From Blue Book 8

                The Agony in the Garden

1. Jesus: Be alone with Me. Focus totally on My presence with you. I am Jesus. Put aside all of the thoughts that are in your mind that are applying to the distractions of this world and focus totally on the events of My passion. My dear ones, My dear ones, feel the presence of the Almighty God within your heart as you feel when you receive Me in the Holy Eucharist. Feel this presence so alive within you. It is in praying and realizing My presence with you at every second that you will be closer and closer to Me all through your day. Feel this presence. I am Jesus. I long to be so close to you.

2. R. I see before me Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane, and I picture myself there with Him in the quiet night. Jesus the Almighty God, Jesus who knew, in His Divine knowing, all things all through His life from infancy until this time, in His Divine knowing, an awareness of the sufferings to come. Even as a helpless baby, a baby that could not talk, in His Divine knowing He knew all things for He was truly God.

3. R. In His Divine knowing, Jesus could see before Him all of the sins of every man for all time. He could see all things. How His Heart was in such anguish to know all of the indifference and neglect, the cruelty of the souls that He loved so dearly.

4. R. How much pain and anguish a human heart can hold to know the sufferings of the loss of a loved one, to know the hurt of someone very dear, to be rejected and treated coldly? Think of your heart and the deepest sufferings you have had in your heart when you loved someone so dearly and were rejected. Jesus, the Almighty God, loved each soul to His death. This is the love that He came to this earth and would give His flesh and His blood for each precious soul and in the garden He saw before Him all the souls that would turn their backs on Him and live their lives without a thought of God.

5. R. Jesus took flesh, Jesus came to this earth and Jesus remains with us this day. He is as present as the day He walked on this earth in His Divinity and humanity in the Holy Eucharist. He is alive and present. He no longer walks this earth, but He is truly present in the Blessed Sacrament. Out of greatest love He remains waiting and longing and thirsting for each one of us to come and to be with Him. I hear His words, His words of love constantly in the letters that I have written. I hear these words of love over and over and over again. In one letter how many times He professes His love and it is as if I am numb and do not hear, for when I truly read with my whole heart and realize that Jesus is saying this to me, I cry. This is the love that Jesus has for each one of us, that He came to this earth born a helpless little baby in the town of Bethlehem, Jesus gave His flesh and His blood so that we might have life and Jesus remains with us this day in the Holy Eucharist. Jesus Christ is waiting and longing and thirsting for us to come and to tell Him how much we love Him.

6. R. The words I hear, over and over, of His love is constant lamenting of love and how He wants our love in return, how He wants us to come to Him with hearts that are filled and on fire for love of Him. That our soul sings with the love of God, that as we read the Scriptures and as we pray our prayers, we pray so deeply in each prayer for we are praying to the God that we love. He wants us to love Him with our whole heart, our whole soul, and our whole being.

7. R. And how personal He is with each one of us that the very hairs of our head are numbered, that as we drive about that He moves a truck from our path, that there are so many obstacles that He moves in our day and we do not realize the miracles that are occurring in our lives all through the day, for minute by minute, second by second as we breathe and as our heart beats, Jesus our beloved is there with His attentive care watching and guarding us and living in us.

8. R. Jesus when He was in the garden saw the murder of all the babies in this world this day. The massacre of the minds of children from the television and from other sources. Jesus saw all the sins for all time and in His Divine knowing, He knew all things. How His Heart was in such anguish, for He is love.

9. R. And He looked for someone to comfort Him and His Apostles slept and He said to them, "Can you not watch one hour with Me?" and He went back to pray and His anguish was so great that His sweat became as great drops of blood upon the ground. Think of that, to be in such anguish as to sweat blood, and He calls out from the tabernacle. I hear the lamenting constantly for His beloved souls, the souls that He came and gave His life for. He waits and waits in the tabernacle for His beloved souls to come and to spend one hour with Him. He said in a letter once, I give to you twenty-four hours a day. Can you not come and spend one hour with Me?

10. Jesus: I wait by the door of your heart. My dear ones, I wait by the door of your heart. I want to come and to be so close to each one of you. I guard you, each second of your life you are watched. You go through your life and you think that you are alone and I am watching you, constantly with you. My dear ones, why do you fear when I am so close to you?

Song between decades: I come to you with greatest love . . .

 

The Scourging at the Pillar

1. Jesus: Will you stand by Me, My dear ones? Will you stand close by the pillar? Do you hear the blows? Do you see as they beat My body? My dear ones, it is in meditating on My passion that you will know more and more the immensity of My love for you.

2. R. I come by You O beloved Jesus, and I stand by Your pillar, I stand close and I am sick to my stomach as I see the hatred and the anger of the men that beat You, and I see Your blood as it flies into the air. I am sick, Jesus, to see Your flesh as it is torn before my eyes and to watch the hatred and the anger in the eyes of the men that beat You and their cursing and their fowl talk and I see You my beloved Jesus, You are so beautiful. I see Your hair. I see Your face. I see bruises on Your face from where they hit Your face and wounds on Your arms. Every part of Your body has been beaten my dear Jesus. My beloved, I scarce can stand and watch at what they have done to You. My Jesus, I know a little of Your love. As I stand and watch how can I not realize the immensity that You, Jesus Christ the Son of God came to this earth and stood there bound to the pillar...God...bound. Who could bind God? They bound You Jesus at the pillar and You could have at any moment stopped it all. You came and shed Your blood for me that I might live and be with You forever in heaven. My Jesus I see You, You are so beautiful. You have a human body like our body and it was beaten and scourged and Your flesh was torn and You with-stood this for my sins.

3. R. I realize sometimes the immensity, the goodness, of the Almighty God. To tears, I realize how God is so good that He came to this earth and that He gave Himself for love of us and that He gives Himself to each one of us in the Eucharist, that God, the Almighty God, comes within us, comes inside of me. God, with His power and His might, comes in His Divinity and humanity as present as the day He was at the pillar and comes inside of me in the Eucharist.

4. R. So much to know about You my beloved Jesus, the more I come to You in silence before the tabernacle the more I come to You in silence where ever I am, if its in the car, if its any place, there is a time that there is a meeting of Our Hearts and You pour out to me Your wisdom to understand more about You, My Divine God. My beloved Jesus, who am I that through Baptism You allow me to share in Your Divine life, that You elevate our knowing and loving capacity in the Sacrament of Baptism. My beloved Jesus I see You, I see Your body so beautiful and so marred as they beat You at the pillar, and I thank You for coming to this earth and for giving Yourself for love of me and we are filled more and more with grace.

5. R. The sins of the flesh, we look to this world this day and we see all the sins and we know as we stand by Jesus at the pillar, all of the strokes that He suffered for all of the sins of this world and He ask us to help make reparation to His Most Sacred Heart, to come and spend time with Him alone, alone in the night, alone in front of the tabernacle, time alone with Him, to be close to Him, to share with Him our life for He longs and wants to be loved by us.

Jesus: I want hearts that are on fire for love of Me. Come to Me My beloved ones, come close. Drop all the walls around your heart and pray for grace to let go, to trust, to come and experience the love that I have to give you. Let go of your hurts and your hatred and your anger, for a heart that is filled with anger can not unite with My Heart of love. You trade this anger, you trade your bitterness and your heart will be filled with My love. To unite with My Heart, your hearts must be pure. I call you to holiness My dear ones. I call you to a life that is vibrant with the life of the Almighty God alive within you. I want to give you more and more grace. You hold yourself at such a distance. You put up walls that block Our union and I am waiting with such union with you. My dear ones, will you come and stand by the pillar? Will you see the blood as it flies in the air? Will you see My body that is marred and covered with wounds? These wounds are nothing compared to the wounds within My body, the hurt that I suffered to My Most Sacred Heart for the love that I have for each precious soul.

6. Jesus: I am rejected, forgotten, ignored, treated with indifference and hatred by this world of today, the world that is Godless. Would you come to Me and make reparation to My Heart for all the souls that are so cold, that have turned their backs and walked away?

7. R. Think of the network of pain within the body of Jesus, the nerves shooting pain from all of the wounds, the wounds in His side, and think of the Heart surrounded with a crown of thorns for the indifference, neglect, and sacrileges committed against Jesus' Heart, committed against Him in the sacrament of His greatest love, the Blessed Sacrament. The endless hours that He waits in the tabernacles of this world, God, if we truly realize that God is really present in the tabernacle how could we not come if we really realize? If you think that a movie star that would be on a street corner, we would be out there to see, to be close. We go and pack the concert houses and the Almighty God waits in the tabernacle many times alone, waiting and longing and He is God. He outpours His life, His abundant life to each one of us when we come to the Eucharist and sit in front of the tabernacle. We are filled more and more with His life in us. Saturate our being. Fill our soul. We want to share more and more in His life in us. We want to be so holy at Mass. Love every word of the Scriptures, it lives more and more in us. The great gift that He gives to us is this sharing in His life. We can never exhaust the infinity of His love, for to know Him is to know that there is always more deeper and deeper, deeper love, more love. To know Him a little is to want so much more.

8. R. Beaten, bloodied, and bruised, weakened that He scarce could walk. Jesus marks this earth with His bloody footprints as He comes from the pillar.

9. R. Dear Jesus mark our hearts with Your Divine love. Penetrate deeply our souls with Your presence at every moment that we realize this presence that we feel after communion, that we can feel this all through our day as we focus more and more on Your presence with us, for You are with us and long to be ever closer to us. If we surrender and let go and let down the walls, the walls that divide us from You, how can we not trust Jesus, for He stood at the pillar and was beaten for love of us?

10. Jesus: My dear ones, I will never forget you. I have carved you on the palm of My hand. I wait for you. I long for you. I am Jesus. I am present and with you in a special way this evening in this room My dear ones, giving to you graces to draw you closer to My Heart and My burning love for you. Let go and focus totally on the words that I am speaking to you in these messages. Let go and listen to My words of love, each word that I speak to you My dear ones. I am Jesus Christ, and I died for love of you.

Song between decades: I come to you with greatest love . . .

  

The Crowning of Thorns

1. R. I see a body, my Jesus, a body, a human body and I see You with Your brown hair and Your beautiful eyes, as I did see another person that is next to me and feel their presence, and I see this body, the body of a man that sits on the mock throne and receives a crown of thorns pounded into Your most precious head, can You visualize clearly, Jesus, as I am close to this throne, and I see a man as the thorns are pounded into Your head and the blood rolls down the sides of Your face? Do I see this clearly Jesus? For the clearer I see more and more of Your passion, the more inside of myself I cry, for I realize the immensity of Your great love for me for You came to this earth and You took on a human body, and You truly were crowned with a crown of thorns and to this crown of thorns they pounded Your head and the blood came from Your mouth from the blows to the head, and I see before me Jesus, a man that did not fight back, a man that was the Almighty God that sat and took this treatment and accepted this because You knew it was the Father's will. I see myself next to Jesus. I see so much, I see how Your eyes are still loving, not hard and angry, eyes that are still filled with love for You loved those who beat Your body and crowned You with thorns and You came to show us this way, that when they persecute us and hate us and looking at You as they beat Your body and pounded the thorns into Your head, You still loved those men.

2. Jesus: My dear ones I call you to love. I came to show you the way. My dear ones, satan is pressing down so hard in your minds, constant thoughts of your brothers and how they wronged you. My dear ones, when thoughts of division come into your mind, you must release those thoughts and focus on My love. Satan is running rampart in this world this day and working in the minds of many men. I am Jesus, My beloved. I am with you second by second, minute by minute. I am there in your heart. Feel this presence of the Almighty God and send the thoughts that are thoughts of division and hatred away. Let go. Let go of any thoughts that are destructive and cause division with members of your family and with your friends. Satan aims to trip you up. You must discipline your mind and come to My Heart.

3. Jesus: Do you hear this word love, My dear ones...love? Look as they crown Me with thorns. This is the love that I have for you. They spit on My face and mocked Me and I sat and did not answer. I suffered My dear ones so much persecution as you too are suffering in this world today, for this world has turned Godless and turned their backs on God. You are the lights that I am sending into the darkened world and it is only with My love alive in your heart that the light will shine on the darkened souls.

4. R. The King of Kings, the Almighty God, and they wove for Him a crown of sharp, piercing thorns that they pounded into His skull.

5. Jesus: You are being pressed on with much mental torment that I am allowing to strengthen you, My dear ones, you must pray, you must spend time alone with Me. It is in these moments that you spend alone with Me that you will be refueled and you will be strong against the dark night.

6. R. What did You think Jesus as You sat there and they crowned You with thorns and they spit on You? What were Your thoughts Jesus? And Jesus said to me in church," I thought of you, My beloved and how you would be sitting in this church this day and telling Me how you love Me and the sweetness of your love comforted the pain of My sufferings."

7. Song: Crown Him With Many Crowns

8. Jesus: Go within your hearts and find a spot within your heart. Be alone with Me and so close to Me and know at every moment that you can go and find refuge in My Heart. I dwell in your graced baptized soul. I am present. You are not alone. Find comfort of going within and blocking out the distractions that hurt you and come to a place of refuge within My Heart. There is warmth and joy in this place within. My dear ones, I am the Almighty God. I dwell in your graced baptized soul. The Father, Son, and Holy Spirit dwell within you in such a special way when you are in the state of grace. If the earth rocks and the sun ceases to shine, you will find refuge from the cold night in My most Sacred Heart. Minute by minute, second by second I am with you.

9. Song: Only This I Want

10. R. Release me O Jesus, from those things that hold me bound, and help me to be free to let go and experience Your presence deep within me, every moment to feel the presence of the Almighty God within me and to have this peace, this quiet peace although there may be suffering and there may be discomfort but to know Your presence in me that I can go to You, and it is in this suffering that I become closer and closer to You.

Song between decades: I come to you with greatest love . . .

 

The Carrying of the Cross

1. R. Jesus walked but could hardly move with the cross on His back. Think of Jesus bent over with the heavy weight of the cross on His back and His crown of thorns on His head and the blood trickling down His face, some dried on, some fresh as He exerts Himself to move with the weight of the wood on His back, and you are by His side as He moves so slowly dragging the cross, hearing the thumping of the cross as He moves so slow but is so heavy, and by the side of Jesus, you look into His eyes and He looks into your eyes, and you make contact with the Almighty God who came to this earth and is suffering for us. He wants us to go to heaven. Look into His eyes. What do you see?

2. R. We look into His eyes as He falls under the weight of the cross. Look into His eyes with the cross on His back and His chin on the ground. This is the Almighty God. This is love.

3. Jesus: My dear ones, I would have suffered more for love of you. My greatest agonies were not the agonies that you see on the outside of My body, they were the agonies within, a network of pain shooting through the interior of My body and My Heart welled over with such pain, pain that you can not understand, to love as only I can love and to be rejected and treated so coldly by those that I love.

4. R.  And Jesus is in such a weakened condition. His arms are battered and the pain shooting up His arms, His legs weak, He barely can move and the cross is pressing down on Him, and it is such an exertion to move each foot as He walks, and we carry these little crosses and loads on our back, crosses that lead to greater life with Him and we complain and argue and fight. Look into the eyes of Jesus, humped over with the cross on His back. This is a cross to carry. Can we not carry the little crosses that He gives to us and realize that in each cross there is a resurrection and that it is in this cross that we grow more and more in our life with Him?

5. R. And I see the peering eyes of Jesus and Mary meet. From the time that Mary was told by Simeon that Jesus would suffer, she was so aware of the sufferings to come. Always before her eyes, she knew what would happen, and Jesus in His Divine knowing, knew of the sufferings to come, and the secret held in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, probably unspoken, both knowing of the sufferings to come, both watching the other for thirty-three years, and knowing in Their Hearts what sufferings were about to come. As Their eyes met on the way to Calvary, in that meeting, Jesus and Mary saw the summation of Their lives, Mary knew when Jesus was inside of her. Mary watched Him as a child and stood by Him all through His life. Mary knew since the time of the prophesy of Simeon that this day would come when there would be such sufferings. Mary's eyes met the eyes of her beloved Son and as she looks into His eyes she saw His face drawn, covered with blood, crowned with thorns. Jesus' back humped over with the cross on His back. Mary saw the same child that she once carried in her womb. Jesus looked into her eyes. He saw the Mother that cared for Him. Jesus saw the Mother He loved. Jesus saw her suffering in that meeting of the eyes, the intensity of the love between Them but the bitter sorrow of seeing the other suffer. We see this intimacy between Jesus and Mary, all through the rosary. We see this intimacy in Their lives, from birth as she carried Him in her womb, the two, the two Hearts beating in one body. We see the intimacy of a mother holding her child. Jesus comes to this earth in the womb of Mary, held in the arms of Mary, always with Mary, in each mystery of the rosary. The meeting of the eyes is climactic, for we see a summation of thirty-three years of two Hearts beating deeply in love with one another and experiencing this.

6. R. We can not even imagine a minute amount of the sufferings within the heart of the Virgin Mary. To cry or to scream, how could she express the hurt within her, to know and love her Son as she did and then to go through this. Mary comes to tell us of His love. Mary asks us to see through her eyes, her beloved Son. Look into His eyes as she looked into His eyes and see His suffering face, for this is truly the love that Jesus has for us. Jesus carried His cross and gave His life for us.

7. R. Jesus, I want to live likened to You, to be following You and to model my life after Mother. I carry the little crosses that You allow me to carry, to realize the immense love that You have for me. Thank You for all the great gifts that You give us even in our suffering, to realize that in suffering we can have greater life in You. We can grow in closeness to You, help me to have before my eyes, Your eyes, as I look into them as Mary looked into Your eyes, on the way to Calvary and see Your eyes under the crown of thorns. See the perspiration and blood as it rolls down Your face, and see in those eyes the gentleness and love of the Almighty God. In all my suffering and trials to know that these eyes are the eyes that are looking at me at this moment and guarding my every step, my every breath, my every heartbeat and loving me with the same love as the day You carried Your cross on Your back.

8. Song: See the Eyes That Look at Mary

R. See through the eyes of Mary the love of her beloved Son. Go to her heart. Find refuge in the heart of the Virgin Mary. As we rest and dwell in her heart and she dwells in the Heart of her Son, in such depth to His Heart, for He came into this world in the womb of Mary. Mary held Jesus in her arms and as He died on the cross, Mary stood beneath the cross so connected to her beloved Son, and Mary held His lifeless body in her arms under the cross.

It is through Mary's heart we have this intimacy with Jesus. If I see Jesus carrying His cross, I see suffering, but if I see Jesus carrying His cross and see Him with His Mother, looking into her eyes, I feel such depth and warmth in my heart. If I see Him hanging on the cross by Himself, I see His suffering, but if I see His Mother under the cross, there is such dimension to that picture, when Mary was with Jesus. When we meditate on the rosary, let us see the connection in the mysteries between the Hearts of Jesus and Mary and every picture that we picture let us see Mary there. We can see Mary and Jesus in so many mysteries of the rosary together.

9. R. And Veronica wiped the face of Jesus and on her cloth was the imprint of His beautiful face, may that imprint be printed deeply in our minds constantly before us, that every moment that we breathe, we have the imprint of the loving face of Jesus and His loving eyes looking at us as He looked at His Mother under the cross on the way to Calvary.

 

April 5, 2001

 

10. Hail Mary

Song between decades: See the Eyes that Look at Mary

 

The Crucifixion

1. R. Think of the pain at it was shooting up the arms of Jesus. Think of this, all of the sufferings that He went through to His most precious arms, the wounds, the gashes, the strains of His arms from carrying the cross and being forced to carry the cross. Jesus could not take a rest. He was jabbed and poked and forced. Think of your arm when you are strained and you can't hardly do it any longer. He did not have a choice. He was forced to continue and all the pains in His arms that He had experienced to the nerves inside and then the blow to the palm of the hand, a pounding in of the nail that severed the nerves in His hand. As they crowned His head with thorns, they crowned each arm with a gigantic nail that went through His entire hand.

Song: See the Eyes that Look at Mary

2. R. Focus on the human body of Jesus with all of these wounds and gashes and the nails being pounded into His hand, and His Mother stood beneath the cross and watched this slaughter of the same baby that she once carried in her womb, of the little hands that she washed and cared for. What of the heart of Mary, to watch this slaughter of her beloved child.

3. R. And I hear the cries of Mary from under the cross, her arms pleading upward as her Son hung on the cross, and I hear these cries, but in her heart the sorrow of watching her Son. Knowing from the time of Simeon that He would suffer and she held this and pondered this in her heart for thirty-three years and now the culmination of carrying this prophesy. Her Son Jesus hung to His death on the cross. Of the heart of Mary, besides all this suffering He gives to Mary all the children of this world, and she knows how many souls will reject the great graces that He won for us. Some souls will be condemned to hell despite His suffering because of their mortal sins. The heart of Mary, filled with such suffering, suffering to watch her Son, her child suffering, to see the children that will go to hell despite His death. This is why Mary has come for one year. We have come and prayed the rosary every day and I hear at the finding in the temple Mary call out and call out PRAY, PRAY, PRAY! Pray for my lost children. Many will go to hell for their sinfulness and their evil ways, and she begs us with our whole hearts and our whole beings to PRAY, PRAY, PRAY. What of the heart of Mary, the heart that stood under the cross and witnessed the slaughter of her own precious child, but the heart of Mary that loves each child in this world with the most personal love. Her little children, each one so special and she calls to us to come and to pray, to pray this rosary for her little children, for souls will be lost and condemned to the fires of hell for their willfulness and their sinfulness.

Mary: I am Mary your Mother and I have come for one year and pleaded to all to pray this rosary. I appear here and ask you my children, to come and pray this rosary for my little ones that will be lost. These rosaries are rosaries that I have given to you, rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, my Christmas gift to this world. I ask you my dear ones, to join in praying this rosary, for the life of myself and my Son will grow in your life and you will be a light that shines into this world as the life of the Almighty God grows within your heart. You will be a light in the darkest night.

4. Song: Ave Maria

5. R. Hail Mary full of grace, we see you as you stand beneath the cross. We see you with your heart of love, your heart most pure, and we ask you Mary, to let us dwell in your heart. We ask the Holy Spirit to form us to be more like Jesus, to be this light that shines in the darkened world and to carry the fire of God's love to the world that is hurting and in pain, for we want to be your children of light. As you appear to us here as our Lady of Light, we respond as your children and ask you Mary to transform us more and more into the image of your Son through the power of the Holy Spirit so that we will be children of light and will shine as beckon lights to a darkened world.

6. Song: Jesus, Jesus, Jesus the light of the world. Jesus, Jesus, Jesus the light of the world.
Praise Him, praise Him, Jesus the light of the world, Praise Him, praise Him, Jesus the light of the world.
Worship Him, worship Him, Jesus the light of the world. Worship Him, worship, Jesus the light of the world.
King of kings, King of kings, Jesus the light of the world. King of kings, Kings of kings, Jesus the light of the world.

R. And He came into this world a helpless baby and His throne was not a throne of gold and silver, but He came in a little cave in Bethlehem and He was laid in a manger, a manger of bare wood, and He went out of this world on a throne, but His throne was not a throne of mighty kings. It was a cross, a cross of bare wood and Jesus Christ the Son of God shed the last drop of blood and gave the last beat of His Heart to proclaim to this world the great message of His love, and He comes to us this day and He tells us how He loves us over and over and over again. Give us the grace that we need to realize more and more the immensity of Your love and help us to be filled more and more with grace. In You may we be united closer and closer to Your burning Heart, on fire for love of us, Most Sacred Heart of Jesus Christ, You are the Son of God.

7. R. And He gives to us Himself, as He gave Himself on the cross, He gives to us Himself in His Divinity and humanity in the Holy Eucharist, and He cries out, tell them Rita tell them.

Jesus: The same as I carried My cross on My back, I am present in the Eucharist and they run from My altar. Tell them to stay with Me at least 20 minutes, to stay. These are the most precious moments of your life, when you receive the Son of God within you in the Eucharist. I am Jesus and I love you. I love you. I love you, and I give Myself to you, Body, Blood, Soul, and Divinity, My cherished ones. I give you Myself and I await your love, for I long to hear the words from your lips and the cry from your heart that you love Me. I am Jesus, your beloved Savior.

8. R. And they laid Jesus in the arms of His Mother. He came into this world in her womb and carried in her arms in the temple and Simeon prophesied the sufferings to come and we see Mary holds Jesus in her arms under the cross, now His body lifeless, covered with blood, wounded, bruised, and dead, the final separation.

9. Hail Mary
10. Hail Mary

She appeared like this a year and half later.

July 6, 1995 - After Communion - 1:30pm

I Want to Love Him

R. I realized the presence of the Almighty God. Who am I? I am so unworthy that He comes to me!

    I cannot, in any way, give love to Him the way I want to. I long to love Him so much more. I want to love Him more and am unable - only through His grace am I able to give Him more love.

    I want to know more. Dear God, please give me Wisdom. Impart to me insight into the Divine Mysteries. I want to understand you more and more. Words do not exist to describe You.

Jesus: I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. I give to you abundantly, according to your needs.

R. I go to Jesus through Mary's heart. Her heart is so pure, I go through her heart. My heart is not pure.

  

 

July 7, 1995 - 6:00am

Lost in Him

R. First Friday: Such an experience of the presence of God, as if I am lost totally in Him. I am aware of His presence before the Blessed Sacrament and my overwhelming love for God. I am aware of His greatness and this great gift to be in this room with Him. I love Him so much. My tears are from deep within that I cannot express my love for Him more. I dwell in Mary's heart and she dwells in the Heart of my beloved Savior. Come to me Lord and possess my soul.

    I do not feel rest in my heart. My heart burns to unite ever so close to Him. I want to go and be in the deepest union with Him. I want to be pure and holy, to unite every closer, but I am so far from this state of holiness. But - I long and long, and long for deeper union with Him.

    I did not want to write. I just want to be in Him, be lost for hours and hours and no one around and just be lost in Him. No time, no bounds, just a complete letting go and be wrapped in His Divine embrace, immersed in the vat of His endless love. I long, I thirst, I seek, I want this completeness, this oneness with Him, to be lost in an endless abyss of His burning love.

    I feel His presence in this room in the Blessed Sacrament. I love this gift of Jesus truly present in the Blessed Sacrament. He is so near, but so far, to know a little - to want so much more!

    I smelled roses all through the Mass celebrated for the children. Also smelled the roses before the Mass. I want the time I am with others to be special, to share His love. I am to be His light to this world. I see myself in my humanness, as complaining and fretting. It is in surrendering to Him that I have deep intimacy with Him, a letting go of distractions and focusing on Him, my beloved - all powerful Lord.

    Jesus' pain did not stop. I may receive an intense pain, so penetrating and piercing, so painful, but it goes away and there is release. Jesus' pain for so many hours continued, no release. We carry these little crosses and want instant release. There was not a release for one moment.

Jesus: They gave to Me vinegar mixed with gall. I accepted this as I accepted all My sufferings. Without any relief, I continued My way.

R. My Father is within me at every moment. (I realized this and got chills inside.) The Father always loves me with the greatest love. I am His creation. I should live as a little child, to please my Father.

    I thank God for His great love! From the pierced Heart of Christ, the Church was born, - from the pierced side flowed forth blood and water - the sacramental life of the Church.

The Church is the fountain of His life.

    We are called to live the life, death and resurrection in our lives. A fountain of life, the Church, flowing on God's people. His abundant grace flows through the Mass.

    Life flows from the Father, in the Holy Spirit, through the pierced Heart of Jesus, through the heart of Mary to us. We are one body. The life flows through us. It feeds us and makes us whole.

 

 

July 7, 1995

First Friday at Noon

Before the Tabernacle

Sorrowful Mysteries

Agony in the Garden

1. Jesus: I give to you the strength to carry all the trials which you are given. Let go and release yourself totally into My hands, for I am by your side and forever within you. Let go! I am Jesus Christ, Son of God. I am Mighty! I have all the power. I have all the power. Come to Me and surrender. Place yourself totally in My hands, for this is My work and I will accomplish this work through you if you release yourself and respond always in love. For I am the Almighty God. I am all powerful, worthy of all honor, glory and praise. My beloved, you are in the Presence of the Almighty God. Bend low and kiss the earth for I am truly the same Jesus Christ that hung on the cross, the same Jesus Christ that walked the earth. I am in this room ever attentive to all your needs. Take all of the tauntings in your heart, the pressure in your mind that Satan has created and let go and focus totally on Me. Place yourself in My hands. I am Jesus, Son of the living God, with you truly present in this room. 

2. Jesus: How you turn to Me will affect the lives of so many souls this day. Harken to My call. I am Jesus and I ask you to pray to the Spirit to fill you with the fearlessness of the Apostles, to move steadfastly ahead, to operate always in love but in firmness, for I am using you to spread this message to the world. 

3. Jesus: Be with Me in the Garden. See as I kneel there alone. You are with Me at this moment and your mind is filled with many things. I am the Almighty God. I have all the power. You come My child, you are weak. You do not realize that you must surrender and give yourself totally to Me for I am working in you, through you and with you and you will accomplish many things through the grace that I am giving to you. Let go to Me. Let Me operate your life. Surrender, let go to Me. I love you.

4. Jesus: The pressing down that you feel in your mind many times when you are burdened with problems, is an agony. Release and let go. Many torments you will experience each day. These are crosses I am allowing you to suffer to come to My Heart. Release yourself. Come and dwell in the Heart of My Mother and dwell deeply in My Heart. 

5. Jesus: No problem is too big for the Might of God! 

6. Jesus: Satan aims to trip you up and create division in your families and in your lives in communities, in people who need to work together. I am Jesus. You must focus totally on Me. Come and dwell in My Heart. Come and live in My Heart. Minute by minute, second by second, know I am with you. Make Spiritual Communions all through the day. Release and respond always with love. 

7. Jesus: I saw all that I would suffer, all the persecution, the beatings, the spittings, but My deepest agonies were not the agonies that I experienced to the outside of My body, but the pain within; the pain in the Garden and continued until My death! 

8. Jesus: Do you feel pressed on? Do you know what it is to suffer; to suffer without release? A continuous suffering of immense, intense pain and the relief came in My death. 

9. Jesus: I give to you many crosses to carry and you experience this release at certain times. The intensity of My pain was so intense, so penetrating, it did not stop. It continued and continued until I gave My last breath! 

10. Jesus: Do you know pain? Do you know mental torture? My dear ones, you do not know the agonies that I suffered. Knowing all the sins of all men, the soul that I loved so dearly, each and every sin that they committed. You do not know the agony that I suffered, suffered so that My sweat became as great drops of blood on the ground. My dear ones, it is in the surrendering that you will feel freedom of letting go to God. I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God. Satan aims to divide all of the workers here at this Center. No one is listening to My messages. You must hold tight for I am forever with you. I am the Almighty God. I will tend to all My work if you stay steadfastly fixed in Me. Satan wants to take you out. He attacks the leaders to discredit the place. He has focused on discrediting leaders. He wants to discredit priests and hierarchy. You must listen. Pray the prayers I gave Fr. Carter for the priests, the Church and the world and spread these prayer chapters, now, in all languages, to the world.

Song: A Song from Jesus (song to be sung after each decade.) 

 

Jesus is Scourged at the Pillar 

1. R. And they led Him away and they had Him scourged. Who are these men that they scourged the Son of God? Jesus complied always to the Will of the Father. 

Jesus: Always in compliance to the Father's Will, always obedience My dear Ones. Live according to the Father's Will. Obey always your Superiors, follow the Church. I am Jesus. I work in the Church. I complied to the Will of the Father. They beat My body, My body covered with wounds, blood spurted in the air. My dear ones, there is peace in following the Will of the Father, always obedient. 

2. Jesus: I have given you My Church. Obey the Holy Father. My dear ones, I work in My Church. I complied to the Will of the Father all through My Passion. You too must comply to His Will. Obey the commandments, your Superiors, the rules of those over you in the Church, in good religious orders.

3. Jesus: Many are willful in their ways, and do what they want to do. I am calling you to obedience to follow the laws of the Church. I am Jesus. Spend time with Me each day. It is only in these silent moments that you will hear My voice speaking in your heart. Satan will create much division and confusion in your lives. Respond with love and obedience to the Church. 

4. Jesus: Pray the prayers I gave Fr. Carter in the prayer manual for the priests, the Church and the world. Spread these prayers.

July 31, 1994

Words of Jesus to Members of Shepherds of Christ Associates:

"My beloved priest-companion, I intend to use the priestly newsletter, Shepherds of Christ, and the movement, Shepherds of Christ Associates, in a powerful way for the renewal of My Church and the world.

"I will use the newsletter and the chapters of Shepherds of Christ Associates as a powerful instrument for spreading devotion to My Heart and My Mother's Heart.

"I am calling many to become members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. To all of them I will give great blessings. I will use them as instruments to help bring about the triumph of the Immaculate Heart and the reign of My Sacred Heart. I will give great graces to the members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. I will call them to be deeply united to My Heart and to Mary's Heart as I lead them ever closer to My Father in the Holy Spirit."

- Message from Jesus to Father Edward J. Carter, S.J., Founder, as given on July 31, 1994,
feast of Saint Ignatius Loyola, Founder of the Society of Jesus (The Jesuits)

   

5. Jesus: I stood at the Pillar, My hands tied, My body beaten and wounded. I did not argue back; always in compliance to His Will, always surrendering in lack of resistance. I knew always the Father's love. There was not fear or anxiousness for I knew His Will and I complied always to His Will. In deepest suffering, I complied to the Will of the Father. You will struggle much in your life. You must comply to His Will even in the deepest suffering you must comply to the Will of the Father. I was beaten and crowned with thorns, but I complied always to the Will of the Father. 

6. Jesus: Satan will create confusion and doubt in your lives. You will find steadfastness in My way when you come and spend time alone with Me. Spend your days in union with Me. Satan will press harder and harder as time is drawing neigh, My dear ones, and the work you do is so important to the work of salvation. Release yourselves and realize that second by second you must come and dwell in My Heart. 

7. Jesus: My Mother stood by and she watched, she was so weak. My dear ones, if you saw the torture at the Pillar, you too would know My love. You are being persecuted this day. Satan is pressing down with many problems at hand, in your minds. Release yourself and totally surrender to the Father's Will. I am Jesus. It is in complying to His Will that you will do the work that is necessary to help lead souls to Me. 

8.  Jesus: Do not be willful; be yielding. Give to the Father's Will. Pray to the Spirit to know His Will. The plan of the Father is unfolding. Each person has their part to play. It is only in surrender that you will accomplish the task at hand. No person needs to bump heads with another person. Come to Me and let Me fill you with the strength and the grace that you need to accomplish this task at hand. 

9. Jesus: Always love. As I was scourged at the Pillar I responded with love. Let your ways be sweet. Let your tongue be kind. Let your heart be filled with love of God. Focus on God's will.

1 Corinthians 2: 9

"What no eye has seen and no ear has heard, what the mind of man cannot visualise; all that God has prepared for those who love him;"
 

Jesus: My dear ones, be humble and kind and sweet to one another. I am Jesus, your beloved. I love each person. 

10. Jesus: This is a special time. This is a special place. This is a special day. This is First Friday. This is the hour between twelve and three o'clock. My dear ones, this time is so special to Me. Let go and come to My Heart and experience the love that I want to give you. 

Song: A Song from Jesus (song to be sung after each decade.) 

 

Jesus is Crowned with a Crown of Thorns

1. Jesus: Do you feel the pressure of this day? Do you know what it is to suffer so intently that the pain does not stop? My dear ones, I ask you to come to My Heart and rest securely in My Heart, for there is love and peace in the Heart of Jesus. Many graces I give to you on the First Friday of every month. Make reparation to the Heart of Jesus for all of the sinfulness and neglect and indifference in this world this day. Look at this world My dear ones, so many have gone astray and do not even think one thought of God. You must pray as you have never prayed before for many will lose their souls and be condemned to the fires of hell. Let not your hearts be haughty, let not you be filled with pride. Come with a heart that is soft and supple, sweet and kind. A heart that will unite in deepest union with the Heart of Jesus. 

2. Jesus: Worry not for the sins of your brother. Come to Me and focus on My love. Surrender and I will tend to your every need. 

3. Jesus: You are a pillar of strength in this world that is crumbling. Come to Me and I will fill you with the cement that you need to set you firmly on this ground. Many will crumble and fall by the wayside but you will remain strong and steadfast in My love. This world is undergoing tremendous sufferings. Many do not even know that their hearts have turned cold and black. I ask you My beloved ones, to come to My Heart and let Me fill your hearts with My immense love. 

4. Jesus: You see before you the crown of thorns surrounding My Heart. The prickling to My gentle Heart of love for all of those who have forgotten God, who treat Me with such indifference and hatred. My dear ones, your heart too, will be pricked by many but I am Jesus and in this suffering you are drawn closer and closer to My Heart. 

5. Jesus: Harken to Me!  Come and sit with Me on the mock throne they gave to Me. Feel the crown on your head and the spit as it settles on your face. My dear ones, hear the angry words of those I loved and gave My life for. I ask you to suffer the persecution you are suffering this day and to keep your hearts soft and supple and kind. A heart that is joined to Jesus is not proud. A heart that is joined to Jesus is filled with love and yielding, caring for others and giving.

My dear ones, come and let Me unite so close to your heart. I long and thirst to be in such union with you. To have union with the Almighty God, an espousal union between you and God, My dear ones. If you realized the immensity of My love for you, you would not fear and be in such anguish. You would come to Me and let Me minister to you in your needs. I am Jesus, ever attentive, at every second, with every breath you take, and you fret and fume and worry. Release, surrender and I will give to you all that you need. 

6. Jesus: Burning with love for Me, do you come to Me and profess your love that you scarce can breathe and tell Me of your love? I am waiting My dear ones. You worry for such needless things and the Almighty God is waiting for you to come. I am Jesus. I love you!  I love you! I love you. Come to My Heart. Let go and surrender. Do not be prideful. Do not be anxious. Come with a heart that is gentle and filled with love. 

7. Jesus: I give to you great gifts in this rosary. I am telling you My dear ones, the messages of My Heart. Meditate on the mysteries of My great love for you. I have chosen you and called you here to give you knowledge and insight into the hidden mysteries of My love. Release and let go.  Make your hearts soft and supple, kind and yielding, not prideful, but filled with genuine love for one another. I ask you to love, as I have loved you. To My death on the cross, I gave My all for love of you. I ask you to love God above everything with your whole heart, your whole soul and your whole being and to love one another as you love yourself. Love! Love! Love! To unite with your heart - you must be soft and supple in heart, not hard of heart.

8. Jesus: Sweetness, My dear ones. How is the tone of your voice? How are you giving My love to this world? Are you the lights that are shining in the darkness or are you anxious and worried and projecting many seeds of hatred? My dear ones, you must come to My Heart and dwell in My Heart. For Satan is pressing down on you at every moment trying to stop you. You, I have called. You, I will nourish. You, I will send as warriors into this world to give love, to be lights that shine in the dark night. Come  to Me. Come and spend time with Me and let Me fill you with My love. I am Jesus. I am giving to you great gifts. I am sharing with you the mysteries of My Heart on this First Friday between twelve and one o'clock. I am giving you insight into the hidden mysteries that will remain in your heart for years to come. I love you! I love you! I love you! Come and dwell within My Heart. 
 

2 Thessalonians 1: 1-5, 11-12

    Paul, Silvanus and Timothy, to the Church in Thessalonica which is in God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ Grace to you and peace from God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.

    We must always thank God for you, brothers; quite rightly, because your faith is growing so wonderfully and the mutual love that each one of you has for all never stops increasing. Among the churches of God we take special pride in you for your perseverance and faith under all the persecutions and hardships you have to bear. It all shows that God’s judgement is just, so that you may be found worthy of the kingdom of God; it is for the sake of this that you are suffering now.

    In view of this we also pray continually that our God will make you worthy of his call, and by his power fulfil all your desires for goodness, and complete all that you have been doing through faith so that the name of our Lord Jesus Christ may be glorified in you and you in him, by the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ.
 

9. Jesus: And He filled them with abundant grace as they sat before Him. Jesus Christ, the Son of God outpouring His life into their souls and they felt this light with such vibrancy within their being. And they were filled, with hearts that were filled to the brim with His love and He came and gave them peace, love and joy. I am Jesus. I give to you, My beloved ones, great gifts. I reveal to you the mysteries of My heart on fire for love of man. 

10. Song: A Song from Jesus

Jesus: Do you feel pressed on My beloved ones? Do you feel that you have been abandoned? And that your life is very hard? Come and walk with Me; My Passion. Come as I go forward and carry My cross on your back, for I am Jesus and I am giving to you great gifts of My love. 
 

John 10: 2-4

He who enters through the gate is the shepherd of the flock; the gate-keeper lets him in, the sheep hear his voice, one by one he calls his own sheep and leads them out. When he has brought out all those that are his, he goes ahead of them, and the sheep follow because they know his voice.

Song: A Song from Jesus (song to be sung after each decade.) 

 

Jesus Carries His Cross to Calvary 

1. Jesus: I carried the cross on My back, stooped over, the weight of the sins of the world and I look at you this day as I carry this cross. I look into your eyes. Do you see, My dear ones, eyes that are filled with pride or eyes that are filled with tenderness and love? My Way always is to love. 

2. Jesus: Do not be prideful, do not be anxious. Come with your hearts supple and soft and let Me penetrate your soul with My Life and My Love. See before you the Son of man with the cross on His back covered with blood, His head crowned. My dear ones, have before your eyes the suffering face of the Lord Jesus Christ and in your suffering they will seem so small as compared to the sufferings of My Passion. 

3. R. A Heart that is haughty will not unite with the Heart of the Savior. God loves us and wants us to love Him. He is telling us about His love, do we listen. Do we believe Him deep in our roots? Are our roots saturated with faith, hope and love - Or are our roots filled with jealousy, pride, anger? Say Lord, I give You my life, body and soul, I trust in Thee.

4. Jesus: Be surrendering as I surrendered to the Will of the Father. I carried the cross on My back, My arms in such pain, ripped and torn. I carried this cross always complying to the Father's Will for love of you, dear ones. I carried this cross. Will you not carry the crosses that I give to you this day? Will you not surrender and say yes to the life that I am giving to you as you go through sufferings? You rise to new life in Me.  Accept the cross. Do not give your crosses away. Come to Me and share deep, intimate moments with in your sufferings. I am Jesus. I am attentive to your every need. Carry your cross and you too will be raised to new life. It is a constant struggle of ups and downs of sufferings in life. I withstood all of the pain that was constant. The pain that did not stop from the Agony in the Garden until I died on the cross. There was not any relief My dear ones. You are given little crosses to carry. You are given an opportunity to come and dwell in My Heart and the Heart of My Mother. Come and take refuge in Our Hearts. Release yourselves for I will carry the load with you. I am your beloved Savior, attentive to your every need. I am your Savior. 

Song: A Song from Jesus

5. Jesus: Do you think that I would come and die on the cross and not be attentive to your needs of this moment? 

6. Jesus: I give to you My abundant life. I have outpoured My life to you in this room. I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God truly present the same as the day I carried My cross on My back and I am in this room with you at this moment. Bend low and kiss the earth. The Father, Son and Holy Spirit dwell within the graced baptized soul. My sweet ones if you could see a soul that is saturated with grace, you would be in awe. 

7. Jesus: Do you count yourself blessed for all the great gifts that I am giving to you? Do you say thanks and praise your Father in Heaven? My beloved ones, you are so blessed and you go about this earth and whine and complain for your little crosses. See before you My eyes under the crown of thorns, the blood that pours down the sides of My face. Do you see this picture? Do you see the hollow cheeks and the blood that came forth from My mouth? But My greatest sufferings were not the sufferings that you see but the sufferings that I experienced to My Heart, filled with love, love for each beloved soul. 

8. Jesus: Come unto Me, My beloved one. Pray to Me, Pray to the Father. Pray to the Holy Spirit to guide you. You are surrounded by a choir of angels and the Father, Son and Holy Spirit live within your graced baptized soul. Do not let your lights dim, but shine in the darkest night for you My dear ones are filled with the Presence of the Almighty God within you. Release yourself. Say you are sorry to any that you have offended, for you My dear ones, are not perfect but I want you holy. I want you to strive to be perfect. You must forgive yourself and move on. I am Jesus. I scarcely could move with the cross on My back but My thoughts always of you and My immense love for you. I continued My way towards Calvary. My dear ones, will you not continue your way with the love that I give to you this day in your hearts. Will you be the lights that shine in the darkness, for the darkness is oh so dark in this world today and I am asking you to be a star that shines in the dark night. Be slow to anger, do not give into sin - Be a shining light.

9. Jesus: Let your hearts be brilliant and filled with My immense love. Let your hearts seek to know Me more and more. Thirst to be filled by Me. Be hearts that are beacon lights shining in this world. Be these hearts. I call you to such intimacy with Me. The more you unite to My Heart, the more you will shine and light up this earth. 

10. Jesus: Do not hold on to anger of the past. Live in the moment. Be what the Father wants you to be. Do not worry for the future. Live minute by minute, second by second saturated with My Life and My Love in you. Accept all that is given and strive to please your Heavenly Father who loves you with the deepest love.

Song: A Song from Jesus (song to be sung after each decade.) 

 

Jesus Dies on the Cross 

1. Jesus: Do not make being right your god. Tell the truth - Seek truth. Try to solve all the problems that you are given with love. I am Jesus Christ and My Heart is a Heart that is filled with love. 

2. Jesus: I hung for three agonizing hours on the cross. I died a brutal death for you on the cross. Study My crucifix and My love.

3. Jesus: I give to you, My dear ones My beloved Mother. Mary guards you, and protects you and holds you under Her mantle. Come to the Heart of My Mother ever pure and dwelling in My Heart. As you dwell in My Mother's Heart, you will dwell in My Heart for My Mother dwells most perfectly in My Heart. Mary is pure and kind and loving. Come and dwell in the Heart of the Virgin Mary. 

4. Jesus: Love and hatred are not co-existent. You must release all feelings of hatred toward any person and approach that person with love. I am Jesus and the Plan of the Father is unfolding. Be yielding and loving, not prideful, not angry; kind and submissive, but firm in My ways of love. Come with love, My dear one. I am Jesus and I love you. 

5. Jesus: You do not need to bump heads. Each person is a thread in the tapestry and you My dear ones, are called especially by Me. Great gifts I am giving to you and instructing you on the ways of My life. 

6. Jesus: See the crucifix always before your eyes. My dear ones, see My body battered, bloodied and bruised. See the body of a man, the Son of God. This is the love, My dear one that I have for you. 

7. Jesus: I love! I love! I love! You are called to many sufferings, many mental torments, many pains within your body. I am Jesus and in these sufferings you are given new life. Accept all that I give you and love My dear ones. I call you to love, love of God with your whole heart, your whole soul and your whole being and love of each other. Love as I have loved you to My death. I died for you. 

8. Jesus: And My Heart was pierced with a lance and what came forth was blood and water. Blood for the Eucharist. Water for Baptism. I give to you Myself, My dear ones. I nourish you with My body and My blood. I give to you My dear ones, a sharing in My Life in baptism. Come and let Me saturate you with this life. I gave Myself on the cross, and I give Myself to you this day. I am Jesus, the Son of God, attentive to all your needs. 

9. Jesus: My Mother held Me at birth and She held Me under the cross. Go to the arms of My beloved Mother and she will hold you in her arms and protect you from the evils of this world. Satan has no power over you. I am the Almighty God. I have all the power and My power is endless. Come and dwell in Our Hearts. I give to you Myself dear ones. 

10. Jesus: Make Spiritual Communions all through the day and be united so deeply to Me, the Almighty God. Know the constant dwelling of the Almighty God within you: Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God and I live within your heart. My dear one, you are so blessed and favored. Open wide your hearts and let Me unite in deepest love with you.