October
29, 1994
Give Me a
Baby's Heart
Messenger:
This is why my heart is not like a baby. I thought I forgot about past
hurts, but I must let go of wounds of the heart and still love everyone to
have a pure heart like a child. Hurts in my heart have to go, I must
forgive. I now release and forgive past hurts. Give me a baby's heart, one
filled with love. Help me to forgive everyone.
Create in me a clean heart, a baby's heart. I know love as imperfect
creatures loved me. I must know love as God loves me. He is perfect love!
Help me to know Your love, Lord, and let go of hurts inflicted on me by
imperfect others. Help me to know Your unfathomable love in my heart. I
block the flow of Your love to my heart when I am angry and unloving to
others, when I harbor hatred and unforgiveness. Teach me, Lord, Your love,
given in abundance and unconditionally. Give me a heart that is pure and
holy. Little babies have pure hearts. Let my heart be like yours, God. I
want a heart that loves and trusts. I want to let go and trust You, Lord.
October
29, 1994 - 11:30 Mass St. Gertrude's
Note:
Messenger: There was a glow on
the left side of the priest during the consecration. There was no mistake,
it would leave and then come back. I wanted to write, I had my small purse,
but no pen. There was a pen in the pew. I was in the first pew (what are the
chances of that happening. There are no coincidences). My heart was beating
fast when the Mass started.
October
29, 1994
Two Faces
Messenger:
Two faces: the child Jesus, the face of Jesus on Veronica's cloth.
Always, a heart of pure love. To His bloody death, He loved. His Heart, ever
pure and filled with perfect love. Give to me, Lord, a heart that is pure
like Yours. Lead me, Lord, into the inner recesses of Your most Sacred Heart
through Your loving Mother's heart. Help me to let go of preconceived ideas
about love that are not like You and learn to love through the tender,
motherly heart of Mary.
Create in me, Lord, the heart of a child, pure and free of hurt and grudges,
only full of trust and love.
In truth I
tell you, anyone who does not welcome the kingdom of God like a little
child will never enter it.’ Mark 10:
15
Teach
me the ways of a pure heart. Give to me a pure heart. A heart of love and
purity, a trusting heart. Help me to be dependent on You. God, my God, I
surrender my heart to You. Remove all hurts, all rubbish, empty my heart and
place it in Your burning Heart, Your Sacred Heart. Purify me and make me
holy, oh Spirit. Father, let me feel Your deep love through Mary's gentle
and loving heart. I pray for this most pure and tender heart, surrounded by
your love.
October
31, 1994 - Evening
Note:
I prayed the rosary at 6:30 at the grotto at the Center because of the smell
from work being done in the chapel. It was a beautiful day. I started to cry
through the Agony in the Garden because of sufferings in the early morning.
I am so connected to His Heart since I saw the open heart today and how He
suffered for all the neglect and how many neglect Him this day, and how He
loves them so much! It was very intense, but joyful. I love Him so much. I
know how much He loves everyone and how they neglect Him. I couldn't explain
the immense sorrow. Mary's statue lit up, especially at the end, and her
face looked very alive to me.
(add:
I saw Mary's face, then it changed to Jesus' profile! I then saw a lot of
people, they were the Apostles and Saints. Marty also saw the vision.)
November
1, 1994
You
Are A Child of God!
Jesus:
What you are is a child of God. Do not stop and think and focus on your
hurts by your mother or father, by anyone you wanted to love you. See
yourself as a child, created by God, the Father, with dignity, honor and
abundant love.
You are My child. Mary is Your mother forever by your side. You are a child
of God. Forget all your past hurts and see yourself born this day with the
heart God the Father created for you, so pure, so loving, so full of dignity
to be God's beloved child! In baptism you receive a special sharing in My
life. You are created in My own image and likeness. You are a child of God.
Be a child, pure in your heart, free of hurts and anger and realize your
specialness to be created uniquely by God the Father. You are God's child.
You are God's precious one. You are the child I shed My blood for. You are
the child My Mother suffered for. She appears now, she cries out to you as
the most loving mother "come home to the Heart of my Son, on fire for
love of you, through my Immaculate Heart. I place you deeply into the
furnace of Jesus' love!"
Messenger:
Close your eyes and see yourself, this
little child, the son or daughter of the Father. You have a Divine lineage,
you are heirs to His Kingdom. Close your eyes and be lost in God's love.
November
2, 1994
"This is My Body"
Messenger: I recognize the face on this Sacred Heart statue in the
den as the same face I saw in the grotto, but this one is in color. I
recognize the Heart as the Heart in the vision.
Jesus speaks: If the world hates you, you know My love - live for Me
and to promote the devotion to My most Sacred Heart. Lead people to Me
through the Eucharist and the tabernacle - this is the Sacrament of My
greatest love.
Messenger:
I can see the face on the grotto any time I want, it is on this statue here
in the study and so is the Heart.
Notes:
On September 3 I heard "This is My Body, This is My Blood." I
couldn't look at Mary's statue. He lets me experience some of her emotions.
"I am aware of all of the souls that will be lost because they do not
know His love."
"The world stands still, I am on the other side". Read September
3. So good - read it, again and again. This is reality to me, seeing this
statue of Jesus, Jesus nailed to the cross, the pieta, the agony, and Jesus
in the Sacred Heart picture in the mirror.
November
2, 1994
He
Truly Gave His Life For Us
Messenger:
I see His hands and His feet pierced with nails, His head punctured. This is
Love! (when I was awakened with cramps this morning, I thought of someone
putting a nail through my foot!)
Jesus truly gave His life for us. I will take the lead with the cold hearts
that do not hear His plaintiff cry, that He loves us so much. I go to the
world for love, I go to the world for validation of these letters and day
after day He opens up to me such insights into His love I miss the deep
love, the dwelling in His Heart as I hold on to this world. He is my refuge,
He is my strength. He writes these letters to all souls and cries out His
dearest, tenderest love and who hears? These are His words to me to you. Oh,
I who write do not pay attention as I should in these letters. The love He
pours out in these words. I have a cold heart. That is why He shows me this,
His most magnificent Heart, bulging over in intense whites and yellows, as
open. He gives to us His most open Heart.
Jesus:
Come, My little ones and dwell deeply in the recesses of My Heart. My blood
I spent for you. My hands and feet were pierced, they numbered all My bones
and I give these letters of My intense love for you. I died for you, why
would I write a letter of such intense love?
I am your Jesus. Please harken to My calls of love to spread these letters
swiftly, for souls will be lost for not obeying Me. My love I pour out here.
My Heart I give as a symbol of this great love. Take refuge in My most
loving Sacred Heart.
Messenger:
To You, oh Lord, I lift up my soul. Why do I worry about what anyone thinks?
I live to spread His love. He writes here and begs me to spread this love. I
love You so, my God!
Wake the dead, to the fact that Jesus truly gave His life for us! I am so
blind. He writes over and over again of His love. I am but a little child
that needs God's grace to see more His love. Wake the dead, Oh how cold is my heart! He shows me the big heart, this puts in perspective how
little I know His immense love! I know so little!! I thirst for so much
more. I thirst and hunger for You, my Lord. My hungry soul cries out for
Your love. I know so little of the magnitude of this love. Wake the dead to
His most precious Sacred Heart. Read the promises, for fervent hearts shall
quickly mount to the highest perfection. Oh, Sacred Heart, make my heart
ever more fervent in Your love.
Jesus:
This emotion I impart to you, My dearest daughter. I felt such anguish in
the garden, I sweat blood. Your heart cries, it is one with My Heart. I am
life. Life is active. Life is sensitive. Life responds. Feelings of the
heart -- My Heart is beating with greatest love this day, this moment. I
love you so much, dear one, I love you.
Messenger:
It is my sensitivity to His Heart that suffers when I focus on myself and
what others think. Create in me, oh Lord, a heart to serve You!
I can see Jesus looking at me and I run to the world for recognition and He
patiently sits and tells me how He loves me and I look for momentary
gratification! I don't want to offend Him anymore by going to others for
recognition. See His Heart overflowing. He is God, the hairs of my head are
numbered and He is always watching.
It is not in the signs and symbols, it is in this interior awareness and
oneness with Him that I know Him deeper. I do not need to have anyone
believe me. I need to live for His love. Mary draws me so close to His Heart
and leads me with such intimacy to Jesus. I don't have to worry who likes
me, who is looking at me, all I have to do is love and please Jesus. I am
free.
Jesus:
Surrender to Me, let go totally into My arms.
Messenger:
I don't have to worry about what anybody thinks of me. All I have to do is
try to love Jesus and ask myself if I am pleasing Him.
In truth I
tell you, anyone who does not welcome the kingdom of God like a little
child will never enter it.’ Mark 10:
15
Babies do not worry if they are impressing anyone. They just are. We should
be as children and live in Him. Be so united to Him, to live in His love, to
give His love, to be as He lives in us. All I have to do is live as He lives
in me.
Jesus is watching me. I have to act as He wants me to. I have to please Him
with my actions and don't have to judge my brothers in their actions. I must
always love.
We must try to act as He wants, likened to Him. In all our actions we must
put on Christ. The more we are united to Him in the Eucharist we become more
one with Him in our lives.
November
3, 1994
A Flower I Give to My Father
Messenger:
I live each moment to do my Father's will with love. Each moment comes and
goes. I want each moment to be a flower I give to the Father when I see Him.
How was this moment spent? If it is as He wants me to spend it, it is a
beautiful flower for His bouquet.
I am your child, Father. I live to please You and You alone. As a little
child tries so hard to do what their father asks them to do, with such
fervor, Father to You I lift up my soul. I want this moment to be spent
trying to please You. I want my moments to be beautiful flowers in my
bouquet of life to give to You when I see Your face. I must live to please
the Father, to please Jesus and the Holy Spirit, with my mother as the
tenderest motherly guide. To You, oh Lord, I lift my soul. If I am pleasing
You, I am giving Your love to my brothers.
From a Lenten Homily, March 24, 2000
Live in the Moment
Today’s Gospel in its story certainly points ahead to Jesus in His Passion and death. And as we read passages such as this during the Lenten season, we are reminded once again that the Church in her Liturgy of the Word gives us an opportunity to undergo a purification, an ever deepening cleansing of ourselves so that we may be a more fit instrument
for receiving the great graces which are to be given to us at the time of the Resurrection memorial on Easter. And so all in all, Lent is a time of purification to prepare us for ever-greater gifts of the Lord. It’s a time of self-discipline, a time to renew our efforts to be self-disciplined in the service of the Lord. Self-discipline is an aspect of purification. And I suggest that one of the most difficult acts of self-discipline in the spiritual journey is to concentrate on the present moment. We have a very strong tendency to disregard the importance of the present moment by focusing in a wrong way on the past or in a wrong way on the future. There are proper occasions for thinking of the past and the future. For example, we have to learn from the past and we have to prepare for the future, but our great emphasis has to be upon the present. There is a Latin axiom which says, age quod agis, age quod agis, which means: do what you are doing, concentrate on the present. And of course we are familiar with that term in the history of spirituality: the sacrament of the present moment. And so the discipline of Lent certainly encourages us to include in a deeper self-discipline a greater determination to get as much as we can out of the present moment. People with a terminal illness have an opportunity as they prepare for death for increased prayer, contrition, love of God. However, some are taken very, very quickly. But for those who have the opportunity of knowing with some certainty the time of their death, I’m sure as they look back on their lives, they are saddened by the many times they did not use time and opportunities for the service of the Lord properly, and are overjoyed at those times in which they did use the present opportunity properly. A great means we have of living in the present properly is a greater focus upon our Lord. For if I have that awareness of the fact I am united with Jesus here and now, why should I be concerned so much about the future or the past? Yes, a great help in living in the present and deriving all the good we can from it for ourselves and others is an ever greater focus upon Jesus, because the more I focus upon Jesus and the more I live with Him in the present moment, the more I am satisfied with the present moment. And so let us in our Lenten activity resolve to grow in that self-discipline - which is very difficult at times - to really live in the presence with the fullness of our being as much as is possible, with the help of God’s grace. Now is the day of salvation. Now is the day of salvation.
end of Father Carter's homily
November
5, 1994
I Thank You For Your Love Letters
Messenger:
How many letters has Jesus written about His presence and His love and I
don't really take them to heart. He cannot get close to me if I hold onto
the world.
November
6, 1994
Strengthen
Your Faith and Trust in Me
Jesus:
My dear daughter, do you know how much I love to be with you in the morning?
I love for you to come from your sleep and choose Me over your sleep,
especially when you are so tired.
Be with Me and let yourself go into the sanctuary of My Heart. My Heart is
an endless ocean of mercy and love. You do not comprehend about My mercy and
love. I am writing you to help you understand it so much better.
My Heart was pierced with a lance and what flowed from My Heart was Blood
and Water. To the last drop of blood in My body, I gave you My life. Truly
My life was given up for you that you would enter into everlasting life.
From My Heart flows this life for you – blood and water.
I give you a sharing in My life. I give you the sacraments. I give you My
Church. My Heart is an endless fountain of mercy and love. As I gave the
last drop of My blood for you, I give you this fountain of life and mercy.
From My pierced Heart the Church was born. You must go to My Heart, it is the abyss
of My love. Through My Heart you are taken to the Father. From My Heart
you receive life and mercy.
From My pierced Heart all graces flow. You seek such grace
in your life, grace to love and know Me more. You must come to My Heart,
through Mary. Focus on My Heart. See before you the picture of the open
Heart and tell all of My endless fountain of mercy and love. My Heart is
this open for love of all. This is the secret to reach a hardened heart. My
love is so abundant that your feeble minds cannot imagine.
I am your Savior. I am your lover. I am your life. I am the way, the truth
and the life. I come and give you Myself in the Eucharist. I give My Heart
to you. I love you so dearly but you do not comprehend. Pray to know more My
immense love given for you. Come to My fountain of mercy and love. Let it
flow into your soul. Be cleansed and bathed in a bath of My blood and
dwelling forever in Me. I am life. I give you life. I am the bread of life
come down from heaven for you My beloved, for you, for you, with greatest
love, for you!
I am Jesus. You do not let go totally into the abyss of My love. Pray for
the virtues. Your faith is lacking. It is keeping you from intense union
with Me. It is faith that will allow you to let go and experience My words
here.
Rita Ring, I am
writing to you with greatest love and you want to check My letter out? Your
whole thoughts are on checking out the letter. How can I write to you of My
mysteries when you want to go to check Me out? You miss My love here, you
lack faith, child, faith that would let you experience Me ever deeper.
I want to have a
relationship with you. Love is built on trust. Love is giving your all. I
showed you how to love when I died on the cross, I gave My all, I held
nothing back. Will you give your all for Me?
Let go and write as
I dictate. I am Jesus, child, do you believe it yet? No, you want to check
out My letter, then you might believe I am talking to you. This is how I
choose to come to you, this way, in this letter. You are a child. I want you
to listen to Me. Focus on being only a baby – a baby at the breast. You are
led through My mother to My Heart. Let go and pray for faith. Your faith is
very weak. My little one, you tap so gently on My ocean of knowledge. Press
harder and you will learn more, I want to give you such understandings. You
are afraid to let go. You do not know how you hold back. Love Me and trust
Me. I am here. It is you holding back the ocean! You hold back what you
thirst after because you lack trust and faith. You, My little one, must let
go. Pray for faith - pray to trust - let go - trust Fr. Carter. It is not so
scary – it is your way to My ocean of love! My love I pour out to you. You
will be saturated. Come to Me and believe Me. You are holding up our
relationship with your fear and doubt.
Rita, Rita, you lack
trust and faith. You play a safe game that keeps you so far from My Heart.
See the Heart – open and on fire, that is the key to deeper life in Me.
Deeper union with the one, true God. Deeper union with the Persons of the
Trinity. Let go, let go, let go. Hold not back. LIVE TO DO GOD'S WILL.
Believe, KNOW I AM ALIVE IN YOU. Experience My love. The ocean will flow
with such force. You are afraid of being wrong, more so than ever before.
Listen to Me and you
will know deeper insight into My hidden mysteries, the mysteries into My
Heart. I am teaching the world about My Heart in these letters of My love. I
am teaching them the ways of this open furnace of love. It is through you
and Fr. Carter this world will know My Heart. The infinite abyss of My love,
given up for all. It is ablaze, it is on fire, it is as you see and no words
can describe this Heart. It is the Heart that was pierced to save mankind
from their sins. It is the Heart whereby flows life. I outpour My grace to
you. Let go, child, you are holding up My work here. I cannot teach you if
you hold back. You must believe I am talking to you!
November
7, 1994 - 5:00 a.m.
Faith Means
You Believe
Jesus:
My dear child, I am tending to My work. You do as you are told. I want you
to come to Me in the night, this is a very special time for us to be
together.
I must tell you about faith. Faith means you believe. You are so attuned to
My Heart you must pray for faith. Stay close to My Heart. Operate for love
of Me and love of each other. If the world hates you, you still love them.
You love all men. You see in them the creation of the Father, you see the
person I died for.
Stay attuned to Me child, this takes time alone with Me. Everyday I need
such time with you. You need time to play with your children – that is what
most pleases the Father now. Everyday set time aside to be with them and
pray that satan stays away from your children. He is working on all
children. He is cunning and deceptive. Come to Me. You must spend time with
Me. This is the key to your holiness.
Let go into My arms. Faith is faith. You operate in love of Me and believe I
will always catch you.
I want to operate in you and be one with you. Let go into My waiting arms.
Lay your head gently on My Mother's chest and surrender to Our Hearts. She
leads you to this special intimacy with Me.
When you operate, always operate being one with Me. Love as I love.
Messenger:
Put on Christ in
all your actions. Put on Christ, act as He would act – See the Christ in
one another! Always perfect peace as you, at the moment, operate to please
the Father. Do the Father's will every moment.
Jesus
speaks: Do the
Father's will with the greatest joy for love of Me. Oh, it is so
simple, all I tell you is so simple. Man has turned simple love and kindness
into such complicated things.
I give you a conscious. I teach you My ways. Act as I would act. Do you
listen to your heart or do you do what you please? Follow your heart, My
dear child. If you are forever united to Me, your heart will follow My way.
Make Me the center of your life. Live as I live in you, doing as I would do,
praying always in all your actions. Each moment should be an act of My love
given to this world.
Love for Me, My precious ones, this world needs your oneness to Me. I love
you so much!
November
7, 1994
I Write of My Love to You
Jesus:
Dear sweet one, Come into My Heart and be wrapped in My love. I truly write
all My love to you. Your job is clear: to circulate these letters, to talk,
to sing. I give you My immense love to tell others of this great love.
Little one, little one, I want to be drawn ever closer to you.
November
7, 1994 - 6:45 a.m.
From Mary at the Grotto
Mary:
I am the Immaculate Conception. I come to you with the tenderest love. Come
and be close to my Son Jesus. This is my house, this is my grotto, this is
the place to draw yourself ever closer to my Son through His letters written
to you. They are the letters of His tenderest love. Every word professes His
immense love for you. Please read and circulate His messages. He loves you
so much, with the tenderest Heart. He is the Sacred Heart of Jesus!
November
8, 1994 - 4:00 a.m.
Spend Time with Your Children
Jesus:
Let your heart be not troubled for I will sustain you. You must spend time
with your children. You know you are not doing My will. Be steadfast that
this is a top priority.
I am calling out because time is short. Do not worry for the things of this
world, only for your salvation and that of souls. Time is very short, a
batting of an eye and your life has ended. If today was the last day of your
life, how would you spend it?
I am your Savior. I am your Redeemer. I am He who loves you. Turn to Me in
your cares and do not go it alone. Rita, Rita, you are carrying your load on
your back. Let go into My arms.
November
8, 1994
Will
You Love or Reject My Father!
Jesus:
I write to you this day, My beloved children. You are children of God. You
are the special creation of God, the Father. He created you. You are a soul
He loves. He wants you to love Him first above all things. You have a free
will, My children, you can love God as He commands you to or reject Him. If
you love Him and follow His will, you will attain happiness. Happiness is
found in God. The more you seek Him, the more you are satisfied. He has what
your soul craves.
The Spirit leads you to God. He transforms you into His image and likeness.
The more you dwell in the Two Hearts, the more you are molded into the image
of God.
Surrender My beloved children to His will. It is in doing His will with love
that your peace and happiness lie. Always live to please the Father, as a
little child tries to please their Father. Live to love Jesus and give His
love to others. Center your life on Christ and doing the Father's will.
Pray, pray, pray, My dear ones, I never abandon you. I love you dearly. You
are My soldiers to spread the love of My Most Sacred Heart.
Be wrapped in the arms of My loving Mother. Mary held Me as a child in her
loving arms, picture her holding you, so close, to her heart.
It is through her tender and loving heart you will dwell in My Sacred Heart.
Come and dwell in Our Hearts and know Our love. Let go of the things of the
world that keep you from Me. Be alone with Us in Our Hearts. Drop your
worries at the door of Our Hearts and rest securely in Our love. Come and be
with us now.
November
9, 1994 - 4:00 a.m.
I Sustain You
Jesus:
My child, little child, put all worry and doubt aside and be lost in My
arms. I sustain you, I love you, I am Jesus, your Savior. As you heard Me
from days past, listen to My voice. I truly love you, My child. Let go and
focus on me.
There are so many distractions. Souls will be lost. Souls are being lost
today, as you preach My words. Think of Me. Pray, pray. I will spread My
words to your family, you do not have to be there. I am your Savior. Come
and pray with Me, child. You need time alone with Me or you will suffer
attack. Do not prove yourself to any man, just do as I tell you. Pray –
that is what I tell you.
Little child, little child, I have always loved you. Song: "From the
day you were born, I've been here with you." Pray, Rita, your job is to
pray, your job is to be with Me, your job is to do the will of the Father.
You are My precious child.
November
10, 1994 - After Communion
He
Waits for Your Time
Messenger:
Everything I do must be to promote the love of God. I am not acting to be
right. I am acting to spread the love of His Most precious Heart. He waits
alone for His beloved ones to come and spend one hour with Him. He waits for
your time, for your love. He waits for you with such love. His Heart is a
burning, endless flame of love. He wants our love, He wants us to love Him
and make up some to Him for all who neglect Him.
Oh, Lord Jesus, teach me to be the slave of Your Most Sacred precious Heart.
When I am filled with fear, help me to see before my eyes Your Heart ablaze
and in love, ablaze and in love, ablaze and burning for love of souls. Help
me to promote this love by doing what You ask of me. Oh how Your Heart burns
for love of Your beloved ones!
Things here matter little to me, only as I spread this devotion to His most
tender and loving Heart.
I go to the end of the limb and I jump – this is total surrender to Your
most loving Heart. He who lives in me. I find shelter only in Your Heart. I
rest in Thee, my beloved Lord. I jump and I am secure as I only find rest in
Your most precious Heart.
Jesus:
Surrender for it is I who sustain you, My child. This work is My work to
spread the devotion to My Heart. I long, long for the love of My Most
precious souls who treat Me so coldly. Promote My love. Tell them how I wait
for them with a burning Heart on fire for them. Think of My Heart ablaze and
waiting the love of all souls. I want their love. Tell them how I wait for
them. Tell them how I am a Heart ablaze and I long and I wait for them to
come. I am God and I am longing for their love. Tell them, tell them – if
you do not speak, they will not hear. I am talking to you here!
November
16, 1994 - After Communion
"I Give You Myself"
Messenger: I realized His immense presence after
Communion. He is truly present and within me. I had a vision in my heart of
Him on the cross and realized this is the same Jesus within me!
I heard Him say, louder and firmer than ever before, "I give you
Myself" – to the point that I gasped.
I started with this vision in my heart before I received Him and started
to cry. It is hard to explain what it is like to have such a realization
that He is the same Jesus.
I knew it was the exact Person that died on the cross and gave His very
flesh for me.
I saw Him in all His suffering on the cross. I wanted to cry, seeing Him
suffering so.
I realized He is in me and present in the Eucharist, the same God who
loved me to His death. It is overwhelming. I cannot express the emotion.
(There
was a strong smell of lilacs)
I realized that all I want is perfect union with
Him. I cried to want it to last and be as intense as is possible. Nothing
else mattered to me, but Him!
