Jesus:  I call you to renewal. I call you to repent. I call you to grow in greater love in Me. I call you to ask the Holy Spirit to sanctify you. I call you to pray more and more for My abundant life filling you. I want you to pray for vision that you will know the Father, Son and Holy Spirit alive in you, to be alive in the Spirit, that the Spirit of God is that which counsels you. But not the spirit of the evil one, seeking dominance for dominance sake, and greed and envy and jealousy, lust and the other woes that you have received in your wounded human nature.

R. Oh my God, we pray that You will help heal us in this rosary of those things that keep us clogged so we are empty vessels, in which You can fill with Your life, and that we know life in You more abundantly, in which we are lights in the world today. Oh God I love You so. I love You and I thank You for all that You have given to us here.

    

The Agony in the Garden

1. R. And He came as a little baby in the town of Bethlehem. He came in a crib, not adorned with gold and silver, but in poverty.

Jesus: Oh precious little ones, you are not as wise as you think, for in thinking you are wise, you may be missing the gift of knowing the wisdom of the Holy Spirit. It is the one that comes with humility, in wishes to be made knowledgeable about the things of God, more and more, that thirst after knowledge and insight into the mystery, that that person's heart is transformed.

    It is of one reaching for the beloved high above them, longing and loving, as one in love cannot give enough to the one they love. You are reaching higher and higher for Me, your beloved, wanting to please the Father in dwelling so deeply in that realization of how the Spirit is filling you and enriching your life. Oh little ones, you can choose the mud and you will not experience many fruits of the earth, but you can let go to the Holy Spirit. Let Him fill you. Let Him tell you more and more about the insight into the mystery of knowing God and your hearts will be gladden and your soul will be filled.

2. Jesus: And so you say, "Oh Lord this is a night of darkness - wa-a, wa-a, wa-a" And I say to you, "Have you meditated on the Carrying of the Cross and the Crucifixion? Have you looked at My face in the garden as I sweat blood knowing all the children that are murdered this day?" That you have forgotten so much about the dignity of life that you do not even mind to do as you have done to My precious little ones? How is it that you can kill a human life? I cry bloody tears for the atrocity of the murder of little babies this day.

3. Jesus: Make no mistake for your lives may become more and more difficult, as you give more and more to Me, but it is living in obedience, in living according to your vocation in love, in realizing that there are those over you that you must obey, that you will have the greatest happiness and that there will be order in your lives. But it is when you choose the disobedience that you are really enslaved to satan and there is much disorder.

4. Jesus: Once upon a time a man had an office, and he went into his office and he was called at once, summoned, to give an account of some very important materials, and immediately he was able to find those materials and to produce what was necessary for that moment. Another man went into the office. He had no order and he was given the same summons of important materials. He could not find any of it. He scampered around. He said how hard life was. He looked and he looked. He came up empty.

    The moral to this story is - when you lives are disordered, when you follow in the footsteps of the evil one, and do not follow in the footsteps of the Lord, those things that are easy to others are very difficult to you, because of your disorder and your disobedience, you create the confusion. You create the imbalance. You do not follow the structure. You do not have order and your cries are falling on deaf ears, for it is a mess of your own making. Who could come to rescue the man that sits in a pile of papers, none of which make any sense.

5. Jesus: In giving to you the Shepherds of Christ Movement, I have given to you a tremendous gift of tremendous order, tremendous ways of reaching the whole world with the consecration to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, the mighty medicine for the sick world. Where are your eyes and what is your focus?

6. Jesus: In suffering there can be great learning.

7. Jesus: A man had a big house in a rich neighborhood, and people would walk by his house and at night the lights would be on, and they could see in there. He had several attendants helping him to keep the order of the house. And the people from the outside were awed at all that he had, and how beautiful it truly was. They waited until nighttime to see the magnificent treasures that he held, and it was like opening a door to something so special in the dark night.

    You have been given by Me, the key to My most precious Heart on fire for the men I died for, and yet you do not come and even gaze your eyes upon such a treasure. You run down roads, many of you, that lead to nothing, nothing but briar bushes, thistles and old torn pieces of junk.

8. Jesus: Carry the cross with love, My people. Carry the cross with love.

9. Jesus: A man was told by his boss to perform a certain task, and given the directions that were the easiest way to perform this task. The man had a very bad habit of wanting to do every thing his way. Even if he had no way, his compulsion to be in control would come through, and not obey those that instructed him to perform any certain task. When the boss told the man what he was to do, the man immediately began to think of how he would do it and as the boss spelled out very direct directions, for how to accomplish the task with greatest ease, in the way in which others would be able to partake, and to build in other facets of the particular operations, the man was off in the mind of his own, that deemed to control and to do it his way.

    He performed the function immediately, completely the opposite of the way that he was directed. When the boss came to him, He said the way that you performed this is without any of the directions that I gave to you, and no one will be able to use your work, because you worked alone, you did it alone and you did not listen to anything that I said. The man in great anger decided that he then would perform other acts that would cause the boss much trouble, and so he preceded to be obstinate rather than to go along with the boss and to help him.

    For it was for this reason he was called. He performed more and more obstinate works, and things began to become confusing and disordered, one after the other, for every time he was asked to do a task, he would not listen to the directions, and began to figure out how he would do it his way, how he would perform the steps, and he would not listen to any of the directions given. All of his works were useless, for they were the works of a fool, they were the works of a man who performed things for his own vain glory. While the others in the institution waited and waited upon the chance to build upon what work he had done, all the thing he had done were just plain wasted.

10. Jesus: I sweat blood in the garden for I came to you the Son of God, to teach you how to live to please the Father. And there are so many today that will not even obey the commandments. Nor will they study the ways or the mysteries of the rosary, that tell them the real truth. And you say if I do it this way, then surely this will happen. And the way that you do it, may be very isolating and it will only cause others to do your work all over again.

    In recognizing how God is calling you to be a body, to work together, as the knee and the muscles, the ligaments, all those things that surround the knee, that help it to bend and to be so productive, all are vital and all must be exactly so. If one part is not right, the knee can be in big trouble, and will not function even at all. However, if the knee were to say to the parts around them, "Let me do it all my self, because I don't care about you." What good would that knee be all by itself?"

  

Jesus: Did you ever see the shoe shiners at the airport? They want you to come and they are ready to shine your shoes. And so you go to a somewhat high place, you sit there and you entrust to the man your shoe. A man had a very important business engagement, and he seldom had his shoes shined, but he had enough that he knew the ropes and what to do. He ascended the seat, he sat down and he gave the man his shoe. The man acting like he knew what to do, instead of shining his shoes the way he should have, made a complete mess of his shoes. He put some goo on the shoes that had nothing to do with polish at all, for he was trying to do it his way. He thought that his way would work. Soon he had no customers at all. Soon no one wanted to come to his shoe stand. Glory Be

  

The Whipping at the Pillar

1.Jesus: And it was a whipping. My friends, I was whipped. I was whipped for your sins. And My flesh was torn, and I stood by deeply wounded, wounded for the sins in which you meditated on how you could hurt another, for the sins where one ponders how to perform an evil act are far more in gravity than when one slips and does not really intend (premeditated) to hurt the other. Think of one that ponders and ponders for several day how to hurt others. It continues to grow in greater depth as one uses the mind that I gave him to love God and to love others for evil to his brothers.

    He allows the evil one to come in some impurity — be it jealousy or anger or whatever it is, and more and more, as one who is meditating on the mysteries of My life, he meditates on how the plan to catch others will be carried out. At the end of what he has done, he feels miserable because it is against the Father's will to perform these evil acts and to hurt others, since you were created to love God and to love one another, and when he feels this way, he then punishes others, because he feels so bad inside.

    When I was whipped, My wounds were deep, deep for the premeditation of those who plodded and planned to hurt others over time, who wanted to make another suffer. It was Me that you made suffer. It was Me that paid the price for your deep wounds, and your hatred and your anger — for I am love and I came and was whipped at the Pillar for your sins. And I called you to this earth this day that you would love those people on this earth this day, and that you would minister to them, that you would be a light, that you would be a model.

    And you said "No God, for I am too busy with myself in dark ways, and the more that I do them, the longer and the more complicated they become, so that the light becomes blacker and blacker and blacker. The times that I meditate longer and longer. You are using your free will to do evil, not freedom at all, enslavement more and more, to the evil forces that are pressing on you. You are giving in as one being numbed by some form of dental preparation, when they have their tooth filled. Satan comes and he gives you his Novocain and you say, "Come on, come on, satan, I like to be ahead of my brother."

2. Jesus: They tied Me to the pillar, My hands were tied. My body was tied and could not move. And with big whips and angry faces, they came and they smacked at My head and My head was torn with wounds and the blood ran down My cheeks. How is it when they are two-faced, when they say one thing, but they hide the truth from those that they were to help. How is it when your word is not true? How is it? To Me - I know it and the blood that was smeared all over My face. My cheeks were ripped with a medal strip at the end.

3. Jesus: I gave you a brain to do My work, to think, to help to promote My Kingdom. And you used your brain to tell yourself how high you were above others, to punish them, to raise to this higher position. You were prideful and arrogant and I cried "Stop it, My loved one, for I love you and I have called you to love. God created you that you would be an instrument of building a kingdom of love on this earth", and you said 'no' to My calls. You said 'no' to the commandments. You said 'no' and your life was filled with darkness, pain and suffering. And the more you filled yourself with this pain and darkness and suffering, the more you tried to unzip yourself and give it to others for it did not feel good in there.

4. Jesus: When you perform good acts, acts for the love of others, acts of light, acts that are pleasing to the Father, you are filled with light and when you provoke others, when you are cruel, when you have negative thoughts of judging others who have done nothing to you, but from your past pain, you are filled with misery and sorrow when you sin, sinning fills you with sorrow. Hurting others fills your own souls with sorrow and darkness. Why do you expect to disobey and feel good, for to act unloving you are not happy. You do not realize that happiness comes from a pure heart and for all eternity you will receive a reward according to how you loved and served the Lord. Vile acts drive you from Me.

5. Jesus: Many ways of the world are willful. I have called you to help in the renewal, so therefore, you must be obedient, living according to the Father's will and standing above those others that have given in to their wounded human nature.

6. Jesus: Giving in to their wounded human nature.

7. Jesus: Eve rebelled against God. Adam and Eve disobeyed, and today you suffer because of the Adam and Eve's sin. I have called you to live a life of holiness, but if you live according to the flesh you will not be happy at all.

8. Hail Mary

9. Hail Mary

10. Hail Mary

  

Jesus is Crowned With Thorns

1. R. Help me God to be holy, for I know that You loved me so, that they pounded into Your head a crown of thorns.

Jesus: Oh My child, there are so many, that give into their pride, that they seek dominance for dominance sake, and they lose the great gift that I am giving to them.

2. Sing: One little light in the darkness, then there were two, three little lights in the darkness

3. Sing: Be Not Afraid

4. Hail Mary

5. Hail Mary

6. Hail Mary

7. Jesus: They pounded thorns into My head and My head bled for your sins, for your sins of lying, not telling the truth, that hurt many from one little lie.

8. Hail Mary

9. Hail Mary

10. Hail Mary

   

The Carrying of the Cross

1. Hail Mary

2. R. Listen now. Do you hear the stones moving? Do you see the dirt? Do you see Jesus, His once kind of white tunic tied around His waist, becoming more and more pounded with dirt. And He drags the cross because it is so heavy, He can hardly manage it in any way. And He drags that cross and drags it and drags it, and you hear it and you hear it going. And then you look into His face and then you see the blood in His eyes and the crown of thorns on His head, and you say, "Why did I do it God, why did I do it? You called me and I knew in my hands I had this ability to help so many other people, but I just never saw it. I was so blind.

Jesus: And He says, "Well child, you were blind. You kept saying yes to satan" and I said to you, "Why are you saying yes to satan?" And you said "I did it my way." And I said Your way is not My way, why do you do it that way?" And you said, "I don't want any one telling me anything at all. And when I do it my way, Jesus I don't want You telling me a different way. I was enslaved to satan, Jesus. And when the end came near, I looked back over my life, 365 days a years, year after year after year after year after year after year, and I said - I was not obedience to the Father's will."

    Well My child, My head was crowned with thorns for all the times that you said No to the will of the Father, that you blocked the mission that I gave to you, that I asked you for a simple direction and you fought and you fought and you fought and you said, "I will never ever, ever have any one tell me how to do it. And nobody could work with you, for you didn't see yourself as a family or a community. You didn't see yourself as part of the body, the body that I wanted you to help renew. You saw yourself by yourself, and you fought to stay that way, and when I prompted you and I said, "Hey, this is about love, this is about unity, this is about commission in baptism, this is about obedience." You said, "Go away Jesus. I'll do everything I can my way and I'll fight Your way to the 12th hour."

3. Jesus: And I gave to you My mission to help renew the Church and the world and you said, 'No, no. No directions from you.' If you went and tried to get a job, would you say to them 'no directions from you'." And when they gave you a direction, would you punish them for doing that? Or would you just do something at all times to cause the confusion, that caused the disorder, that worked against what was so vital to help to bring down this grace, for the priests, the Church and the world. When I called, you said 'Nix to You God, nix'. But you did not see that you became more and more willful in your ways, more willful than even the world, the world that I wanted to renew, because the world was willful, and I called you to rise above and you became worse and you worked against Me.

4. Mary: And I watched Him, my Son, I watched Him as He carried the cross, and there was a crowd of people jeering at Him and laughing. Do you know what that is when you are laughing, at Jesus? Have you ever laughed at Jesus as you walked away, and said 'I win, I win.' 'Come along with me' you said, and I will have others united to become stronger in my right.

Jesus: But you did not see how your whole life was lived in this pulling back and not living in accord, pulling back in disagreement, arguing, saying 'I win', when in fact, you didn't win at all. My face was bloodied, My head was crowned with thorns. The cross laid on My shoulder until finally I fell under it, and it hit Me hard as I went down. I could not get up. And My Mother watched by, with a heart invisible pierced, and as she stood beneath the cross and watched Me die, you said, "I win, I win. I win." And you helped satan when I asked you to help Me reach My souls.

5. Jesus: When I gave you My love and My letters and I ask you to give them to others, you took them all for yourself and then you said, "Oh, enough is enough." You did not see how they changed your own life. Nor did you measure all the things that I gave to you from where you were when you first came to My Movement. How shallow your love relationship was with God, but you challenged Me and challenged Me again and again, and you broke My Heart for I gave you the greatest love.

6. Jesus: And you did these vices as habits. They were just a habit. And no one could address you, for your punishment was austere. Your discord became more and more disharmonious, and you yourself lived in the darkness of misery.

7. R. Oh Mary when you appear, you are so beautiful to me and you pray with us. And I know you are praying for the priests, the Church and the world. And I want this unity that Jesus has told me about for 17 years, way, way, way back when, and given me the understanding and ecstasies where He raised me out of myself to see how precious indeed it is that we can be united, and united to the Mass, and that our lives are lived just in loving God and doing His will, and they can help so many souls on this earth and as you appear to me in such beauty —

    Mary what do I do, for it takes the willingness of the heart to want to grow in that holiness. It takes that love of obedience, that we will live if we go to heaven for all eternity based on how we lived in obedience here, so much so, that Adam and Eve disobeyed, and we were all conceived, marked with original sin from the moment of conception, with tendencies of jealousy, and anger and envy, all of us human creatures but you Mary. All of us human creatures marked with original sin, but you Mary were not marked with original sin.

    And Jesus carried the cross, He carried the cross in obedience to His Father, to show us how to be the sons of God. And you stood by and you looked into His eyes, and as He looked at you, you saw the tears of the Son of Man, His wounds great across His cheeks and His face scarred from whippings, thorns and lacerations of evil men who saw nothing but evil. For the devil is relentless and when one turns in that directions, he presses harder and harder, to take that soul as far as they will allow him to go. But it is like a slide Jesus said, in the message that I received today, Like a child goes up the slide and sits on the top and with the slightest nudge he is down the slide and the person that gives in, in willfulness to satan, with the slightest nudge is down the slide, almost as if he is closing his eyes and going wee-wee, for the cry does not become one of joy, but one of great anguish, for the darkness is felt in the heart created for love, unity, order — and discord hurts in the human heart made for God.

8. Jesus: And I carried the cross to the hill of Calvary, and I said 'yes' to the Father's will to teach you about obedience and being the sons of God. And in your world today that is filled with so much disobedience I called you to help to be a light, to be an instrument that others would see your lives, and you would be a witness, and you reflected the ways of the world, so much so, that you were no different. And when I cried to you, you said, "Go away Jesus. We want it our way."

9. Hail Mary

10. Hail Mary

   

The Crucifixion

R. Heaven is a place that you can not even imagine. Oh Jesus, oh Mary after the 2,000 or so visits that I have seen from You, how can I explain one iota of what You have revealed to those that are jealous and smite me, and do not realize that what I deliver is a message from God and from Mary? So therefore they plug up their ears, and they do not help as they have been called, not by me, but by You. And she appears in such light and such beauty, and she prays as we pray, and her face is fresh and beautiful, and her hands folded and her eyes real, her crown lighted with jewels for she is Our Lady of Clearwater, Queen of Heaven and Earth.

1. R. Oh Jesus I want to see the light of Your face, and the radiance of Your Heart on fire for love of men. For in seeing so, it makes it ever more clear of Your enormous love for me, and for all of us here. What do we do with this building where Mary appeared and now appears to me? What do we do? If we want to please You, we do what You ask for, with great joy, for the sake of souls, for the ones that You hung on the cross to Your death, that Your hands were pierced with nails and Your feet.

    And today we know that the babies, the 1.4 million yearly, are having their little hands and feet crushed, within the sacredness of the human womb, of their mother. And how do you want me to speak to you after seeing Mary appear for 14 1/2 years, crying to me to deliver this message, and the resistance of the willful ones, to seek their own glory, and not help at all.

2. Jesus: It is not married single life here, nor a nursing home, nor a place that you landed. It is a place in which I have sent My letters of love and consecration to the far ends of the earth, to the hierarchy of the Catholic Church, and to which they have responded. It is My directions that I give My calling that I have given to you, My desire to tell you how I want it done. And when I go to you and I say to you, "My child", you are gone, on your own way, doing it your own way, a way that will not work. And when you find out it doesn't work yourself, you come and you punish others.

R. And He's appearing as I am saying this, all over the place He is appearing.

Jesus: And you find out that it doesn't work and in your pride you say, "but I was right. I was right and I will continue this path of trial and error, while I am speaking to you and I am telling you the sure way to advance, and you say, "I'm right, I'm right, I'm right. We will do it my way." Your way is the way of isolation. Your way is the way that does no one good. Your way is the way that is blocking the major things that will make My Movement move and do the work at hand.

R. (He is so filled with light and beautiful from head to toe, His Heart ablaze.) Oh Jesus, if I could do it more or better, if I could shout the message louder, if I could do anything to make it clearer, but it is not that I can do this any better than I have tried. For it is the evil one that presses in, in pride and selfishness. The disobedience of some to not even take a single direction, and when they do it the wrong way, and You tell me that this should be done this way, they punish, so that satan can move ahead more and more, and You are not obeyed, in the simplest matters that are so vitally important, the P. O. Box. Oh God I am so very sorry, for we spend hours changing the P. O. Box on all of the prayer manuals and books. Why was it done God? Help me God. Give the grace that is necessary, melt the heart that is hard.

Jesus: And I hung on the cross and the blood shot from the pores that were whipped, for I hung for 3 agonizing hours, and I ask you in China, to be in there from 12 until 3, to look at the mural to see as I hung on the cross, and to say, "God, we want to make reparation for the sins of the human race that are killing the babies that God the Father gave the life to. And you say, "Oh I must feed my dog or feed my face." — not as You have asked us, the rule of this ministry, the rule of this way of life. For it is that time for sure that I go to Mass. It makes me feel good to do it my way. "I did it my way."

    My child I know the ways that you have blocked the ways that I have asked you to operate, and they were foolish and caused others great suffering and pain, and when I addressed it, the confusion was greater than ever before, for in your arrogance and pride, you said, "Do not tell me and I will hurt you in other ways, so that I can do it in the future." How can I work in a movement to renew the Church and the world, to teach the Church and the world of the obedience, when there is such willfulness and lack of direction?

3. Jesus: I have called My Movement to help to bring back the order that God the Father called for, in giving the commandments, that the Word would be lived, that people would go to the Eucharist and thank God for the Church, and pray for the priests and the Church — for it is the priests and the Church, that can help bring this order to this world. It is My grace being out poured in the sacraments in the Churches, that can feed the people that have run amuck. And you say to Me, "Move over."
    This place is a place for My work to be done to reach the world, with the messages that I have given, the words that I have given in the books, the purpose of the Mass, the Morning Offering. My Mother and I have appeared in both centers and I want it known.

4. Jesus: I want you to go to Church and pray from 12 until 3, and throughout the whole time, do not bring any books, but meditate on how I hung to My death for love of you. Think about that, hanging, your body hanging for 3 hours, your neck - after your body is beaten and bloodied and bruised. And when you get finished, you read the writings in the front of the Mass Book, and you deliver the message about the Morning Offering, as I have asked and the consecration, not with a monotone, not with a denial of the importance, but with the heart that knows some of the pain that I experienced on the cross, for the souls I died for, and put you on this earth this day to reach.

    I called you in this vocation to be My servant, My handmaid, My apostle of My Sacred Heart, for you are My beloved, and I want you to raise the others up to knowing how precious indeed it is to be loved the way I love you. This is what there will be in the Reign of Our Two Hearts, to which you were called, not by My messenger, Rita, but by Me.

5. Jesus: The atrocity of the murder of the babies, is the blood on your country, on you who I have called, to pray with all your heart at these retreats, to pray for this atrocity, and tell your God you are sorry for the sin of this nation.

6. Mary: My babies, my babies of love, with little hands and little feet, massacred within the womb of their mother. And the woman says, "I have a life, and I have the right to do this, for I do not wish this child to be born, for it will inconvenience me. Children, small ones, that somehow get an abortion, and there are few babies for adoption. What is going on with you, my children? What is going on with you, my children? I am Mary, your Mother, spiritual Mo-ther, Mo-ther, Mo-ther - of my children. (R. And she is moving her mouth.) Mo-ther, (R. As I say this), Mo-ther. Mo-ther, My babies.

R. Mother, Oh Mother, Mother, Mother. What do I do next? You have given to me this commission, these messages all the way back in 1995 begging you to help me to reach the school children, to prove to people that what you say is the truth. Oh she is so beautiful, and she is so filled with light, and the crucifix is flashing on and off. Jesus is appearing as the Sacred Heart.

    Mary is covered with light - everything about her and I see her mouth moving, but what does she say? For the people that are the closest to me are the ones that are hurting the movement the worse. You must pray for all of us to be obedient, to this simple request of spreading the newsletter and the prayers and starting the prayer chapters, being Apostles of the Eucharistic Heart. The whole crucifix is illuminated, as Mary appears.

Mary: I am appearing in my building and Jesus' building of the Two Hearts. Every body wants it their way. In order to do the work that God the Father has called you, through my messages and the messages of my Son, you must be obedient to Our requests, and stop the willfulness. It is blocking important work that can help to bring to completion the mission I began at Fatima. Enough is enough.

7. Hail Mary

8. Hail Mary

9. Hail Mary

10. Hail Mary

Hail Holy Queen

The Memorare

Mary: I want you to spread the newsletter, to spread the Morning Offering, to spread the messages that will help the people to pray the rosary more and more. I want you to spread the Blue Book messages of my Son, Jesus. I want you to spread the audio and the writings of your founder, Fr. Carter. I want you to be obedient to these things, that you will give to the people what God wants them to have. It is in obedience in doing it with much love and conviction that many will believe and be helped, by this building here. It is with enthusiasm, with order, with obedience and peace — God will outpour His grace, and you will know the strength to do more and more, as He empowers you, as you do these things for the sake of souls.

    For praying for the priests, the Church and the world, for loving all, loving with your heart, for the mission that you do is out of love. The mission that you do is to help unify the world. The mission that you do is to help people to know about obedience to the commandments and to read the Word and to know about the Church, so that they will come, so that they will be baptized and go to the Eucharist, so that their families will be consecrated to the Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart, so that they will pray the prayers given to Fr. Carter, to honor Our Hearts, my Immaculate Heart and my Son's Sacred Heart.

Jesus: These are the directions that God has given. It is in your obedience and your love, in your love, in your enthusiasm, in your realization that the peace of the world will come, the more people pray the rosary, go to the Eucharist and spread the devotion in their homes, churches and schools to My Sacred Heart and My Mother's Immaculate Heart. Listen to Me. I am Jesus. I ask you to listen to My message and the message of My Mother. And I say to you, help Me do what God wants with this building, for it is important to the Father's plan. Help people to know that this is a special gift and sign from God.

R. Amen.