August 2, 1994 - After Communion, 8:00 a.m.

God Comes to Me

R.  You are alive and inside of me. The one, true, God-made man, Son of the Father. His presence permeates my very being and I, oh God, I am raised to the realms of such life, life in the one true God. Who am I that I can thus be united with the Lord, my God!

    I am but a lowly servant, a mere creature and I am raised to such heights and honored at the presence of the Lord within my very soul. I see only a little of the true honor He bestows on me with His presence. I am a mere creature and my God comes to me!

    Holy is the name of my precious Lord and I am raised to such heights in His presence. Who, who am I to be given such an honor!

    I sing a song of praise and raise my voice in jubilation to this, the Almighty God, worthy of all honor and praise and so little received from His ungrateful creatures.

    Praise God, holiest in the heights and all generations will adore His name and give Him homage. Alleluia, Alleluia.

    What honor do I bestow on such a King? Oh my precious Savior. Do I contemplate what really goes on here or am I blind and dumb?

    You have given us bread from heaven and You will sustain us with Your body. I am but the lowly servant of the Lord. My life is dependent on You, my most giving, loving Lord. Who, I ask, who am I to be given such a great honor to receive You inside of me?

    I am raised to such heights in Him by Your very presence within me and Holy, Holy, is Your Name, You are Most high. You have indeed honored us in our lowliness with Your Divine Presence. We are but mere creatures. You are God. Bow down to Him who humbled Himself to come among us as Man and dwells with us this very day, He is truly present in the Eucharist. He is my precious Savior. He is worthy of all my love and I love Him from the depth of my soul. Is there anything that I can give to my precious Lord? He asks only for my love. Love of Him, love of His beloved ones. 

    I love You, my precious Savior. Honor and praise to the name of Jesus, my Savior, Who sustains me!

     

   

August 3, 1994

I Give You Myself

R.  It would be so wonderful for me to go to church and hear the priest talk about the love of Jesus from his heart. I knew Jesus wanted us to read a message about His deep love in the Passion. He was aglow and smiling in His picture. This is what warms the cold heart. This is what is so exciting in my heart. Today the priest talked about Jesus' infinite love at Mass and it made my heart warm.

    This will light the hearts of men with the fire of God's love when the priests realize God's love within their hearts. Love of Jesus takes time spent with Him. He as our center, He as a real person, He is in our midst. I keep hearing Him say so strongly after communion, "I give you Myself."

    When He talked about His death, He said the same thing, "I gave you Myself, what more do you want to prove My love?"

R.  With such emotion, He says over and over again: "I give you Myself, what more do you want?"

     

  

August 3, 1994 - (On way to Frisch's Restaurant - 1:00 pm)

People Thirst for the Love of God

R.  If I want something so much, then learning about it is a joy, even when it takes effort. If I want something so much, I will ardently pursue and thirst after knowledge about that thing.

    If the priests preached the love of God, people would flock to the church. We were created to know, love and serve God. This is the drive in our being. Stronger than any appetite is the need to love God.

    People are thirsty for the love of God. They are hungry for His love. Their appetites crave His love. If they were given this love in church, it would be a joy to come to hear His Word, a joy to attend Mass, a joy to pray the Rosary.

    Coming from a place of love for God, I want to go to church. I want to pray. I want to be with Him. It is not a chore, it is enthusiasm to come and be with my loved one. I love Him. I want to hear His Word, it is about Him, Whom I love. I want to pray the Our Father, it is my beloved Father, to whom I pray!

    Loving God, reading His Word, attending Mass, meditating on Jesus in the Rosary, are joys because I love Him so much! ...

Song:  New Life

R.  Jesus came to give us new life. He gives us life in our souls. He gives us living water in our souls. His life is joy within our hearts. Jesus' love for us is the Good News. He has died, He is risen, we are raised to new life in Him!

    This is the life in the church: vibrant, full and alive, with the love of God. Love is not inactive, but active. Love of God is a mighty force within our souls that cannot be contained. It is emitted to all those we touch because it is powered by the hand of God.

    We were given this sharing in His life in baptism. God outpours His life to us through His Church. Our union with Him is the fire that is ablaze within our souls.

    Our journey to Him is to forever seek deeper union with Him. He gives us new life. This is life in Christ, it is available to each of us. We keep ourselves from union by being fixed improperly in the world. To live with the Lord, we must die to many things in the world.

    We are on the journey to new life. This life is deepened by our intimacy with Jesus. Our intimacy in heaven, our experiences of knowing God in heaven, depends on our union with Him on earth.

    

   

August 6, 1994 - 7:15 a.m.

We Are Truly Here

R. How many times this day, Lord, will I experience fear?

When, the Holy Spirit descended on the apostles, they were fearless in the upper room - they were no longer afraid. God is God. He is Mighty. He is forever inside of us.

He surrounds us. I am one in Him, then why be afraid?

    Think of Jesus in the agony in the garden. He saw every detail of His brutal suffering, yet in ardent love for us and doing the Father's will, He gave Himself.

    Oh, Lord, what a lesson, what lessons! Could I ever exhaust all the lessons You have so sweetly taught?

    To Your own death on the cross You were obedient to the Will of the Father. How do I try to alter what I think the Father's will is for me to fit my needs? One act of doing Your will pleases You far more than days of mortification, yet my precious Father, doing Your will is what gives mepeace and keeps me happiest. You showed us the way with Your whole life how to conform to the Father's will - and this compliance is the way for my own best interest, yet I go to some other road of my own making and try it out! ...

R.  Do I wonder how He had the courage? He had to suffer so. His Father loved Him. My Father loves me. Why am I afraid to focus on the love of my beloved Father? He created me. He loves His creation. He gave His only Son for me. I have this love poured out to me from my loving Father.

     He is God. He lives inside of me. He is God. Where Jesus is, so is my beautiful Father.

     This is God's world. I am full of fear. (This church was filled with saints and angels and God!) I have such limited vision. See with the eyes of God. Pray to the Spirit. Where I was blind, I now see.

     You don't cause someone else's lack of peace, you cause your own lack of peace. 

  

   

August 10, 1994 - After Mass, Fr. Smith’s Chapel

And Their Eyes Peered Into One Another's Eyes

R. See Mary as she beholds the baby in her arms. She looks at Him so tenderly. His sweet baby eyes look up at the eyes of His loving Mother. Such tenderness between Mother and Son, such oneness to hold her infant Son so lovingly in her arms. Oh, do we ever know the tenderness between a baby and his loving mother?

A life of close union between this Mother and this Son, a life of her looking into His loving eyes. Such silent, but strong and loving communication! Such a strong bond-Their eyes meeting-from one soul to the other soul.

Song: See the Eyes That Look at Mary (Verse l)…

Deep, deep communication, a deep bond, indescribable in words, a touching of the souls! And the peering look between Son and Mother on the road to the crucifixion. What a peering look, what communication between this Son and Mother. Seeing the other suffer was as agonizing as each's very own suffering-suffering and oneness between a Son and His Mother. A peering look, deep into the very souls. Such an intimacy between Them!

How can one describe in words this oneness, this union between the Son and His Mother? The perfect love between Him and her. Total giving of each person in such love to the other. To see the suffering of the other was as agonizing as-if not more than-each's own suffering.

How His passion and crucifixion were intensified by the sufferings of His dear Mother! How her sufferings were such a sharing in our redemption, the swords that pierced her heart! The eyes of Mary that invisibly bled as she watched such brutality to the beloved Baby she once carried in her womb and held in her arms!

Song: Little Baby Hands and Feet…

Mary held the Child Jesus when He was a baby; she watched Him and cared for Him as a little boy; she was so attentive to the needs of her little Son. Will we ever know this connectedness between Their loving Hearts? Do we know this oneness? The peering eyes on the way to Calvary tell the story. They tell the story of this oneness. They tell the story of her watching this horrid event of her beautiful baby Son and His horrible passion and death.

Her eyes! Oh, Mary, help me to see the love of Jesus through your eyes! You watched Him as a baby, you watched Him as a child. You watched Him grow into the beautiful Man He became and you, Mary, watched Him all through this bitter passion and death. Your eyes saw the love that He gave for us. Now you come, Mary. You appear to tell us to go to this Son. You knew more than anyone His love to suffer so for us. You come and appear with blood in your eyes and tears running down your cheeks. You show me your sorrowful face, your young face, your old face, your joyful face. This was the face Jesus peered at as He walked His walk to Calvary. This was the face that appears now to tell us the story of His love this very day. I see your parade of faces, Mary, old and young, sorrowful and joyful. I see these faces that Jesus beheld. Your face tells the story of His love for us. ...

R. Note: I smelled roses very strongly throughout this message.

Song: See the Eyes That Look at Mary (Verse 2)…

This is the Son of the Father, the Son of God, born of Mary through the Holy Spirit, and He lives this day in your hearts. Share His love for you. Go to Him through Mary's heart. She who is so closely united to Jesus! Their Hearts are so close to one another! As their eyes were joined in such oneness, Their Hearts are joined in such intimacy. Go to Jesus' Heart through His beloved Mother, through her who bore Him in her womb, her who watched Him give Himself for love of you.

    

   

August 11, 1994 - Before Mass

He Loves Us, No Strings Attached

(Sitting before Mary’s statue)

R. Jesus, You died for each and every one of us. You love us so much. Your love is shown by Your total giving of Yourself, Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity. You gave Your very Blood in Your veins and the flesh of Your very Body. Beaten, bruised, bloodied, for such ardent, burning, undying love for us!

To love us without any strings - just love us! I do not even know how to love someone without any strings. You love us. We constantly offend You and neglect You and sin against You. In Your love for us You paid the price for our offenses!

How many times, over and over again, You pour out Your love to us, especially in the Blessed Sacrament, and You are ignored, forgotten, and You watch us offend our brothers with such hatred.

You, O Savior, showed us the way. You loved those who tore the flesh on Your body. You loved those who spit on You. You loved those who drove nails in Your hands and feet. You loved those who crowned Your precious head with thorns. You, O my precious loving Jesus, loved and love each one of us despite all our sins, to the point of death on the cross. You showed us the way. When they persecuted You and hollered every slander against You, You still loved them.

Oh Jesus, how hard this is to follow Your way. Give me the grace to love as You want me to love all those who persecute me. I, of myself, cannot be like You. Let me realize the love of my Father more fully. Fill me with knowledge of love of God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit so I can more fully act as You want me to.

Realizing Your immense love fills me with such fullness. When the world is cold and mean, the fire of the love of God that burns in my heart keeps me focused on You.

Oh Spirit, open up my heart to the ways of God. I am weak and need Your direction. Jesus’ ways are so loving: Total surrender of His whole self in love for us to the point of bitter persecution and death on the cross.

   

    

August 13, 1994 - 10:00 p.m.

Will You Pray for Me?

 R. There are so many souls to pray for: souls who are sinning and need to turn to Jesus and Mary, souls in purgatory that are suffering that have no one to pray for them, for innocent children who are victimized and do not know Jesus and Mary and their love, for all those who do not hear about Jesus and His love or close their hearts and do not hear. These are only a few people that I need to pray for. I must offer up my all, all my joys and sufferings in union with the Mass all over the world for all the intentions of Mary and Jesus' Hearts. What a loss, to not offer up my everything in union with the Mass in the morning offering, to make my living a sacrifice (offering) for the intentions of Mary and Jesus in union with the Mass.

    So many people come to me and ask me to pray for them.

If I offer my whole day up with the Mass going on all over the world, all day - what a prayer! I love Jesus so much, He is beautiful. We are so favored to know of His love for us! This is the greatest gift there is, to know Jesus, know God and know Jesus and Mary love us! Mary is our loving Mother, always at our side. We are grateful heirs to His Kingdom if we know, love and serve Him and keep His commandments. I love You, Jesus, You are the greatest!

   

    

August 14, 1994 - After Mass, 12:30

Their Hearts Merged As One

R.  While praying to the Holy Spirit, I saw a red ball of fire or tongue of fire, then saw a heart, sort of a shadow, it was on a yellow background. I then saw a heart with flowers on the top, same setting, then a plain heart. I then saw a heart made up of white flowers, then the two hearts merged into one.

    I felt so close to Jesus after communion. I had a vision of God. I saw our Blessed Mother holding me as a child. (feeling very close to her.) She put me in Christ's Heart. I saw the Father above, the Holy Spirit to the side.

Note:  I saw the Holy Spirit at the tabernacle once at St. Philip's while praying after Mass last summer. I saw a little white dove. It was immensely lighted and looked like the same material as the Host that came out from behind the real Host when Fr. Carter raised the Host. It was a lighted Host that came from behind and moved into a position above the Host.

    I love You so much, my God. I don't want to leave this place, such warmth in my chest, flutter in the middle of my chest. I love You Jesus.

August 16, 1994

The Invisible Wounds

R. The invisible wounds of Mary: Mary stood by His cross, she had watched what her Son had suffered. She watched this horrible sequence of events that led to this final hour. She did not bleed, she did not have a mark on her body, only the teared, red ridges from her deepened crying. She stood, held up by the arms of her beloved John. This was her precious Son, her Baby at birth, her Baby at His death.

Invisible wounds: The pains of the heart, the sufferings of the mind, the sights seen with her loving, motherly eyes, the knowledge of His love for all!

She appears to me with a face, reflecting the ridges from her deep crying, so sorrowful no words could describe. What can we say for the sorrow of this face? I cannot describe it. It looked as if it was ready to crack! This face tells the story of His love for us.

Her heart was so torn inside that to know her suffering is to tear at my heart.

The invisible scars: To watch Him stripped and beaten and to silently stand by and cry. She appears to tell us of her invisible scars. She appears and shows me her faces, young and old, sorrowful and joyful. She appears to tell us the story of His love for us. Do we listen, do we see?

She saw His Blood all over. I remember seeing one of my children bleed and he had to get stitches -- it was such a horrible sight. He kept bleeding and bleeding. Blood comes from deep inside, it is scary because we have no control over it. If you bleed enough, you die. My child was bleeding, it was very upsetting! Mary watched Jesus bleed and bleed. It was as though He could not have had all the Blood He had. He stood in a puddle of Blood when He was scourged...

...it ran from His face and from His mouth -- from the blows to His head. It was so awful to watch my child bleed, but to watch others beat Him and make Him bleed more and make His body raw! There is such a bond between a mother and her children, such wanting to protect and help them. Mary helplessly watched this horrible massacre of her Son, knowing He did it for love of us. She could not help Jesus. She was not allowed, only to watch more and more bleeding! ...

R. I just wanted to crawl up in a ball and feel her pain. This is how I have felt before the last letter August 10, coming home from church in the car. Such intense sufferings realizing the pain! The sufferings started when the priest raised up the Blood -- this is what Jesus did, He shed His very own Blood, the Blood in His veins. He gives it to us now so that we may have His life.

I have experienced on many occasions Jesus' and Mary's sufferings. She suffered so watching Him being taken down from the cross. I experienced such emotion seeing Mary hold the Baby Jesus in her arms and seeing her hold His lifeless body under the cross. I experienced such emotions seeing Jesus nailed to the cross and during the Sorrowful Mysteries and Stations led by Father Smith. I feel immense oneness with the sorrow and experience the sorrow.

The depth of her suffering is inexpressible in words. Mary may have cried, but there is not a way that a human being could relieve this immense sorrow. She endured the sufferings by Christ's side. She did not have His wounds, her heart was pierced with a sword.   

Luke 2:34-35

Simeon blessed them and said to Mary his mother, 'Look, he is destined for the fall and for the rise of many in Israel, destined to be a sign that is opposed -- and a sword will pierce your soul too -- so that the secret thoughts of many will be laid bare.  

R. This is the Blood Mary watched Him shed. She watched Him from under the cross. We stand with her and give ourselves with Him to the Father.

Oh, Father, I love You so much, You gave Your only Son for love of us! Please accept my sacrifice with His as my love for You!

It just becomes evident to me -- how He truly gave His flesh and Blood for us! It is so clear to me, like a vision, this is truly His Blood given up for us! I feel this so intensely and He keeps giving me more and more to better realize His Sacrifice.

Mary is so involved with us: We stand with Mary, we suffer with Mary, we give ourselves in an act of love to our heavenly Father. What an offering, to stand under His cross and give ourselves with the Body and Blood of Christ, in union with Mary and everyone under the cross, with the Church! We offer ourselves up with Christ to the Father!

I feel so connected to Jesus and Mary and God through the Passion. It is there I see Their oneness. I see her role as His Mother and my Mother. I see Their immense love for us to undergo such suffering for love of us. ...

R. I must understand Their relationship: Baby to young life, joys and suffering. She was a mother in the fullest sense of the word, such a motherly heart -- her love for Jesus is the dearest motherly love! In order to understand the relationship between Mary and Jesus, I must not just look at the individual events of the Passion and her sorrow, but see Their lives together from the Annunciation to the Ascension. It is the relationship, the bond, the joys, the sufferings They both shared during the Passion.

This is truly where Their Hearts are united -- in the meeting of the eyes. The more I meditate on this, the more I am linked with Their immense love for us. The two Hearts -- They are so closely united! The rosary is this journey from the Angel Gabriel to the Ascension. Her suffering and His suffering during the Passion link me so closely to Them. This intensity is forever growing as They give me bits and pieces of this union between Them.

August 16, 1994

Focus On This Love. Silence Satan.

R. He loves us unconditionally. From Him I do not have to hide. He loves us as we are. He calls us to be as good as we can. He calls us to be humble. He calls us to love.

He calls us to be of the heart, not to be proud, to be kind and loving. He calls us to put on Christ, to constantly die to self. I am a human being. I am growing; I am created in His image, I am learning His ways, I am imperfect.

Oh, Lord, show me Your ways. Let me realize Your love. Let me know You more so I can love more. Help me to focus on You and Your love, to silence Satan who constantly points to my weakness and tells me such things that make me unaware of Your tremendous love for me. ...

Jiffy Sheet: 108 day Novena beginning November 3, 2006 to February 18, 2007

You will need:          1. This sheet
                                2. Holy Spirit Novena Book
                                3. Shepherds of Christ Prayer Manual

I. Begin at 6:20 p.m. by singing, "Come Holy Ghost" (verse 1).

1. Say, "I want to make a Spiritual Communion." 

2. "I give my heart to Jesus and Mary with you in love." (This will unite us in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary.) 

3. Cast out Satan: "We cast Satan into the fires of hell, far from us, our families, our Movement, Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center, the Church and the world in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit."

Holy Spirit Novena and Rosary Novena Chart

Day:	1	2	3	4	5	6	7	8	9
Period I	Nov 3 - J	4 - L	5 - S	6 - G	7 - J	8 - L	9 - S	10 - G	11 - J
II	12 - L	13 - S	14 - G	15- J	16 - L	17 - S	18 - G	19 - J	20 - L
Period I	21 - S	22 - G	23 - J	24 - L	25 - S	26 - G	27 - J	28 - L	29 - S
II	30 - G	Dec 1 - J	2 - L	3- S	4 - G	5 - J	6- L	7 - S	8 - G
Period I	9 - J	10 - L	11 - S	12 - G	13 - J	14 - L	15 - S	16 - G	17 - J
II	18 - L	19 - S	20 - G	21 - J	22 - L	23 - S	24 - G	25 - J	26 - L
Period I	27 - S	28 - G	29 - J	30 - L	31 - S	Jan 1 - G	2 - J	3 - L	4 - S
II	5 - G	6 - J	7 - L	8 - S	9 - G	10- J	11 - L	12 - S	13 - G
Period I	14 - J	15 - L	16 - S	17 - G	18 - J	19 - L	20 - S	21 - G	22 - J
II	23 - L	24 - S	25 - G	26 - J	27 - L	28 - S	29 - G	30 - J	31 - L
Period I	Feb 1 - S	2 - G	3 - J	4 - L	5 - S	6 - G	7 - J	8 - L	9 - S
II	10 - G	11 - J	12 - L	13 - S	14 - G	15 - J	16 - L	17 - S	18- G

4. Pray the Holy Spirit Novena using the Holy Spirit Novena Booklet.
5. After the novena, read the appropriate meditation. For example: period 1, day 1; period 1, day 2; etc. This will continue until further indicated.
   • It is enormously important that you feel as a body praying together, asking for the special coming of the Holy Spirit.
6. After the meditation say: "We consecrate the Movement, Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center, the Church and the world to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and to the Immaculate Heart of Mary."
7. Ask that the Blood of Jesus be spread on the Movement, Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center, the Church and the world.
8. Begin the 6:30 p.m. prayer service as usual.

II. Begin the 6:30 prayer service

1. Begin praying:  Dear Father in the name of Your Son Jesus, in the Holy Spirit, through the powerful intercession of the Virgin Mary, with all the angels and the saints and the souls in purgatory, we join in one mind and one heart and ask the Holy Spirit to come to all the world in a special way, especially to our priests. We pray all prayers for the priests and the renewal of the Church and the world and for the Shepherds of Christ intentions. By the precious Body and Blood of Jesus we cast out Satan far from this place, our families, the Shepherds of Christ Movement, Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center, the Church and the world. We ask the Blood of Jesus be spread on us, the Shepherds of Christ Movement, Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center, the Church and the world. We beg for grace and mercy for the world and wish to make reparation to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. We give our hearts to Jesus and Mary with all gathered here in love. We wish to be forgiven for offending one another. We love You God, help us.
2. Sing A Song from Jesus.   Refrain:  "I come to you with greatest love, I am your loving Savior.  I am your God, I died for you, I come to you this day."
3. Then begin the prayers of the Good Shepherd (Shepherds of Christ Prayer Manual).
4. Sing The Rosary song   Refrain:  "Oh the rosary, the rosary is the love of Their two Hearts,   Oh the rosary, the rosary is the love of Their two Hearts."
         1) Ave Maria, Ave Maria.
         2) Jesus we love You, Mary we love you.
         3) This is her peace plan, Children must pray it.
         4) We turn to Mary, She is the Queen of Peace.
         5) Oh Sacred Heart Divine, Oh Heart of Mary pure, Ave Maria, We love to pray it!
5. Begin the rosary. Please use the Rosary Books and the Rosary Aves.  The important thing is to pray the prayers and the rosary at 6:30 p.m., if possible. (Rosary mysteries need to be according to the Rosary Novena.)
6. Read the Ten Commandments.
     
   1.   I, the Lord, am your God. You shall not have other gods besides me.
   2.   You shall not take the name of the Lord, your God, in vain.
   3.   Remember to keep holy the Sabbath day.
   4.   Honor your father and your mother.
   5.   You shall not kill.
   6.   You shall not commit adultery.
   7.   You shall not steal.
   8.   You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.
   9.   You shall not covet your neighbor's wife.
   10.   You shall not covet anything that belongs to your neighbor.
         
7. Pray A Prayer of Thanksgiving then read the Daily Message for the day.

 

 

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