Shepherds of Christ          Daily Writing

October 25, 2006

October 26th Holy Spirit Novena Scripture selection is Day 2 Period  II.

The Novena Rosary Mysteries   for October 26th are Joyful.

October 25, 2006

Messenger:         My love for God beckons me to
                        give myself completely and to
                        let go of inordinate attachments.
                        Any time we give into the devil in
                        pride, anger, jealousy, envy
                        and let hatred in our hearts —
                        anger, jealousy toward another —
                        we open a door to satan.

                            There is one thing — trying
                        to do God's will in love — wanting
                        something for dominance, comfort
                        not according to God's will that
                        is hurting us from having deeper
                        oneness with God and allowing sin
                        into our lives.

                            What is our god? What is
                        our focus? Do I want dominance
                        for dominance sake to be over
                        the authority.

                            In surrender to God's will lies
                        my might! I give myself  entirely
                        to His will and His Might runs
                        things for me.

                            I pray for unity, I pray for
                        purity, for all involved in this mission,
                        I pray for mercy from God
                        to help us to be strong, other focused —
                        not act out our past sins, wounds
                        on others.

                            If one was abused as a child
                        one may try to work out  that unfinished
                        business one more time by creating
                        the same scenario and then having
                        a happy ending for them.

                            Adults cannot expect other
                        adults to be put in situations so
                        they can solve abusive, neglective
                        patterns from childhood.

                            Why do many divorce — unmet
                        needs from childhood —
                            "Now my husband will love me
                        and I will be satisfied." they think.

                            Only God can help us to fill
                            the craving in our soul we
                            were given that can only be
                            satisfied in heaven.

                            No person can ever satisfy this
                        craving, that can be satisfied by
                        God in heaven.

                            When a problem is a problem it
                        must be addressed or we cannot go
                        to greater oneness.

                            A person in sin, that is blinded
                        by their sin can live an isolated life —
                        oh it isn't me — then they want a relationship
                        and they say — I will try again — every
                        intimate relationship may end in
                        disaster because no one can get
                        close to them — they see themselves as perfect.
                        Their way is the only way. They may
                        marry another dysfunctional person
                        and they try to work it out in dysfunction.

                            But dysfunction — even though it
                        may function usually gets sicker and
                        produces - dysfunctional, sick children —
                        then they grow up and since we live in
                        society — the mask can be revealed.

                            There is one way — it is to recognize
                        we are imperfect and quit acting out
                        unmet needs, wounded hurts on
                        others.

                            Only God can satisfy the desire
                        for the real love we all desire.
                        We will never find satisfaction in
                        love here below — we will
                        not be satisfied on earth.

                            Every imperfection is a means
                        that the devil can get in.

                            People engaging in sin have
                        opened a door to satan and he comes
                        in and he aggressively tries
                        to move - like a worm in an
                        apple rotting the soul.

                            The best way to have a
                        nice apple is to get rid of
                        the worm.

                            I asked God for forgiveness
                        of my sins, I ask God to help my
                        heart to be humble — truthful —
                        the proud person — does things
                        wrong and wants to prove they are
                        right — they hurt others — they
                        sin — they hide the sin and lie trying
                        to say they have not sinned.

                            The abuse that hurt the Church
                        was because of lies and
                        cover up and the sin gets
                        deeper and deeper —

                            Committing a sin and trying to
                        lie and cover it up - hurts ourselves
                        first and it keeps us stuck in a sin
                        that is a wound that can grow and
                        grow as the devil sticks a wedge
                        in to widen the wound.

                            How many lies can we tell
                        to cover-up a sin — How does
                        lying make us feel?

                            I watched a girl — lie and lie and
                        when everyone around her was
                        hurt — she was still lying to
                        make herself look perfect.

                            Her god was being perfect —
                        a deck of cards (people) fell
                        wounded because of her lies and
                        her main focus was looking spotless.
                        She never said she was sorry — her
                        lies got greater — her closeness
                        to God diminished and she was black
                        and miserable inside.

                            How do you make friends? When
                        it is somebody's birthday I have
                        watched new beginnings — like sin
                        get unveiled —
                             birthday
                             confession — rebirth
                                                 a newness

                        A kid lying to their parents is
                            committing a sin.

                        Disobedience is wrong.

                        Respect is to be given to parents,
                            superiors —

                        Saying you are sorry when you sin
                            is good for the soul.

                            Staying stuck in the sin is
                        devastating because we are not
                        here for earthly pleasures, for
                        earthly gain.

                            Adam and Eve sinned, but it
                        hurt generations after them.

                            How big is a sin and a lie —
                        it doesn't end with that person.

                        Sing:  Pardon Your People

                        Sing:  Loving and Forgiving