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February 16th Holy Spirit Novena
Scripture selection is Day 7 Period II.

The Novena Rosary Mysteries
for February 16th are Joyful.

February 15, 2007

Messenger: I sought His vision and I saw as one looking through a clouded glass.

The vision of one from original sin whose vision was impaired.

The vision of one who did not see clearly when looking at God

looking at oneself, or looking at others.

So I proceeded to seek with clearer vision praying ever more to the Holy Spirit and centering my life in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary-living out more deeply my baptismal vows.

For I am forever grateful for the sacraments-and the gift of baptism that makes me a child of God and an heir to heaven if I but serve Him as He intends me to do and die in His grace.

But for me it may seem as a stumbling block to even express this and yet the reality of which I speak is so very real to me and the vision ever more clear like one trying on corrective lenses at the eye doctor when he says "is this better" "is this better"

and we try them on like we do focusing on the spiritual life

testing the more full life we know in Him in our hearts

"Is this Better", "is this better"

I know His word ever more alive in my heart and he fills me with vision-not earthly vision, but the vision of the Creator

God whose plan is the Plan of the saints for all eternity.

For although we have many talents and many different paths-the Plan of the Creator is the rule of the Father -of the saints for all eternity

and in this lies the harmony and accord of heaven-one will-one Plan one song to be sung

and so God has asked us in the Shepherd's of Christ to help renew the Church and the world-to pray for the priests and my God makes it so very clear to me the way from my house to China, Indiana is the way along the River.

So I go there and many trips I took some daily with Fr. Carter when I saw so clearly as we traveled along the winding tree lined hills-the different seasons

a beauty that is never seen in the city and maybe once weekly along the river and he would say it will be a sunny day.

For to him God had presented the vision and he knew well the works of the Creator

but to me He had lifted me up so very many times and showed me with eyes unveiled His magnificent glory and I wanted to stay in that ecstatic embrace, but it was some times so very fleeting-sometimes He allowed me to linger and comprehend more than others, but my soul was touched with the painting of His marvelous hand like the image He painted for us to see in Clearwater.

It was merely an extension of the visions I saw daily of Our Lord and Our Lady, but the message was etched on my soul like one hammering His truth within me to write of vision this day.

Like a blind man I reach for one word to express it succinctly and I can find that word and the sky of His love-His Plan opens before me and I can more vividly express that which seems ineffable to me.

The reality I speak of in the message of that day

January 30, 2007

Messenger

Subject: Mystery - Union with the Divine God

I reached to even try to grasp the sights of the ocean and I could not take it in.

I cannot take it in- the beauty of a child so beautifully carved by the hand of God.

The eyes of any human being- the intricacies to see-

Look at the mechanism the eye- to see; the ear to hear- the detail- the finest engineer- God

God in His infinite goodness lets us know weight and time -the finite years of our life on earth.

God allows man to be a co-creator in marriage to bring forth a marvelous child.

I reach to explain mystery and there are never any words that I speak to describe the depth of my knowing greater insight and depth into the Divine God.

But I reach as one who can scarcely-when seeing the vastness of the ocean-the ever changing tide-the beauty of the sky above it-constantly changing-

how numerous indeed is the magnificence of God- I can never describe for depth is non existent

If I go to the deepest ocean floor -I can finally find the end

There is an end

But even to the human mind there is a mystery to our thoughts and comprehension.

We who have been baptized have this elevated knowing and loving capacity-

God gives a sharing in His life in baptism.

Insight into the Divine mystery.

Oh I ponder the oneness of the Trinity- to know more the capability of man to know unity- rooted in love

Oneness beyond our imagination of this relationship of Father, Son and Holy Spirit

but it is very real to me and unfolding in fullness-

studying what God wants for us men to be united

modeling ourselves after this magnificent community- the Trinity

I know the endlessness of my comprehending it - this "inexhaustible aspect" is so real to me

my endless realization of the oneness of the Trinity

Thus I seek it so ardently-like one thirsting after treasure that they know they can find

Thirsting for knowledge of the unknown-the hidden mystery- and yet

having such a light of

its existence as so real to me that I can comprehend ever deeper this magnificent reality - I seek - I thirst -

My life lived to go deeper into this mystical marriage with God - Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

The existence of my not having comprehended greater depth is a real drive within me to be ever more deeply one in God.

Reaching into the abyss of this magnificent mystery is beyond my expression to even explain my thirsting for it, but my

God beckons me to write this to make it more real- the existence of the hidden mystery and its endless knowledge in my soul.

Ever reaching-

Ever deeper-

That which has no depth-

and yet is the story of my soul-

The life here after in the beatific vision-

The existence of oneness of God for all eternity-

The existence of my life growing ever deeper in this reality of the Divine God.

I am not faint, but vibrantly alive in my expression of how deeply I comprehend the unconceivable reality of knowing the fullness of life for all eternity- and yet- I do not know it all

only a scratch of the surface of this existence of this magnificent reality in my soul.

I hurt, my heart, to see those wrapped in evil and giving expression to lead others to follow their sorted ways-

And yet if God did not love us so very much He would not have come-

but God is love and the love God has for us-too- we can never understand, but under a veil here below and then in heaven as He reveals this to us in varying measures-

but I am like a thirsty desert

a sponge

a hole waiting to be filled

do words exist and yet my God beckons me to speak about the ineffable

the reality of my knowledge as He has communicated to me in my soul through rapturous visions of His love for me

The vision in my soul December 15, 1995

I speak of in the Mass book.

This mission of the Shepherds of Christ to lead to this wider vision of what it is to be the spouse of Jesus.

what it is to know Jesus- the bridegroom of my soul.

To know relationship here below- mystical marriage with the Trinity- preparation for the heavenly banquet-

the marriage of the Lamb to me.

I go to the altar of my God and I receive Him.

He is so very real to me- my Divine Bridegroom- and He is so one with me

His Word lives in my soul

The Spirit so alive in my heart- that I know so very deeply my Divine God

I know each Person

I am in relationship- a personal relationship with each Divine Person

and I know so very deeply the ineffable reality of oneness of God- ever growing in me in deeper knowledge- that which I can never comprehend here below.

Rapture of my God.

Come away with me and taste the heavenly banquet He wants us to taste a little here below.

What does God want of His priests but this very special union to those He gives this gift of priesthood- persona Christi

Oh I know the wonder- the heights to be ever more filled in, as He removes the veil of those who seek Him and come begging to be saturated with His grace

Grace- life in Him- this to me is my life here below-

to make one my mission of deepest love with His precious souls as I lay down my life in service of Him

Walking behind Him through my life- my mother at my side- my life lived in greater oneness with Him

being more identified with Him in all things to be as St. Paul says

Galatians 2:19-20

...I have been crucified with Christ and yet I am alive; yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me.

Marriage-what word could be used for depth of life in Him the Divine God

to me marriage is only a description- it is beyond words

but God uses this

and yet a marriage between two human persons can be so one with the Divine God, but can never in any way take the space and top priority of this sacrifice to be wrapped in this embrace with God

For we die and our love in heaven is in this relationship in the Beatific Vision and it is not like human marriage here below

Relationship between Mary- a human person is a model for us to know

relationship between us a human person and Jesus a Divine Person with a human nature,

I know what is in the inner chamber of my soul I wish to express- I know the endless love of the Sacred Heart- the red abyss of His infinite love

why would men choose evil with such goodness God wants to share with us.

Everlasting Happiness in heaven.

end of January 30, 2007

but it is of this I speak of knowing the reality of not knowing what I seek and the searching for ever depth into the Divine mystery

Yesterday the scripture was what I had full vision of before I got to Mass so thus I would like to put yesterday's scripture here

Genesis 8: 6-13, 20-22

At the end of forty days Noah opened the window he had made in the ark and released a raven, which flew back and forth as it waited for the waters to dry up on earth. He then released a dove, to see whether the waters were receding from the surface of the earth. But the dove, finding nowhere to perch, returned to him in the ark, for there was water over the whole surface of the earth; putting out his hand he took hold of it and brought it back into the ark with him. After waiting seven more days, he again released the dove from the ark. In the evening, the dove came back to him and there in its beak was a freshly–picked olive leaf! So Noah realised that the waters were receding from the earth. After waiting seven more days, he released the dove, and now it returned to him no more.

   It was in the six hundred and first year of Noah’s life, in the first month and on the first of the month, that the waters began drying out on earth. Noah lifted back the hatch of the ark and looked out. The surface of the ground was dry! In the second month, on the twenty–seventh day of the month, the earth was dry.

   Then Noah built an altar to Yahweh and, choosing from all the clean animals and all the clean birds he presented burnt offerings on the altar. Yahweh smelt the pleasing smell and said to himself, ‘Never again will I curse the earth because of human beings, because their heart contrives evil from their infancy. Never again will I strike down every living thing as I have done.

    As long as earth endures:
    seed–time and harvest,
        cold and heat,
    summer and winter,
        day and night
        will never cease.’

Psalm 116: 12-13, 14-15, 18-19

What return can I make to Yahweh
  for his generosity to me?
I shall take up the cup of salvation
  and call on the name of Yahweh.

I shall fulfill my vows to Yahweh,
  witnessed by all his people.

Costly in Yahweh's sight
  is the death of his faithful.

I shall fulfill my vows to Yahweh,
  witnessed by all his people,
in the courts of the house of Yahweh,
  in your very heart, Jerusalem.

Mark 8: 22-26

   They came to Bethsaida, and some people brought to him a blind man whom they begged him to touch. He took the blind man by the hand and led him outside the village. Then, putting spittle on his eyes and laying his hands on him, he asked, ‘Can you see anything? The man, who was beginning to see, replied, ‘I can see people; they look like trees as they walk around. Then he laid his hands on the man’s eyes again and he saw clearly; he was cured, and he could see everything plainly and distinctly. And Jesus sent him home, saying, ‘Do not even go into the village.’

But today being the Feast of St. Claude I did not wake myself to begin typing this revelation -I really was given yesterday and as I slept

One became so very clear of our vision of ourselves

how deeply that vision of ourselves is tainted

and yesterday I saw so clearly vision

For man comes tainted into this world and with the concupiscence of the flesh his vision of God, himself, others is tainted even though he has been baptized he has a tainted human nature

But that which distorts man's vision, Fr. Pasquini says, is to sin

but I further incur that the wounds, the lessons learned from our family that were not all perfect

the lessons learned from others at Church or school

that were not all perfect

the lessons learned from society that was not perfect

Lessons learned in general must be routed in the truth-for all of us have a responsibility to carry out the truth when instructing man of God's vision for him

and too many teachers because of pride-lessons from the media, what ever do not realize the enormous responsibility to live in the truth among sinful men and to seek the truth and to teach the truth

not to -because of pride - try to be like God without God

focused in pride to be dominate in a conversation-so much as to stretch things when talking to others to try to be sensational and showing them how smart they are.

The vision is the vision of God - pure and simple

The purpose to help men to see this vision more and more with eyes unveiled

To me He has imparted insight into His Divine mysteries as one looking at the sky when it is lightening and one sees glimpses of His truth and one wants to see and as quick as the lightening may show the tree tops and power lines on a dark night

the night is sealed off again by the darkness of the night and our eyes are left aching to see

To me everything about God is so very important

every detail as when He lifts me up and in a split second revels His truths in my heart

And as I speak of this to tell others-the details of life have clouded their hungering for His truths or blinded them so very much they can argue with me about "shoe strings" in an attempt for dominance or because of the tension in them and how it seeks resolve.

But God acts in structure and God has paved the way for one who is open to see

God imparts to us great knowledge of knowing Him and we close our eyes like the apostle who slept in the garden while Jesus sweat blood

Imagine that God is sweating blood because of the anguish-the angel appears and shows Him a chalice

and the apostles are sleeping

Three times He goes to them and asks them can you not stay a wake

and three times they fall asleep

We are reminded by God over and over again and He goes to us and we close our eyes many times when He wants to reveal to us the mystery of our own lives.

Closing our eyes to the truth God may impart to us if we were not so focused on our agenda and consumed with pride thinking we know it all.

A Prayer for Intimacy with the Lamb, the Bridegroom of the Soul

Oh Lamb of God, Who take away the sins of the world, come and act on my soul most intimately. I surrender myself, as I ask for the grace to let go, to just be as I exist in You and You act most intimately on my soul. You are the Initiator. I am the soul waiting Your favors as You act in me. I love You. I adore You. I worship You. Come and possess my soul with Your Divine Grace, as I experience You most intimately.

Yes I am the soul waiting His favor

I am open I am docile

I am ready for His favors

I pray for this

I am consumed with wonder having tasted insight into His hidden mysteries.

So God gives me all these writings and insights since 1991 and Mary appears in Clearwater without eyes when for 2 years previous all I was given to write about were such things and seeing through the eyes of Mary.

For me the Good Shepherd Chapter of John is after the Blind man.

God through our prayers in the Shepherds of Christ can help the world to see with eyes unveiled through the Priestly Newsletter and these writings.

God is the ultimate mystery and God has revealed to us insight into the hidden mysteries.

At times when God would give me my daily writing-I felt as if I had been lifted up and I was walking above this earth.

I was in His world.

As God wrote to me in the Blue Books daily -I was told of His vision-so when things get us down in this secular world-we could all open up the Blue Book and see with His vision.

The Scripture imparts to us God's vision.

When I would be given God's vision in the beginning and I knew it was what He said

I would find solace at the Mass to hear the Word of God-for the vision matched what He had said to me.

Now about having a vision more and more like God's.

God works in structure.

God gives us the Church.

God gives us His Word in the scripture.

God gives us His vision.

God fills us with His life-His grace-He penetrates our heart and our soul.

Vision-we impair our vision

We blind ourselves with sin.

Look at Adam and Eve and what happened because of their sin.

We hurt our vision when we hold onto pride and think we have perfect vision-we can stop seeing more clearly.

We are filled with tainted vision when we seek dominance for dominance sake and spread untruths out of foolish pride to dominate.

we will be held accountable for what we do to teach others when we veer from the truth because we want to dominate and look smart.

We must seek to drop the burial cloths and to be docile like Mary is full of humility-full of God's life

Grace fills us and our vision is made more clear

communion, adoration, confession, good works

but we drink at the fountain He gave to us in the Church and are so richly saturated with His grace

We are thirsting until we are filled more and more with His life and we seek the Kingdom of heaven

God feeds us with His Body and His Blood.

I am a person God has asked to write of these things that were not revealed as to this extent by many others and it is as the Shepherd's of Christ spread through this earth-God will open their eyes as the consecration spreads on the earth as Mary asked for at Fatima.

And the children of Mary as they go to her Immaculate Heart SEE because God outpours His grace and we can see with the light of seven suns.

The Eucharist in which we are saturated more with His life His vision.

The Mass is the summit of the Church's life.

The gift of consecration is a deepening of the baptismal vows of baptism

where by man in going to Mary's Heart is brought for a child of light as the Holy Spirit works in her precious spiritual womb enlightening the children of Eve to be brought forth children of light.

Consecration to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary takes one more and more into Their Heart so we are more likely to do the will of the Father-live according to His Plan.

The vision I had of heaven was that of purity-

all were living according to His Plan

only one Plan

no competition

no jealousy

no envy in heaven

no tainted human nature

one accord-being wrapped in the Divine God

Our Quest for happiness.

Going to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary our little heaven on earth.

The ultimate consecration for greater purity at Mass-as members of the body of Christ being united to the Masses in our lives laid down for the sake of souls and for our own salvation.

Living according to His vision -

being a member of the body of Christ

The morning offering

living out our baptismal commitment-

laying down our lives as members of the body of Christ united to the Mass

1) Morning offering

2) Consecration

and the Holy Spirit gives insight to the blind

in meditating on the mysteries of the rosary

because He (Holy Spirit) works in marvelous fashion enlightening the souls when they pray the rosary

The Rosary-the prayer of Mary and the Holy Spirit

The consecration-the giving of ones life to Jesus and Mary

The Litanies in the Shepherds of Christ prayers-

Honoring God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit.

The Mass-the prayer to the Father

the perfect sacrifice through the hands of Consecrated priest

the sacrifice of Calvary Sacramentally made present.

I feel I have said little of what has been revealed to me about vision and yet again that of which I desire to speak has taken a new turn.

As we all have a vision, but we can be so locked up as at the time of Noah they did not have the vision or God would not have done what He did in trying to purify the earth.

If one says my vision is right and tries to change the world to their tainted vision with force ignoring structure as God intends giving into the weaknesses of the human nature-one puts a nail in a box that later needs to come out to get to the treasure found in the human heart and if one is a teacher or out in the world writing one further contaminates the world.

For every act we perform is not without consequence-like every prayer we pray to the Lord for we are all members of the human race and we owe God reparation for our offences against Him.

The Holy Mass is this tremendous gift God gives to man to offer God ourselves-at Mass and united in the morning offering.

This is the Newsletter-one of two Fr. Carter told me to put out after His death.

this part is sent in separate copy-the other Newsletter of us being the Spouse of Christ-the Bride of Christ I will enclose later.

With the Newsletter part sent in separate copy was included Fr. Carter's most powerful writing on grace.

It is vision Vision God is revealing to us about His Plan to help renew the Church and the world

Through consecration and living more deeply as members of the body of Christ.

Vision-Vision Vision