December 23, 2015

                R. The snow was coming hard and it was
                beautiful and it lay even and it was
                crisp and it sounded like you could
                even hear a whisper.

                    We walked through the soft snow –
                speechless and the flakes landed, ever
                so softly, even on my eyelashes
                as I walked.

                    It was a night when the moon was
                full and the sky above looked hazy
                with a soft fuzzy light from the moon
                above and the snow falling was
                indeed a beautiful winter, wonderland
                and it was awesomely quiet as it
                fell and yet it gathered quickly as the
                earth preparing the land for something
                magnificent with this blanket of
                soft beautiful white snow.

                    What can one say when God lets
                us see its beauty, dressed, the earth
                before us, like a white fluffy blanket of
                beauty.

                    All that was once uneven and
                old or green or brown or
                junk-like – now was covered with
                this magnificent white blanket –
                making things look even and clean
                and white as uniform.

                    The night was a quiet night, like
                nights can be, but this night had a softness,
                I cannot even describe here – a softness,
                a beauty, a smoothness, all the uneven
                corners filled in, the browns and dirty
                now glistening like a bride prepared
                for the bridegroom.

                    I think of the scripture of the white –
                washed tombs – looking good on the
                outside and tainted on the inside,
                but all I could see was a purely
                beautiful cover of soft white.

                    One night I woke coughing and
                where I was dreaming and sleeping
                I discovered almost a new time
                and space to explore in the wee
                hours of early morning.

                    Had the night, now, with the snow,
                not spread such a beauteous blanket
                of white and I been there to see it
                while it happened, I may have missed the
                beauty of that snowy, white, beautiful
                earth.

                    Like one waken coughing and discovering
                that there is a time going on now, a
                quiet night, no noise and seeing
                lights of night dancing like shadows
                on the wall, one would have missed
                it they weren't disturbed in their
                sleep by the cough that summoned
                them to get up and see the night and
                its beauty.

                    Eyes are in the eyes of the beholder
                and God can shake an old tree from
                its roots and show it the growth and
                glory of a new day.

                    Sleeping may deprive us of one
                thing and yet give us a new dream of
                a brighter tomorrow – a serenity of
                working through the messes we may
                see in our dreams.

                    Well we don't see everything, so
                clearly and we can't see everything
                because we can't be in two places
                at one time.

                    But can you meditate on the
                omnipotence of God – who knows
                everything, the hidden secrets of the
                man closing down for a long life nap –
                because he is a fool to not know
                God and His ways. God knows my
                heart and your heart and all
                that is and He doesn't slumber
                or sleep. He knows and we are
                fools to try to hide from Him –
                guess what, we can't do it –
                He knows the secrets and the hidden
                ways – we might think – nobody
                could see our scheming and
                deception.

                Adam and Eve hid themselves after their
                sin. They were used to walking with
                God in the Garden – then sin entered
                the world. In the beginning they were naked
                and were not ashamed, but after they sinned
                they knew they were naked – they
                needed covering.

                    I never understood exactly all what
                Jesus meant when He woke me January 5, 1997
                and gave me this message –

January 5, 1997

Baby, Bare Baby, Laid Bare

R. On January 5, 1997, I was wakened by Our Lord and He was mumbling as He was around my bed as He did on October 8, 1997, when He delivered the "Seedless, Barren, No Fruit on the Vine" message.

I heard Him and He repeated the words over and over again. I had a copy of the all-night message on the floor, I jumped from the bed and began to write around the message, for it was the only paper available and He was speaking very plainly and direct. I wrote this message in the margins of the paper. He kept repeating "BABY, BARE BABY, LAID BARE".

Jesus:  Open yourself, Oh Jerusalem, your time is come you will be a light to the people in darkness, many will walk whence you come and the earth will be shakened and the light will come across a dark sky and enlighten their minds.

Oh stiff-necked people, you are so stiff in your ways, let the spirit envelope you and lead you on your way.

A country of stiffs, a people of planning and prodding, of deliberating and wondering—you lack faith, Jerusalem, you lack faith in God.

Oh walk naked into the cold night, you are cold in your hearts and naked in your clothing—I cloth you with glory, I light your face with light, but you turn your cheeks to the darkness and stay stiff-necked in your hearts. Oh cold and dark hearts, reach for the light that you may know the glory that awaits the sinners and enlightens their minds.

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                R. I just don't know, as God knows,
                God is teaching me more about the infinite,
                more about Himself and the shame
                from sin and the darkness covering
                a soul giving into the deadly sins,
                is a place of being not in beauty
                but in darkness, misery, clamor of
                unrest, bitterness and a yearning
                for that clamor of unrest, even though
                it was self made, to stop – it
                is blaring in the ears, troubling
                a broken heart, like not walking
                in pure, white soft snow on a
                misty breathless night, but being
                in the darkness of sin is like
                screaming to the restless soul made
                for God and when the noise gets
                too blaring – the sinner can make
                havoc to release the tension of
                the tightness of opposing God's
                will for him – excitement, release,
                pressing on innocent others – like
                getting out of the self-made prison
                of their own making, for a moment
                of feeling something – where the mundane
                darkness of sin can leave one
                numb and frozen and complacent and
                without the vigor of life in him.

                    Why does the sinner cling to the darkness
                of being frozen and locked in remorse?
                One who does not admit the truth about
                their sins and stays locked in
                anger and pride and deception –
                projects this disharmony on others
                and the world.

                    And there is an unsettledness of
                opposing God – no one can describe.

                    They can be screaming inside from
                that state of disconnection and on
                the outside making the isolated, disharmonious
                path they trod and blaming an innocent
                other for their self-made prison.
                Deception inside about oneself is
                an unsettling place to be – it is
                a place of ones own choosing where
                they could have lived in the truth
                and unity and knew love and connection –
                They convinced themselves – nobody
                is trustworthy and they should
                not feel what comes natural living –
                really living in the moment, connected
                to God and others –

                    but instead they chose disharmony
                and distrust of those God sent
                to them to work and love them and
                they heard the chains and darkness
                of the night and they invited this bleakness,
                opposed to God's will, to be their
                guest inside to share the enclosure
                of not trusting, not sharing,
                not loving and living and being not
                alive, but frozen, frozen in
                the past, in pain, in misery –
                clung to like a branch of a tree
                they held onto above a ravine far
                below them –

                Life is for living –

                The snow flakes really fall making
                a soft and beautiful wonderland
                in the dark night and the earth is
                covered with a mystical light
                even in the darkness.

                Jesus: Do you know what you missed
                    while you stood guard of
                    your heart so it became
                    frozen and closed off –

                How does a man who is blind know
                    what he missed seeing?

                A man who is blind, doesn't see,
                    so he doesn't know what
                    he missed seeing, not really –
                    and a man encased in his own
                    self-made isolating darkness
                    of the deadly sins – really
                    hates the misery it entails,
                    but many remained locked there because
                    of pride and failure to love or trust
                    those they need to reach out to –
                    Locked in a hidden tower, they
                    clamor at its darkness and
                    when I send someone to help them,
                    the man who keeps himself stuck,
                    says "go away man, I need no one,
                    I am invincible, don't you
                    see my superiority"

                Closing down in pride and anger and
                    jealousy and envy is a very
                    dark hole and in it is
                    misery, misery, misery, isolation,
                    boredom – for the connection to
                    God is in going out – is in
                    loving and giving and working
                    out problems.
                    The frozen man is very rigid –

                He is on guard against anyone
                    getting in –
                    like a frozen old tree, it
                    doesn't move, but stays
                    static – it is heavy against
                    the wind –

                When a soul is open to the Holy Spirit –
                    the wind blows and they are
                    ready to be as God wills them
                    to be – God is the author of
                    life –

                God paints the corners of the dark
                    night with the new fallen
                    beauty of a wonderful, white,
                    soft blanket of snow

                God is the artist –

                Man is the one waiting His favors –
                    the nights are still bright and
                    beautiful even in the struggles –

                The earth is clad in beauty and
                    light and man sees it –
                    he is not blinded by darkness
                    and locked in a dark tower
                    of his own choosing.

                Positive imaging –
                    Your minds can paint the picture
                    of beauty –
                    Your minds can be thoughts of
                        loving unity with others –
                        trusting those I send you to love
                        and working with others in
                        the building of My Kingdom.

                A boat was very small on the big
                    ocean but it was parked
                    close to shore with a heavy,
                    big anchor that was never
                    lifted.

                The ocean was vast and beautiful
                    and boats came and went around
                    the little boat – parked with
                    a heavy anchor –

                The other boats saw the sites –
                    day in and day out and
                    what sites to see with the
                    painted beauty of the ocean
                    and the beauty of the sky
                    above –

                The little boat with the heavy
                    anchor never left the landing
                    and it was jealous and envious
                    and mad –

                It just never saw anything at
                    all
                    while the other boats went out
                        every day – every day
                        and every day the beauty
                        was its own days beauty –
                        skies of red and golden,
                        skies of blue, sunlit skies,
                        star-studded, moonlit
                        nights – the ocean was never
                        the same – white - caps – waves,
                        calm, green and blues, oh
                        blues you never could imagine,
                        painted by the Creator daily for
                        that days splendor –
                        And the boats left the shore
                        they giggled as they went away –
                        to be led by the hand of God to
                        a new day's journey on the seas
                        of life –

                    God the artist –

                    The man the one waiting His favor –

November 4, 2013

Opening Prayer

In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Dear Father, we come to You in the name of Jesus, in union with Him in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass, in the Holy Spirit. We come to You united to the Child Jesus of Good Health and the Infant of Prague. We come to You in the perfect, sinless heart of Our Mother Mary, asking her powerful intercession, uniting ourselves to her holy tears. We come to You united to all the angels and saints, and the souls in purgatory.

Prayer for Holy Spirit

We pray for an outpouring of the Holy Spirit on us, to be baptized by the Holy Spirit, that He will descend mightily on us as He did on the Apostles at Pentecost. That the Holy Spirit will transform us from fear to fearlessness and that He will give us courage to do all the Father is asking of us to help bring about the Reign of the Sacred Heart and the triumph of Mary's Immaculate Heart. We pray for the Holy Spirit to descend mightily on the Jesuits and the Poor Clares on the Shepherds of Christ leaders and members and on the whole Body of Christ and the world.

Protection by the Blood of Jesus

We pray that the Blood of Jesus will be spread on us, everyone in our families, and the Shepherds of Christ Movement, that we will be able to move steadfastly ahead and be protected from the evil one.

Healing

We pray for healing in body, mind, and soul and generational healing in ourselves, in all members in our families, and in all members of the Shepherds of Christ Movement, the Jesuit Community, the Poor Clares, the Body of Christ, and the world.

Prayer for Strength and Light

We adore You, oh Holy Spirit. Give us strength, give us light, console us. We give ourselves entirely to You. Oh Spirit of light and grace, we want to only do the will of the Father. Enlighten us that we may live always in the Father's will.

Eternal Spirit fill us with Your Divine Wisdom that we may comprehend more fully insight into Your Divine Mysteries.

Give us lights, Oh Holy Spirit that we may know God. Work within the heart, the spiritual womb of the Virgin Mary, to form us more and more into the image of Jesus.

Prayer to Be One with God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit

We long for You, Oh Spirit of Light, we long to know God, we want to be one with Him, our Divine God. We want to be one with the Father, know Him as a Person most intimately. We want to know the beloved One, the Sacred Heart of Jesus, and live and dwell in Him at all times, every moment of our lives. We want to be one with You, Oh Spirit of Light, that You move in us in our every breath.

Prayer to Be One in Jesus

Let us experience life in the Sacred Heart of Jesus, so we can say as Saint Paul, "I have been crucified with Christ and yet I am alive; yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me...." Let us live, united to the Mass, all through the day being one in Him. Let us be able to love and know in this elevated state of oneness with our God. We long for Thee, oh beauteous God, we love You, we love You, we love You. We praise You, worship You, honor You, adore You, and thank You, our beloved God, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

Prayer to Dwell in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary

We seek to be one in God, to live and dwell in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, our little heaven on earth, to experience life in the all perfect, pure, sinless heart of our Mother. We want the Holy Spirit to move in us and to be united to Jesus as the Bridegroom of our souls and be a most perfect sacrifice offered to the Father at every moment as we unite in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass around the world to help in the salvation of souls.

Prayer for the Holy Spirit and His Gifts

Come Holy Spirit, come, come into our hearts, inflame all people with the fire of Your love.

Leader: Send forth Your Spirit and all will be reborn.
All:  And You will renew the face of the earth.

We pray for the seven gifts of the Holy Spirit, we ask for perfection in our souls to make us holy, holy souls likened to God.

Dear Holy Spirit, we give ourselves to You soul and body. We ask You to give us the Spirit of Wisdom, Understanding, Counsel, Fortitude, Knowledge, Piety, and Fear of the Lord.

Prayer for the Word Alive in Our Hearts

We know, dear Holy Spirit, the Word in His human nature was brought forth within the womb of the woman. We pray that His word will be brought forth in our hearts as He lives and dwells in us. We want the incarnation to go on in our lives. Dear Holy Spirit, work in us.

Little Prayers to the Holy Spirit

Dear Holy Spirit, help us not to be ignorant or indifferent or weak, help us to be strong with the love of God.

Dear Holy Spirit, please pray for our needs for us.

Dear Holy Spirit, help us to respect God and to avoid sin. Help us to live in the Father's will.

Dear Holy Spirit, help us to keep Your commandments and to respect authority. Help us to love all things as You will us to love them. Help us to want to pray and always serve God with the greatest love. Help us to know the truth. Help us to have the gift of faith, hope, and love. Help us to know what is right and what is wrong.

A Prayer for Intimacy with the Lamb, the Bridegroom of the Soul

Oh Lamb of God, Who take away the sins of the world, come and act on my soul most intimately. I surrender myself, as I ask for the grace to let go, to just be as I exist in You and You act most intimately on my soul. You are the Initiator. I am the soul waiting Your favors as You act in me. I love You. I adore You. I worship You. Come and possess my soul with Your Divine Grace, as I experience You most intimately.

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