February 12, 2007

Colossians 1: 15-20

He is the image of the unseen God, the first–born of all creation, for in him were created all things in heaven and on earth: everything visible and everything invisible, thrones, ruling forces, sovereignties, powers—all things were created through him and for him. He exists before all things and in him all things hold together, and he is the Head of the Body, that is, the Church. He is the Beginning, the first–born from the dead, so that he should be supreme in every way; because God wanted all fullness to be found in him and through him to reconcile all things to him, everything in heaven and everything on earth, by making peace through his death on the cross.

Hebrews 11: 1-7

The exemplary faith of our ancestors

Only faith can guarantee the blessings that we hope for, or prove the existence of realities that are unseen. It is for their faith that our anestors are acknowledged.

   It is by faith that we understand that the ages were created by a word from God, so that from the invisible the visible world came to be.

   It was because of his faith that Abel offered God a better sacrifice than Cain, and for that he was acknowledged as upright when God himself made acknowledgement of his offerings. Though he is dead, he still speaks by faith.

   It was because of his faith that Enoch was taken up and did not experience death: he was no more, because God took him; because before his assumption he was acknowledged to have pleased God. Now it is impossible to please God without faith, since anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and rewards those who seek him.

   It was through his faith that Noah, when he had been warned by God of something that had never been seen before, took care to build an ark to save his family. His faith was a judgement on the world, and he was able to claim the uprightness which comes from faith.

 

Messenger:        Like a big tapestry being rolled
                            back, a drape over a
                            priceless statue —
                            the night sky was rolled
                            back, a crescent moon was
                            seen in the blue lighted
                            partially dark sky and —
                            oh, then it began to peek
                            in and out as the clouds
                            puffy and blue gray slid over it like
                            puffy feathers and then it would
                            be crescent shaped — disfigured
                            gone and back again in full view

                        Now the once Ohio River was a mask
                            of glass — covered with a bed of
                            white snow — it didn't look like
                            water at all, but was solid

                        Morning is now breaking — the crescent
                            moon will soon be put to bed until
                            night fall when it appears again

                        A mantle like the softest pale blue
                            velvet are the clouds and the light
                            is coming through like such
                            beautiful patches breaking in
                            a streaked sky —
                        velvet clouds and luminous light streaked
                            patches

                        Why when in Indiana, I see barn silos
                            now coming out of the sleepy
                            night and fences, barren trees and
                            lines and lines of telephone, cable wires
                            that were busy — some night long —
                            bringing all kinds of messages to the
                            snow roofed houses

                        The roofs here - covered with snow - and a
                            few casinos are seen like
                            lighted cities that never took notice
                            of the night —

                        So odd — the simplicity of white and red bricked
                            churches - covered with snow — the
                            very simple rural houses — a very
                            few pop machines — barn silos and
                            yes a big casino with pillars
                            lights and humongous garages —

                        It almost looks silly against little simple
                            farm fences — what is going on here

                        Cars on a rural highway can speed as
                            fast as ones on the freeway even
                            through the narrow pass should slow
                            them down.

                        Fields once covered with corn are now just
                            hard little sticks in the ground
                            peeking up over the snow covered
                            ground —

Messenger:       Now I want to focus on the earth —
                        Here the bridge I cross above the water is
                            showing me the stream of icy water below —
                            like a skating rink without skates and
                            patches of drifted snow landing on parts

                        Little old barns - are almost falling down, trailers
                            and such simplicity — why would
                            casinos of monstrous grandeur
                            have the nerve to move in on
                            such tranquility.

                            A night watchman is usually one watching when
                        most are asleep — is this not true —

                            Why are so many today carousing night long
                        ignoring the lights in the sky.

                            I just studied the gifts of the Creator and I
                        watched the day break — it is with such
                        beauty, but the carousers sleep when it
                        is light.

                            I have no answers for this day will unfold
                        and the Murphy bed will be put in the
                        wall for a good many who still follow the
                        ways of the day — In day we wake — in
                        night we sleep, but some, have turned
                        their days upside down so in night they
                        wake and day they sleep — burning the candle
                        sometimes on both ends.

                            Once upon a time, people left their
                        doors unlocked and didn't even worry that
                        someone could harm them.

                            Our T.V.'s are so full of fear — I walked
                        through and caught a little of an informative
                        show about how inmates were being treated and it
                        has disturbed my heart so very deeply — I wish
                        I never even would have lingered for a moment,
                        for I so want man to love each other and not to
                        hate or be inhuman to one another, but respect —
                        but where there is manipulation, judgementalness,
                        hearts filled with violence — there is violence
                        that can come from the man's heart inflicted
                        on others —

                            And yet school buses still come and pick up
                        little ones for school and what is discussed on the
                        bus for their little ears is not what it was 55
                        years ago when I was young.

                            Later I went through the room with a TV
                        again and I saw the awful fear again — this
                        time some parasite you could have gotten
                        in your body for life if you were ever in the middle
                        East and ate food. The pictures on the TV of the
                        parasite were movie screen size in high
                        density since that is how the TV is in the
                        family room today — I shuttered with real
                        fear — they were huge parasites that were
                        blown up on a monster TV and I have
                        been over in these countries less than 2
                        years ago.

                        I quickly left the room again with a heart
                            of fear wishing I had never seen it.
                            Does this run day long in some men and
                            children's eyes and they take it
                            in life size and are numb to it — do the kids
                            watch life size violence on the screen at
                            home and then get on the bus and use it on
                            other kids.

                            I remember when one of my grandchildren
                        was just born — they were in a pumpkin seat and
                        the noise on the TV made the newborn jump —
                        hands out and shutter — so little was the baby
                        I thought it couldn't move like that — then
                        the baby began to cry and cry at the noise —

                            Are we numb —

                            Why if "stuff" is so violent and makes us afraid
                        do we make our TVs so big they are like
                        movie screens and high density — you can count
                        the pores on somebody's face.

                            I see the beautiful bodies of water, I see
                        heavy people in churches up here and models in
                        churches down south —

                            We don't even look the same in our
                        churches — depending where we live.

                            I want the people to see the beauty of
                        the new day with the splendor of how God
                        painted the glorious morning — like a big dramatic
                        play — with only the sensitivity of God —
                        rolling back the morning with such dignity —
                        I see a casino — a castle — a big parking
                            garage - in the middle of nowhere —
                            a little rural town — silos — across
                            the street from "Valet Parking"
                            an old cemetery, rural fences on little
                            barren snow-capped hills

                            Are we seeing better on the big TV screens and
                        missing the morning splendor of the entrance God
                        paints for a new and glorious sky — to herald a
                        day of beauty on the earth — beauty that is —
                        right now — right now as I look —

                            The dream I had was a lady said
                        how do you get rid of that weight when
                        you have put so much on — a prophetic
                        dream because a lady called 6 hours
                        later and told me she had a message from
                        God she believed and she said
                        "Rita, you have become too fat"

                        So much for prophetic dreams

                        But layers and layers of fat are hard to take off —
                        but what of layers and layers of violence —
                            numbness — we have in our hearts
                            from these TV shows and movies —

                        I will never forget the graphic details
                            of the fear ridden shows I saw
                            on a big TV in my own living room —

                        I am so sensitive to God's nature because I don't
                            want to watch TV

                        I want reality — not men showing me parasites
                            as big as my head to scare my sensitive
                            heart —

                        I am not advocating every one turn off the
                            TVs — I want to make an awakening
                            to the sensitivity of dealing with
                            what is happening and my heart —

                            When I am in Florida — I see the vastness of
                        the ocean and I feel its magnificence and I ponder
                        the magnificence of the Creator —

                            I meditate on the gift of the Eucharist —
                        I act from what is happening NOW —

                            TO me — NOW —

                        I am in the reality of my space —
                            the people who are with me are
                            present — they are people with hearts
                            beating blood — I look in their eyes — I see their
                            hearts —

                            Babies look at you —

                            They want interaction — there is oneness —
                                there is connection — if you
                                don't play with them they
                                grab your legs — wipe their
                                noses on your legs and put up
                                their arms to be picked up —

                        I interact in a big way with a baby

                                They got eye contact —                       

                        On television — someone picks the agenda - to
                            sell you something —
                            a story —
                            a philosophy —
                            television has graphic details and experts —

                        Our children go from babies screaming at
                            violent noises — to grabbing at
                            our skirts for attention to -
                            some being hypnotized almost by willful —
                            selfish - disobedient violent cartoons and
                            if they don't get to watch much TV
                            they can go to school with children
                            with layers and layers of violence
                            with kids who have learned to "kill"
                            on video games —

                        Help me do what the Mother of us all
                            asks —

                        Mary is the spiritual mother

                        Are we filled with God's life in us.

                        Are we aware how close God is to us
                            in the Eucharist —

                        Are we letting men teach us on TV
                            through graphic detail the
                            ways of the world —

                        What is the beast in revelation

                        How can we unite in our hearts
                            the poor banished children of
                            Adam and Eve —

                        A man had layers of hatred on his heart —
                            he was tense — he tried to blame
                            his tension on others, but that
                            was all he knew — he thought
                            everyone was like him —

                        He judged others by his tainted vision —

                        We want the vision of God the Father —

                        The vision I had of St. Patrick and some
                            nun saints in heaven

                            There was love
                            They all had the vision of the Father
                            There was not competition
                            Think of how they saw before the fall
                                of Adam and Eve —

                        Vision —

                        My human nature is tainted

                        I want the vision more like God wants me to have

                        Vision —

                        What is Faith

                        Abraham

                        Vision

                            In the vision of heaven there was peace —
                        love harmony —
                            the poor banished children of Eve are
                        tainted — to watch shows with your eyes
                        with sexual promiscuity - gives you more
                        tainted vision —

                            To watch violence — more tainted
                        vision — kids shouldn't hit or harm
                        each other —

                            We are to obey God the Father, the commandments,
                        the Church —

                            The TV, cartoons can teach children to
                        dominate for dominating sake —

                            There is already a weakness to tension
                        because of the tainted human nature to
                        want to dominate against God's will
                        why teach little children all day in cartoons
                        about willfulness — disobedience — dominance —

                            Our vision is getting more tainted because
                        of the media —

                            We do not control the heart of the one
                        instructing us and they are or can be coming
                        from a very untrue source and then we can
                        say

                            I have no time to pray —

                            Religious and priests need time alone with
                                Jesus —

                        Why did God give us the experience of the
                            Garden of Olives

                        They slept and Jesus was sweating Blood

                            Today Mary is appearing —

                            The beast can be carrying off our
                        minds and hearts —

                            Our vision must be filled with light —
                        the things of God — we need to spend time
                        filling our hearts with truth — God's truth —
                        the Word, the Mass, the Eucharist —

                            The Pope's writings
                            The saint's writings

                        We have hearts created for God —

                        Here is a writing I wrote — not long ago

January 30, 2007

Messenger:

          

Subject: Mystery - Union with the Divine God

 

I reached to even try to grasp the sights of the ocean and I could not take it in.

I cannot take it in- the beauty of a child so beautifully carved by the hand of God.

The eyes of any human being- the intricacies to see-

Look at the mechanism the eye- to see; the ear to hear- the detail- the finest engineer- God

God in His infinite goodness lets us know weight and time -the finite years of our life on earth.

God allows man to be a co-creator in marriage to bring forth a marvelous child.

 

I reach to explain mystery and there are never any words that I speak to describe the depth of my knowing greater insight and depth into the Divine God.

But I reach as one who can scarcely-when seeing the vastness of the ocean-the ever changing tide-the beauty of the sky above it-constantly changing-

how numerous indeed is the magnificence of God- I can never describe for depth is non existent

 

If I go to the deepest ocean floor -I can finally find the end

There is an end

But even to the human mind there is an infinitude to our thoughts and comprehension.

We who have been baptized have this elevated knowing and loving capacity-

 

God gives a sharing in His life in baptism.

Insight into the Divine mystery.

 

Oh I ponder the oneness of the Trinity- to know more the capability of man to know unity- rooted in love

Oneness beyond our imagination of this relationship of Father, Son and Holy Spirit

but it is very real to me and unfolding in fullness-

studying what God wants for us men to be united

modeling ourselves after this magnificent community- the Trinity

 

I know the endlessness of my comprehending it - this "inexhaustible aspect"  is so real to me

my endless realization of the oneness of the Trinity

Thus I seek it so ardently-like one thirsting after treasure that they know they can find

 

Thirsting for knowledge of the unknown-the hidden mystery- and yet

having such a light of

its existence as so real to me that I can comprehend ever deeper this magnificent reality - I seek - I thirst -

My life lived to go deeper into this mystical marriage with God - Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

 

The existence of my not having comprehended greater depth is a real drive within me to be ever more deeply one in God.

 

Reaching into the abyss of this magnificent mystery is beyond my expression to even explain my thirsting for it, but my

God beckons me to write this to make it more real-  the existence of the hidden mystery and its endless knowledge in my soul.

 

Ever reaching-

Ever deeper-

That which has no depth-

and yet is the story of my soul-

 

The life here after in the beatific vision-

 

The existence of oneness of God for all eternity-

 

The existence of my life growing ever deeper in this reality of the Divine God.

 

I am not faint, but vibrantly alive in my expression of how deeply I comprehend the unconceivable reality of knowing the fullness of life for all eternity- and yet- I do not know it all

only a scratch of the surface of this existence of this magnificent reality in my soul.

 

I hurt, my heart, to see those wrapped in evil and giving expression to lead others to follow their sorted ways-

 

And yet if God did not love us so very much He would not have come-

but God is love and the love God has for us-too- we can never understand, but under a veil here below and then in heaven as He reveals this to us in varying measures-

 

but I am like a thirsty desert

a sponge

a hole waiting to be filled

 

do words exist and yet my God beckons me to speak about the ineffable

 

the reality of my knowledge as He has communicated to me in my soul through rapturous visions of His love for me

The vision in my soul December 15, 1995

I speak of in the Mass book.

 

This mission of the Shepherds of Christ to lead to this wider vision of what it is to be the spouse of Jesus.

what it is to know Jesus- the bridegroom of my soul.

To know relationship here below- mystical marriage with the Trinity- preparation for the heavenly banquet-

the marriage of the Lamb to me.

 

I go to the altar of my God and I receive Him.

 

He is so very real to me- my Divine Bridegroom- and He is so one with me

His Word lives in my soul

The Spirit so alive in my heart- that I know so very deeply my Divine God

I know each Person

I am in relationship- a personal relationship with each Divine Person

 

and I know so very deeply the ineffable reality of oneness of God- ever growing in me in deeper knowledge- that which I can never comprehend here below.

 

Rapture of my God.

 

Come away with me and taste the heavenly banquet He wants us to taste a little here below.

 

What does God want of His priests but this very special union to those He gives this gift of priesthood- persona Christi

 

Oh I know the wonder- the heights to be ever more filled in, as He removes the veil of those who seek Him and come begging to be saturated with His grace

 

Grace- life in Him- this to me is my life here below-

to make one my mission of deepest love with His precious souls as I lay down my life in service of Him

 

Walking behind Him through my life- my mother at my side- my life lived in greater oneness with Him

being more identified with Him in all things to be as St. Paul says

Galatians 2: 19-20

...I have been crucified with Christ and yet I am alive; yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me.

Marriage-what word could be used for depth of life in Him the Divine God

to me marriage is only a description- it is beyond words

but God uses this

and yet a marriage between two human persons can be so one with the Divine God, but can never in any way take the space and top priority of this sacrifice to be wrapped in this embrace with God

For we die and our love in heaven is in this relationship in the Beatific Vision and it is not like human marriage here below

 

Relationship between Mary- a human person is a model for us to know

relationship between us a human person and Jesus a Divine Person with a human nature,

 

I know what is in the inner chamber of my soul I wish to express- I know the endless love of the Sacred Heart- the red abyss of His infinite love

 

why would men choose evil with such goodness God wants to share with us.

 

Everlasting Happiness in heaven.

Messenger:       God has imparted to me this vision
                        God wants us to see with eyes unveiled —
                        God wants us to be focused on what heaven is like —

                        The vision is being given to us through so
                            much of the media —

                                argue
                                competition
                                be right
                                dominate
                                self-centeredness
                                everybody a chief —

                            St. Therese had her "little way" —
                            But she did God's will with her
                                holy heart —

                        God wants love of Him
                        God wants love of others

                        People with deep wounds can be so
                            inside of themselves — they are
                            always working on fixing their wounds
                            always trying to win an argument and be right
                                because the tension — sorrow
                                is in them

                        Tension — seeking dominance —
                            It says in the catechism —
                            Tension between men and women
                                seeking dominance

                        We must seek truth —
                        We must seek God's will

                        Trying to make ourselves right by fighting
                            with others over-us is silly —

                        We need to seek God's plan and
                            love

                        Unwrap layers of violence, hate
                            competition to be right for dominance sake —
                            that may have our hearts tied up —

                        We need to go to the Pure and Holy Hearts of
                            Jesus and Mary

                        Doing God's will in love is seeking
                            God's vision

                            In this lies our peace, our joy —

                        Tension comes from wanting our will
                            against God's will many times

                        Tension can come from insecurity
                                                            fears

                        On the other side can be numbness —
                            We don't ever think of the other —

                            We are so self-focused we can
                                become numb —

                            We have to let go to God —

                            Admit we are not perfect —

                            Drop the burial cloths

                        Put our tainted hearts in the Hearts of
                            Jesus and Mary.

                        Jesus' Heart is consumed with fire
                            to burn off our imperfect ways —

Messenger:       We must let go of pride to think we
                            are perfect —

                        God wants us to love —
                        Give in love —

                        The devil wants people to dominate for
                            dominance sake like Eve

                        The devil wants people self-focused
                            rather than other focused

                        The devil wants us to think our
                            vision is "THE VISION"

                        Think we should change — everybody
                            else should change

                        The VISION is God's

                        The devil wants us blaming
                                each other —
                                hating
                                isolating and not sharing when we
                                    need to

                        We are at battle

                        Mary tells us the Vision of God —

                        The Spirit leads the way —

                        There is the Holy Spirit

                        There is the evil spirit