Himself
    to His death on
    the cross –

Jesus gives us the Eucharist –
    We receive God – the
    ultimate gift –
    God comes to us –
    We eat His Body –
    We drink His Blood –

Giving love is being
    most like Jesus –

In giving – we receive –

In loving we are likened
    to God.

He is love –

The ultimate gift –
    God gives us Himself.

R. Our life is a breath here
we strut on the stage of
life –

    We have our day –
Have we walked in the
footprints of Jesus –

Have we given ourselves –

The Father so loved the
world to give us Jesus –

Love is giving ourselves –

Love is not being afraid
    to give –

Love is giving for others
    because we love
    them –

We love God first –

Christmas is about love –
    Showing others what
    God means to us –

God is love –

Why do anything if it
    is not for love –

Even suffering, handling
    difficulties –
    must be done for
        love –

end of excerpt

January 2, 2020

Sorrowful Mysteries

The Agony in the Garden

                (1) Jesus: I died for you sweet one,
                    I died, I love you so much.
                    Many in sin get pleasure
                    sinning and watching others
                    suffer.

                (2) Mary: My beloved Jesus, I cry bloody
                    tears because of the unfaithful
                    ones who offend You and
                    are hypocrites parading before
                    others like they are religious,
                    when they enjoy the power they
                    get in disobeying God.

(3) Mary: My Children the truth
will set you free.

(4) Mary: God is absolute truth, my children –
He loves you so much.

                (5) Mary: God created you in love in His
                    image and likeness.
                    He stands by your bed, the very
                    hairs of your head are numbered.
                    He pleads with you to stop sinning
                    and He says "I love you, please
                    stop your evil ways, I died for you."

                (6) Mary: Satan is the Father of lies. A
                    person can dislike themselves
                    and punish innocent others
                    for the darkness they give
                    into inside of them.

(7) Mary: I am the Queen of Peace –

Prayer of St. Francis

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love.
Where there is injury, pardon.
Where there is doubt, faith.
Where there is despair, life.
Where there is darkness, light.
Where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled, as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned.
It is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

                (8) Mary: Those filled with hatred inside are
                    at WAR inside and they do
                    not feel – their hearts are hard.

(9) Jesus: I am the way, the truth and the life.

                (10) Jesus: I suffered so much for these
                    sinners so hard and hateful
                    in their hearts –
                    I sweat Blood in the Garden –
                    I was comforted in the Garden
                        by your love.

The Scourging at the Pillar

(1) Jesus: And they beat Me, tied to the
pillar their hearts so hard.

                (2) Jesus: They enjoyed beating Me –
                    Power to make others suffer
                    is such a despicable sin –
                    Loving hurting others - so evil.

                (3) Jesus: They loved beating Me with
                    whips - like a person that loves
                    hurting others for power –
                    despicable.

                (4) Jesus: I cried blood for those who
                    love hurting others and
                    whip others in their behavior
                    for power and pride.

                (5) Jesus: They tore My flesh and
                    the ones today, some lie
                    and lie about their
                    malicious hearts – I cried blood.

                (6) Jesus: So many gifts I have given here –
                    So much love - I gave the last
                    beat of My Heart –
                    the last drop of
                    My blood –
                    Many of My special chosen
                    ones are so unfaithful
                    to Me –

                (7) Jesus: They pounded their whips on My
                    body – deep wounds for
                    senseless ugly sins some
                    enjoy hurting their brothers
                    in pride.

                (8) Jesus: They have been given so many gifts
                    of love from Me and to some
                    nothing is ever enough.

                (9) Jesus: Sin is being unloving to your
                    brothers on purpose to
                    hurt them and watch
                    them suffer –
                    Some love working others
                        up for fun –
                        Despicable and I cried
                        blood –
                        I bled profusely –

                (10) Mary: Gaul to have pleasure
                    watching others suffer
                    at your hands of power –
                    Gaul – God watches this
                    scandalous behavior.

The Crowning with Thorns

                (1) Mary: They pounded thorns in Jesus'
                    head – He is the King – you
                    are servants –
                    Those who enjoy power hurting
                    others make me cry blood –
                    ugly.

                (2) Mary: Why would anyone who knows
                    Jesus' love – willingly offend
                    God with deliberate disobedience –
                    They deny they sin. Some sin
                    mortally and without confession
                    run to Communion –

(3) Jesus is the King – He is over,
Man is under –

1. I, the Lord, am your God. You shall not have other gods besides me.

                (4) Jesus: I cried blood in the Garden for
                    the two-faced and grossly
                    unfaithful –
                    I command you to love your
                    neighbor as yourself –

                (5) Jesus: Games – some love games
                    like making a sport out
                    of getting power over
                    innocent others –
                    Despicable.

                (6) Mary: Gaul, Gaul and more
                    Gaul to offend God in
                    so gross disobedience.

                (7) Dear Mary, the Holy Spirit came
                    upon you to give us Jesus –
                    help us Holy Spirit to
                    grow in the image of God.

                (8) God help us to see things
                    truthfully in our relation
                    to God –
                    You cannot take trinkets
                    with you.

                (9) Dear God we give
                    You honor and glory.
                    Amen.

(10) 1 John 4: 7-11

My dear friends, let us love one another, since love is from God and everyone who loves is a child of God and knows God. Whoever fails to love does not know God, because God is love. This is the revelation of God's love for us, that God sent his only Son into the world that we might have life through him. Love consists in this: it is not we who loved God, but God loved us and sent his Son to expiate our sins. My dear friends, if God loved us so much, we too should love one another.

The Carrying of the Cross

                (1) Under the gaze of the
                    Father's eyes we love
                    God with our whole heart,
                    whole soul, whole being.

(2) 1 John 4: 17-21

Love comes to its perfection in us when we can face the Day of Judgement fearlessly, because even in this world we have become as he is. In love there is no room for fear, but perfect love drives out fear, because fear implies punishment and no one who is afraid has come to perfection in love. Let us love, then, because he first loved us. Anyone who says 'I love God' and hates his brother, is a liar, since whoever does not love the brother whom he can see cannot love God whom he has not seen. Indeed this is the commandment we have received from him, that whoever loves God, must also love his brother.

(3) 1 John 4: 12-18

No one has ever seen God, but as long as we love one another God remains in us and his love comes to its perfection in us. This is the proof that we remain in him and he in us, that he has given us a share in his Spirit. We ourselves have seen and testify that the Father sent his Son as Saviour of the world. Anyone who acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God remains in him and he in God. We have recognised for ourselves, and put our faith in, the love God has for us. God is love, and whoever remains in love remains in God and God in him. Love comes to its perfection in us when we can face the Day of Judgement fearlessly, because even in this world we have become as he is. In love there is no room for fear, but perfect love drives out fear, because fear implies punishment and no one who is afraid has come to perfection in love.

                (4) Piety helps us never to want
                    to offend God.
                    We love God and the Blessed
                    Mother, the Church,
                    the saints in heaven and
                    people of the earth.

                (5) We love our parents,
                    our superiors and
                    see God in them.

                (6) We do our duty in our
                    vocation diligently and
                    in love –

(7) "He who loves Me, will
keep My commandments."

                (8) The gift of fear of God
                    means we respect
                    God –
                    The one thing that takes
                    us from God is sin.

                (9) A childlike love of our
                    heavenly Father, we
                    know He loves us –

                (10) If you fear God you
                    will prepare your
                    heart and soul.

The Crucifixion

(1) The flesh wants death (sin).

(2) The spirit wants light and
peace.

Romans 8: 5-9

Those who are living by their natural inclinations have their minds on the things human nature desires; those who live in the Spirit have their minds on spiritual things. And human nature has nothing to look forward to but death, while the Spirit looks forward to life and peace, because the outlook of disordered human nature is opposed to God, since it does not submit to God's Law, and indeed it cannot, and those who live by their natural inclinations can never be pleasing to God. You, however, live not by your natural inclinations, but by the Spirit, since the Spirit of God has made a home in you. Indeed, anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him.

(3) Romans 8: 14-17

All who are guided by the Spirit of God are sons of God; for what you received was not the spirit of slavery to bring you back into fear; you received the Spirit of adoption, enabling us to cry out, 'Abba, Father!' The Spirit himself joins with our spirit to bear witness that we are children of God. And if we are children, then we are heirs, heirs of God and joint-heirs with Christ, provided that we share his suffering, so as to share his glory.

(4) Prayer for Union with Jesus

Come to me, Lord, and possess my soul. Come into my heart and permeate my soul. Help me to sit in silence with You and let You work in my heart.

    I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I want to be selfless and only exist in You. Help me to spoon out all that is me and be an empty vessel ready to be filled by You. Help me to die to myself and live only for You. Use me as You will. Let me never draw my attention back to myself. I only want to operate as You do, dwelling within me.

    I am Yours, Lord. I want to have my life in You. I want to do the will of the Father. Give me the strength to put aside the world and let You operate my very being. Help me to act as You desire. Strengthen me against the distractions of the devil to take me from Your work.

    When I worry, I have taken my focus off of You and placed it on myself. Help me not to give in to the promptings of others to change what in my heart You are making very clear to me. I worship You, I adore You and I love You. Come and dwell in me now.

-God's Blue Book, January 17, 1994

(5) Holy Spirit strengthen me.

                (6) Holy Spirit help me to grow
                    in my heart –
                    Grow in the interior life.

                (7) Help us to have zeal for
                    love of You who
                    suffered for us.

(8) Excerpt from Blue Book 15

Through the Eucharistic Sacrifice Christ the Lord desired to set before us in a very special way this remarkable union whereby we are united one with another and with our divine Head, a union that no word of praise can ever sufficiently express. For in this sacrifice the sacred ministers act not only as the representative of our Saviour, but as the representative of the whole Mystical Body and of each one of the faithful. Again, in this act of sacrifice, the faithful of Christ, united by the common bond of devotion and prayer, offer to the eternal Father through the hands of the priest, whose prayer alone has made it present on the altar, the Immaculate Lamb, the most acceptable victim of praise and propitiation for the Church’s universal need. Moreover, just as the divine Redeemer, while dying on the Cross, offered Himself to the eternal Father as Head of the whole human race, so now, ‘in this clean oblation’ He not only offers Himself as Head of the Church to His heavenly Father but in Himself His mystical members as well. He embraces them all, yes, even the weaker and more ailing members, with the deepest love of His Heart. (Pope Pius XII, Mystici Corporis AAS. XXXV, 232-233)

(9) Luke 22: 19-20

Then he took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it and gave it to them, saying, ‘This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me.’ He did the same with the cup after supper, and said, ‘This cup is the new covenant in my blood poured out for you.

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