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                    The mission of the Shepherds of Christ is to lead
                people more and more to that which they
                hunger after — The Love of God —

                    We wander a barren desert, searching
                and searching and God has these gifts
                He gives us in the Church to heal our
                stalking soul.

As St. Paul says

Galatians 2: 19-20

...I have been crucified with Christ and yet I am alive; yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me.

                    When I hear the scripture
                    "Feed the hungry" I am in touch —
                so deeply with the Medicine of Immortality
                that fills the hungry soul with life
                itself — LIFE IN HIM

being saturated with His grace
Living more deeply existent IN Him

                For our lives here are a journey to hopefully
                    one day have the beatific vision —
                    to be wrapped in love itself —
                    to be existent in God —
                    to have the fullness of life in heaven.

God gives to us the ultimate feast
here below —

                    A sharing in His life in baptism —
                in which our knowing and loving capacity
                is elevated to sharing in His life.

                    What is thirsting and hungering for the
                man who has an immortal soul —
                it is to know life forever wrapped in the
                presence of the Divine God: Father, Son
                and Holy Spirit.

                    It is satisfying the craving in the
                soul to know God most intimately
                in heaven to be possessed by God.

                    The spiritual faculties of knowing
                and loving can be looked at in
                the realm of fullness in heaven and
                hungering here below —
                I hunger after the fullness of life I
                will know existent IN GOD, IN
                HEAVEN, being possessed by
                God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

                    Hungering is not satisfying
                the carnal desire of filling ones
                stomach to sustain life —

                    Hungering on a spiritual level
                is being fed at the
                table of the Lord — is knowing the
                grace being poured out in His
                Church as we are filled more
                and more by the fountain of His
                life.

                    Think of the lady thirsting at the well,
                but Christ in scripture always
                referred to streams of living
                water.

                    Where we think of a thirsty
                tongue — God looks deep into the
                soul created by Him and says —
                You thirst after Me —
                You hunger for My life alive in you —
                You want streams of living water
                I outpour to you in My Church —
                    And where the world is hungry —
                    I give to My beloved priests —
                    the gift of being another
                    Christ in the world to My people —

                Let not your hearts hunger any longer
                    for the perishable things of this
                    earth —
                    Praise God in His goodness for
                    His beloved priests, and the
                    Church.

                As members of the body of Christ —
                    come to the table of the Lord to be
                    filled — hunger no longer —
                    be strengthened as a strong unit —
                    in the pure and holy Hearts of Jesus and Mary —
                    praying in one mind and one heart for
                    the precious souls Jesus gave His life
                    for.

                The priests, the Church are to help
                strengthen the world — the precious
                souls Jesus died for as we live
                more and more deeply united to the Holy
                Sacrifice of the Mass — living in
                love for God and one another —
                thanking God for these gifts of being
                called through baptism to spread the
                Good News.

                    God lives most deeply in the
                members of the body of Christ saturated
                with His grace and as He lives
                more deeply in us — we are ONE —
                more deeply — IN HIM —

                    The oneness of the members of the
                body of Christ is ever deeper as
                we exist IN Him and are saturated
                more and more with His grace.

                    Feed the hungry souls searching
                to be fed with the love we know
                from being deeply united as members
                of the body of Christ — living united
                IN HIM —

And say as St. Paul —

Galatians 2: 19-20

...I have been crucified with Christ and yet I am alive; yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me.

                    We live every moment as members
                of the body of Christ united to the
                Masses going on around the world —
                And the Mass is the Sacrifice of Calvary
                sacramentally made present —

                    We are thus one in this great
                gift God gives to us in the Church
                in helping in the work of redemption —

Are souls hungry?

                    Yes they are thirsting after eternal
                life — They are hungering for life
                eternal with God in heaven.

                    The foolish virgins were not ready —
                the wise ones knew the gifts of the
                marriage to the Lamb for all eternity —
                being possessed by God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

Song: God's Love

Imprimatur from Archbishop of Indianapolis

Imprisonment is a soul —

Dead in sin

Freedom is doing God's will in
love

The golden rule of the spiritual life —
Doing God's will in love —

Matthew 28-30

‘Come to me, all you who labour and are overburdened, and I will give you rest. Shoulder my yoke and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Yes, my yoke is easy and my burden light.’

                A prisoner is one not living
                    in the Truth and
                    Jesus is the way, the truth and the life —

A prisoner is one who is deceived by
satan.

The Holy Spirit alive in a soul
counsels one with WISDOM.

Humility is truth —
One who lives in the truth has WISDOM.

                Through the Holy Spirit —
                the Word became Flesh
                in the Womb of Mary

Through the Holy Spirit —
alive in us —

                    the incarnation goes on in us —
                    as we dwell most intimately
                    in Mary's Heart (her spiritual womb)
                    and the Holy Spirit molds us more
                    and more in the image of Jesus.

                Humility is truth and
                    from the heart and tongue of Mary
                    the Holy Spirit imparts to us
                    His discourse on being the
                    Handmaid of the Lord —

Luke 1:46-55

The Magnificat
    And Mary said:
    My soul proclaims
        the greatness of the Lord
     and my spirit rejoices
        in God my Saviour;
     because he has looked upon
        the humiliation of his servant.
     Yes, from now onwards
        all generations will call me blessed,
     for the Almighty
        has done great things for me.
     Holy is his name,
     and his faithful love extends age after age
        to those who fear him.
     He has used the power of his arm,
     he has routed the arrogant of heart.
     He has pulled down princes
        from their thrones
            and raised high the lowly.
     He has filled the starving with good things,
        sent the rich away empty.
     He has come to the help
        of Israel his servant,
            mindful of his faithful love
     --according to the promise
        he made to our ancestors--
     of his mercy to Abraham
        and to his descendants for ever.

The greatness of God

Jesus then shows us what it is
to be the Son of God

Excerpt from Spirituality for Modern Man
By Edward J. Carter, S.J.

The Mystery of Christ

Christ is the entrance of eternity into time, God present among us in human form. The Son in assuming human flesh subjected Himself to the historical dimension of man's existence. In other words, the actions which Christ performed through His human nature here below were limited by temporal historicity. The temporal historicity of these acts cannot be re-enacted, no, not even sacramentally in the liturgy. This would be asking God to reproduce a past act now precisely as past, a contradiction in terms.

There is, then, the temporal not-to-be-repeated dimension of Christ's mysteries or life events. However, these mysteries possess another aspect, eternal and perennially dynamic. Christ, although having a divine nature and a human nature, is only one person, and that divine. We see the consequence of this in reference to the acts which Christ performed as man while upon earth. These were acts of a divine person and therefore share in the eternity of the divine person Who is above the historical, temporal limitations of earthly space and time. The events of Christ's historical existence truly endure eternally in the glorified Christ, and they endure for a purpose.

end of excerpt

Jesus the New Adam
Mary the New Eve

We the poor banished children of Adam
and Eve are

hungry and thirsting.

Captives

                    Persecuted as we struggle —
                    learning the purity of Mary
                    as the incarnation goes on in us

                We are taken to the high mountain
                    and the grace is outpoured
                    as the sacrifice of Calvary
                    is sacramentally made present —

We long to be saved
We want happiness

Being united to God is the Mystery
of Life.

Fr. John says we see with imperfect vision God, others
and ourselves.

Being in love with God and others
makes things work the best —

                Focus on God.
                Focus on God's Plan.
                Focus on love.
                Focus on God's will.

                God is with us
                We hunger for completeness in God
                    in heaven.

                We hunger to be possess by God —
                We thirst after knowledge.
                We thirst after the perfection of God —

The mystery we seek is God who
is the ultimate mystery.

We search after unity and love —
harmony in the universe.

We hunger after unity and harmony
and perfection.

                God is all in all —
                God is one.
                God is perfect.

                We search after knowing Him —
                    this is why we were created
                    this is our delight.

                We seek after goodness — even though
                    we fall —
                    ultimately we were created for Him.

                We hunger after being subject to
                    Him for in this lies our peace —
                    we seek —

                In being more deeply one in God — we have
                    greater joy for we were
                    given this desire to know Him —
                    in this lies our happiness.

God IS —

In knowing God we see with wider
vision.

                Our feeble hearts reach for that
                    which will more and more
                    satisfy us.

In knowing God — we more deeply
know reality more clearly.

HUNGERING — Seeking
— Searching

IN KNOWING God

There is an infinitude for us feeble
men — in knowing God —

                HUNGERING IS the "WORD"
                    for we cannot be satisfied
                    here below.

God is the Ultimate Mystery.
We were created with this desire to know God —

The perfect hand in the perfect glove,

                but the devil gives us diversions —
                                                lies —
                                                allurements

                God's plan when followed and
                    sought after is our
                    happiness

Many are clogged vessels inside —

We deeply can connect and be one
with God in our heart.

God is our ultimate goal.

Prayer

Prayer for Union with Jesus

     Come to me, Lord, and possess my soul. Come into my heart and permeate my soul. Help me to sit in silence with You and let You work in my heart.

     I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I want to be selfless and only exist in You. Help me to spoon out all that is me and be an empty vessel ready to be filled by You. Help me to die to myself and live only for You. Use me as You will. Let me never draw my attention back to myself. I only want to operate as You do, dwelling within me.

     I am Yours, Lord. I want to have my life in You. I want to do the will of the Father. Give me the strength to put aside the world and let You operate my very being. Help me to act as You desire. Strengthen me against the distractions of the devil to take me from Your work.

     When I worry, I have taken my focus off of You and placed it on myself. Help me not to give in to the promptings of others to change what in my heart You are making very clear to me. I worship You, I adore You and I love You. Come and dwell in me now.

            -God's Blue Book, January 17, 1994

We live more deeply our life —
the more we know God

the more we are saturated with
His grace

the more we live IN HIM

                God wants man to be saved.
                God first loved us.
                God is all good.
                God is all loving.
                God loves.
                God loves man.
                God loves the world.
                God is just.

                We cannot read the Plan of
                    God from our limited mind —
                    We cannot grasp it.

                We must look to God to always be
                    learning His Plan for us —
                    to always be in the state of
                        learning more about God
                        for us feeble creatures
                        here below

                HUNGERING to know
                    about God -
                    God IS

                We are His creatures.
                We are limited —
                We are learning about God —
                God reveals Himself to us

Passions cool —

                Hungering for things not everlasting
                    and destroying our soul is
                    foolish

Hungering after things not of
God's plan is foolish.

                Hungering for appetites that take
                    us from our eternal destiny that
                    we give into are destructive
                    to our soul —

                God intends us to want harmony
                    with His rules
                    His plan

God gives us a free will
God intends us to obey

                Jesus is the gateway that leads to freedom.
                Freedom is found in living according to the
                    Father's will and obeying the Commandments
                    and living according to the Word.

                The Trinity is the most perfect
                    community
                    God is 3 Persons in one
                        God —

God intends us to be communal
God intends us to be one

God is Perfection
We are imperfect — tainted

In heaven we will see the beatific vision.

Our work on earth is to grow
in greater perfection —

                God loves us
                As that which God loves —
                He longs for our love
                He longs for union with us

                God gives us this special sharing
                    in His life in baptism —
                    AWESOME

God wants us one

                God wants our oneness with Him
                    God wants oneness amongst
                        us - love - harmony —

Look at the beauty in which
God created us

Look at our talents

                Look at how men and women can
                    have a family and have
                    a baby

Do we really see that God
has a Divine Plan?

Do we see the cycle of life
in nature?

Do we see the beauty God
created in our world?

                God loves us.
                God gave us all this.
                God is the Creator —
                God created us —

                We are creatures of God!!!
                Man has a free will —
                How he chooses to use it
                    is how he is —

Prayer for Union with Jesus

     Come to me, Lord, and possess my soul. Come into my heart and permeate my soul. Help me to sit in silence with You and let You work in my heart.

     I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I want to be selfless and only exist in You. Help me to spoon out all that is me and be an empty vessel ready to be filled by You. Help me to die to myself and live only for You. Use me as You will. Let me never draw my attention back to myself. I only want to operate as You do, dwelling within me.

     I am Yours, Lord. I want to have my life in You. I want to do the will of the Father. Give me the strength to put aside the world and let You operate my very being. Help me to act as You desire. Strengthen me against the distractions of the devil to take me from Your work.

     When I worry, I have taken my focus off of You and placed it on myself. Help me not to give in to the promptings of others to change what in my heart You are making very clear to me. I worship You, I adore You and I love You. Come and dwell in me now.

            -God's Blue Book, January 17, 1994

From September 16, 2002

Messenger:     I looked up to see the big white
                           tank, the rust was plain
                           around its upper rim —

                        I was deeply united to my God
                            remembering the heights of ecstasy
                            I had experienced, the
                            times of deep fullness and
                            almost being there again as
                            I recalled them and their
                            grandeur, anticipating how
                            wonderful indeed would be
                            the moments of deepest union
                            with Him in heaven.

                        It is funny how deeply I can experience
                            a moment when united in deep love
                            to Him and others.

                        The words are deep and it is always
                            there for me, experiencing an
                            eerie sulken, almost purple
                            morning, one in which the color
                            of day seems to hang in
                            a sky far off with a misty white
                            fog in front of me.

                        It is the kind of morning that
                            takes me to Him, like standing
                            at the entrance of a tunnel,

                            but it is as if you stand at
                            this place on this earth below
                            and see into the future - where
                            at the end of the purple
                            morning you will be embraced
                            by this Divine Light and
                            united to Him, your Beloved,
                            your all, all that you have
                            sought and seek for now.

                        But in the morning light which was
                            purple and dark, it has
                            lifted now and I feel a
                            special awareness of Him
                            in this too.

                        My awareness of Him is constant,
                            my connection to heaven and
                            the saints and those who have
                            passed on is such a reality to
                            me at every moment.

                        I long for those moments in the Mass
                            when I go there to the Church and
                            unite in the celebration and
                            then I receive my God.

My heart is always longing for Him.

                        My heart is always feeling that
                            lack of completeness I long
                            for in Him.

                        I am here in this place, at this
                            time and yet it truly is
                            as one on a bus in transit.
                            I am on a journey and always
                                aware of my destination.

Depth, I want greater depth
in my life in Him.

                        There is always that open door,
                            that long tunnel, that
                            endless place I can go.

                        Even in hearing His word, I enter
                            into a place that is always open —
                            my heart is excited and wanting
                            to go so deeply into that open
                            place, experiencing more deeply
                            the one I love, the ultimate
                            mystery, the All Powerful,
                            All Loving God.

                        Oh I can barely scratch the surface
                            of knowledge of Him even in
                            my attendance at Mass.

                        I know the whole thing is so
                            great - at Mass - I know
                            more the greatness of Him and
                            this vast universe and
                            the heaven and all I do not
                            even see. It is all so
                            real to me, but my
                            experience seems so very
                            shallow knowing that I can
                            experience it deeper and deeper.

                        Oh, I feel as St. Theresa, my thoughts
                            are always of Him, my life lived
                            for Him, my desire to be His
                            bride are always before me, my
                            desire to be complete in Him
                            forever constant and yet
                            the Eucharist and His word
                            feeds me so much.

                        When I read His word I long to
                            go deeper into it — it is
                            always open and I am
                            always longing for a deeper
                            experience when I hear it
                            or read it — to experience
                            Him and my love for Him
                            ever more.

My thirsting is so great for
completeness in Him —

I am in that deep and dreary
desert land, here below.

                        I am like one man walking on the
                            dry, sandy, desert thirsting,
                            longing for water.

I am hungry, like one who hasn't
eaten for years —

I know why God kept saying for 6 weeks
"feed the hungry", "feed the hungry."

                        I am hungry, I am longing for the
                            fullness I know I can have
                            only in Him, in heaven.

                        Comfort, to unite with each other
                            in this mission — each of us
                            so deeply united to one another
                            and to Him.

                        And yet I do not want to sound as if
                            my life is not lived in joy,
                            for He gives me others to love,
                            to have so deeply in my heart
                            and there is an incompleteness in
                            that love I experience with them.

                        There are moments when I can ponder
                            the love I have for others and
                            for the saints and for God
                            and the very thoughts of it
                            are thoughts of deep joy and
                            longing for completeness and
                            greater capacity to love deeper and
                            more like Him and experience
                            every moment in the joy of
                            being more deeply united to
                            Him and to all.

                        Oh I may sound like I ramble on but
                            I do so because as Fr. Carter always
                            taught me "it is ineffable."

                        The purple skies lift, the tunnel is
                            always there, my life is not
                            given to me to spend in
                            contemplation like this all day
                            and yet it is this that helps to
                            quiet my heart hungering for
                            Him and the grandeur of heaven,
                            of knowing Him more fully, of
                            being enlightened by Him to know.

                        Every day comes with a dress —
                            some days He dresses in a purple hue —
                            some days wear a deep blue —
                            some a golden light —
                            others a reddish glow of a burning
                                flame
                            most may appear as a whitish,
                                milky haze with the polluted
                                air —

every flower He paints, He tends to
the detail of the smallest flower—

                            the little things in its interesting
                                centers so we can gaze upon
                                it and know we never see
                                all there is to see in it —

                            look at the earth —
                                can your eyes behold the grandeur
                                    of it all —
                                do you see every leaf of the giant
                                    old oak tree —
                                could you study its bark alone for
                                    a thousand years —
                                could you bring out your microscopes
                                    and enlarge it
                                        and when you have done so, do you see
                                    a tiny creature lurking in a small
                                    pore of the bark, with little antlers
                                    or wings and little feet.

                            I stand at the door of the tunnel and
                                I look and I know there is
                                so much to see and to know
                                and I thirst for it, I hunger
                                for the knowledge of Thee —

                            Oh Holy Spirit enlighten me and give
                                me the eyes to see, for my
                                eyes feel they are coated with
                                mud.

                            On September 5, 2002, it rained and yet
                                the colors of the image before me, as
                                it changed very rapidly — right
                                before my eyes —
                                I know the blue of the sky and the
                                blue of the water, but the blue of
                                Mary's gown was a mystical blue
                                of depth I cannot describe, nor
                                ever saw before or may never
                                see again. It glistened with a silver-
                                golden lining and a depth of
                                precision I cannot describe.
                                I can see the blue of man-made things
                                and it is just that man-made plastics
                                etc, but to see the gown of Mary
                                changing before me as painted
                                by God, it was awesome and
                                after seeing it, it quickly changed
                                to a deeper golden gown but
                                I saw it so very distinctly and
                                clearly and it had a depth
                                that was to me, inexhaustible and
                                not ending.

September 5, 2002

September 16, 2002 message continues

Messenger:        The golden fire color where Jesus'
                                face was came in that corner
                                and it was more gold than I
                                ever saw.

                            Oh I saw this before my eyes and
                                it was not static, nor did it
                                appear contained, nor can I describe
                                it here for it was deeper than the
                                pane of that glass to me, it was a wonder
                                to see more than any movie one
                                could watch of the waves at
                                sea, it was in its own way, a
                                deeper blue that did not end, it
                                was mystical and I cannot even
                                begin to explain it.

                            And I looked into His eyes and I saw
                                Him before me in the pain He
                                gave me, there was this sweetness
                                in the quiet moment of pain —
                                a sweetness of knowing God
                                and knowing which I hold
                                so dear is real.

My heart is quieted only by Thee.

                            The rustling and bustling cars go
                                by on the busy freeway
                                and within each person
                                carries their own thoughts
                                and experiences and they live
                                in a world of the unknown.

                            I see the lightning steel across the sky
                                and I can barely make out the
                                building tops and trees, the
                                sky.

It happens so quickly — He lights
the night for that split second.

                            We live in a sort of night here below —
                                we do not see the picture so
                                clearly — He lifts the veil and
                                gives us quick glimpses,
                                just to see a little of it —

Oh our vision is so limited and
there is so much to see —

there is so much to know —

there is the quiet world in all of
us —

                                a world we can never completely
                                    share with anyone but Him
                                    and He knows it better than ourselves.

                            I do not know the condition of my kidneys
                                or my gall bladder or my inner
                                ear —

Oh the magnificence of God —

He knows all things —
He created the world and all its creatures —

He is Divine

We are human

He is Supreme

We are His creatures

He knows all things —

We know a little —

                            The Magnitude of God —
                                He cannot be measured
                                He is —
                                He is All Perfect —
                                He is Unchanging
                                He is God

Oh I long for Him — to know Him —

to know His works —

to know the whole design —

                                to love more deeply —
                                    more completely —
                                    with the great capacity
                                    I will have then —

how foolish we are to think I
can see the end —

Oh He can not be contained
He is God.

                            Little children have a whole
                                world to discover, all the beauties
                                of God.

Why do we want to show little
children dark movies?

Their eyes are bright —

                            They, when living in a family of
                                love, are looking with
                                eyes of wonder and
                                the desire to know.

                            Little children, babies, little
                                toddlers are so open —
                                wanting to know.

We can fill them with love and
tell them about God.

They are like an empty vessel
ready to be filled.

                            The man at church came up to me
                                and told me of all the killings
                                in Cincinnati and terrible things
                                going on in the world.

                            In the Church a woman came in
                                during morning Mass and was
                                sleeping in the bride's room
                                on the floor with blankets.

There so much darkness.

Joe did this as a child.