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December 27, 2006
December 28th Holy Spirit Novena
Scripture selection is Day 2 Period I.The Novena Rosary Mysteries
for December 28th are Glorious.
Messenger:
I went to Church and I saw a program
from a young man who was 23 and died December 14, 2006.
He was beautiful, his picture was on the program —
his funeral was December 22, 2006.
And you say what a Christmas present for
his family. Life here is promised to no one —
we were created to get to heaven and love and
serve God for all eternity.
Loving and serving God here below and loving
God and one another, but our human natures
are wounded and even if we were baptized we give
into jealousies, envies, possessiveness — we handle
pain differently.
A child is not all bound up — when very young —
usually by wounds and abuse and they bounce
back rather quickly when disappointed — by
the time someone is 40 or 50 or 60 they may have
had many failed relationships they "heroically"
told themselves — didn't hurt them too much
because they were tough and keep creating a
situation they can act out the unfinished
business in.
People can go into another setting and set
up or try to set up the same situation as
the unfinished wounded one and begin trying
to work it out so they now become dominant
and winning.
Do we ever win when we act out unfinished
business on innocent others. Pain from past
hurt has a way to come out — some pain is so
bad people use alcohol, addictive behaviors
whenever they have to deal with it — and they
see themselves as doing some good, maybe —
work, charitable acts — nothing should be
done unless it is really God's will for
us.
To busy oneself in anyway — numbing
pain with some other task is to not be
available for what God wants us to do at
that moment.
Our lives are to be lived — not being
reactors to pain and others behaviors, but
to live in obedience and living as actors
doing God's will — promoting His kingdom as
He desires with the talents He gives us.
People do not set the plan for our lives —
even if we are in a marriage in the Church
and we must serve in that marriage — it
may be difficult because of difficult —
argumentative — others not rooted in God's will —
there are reasons — if the marriage is not
physically abusive or emotionally abusive in such
a way to warrant an annulment — then we
live as God wants us to — learning to build the
family up that He may have given us.
We are not victims — where one pushes
our button — then we kick somebody else —
then they hurt others and so on and so on.
We are responsible for serving God as
He desires according to His will.
Anger can be like a can that the person
habitually sprays when they settle into a
habit — they can use passive-aggressive
behaviors to try to get reactions out of
innocent others.
We live to do God's will — WHEN —
FIRST AND ALWAYS —
when someone blocks us — we try to
accomplish God's will as best we can —
realizing we cannot control others if
they are unwilling.
Controlling others can be an addiction.
If one is disempowered — they may have
taught themselves to run to get power
somewhere else. It is very immature and
blocks our spiritual growth.
Spiritual growth is dependent upon
living according to God's will in love.
Dealing with difficult others is a part
of life.
Relationships cannot all be dissolved
because Suzie was mean — we learn in
holiness to admit the truth — say we are
sorry (not justifying why we were right to
begin with when we acted wrongly) and
the other wanting to end a conflict, forgives.
Doing something wrong should be
addressed with contrite sorrow. Doing
something wrong and then trying to prove
you were right is paradoxical.
You can't be right and wrong at the
same time.
In today's society it is important to
many they look perfect. Their god becomes
their image — they do not realize our
human nature is tainted and we act
imperfectly — so to try to create an
image where we never "sin" or act
imperfectly is not truth.
1 John 1: 6-10
If we say that we share in God’s life
while we are living in darkness,
we are lying,
because we are not living the truth.
But if we live in light,
as he is in light,
we have a share in another’s life,
and the blood of Jesus, his Son,
cleanses us from all sin.If we say, ‘We have no sin,’
we are deceiving ourselves,
and truth has no place in us
if we acknowledge our sins,
he is trustworthy and upright,
so that he will forgive our sins
and will cleanse us from all evil.
If we say, ‘We have never sinned,’
we make him a liar,
and his word has no place in us.
December 27, 2006 message continues
Messenger:
A person can suffer tremendous wounds
and then try to control every one emotionally
around them — not even realizing how addicted
they are to control — or one may decide to
control another blocking the work that is
necessary for God's work to be accomplished.
We don't own anyone. A person who is
a priest, a religious gives willingly — for
this is their vocation. To not obey or really
subject oneself to their superior is like
having a wiggly worm inside — or like the
monkey jumping from limb to limb.
Past problems can be acted out on
innocent others. We must always be so
deeply connected to God's will for us. For a
religious person it is vital to have that
time at daily Mass and spend time in
adoration — so we are not doing
man-made ideas opposed to God's will
for us.
Prayer is so important because all day
we receive fragmented things in our lives —
some according to God's will — some not
according to God's will parading before us as
a good idea, but not good for our lives —
Charitable acts that consume our day can be
bad for one who is called to prayer, service,
being with their family and caring for them.
In that time when we receive Jesus at Mass and
sit with Him before the Blessed Sacrament He
can help us to see the will of God for us.
A person that carries, past anger, baggages
is carrying a load. Purity is found in dropping
the burial cloths that bury us and moving
on to the life of living saturated with
God's grace. We die to those things that keep
us buried in a dark tomb. We face the pain,
we let go — not try to control something else or
work to just get power.
WE ALWAYS WORK TO DO GOD'S WILL
Sometimes we suffer tremendously —
We do not act on something not God's will
because we experience pain —
we deal with the pain and
build the Kingdom as God desires —
We are actors —
Not reactors — controlled by events of
others around us who may cause us
pain.
God showed us how He hung 3 hours on
the cross — He carried the cross —
We must endure suffering and pray many
times —
Looking at the Bloody — face of Jesus as
Mary did on the way to Calvary
and saying "yes" to God's will —
This is not to say to endure sickness and not
go to the doctor when we need to —
this is to say that when we have done
all we can and have to suffer — we
do it with dignity —
We don't dump the cross on somebody
else's back and go off like we are
a free man —
Dumping to get a quick solution may
be really bad if our solution
is just a quick relief for pain,
but gets us into a bigger problem on-
down-the-line because it was
the wrong solution.
Some may say — like an alcoholic
like a workaholic
like a drug user
using cigarettes —
oh if I get a problem — I go to this DRINK
WORK
use drugs, etc.
You are reactors —
Who is in charge then —
Things outside you, people outside you
determine your behavior and
Soon — with addictive substances, anger —
people can be reacting to nothing to
get a cigarette, a drink — food
that is full of sugar — isolation to
be by oneself and do work they don't
need to do.
What is an addiction?
I know this when somebody — gets mad
and runs and "uses" and the other really
didn't do nothing —
they have something going on there that
isn't healthy behavior —
Not being attached to inordinate attachments.
Some people do that — if somebody makes them
angry — they run away mad and tell
somebody else or use alcohol —
cigarettes, etc.
Satan can control this unhealthy behavior
for his own evil work when someone should
be doing something important.
Knowing someone needs something
and then making them come and beg and hang up
the phone is using a situation when one
should respond with obedience and love — they may
do this to get control.
We are always living like little children
trying to please our Father.
I love the 7 sorrows. They show us
how Mary, sinless, said "yes" to God's
will —
YES GOD
YES GOD
People who are reactors to others
behavior, by using addictive means —
really hurts their spiritual life.
A child is taught obedience (the 4th commandment)
today many children are taught by the media
to be rebellious — prideful — self-focused
These are not being as God wants —
Jesus shows us how to be ACTORS —
living according to God's will —
He was an actor always
"THY WILL BE DONE"
To His death on the cross —
And Jesus loved —
Jesus loved His imperfect apostles
Jesus forgave sinners
Jesus was so generous — He gave us
Himself on the cross —
He rose and gave us a sharing in His
life in Baptism
He gave us the Eucharist
He gave us Penance
He gave us the Sacraments.
Jesus shows us He did the Father's will
Jesus shows us LOVE
Total emptying of self
Prayer for Union with Jesus
Come to me, Lord, and possess my soul. Come into my heart and permeate my soul. Help me to sit in silence with You and let You work in my heart.
I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I want to be selfless and only exist in You. Help me to spoon out all that is me and be an empty vessel ready to be filled by You. Help me to die to myself and live only for You. Use me as You will. Let me never draw my attention back to myself. I only want to operate as You do, dwelling within me.
I am Yours, Lord. I want to have my life in You. I want to do the will of the Father. Give me the strength to put aside the world and let You operate my very being. Help me to act as You desire. Strengthen me against the distractions of the devil to take me from Your work.
When I worry, I have taken my focus off of You and placed it on myself. Help me not to give in to the promptings of others to change what in my heart You are making very clear to me. I worship You, I adore You and I love You. Come and dwell in me now.
-God's Blue Book, January 17, 1994
December 27, 2006 message continues
Messenger:
If we do things to get things back for
ourselves, if we are possessive,
if we want what God doesn't
want — then we are going off —
Our life is a process of saying
"YES" like Mary
saying "YES" to the Father like Jesus
Adam and Eve sinned —
Adam and Eve did their own will —
Look at the jealousy of Cain
God told him —
Genesis 4: 6-7
Yahweh asked Cain, ‘Why are you angry and downcast? If you are doing right, surely you ought to hold your head high! But if you are not doing right, Sin is crouching at the door hungry to get you. You can still master him.’
December 27, 2006 message continues
Messenger:
Look at Joseph's brothers —
jealousy
JEALOUSY
you don't want to hear it — ?
We must want what God wants —
Every person doing as God wants —
Not possessing somebody for
selfish control —
We let God have the rule —
We surrender our lives — every day in
the morning offering uniting ourselves
to the Masses going on around the world.
We tell others we are sorry for what
we did —
We don't say —
I'm sorry, but you were wrong —
I am right and
now I am on top —
A whole act like that may be to turn
a disempowered person to power
over somebody else.
People that act against God's will are held
accountable —
we don't have to project anger on
innocent others or
try to get power from others if
someone hurts us —
We always want God's will —
We want other's doing God's will —
We don't want them to be
slavishly dependent on them.
Everything according to God's plan —
God has a plan —
We are to let every person work
God's Plan —
In this lies our peace
1) to be truthful to ourselves always
2) to not make perfectionism our god
3) to want God's will
4) to surrender in love to God's will
5) to say we are sorry — genuinely — recognizing
we are not perfect
6) to let God's grace fill our soul and live as St. Paul
says "I have been crucified with
Christ and
yet it is no longer I who live but Christ
who lives in me."
7) to not be reactors, but do God's will
8) to love God and others according to God's will
9) to not give into pouting, negative thinking
10) to be ACTORS — doing God's will
with enthusiasm serving
the King for the sake of souls
11) to let go of inordinate attachments
against God's will
12) to do all things for the honor
and glory of God
13) To be other focused
14) not blaming and giving into anger
15) to be a light
16) to give our hearts to Jesus and Mary
