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January 30, 2007

January 31th Holy Spirit Novena Scripture selection is Day 8 Period II.

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January 30, 2007

Messenger:

          

Subject: Mystery - Union with the Divine God

 

I reached to even try to grasp the sights of the ocean and I could not take it in.

I cannot take it in- the beauty of a child so beautifully carved by the hand of God.

The eyes of any human being- the intricacies to see-

Look at the mechanism the eye- to see; the ear to hear- the detail- the finest engineer- God

God in His infinite goodness lets us know weight and time -the finite years of our life on earth.

God allows man to be a co-creator in marriage to bring forth a marvelous child.

 

I reach to explain mystery and there are never any words that I speak to describe the depth of my knowing greater insight and depth into the Divine God.

But I reach as one who can scarcely-when seeing the vastness of the ocean-the ever changing tide-the beauty of the sky above it-constantly changing-

how numerous indeed is the magnificence of God- I can never describe for depth is non existent

 

If I go to the deepest ocean floor -I can finally find the end

There is an end

But even to the human mind there is a mystery to our thoughts and comprehension.

We who have been baptized have this elevated knowing and loving capacity-

 

God gives a sharing in His life in baptism.

Insight into the Divine mystery.

 

Oh I ponder the oneness of the Trinity- to know more the capability of man to know unity- rooted in love

Oneness beyond our imagination of this relationship of Father, Son and Holy Spirit

but it is very real to me and unfolding in fullness-

studying what God wants for us men to be united

modeling ourselves after this magnificent community- the Trinity

 

I know the endlessness of my comprehending it - this "inexhaustible aspect"  is so real to me

my endless realization of the oneness of the Trinity

Thus I seek it so ardently-like one thirsting after treasure that they know they can find

 

Thirsting for knowledge of the unknown-the hidden mystery- and yet

having such a light of

its existence as so real to me that I can comprehend ever deeper this magnificent reality - I seek - I thirst -

My life lived to go deeper into this mystical marriage with God - Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

 

The existence of my not having comprehended greater depth is a real drive within me to be ever more deeply one in God.

 

Reaching into the abyss of this magnificent mystery is beyond my expression to even explain my thirsting for it, but my

God beckons me to write this to make it more real-  the existence of the hidden mystery and its endless knowledge in my soul.

 

Ever reaching-

Ever deeper-

That which has no depth-

and yet is the story of my soul-

 

The life here after in the beatific vision-

 

The existence of oneness of God for all eternity-

 

The existence of my life growing ever deeper in this reality of the Divine God.

 

I am not faint, but vibrantly alive in my expression of how deeply I comprehend the unconceivable reality of knowing the fullness of life for all eternity- and yet- I do not know it all

only a scratch of the surface of this existence of this magnificent reality in my soul.

 

I hurt, my heart, to see those wrapped in evil and giving expression to lead others to follow their sorted ways-

 

And yet if God did not love us so very much He would not have come-

but God is love and the love God has for us-too- we can never understand, but under a veil here below and then in heaven as He reveals this to us in varying measures-

 

but I am like a thirsty desert

a sponge

a hole waiting to be filled

 

do words exist and yet my God beckons me to speak about the ineffable

 

the reality of my knowledge as He has communicated to me in my soul through rapturous visions of His love for me

The vision in my soul December 15, 1995

I speak of in the Mass book.

 

This mission of the Shepherds of Christ to lead to this wider vision of what it is to be the spouse of Jesus.

what it is to know Jesus- the bridegroom of my soul.

To know relationship here below- mystical marriage with the Trinity- preparation for the heavenly banquet-

the marriage of the Lamb to me.

 

I go to the altar of my God and I receive Him.

 

He is so very real to me- my Divine Bridegroom- and He is so one with me

His Word lives in my soul

The Spirit so alive in my heart- that I know so very deeply my Divine God

I know each Person

I am in relationship- a personal relationship with each Divine Person

 

and I know so very deeply the ineffable reality of oneness of God- ever growing in me in deeper knowledge- that which I can never comprehend here below.

 

Rapture of my God.

 

Come away with me and taste the heavenly banquet He wants us to taste a little here below.

 

What does God want of His priests but this very special union to those He gives this gift of priesthood- persona Christi

 

Oh I know the wonder- the heights to be ever more filled in, as He removes the veil of those who seek Him and come begging to be saturated with His grace

 

Grace- life in Him- this to me is my life here below-

to make one my mission of deepest love with His precious souls as I lay down my life in service of Him

 

Walking behind Him through my life- my mother at my side- my life lived in greater oneness with Him

being more identified with Him in all things to be as St. Paul says

Galatians 2: 19-20

...I have been crucified with Christ and yet I am alive; yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me.

Marriage-what word could be used for depth of life in Him the Divine God

to me marriage is only a description- it is beyond words

but God uses this

and yet a marriage between two human persons can be so one with the Divine God, but can never in any way take the space and top priority of this sacrifice to be wrapped in this embrace with God

For we die and our love in heaven is in this relationship in the Beatific Vision and it is not like human marriage here below

 

Relationship between Mary- a human person is a model for us to know

relationship between us a human person and Jesus a Divine Person with a human nature,

 

I know what is in the inner chamber of my soul I wish to express- I know the endless love of the Sacred Heart- the red abyss of His infinite love

 

why would men choose evil with such goodness God wants to share with us.

 

Everlasting Happiness in heaven.

 

 

December 17, 1995

Excerpt from the Mass Book

THE EARTH STOPPED AND TOUCHED HEAVEN

    I long to unite in the deepest union with Him in the Eucharist. I long for the Mass. I long for Thee, oh God. My every moment, I join as I did to You December 15 under the cross, where I felt Your presence. You whisked me away, and I was totally absorbed in that moment of celestial union with You. For that time, I existed only in You, in the deepest union, and I was in this moment existing in You. The earth stopped, and I touched the heavens, all my bodily cares were existent in You. I existed in Your Divinity, my being was in You. There was no desire or wish or wanting, for in that moment, I had all I wanted in You. I was satisfied and wanted nothing but to remain in that embrace. You were the Being, and my being existed in You, but I was only as I was in You - merged in You, knowing and being in Your Divinity and being so full as to feel complete in myself.

    You are so enormous, and You surrounded me in a burning embrace, the presence of red fire. I was not little, or "nothing", but existed in this enormous power and being so complete!

    I touched eternity, and in that embrace, I knew all the waiting was worth the glory. You enveloped my being, and I was truly merged in the Divine Presence. I was merged in Your being. I existed IN You, with You, in the highest union with You, although I knew I was still distinct from You.

    I was fused and absorbed in You, feeling complete and satisfied. To describe this union is far beyond any work of my pen and paper. I pray for the reader of this page to receive the grace to share this experience with Him, I will now live for this union-to be forever merged In Him, to be One in Him, to reach higher perfection as I exist in Him, for He takes the lowly and gives to them a sharing in Himself. He merges with us and we exist in Him. The word "in" - I could write pages about. I long for the deepest union with Him, where I am swept up in the heavenly embrace of the Divine God, and I am IN Him.

    This is heaven on earth: to be merged as one with Divinity, although remaining distinct from God, to take our feeble hearts, our lowly status and to unite ourselves with the Divine, Almighty, powerful God and in this union to be meshed with Him, that His power dominates and our humanity reaches its heights of fulfillment in this union, in this oneness with Him.

    The word I have looked for is "oneness." I understand some of the meaning of the words "One in Him." Oneness is the word to describe this union of our humanity with His Divinity. The depth to which we could meditate on oneness with God is incomprehensible. In that moment, the earth stood still, and He, my Divine Lover, the Bridegroom of my soul, took me to Himself, and I knew the embrace of the Divine God.

    Nothing on the face of this earth can describe our union with Divinity. Oh, good God, that creatures are so ungrateful regarding Your divine love. I am so sorry. Let me help make reparation to Your adorable Heart. Please unite with me now that I may more deeply love Thee.

    Oh, Divine Lover of my soul, let me help make reparation to Your adorable Heart for the neglect and indifference against You.

Song from Jesus: I come to you with greatest love. I am your loving Savior. I am your God. I died for you. I come to you this day.

    He allowed me to experience such pain in my heart - wanting Him so badly, so many times-and then on Dec. 15, 1995 - He gave Himself to me in the deepest union.

    Nothing satisfies the soul but Him. He wants the nuns and priests to love Him. He chose them to spread His love.

    Souls are hungry. They will only be fed with His burning love. Priests need to talk about Jesus' love for us from the pulpit. Priests need hearts burning for love of Jesus. This will feed the hungry souls - lip service love doesn't do it.

    He is alive today. He is a Person. He wants us to love Him.

end of December 17, 1995 Mass Book entry

  

Hebrews 12: 1-4

With so many witnesses in a great cloud all around us, we too, then, should throw off everything that weighs us down and the sin that clings so closely, and with perseverance keep running in the race which lies ahead of us. Let us keep our eyes fixed on Jesus, who leads us in our faith and brings it to perfection: for the sake of the joy which lay ahead of him, he endured the cross, disregarding the shame of it, and has taken his seat at the right of God’s throne. Think of the way he persevered against such opposition from sinners and then you will not lose heart and come to grief. In the fight against sin, you have not yet had to keep fighting to the point of bloodshed.