March 13, 1998

Sorrowful Mysteries

1. Jesus: How is it in your family, My beloved shepherds? How is it in your world? Are you rejected by those at work? Do you feel as if you are alone? For I was alone in the garden and My Apostles, they slept. They did not come to comfort Me. How do you feel since you have become a shepherd? How is it? Your children, have they abandon you? Do you know that you are not alone? Although you may feel alone, but the world is not like you. For the world has made the devil their god. I am not like the world and you are not like the world. So therefore, you feel estranged from the world. You feel separated. You feel isolated. And you go to the top of the mountain and you go to Mass, and you are raised to the highest heights in Me. And you go out and the world is oh so different than what you have experienced in the Mass. I have given to you, My shepherds, the greatest grace, and I speak to you.

R. This is from the Gospel of John: The World’s Hatred. If the world hates you, you must realize that it hated me before it hated you. John 15:18

R. This He spoke soon before the agony in the garden. This He spoke in John’s Gospel after the Last Supper discourse. Now think of Our Lord, for He knew everything that He was about to undergo, and He knew that the apostles would run and He knew how the world would treat Him this day and He knew that He would go to His death and give Himself so that they would have this sharing in eternal life. And so, with all these, after the Last Supper, this is what He said: The World’s Hatred: “If the world hates you, realize that it hated Me first.” All through this, we read how they were going to kill Jesus, how they had to go from here to there because they wanted to kill Him. Are we following in His footsteps? And Jesus speaks:

Reference John 15: 19-21

R. I feel so close to the Father. For in this Movement, since the beginning of the Blue Book messages, I learned to know and to love Jesus. I know I was close to the Holy Spirit, and I know that I learned to grow in the greatest intimacy with Jesus. But ever since that Father’s message in January of 1997, this oneness of living in Him in Jesus has been so great in my life in realizing my oneness with the Father, that when we pray it, it makes me cry sometimes because I love Him so much. This is what He has done. We have been given this great intimacy with the Father by knowing Jesus.

Reference John 15: 20-21

R. That’s what I just keep seeing, always referring back to the One that sent Him.

Reference John 15: 22-26

R. This is what we are here for - to put forth the truth, to testify to the Word of God that the truth will be brought forth in all of our dealings. This is the Shepherds of Christ Movement - to always operate in the truth according to the Word and the commandments.

John 15: 26-27

the Spirit of truth who issues from the Father, he will be my witness. And you too will be witnesses, because you have been with me from the beginning.

R. When the tabernacles are moved, when people do not realize what God is truly saying in His Word, when we realize that He wants to be loved, when we realize the great gift that is in the Mass and we speak about it, we are testifying to the truth that God is alive and truly present, the King of all kings, the King of Glory, Our Lord, Jesus Christ.

Song: A Song from Jesus

Song: Jesus, I love You

2. Song: Jesus, I love You

3. Song: I Rocked Him as a Baby

4. Song: I Rocked Him as a Baby continues

Mary: I have come to you, my little children. For I am Mary, your Mother and I come to you on this 13th with a special message. I know the grief in your own hearts for your children that have gone their way. But do you know the grief in my heart as I stood beneath the cross and I cried for my little children of this world that would lose their souls despite my Son and His suffering? I feel the pain for the children of this earth, my little children. How is it with your own children? Do you understand as your Mother that I appear on the building in Florida, the Lady clothed as the sun to lead the children to the Light? He is the Light of the world, my Son, Jesus. He comes to lead the light home and they do not know for they have plugged up their ears and they will not listen and they are blind, blind and dense. Do you know what it is to be blind that you do not see? Let us think about blindness at this moment, my children. The blind man does not see. This is how it is for so many. For they will not look beyond. They give themselves messages in their hearts that they are right when they do their own wills and they tell them, many religious people, that they are doing the will of the Father.

There are so many on this earth that are blind. Will you lead them to the Light? For in a moment, they can be given a grace and the sky opens up and with the light of seven suns, you see with the greatest clarity the insights into the mystery of God. And you think and you think and you think; it is not in the heads! It is in the hearts! My children, I ask you to lead the souls of this earth into the Heart of my Son, Jesus. For it is there that they will know Him most intimately in His Word. It is so sad, for they are so willful; they will not listen to me. For I told them at Fatima and they ignored the message that I gave to them, my little children of the earth, and how they will suffer soon, for they did not listen to me when I warned them. And I appear now, Mary, your Mother, the Lady clothed as the sun, to lead the children to the Light - my Son, Jesus. I ask you, again, to make all attempts to secure the building in Florida to lead the children to the Light. I am the Lady clothed with the sun and behind my image, I wish the exposed Eucharist, my Son, Jesus. I give to you Jesus, the Light of the world.

Song: I Rocked Him as a Baby

Mary: I am Mary, your Mother and I speak to you, my children of light.

5. R. And what was the Prayer of Jesus immediately before He was to be arrested? What was His prayer to this earth? And He says:

Reference John 17: 11-17

R. This is our mission in the Shepherds of Christ - to live in the truth. This is why Our Lord is so strong in what we do. We have a special mission from God to help to renew the Church and the world. It is a mission given to us as lay apostles. You can be an associate. You do not have to be a lay apostle. But it is to the lay apostles that He will speak so frequently in these rosaries. And it is this issue that I address. Why the seriousness? Why the harshness? Why? What we are given the mission to help to renew the Church and the world in truth. He wants us using this material. For He is teaching us about our mission. The Franciscans follow the Franciscan format. There are directions. They do not go to the Jesuits and the Poor Clares and all the other religious organizations.

This is a most directed mission given by Our Lord to help to bring the world into one fold. He is the Good Shepherd giving His word to lead the flocks into oneness. Our mission is oneness. It is oneness to which I speak. It is oneness to which I know from the experiences He has given to me in the Mass. January the 20th and the 21st of 1996, from that point on, it is great suffering to have division in our presence. You feel this. You have grown more one and one in Him in this consecration. We consecrate our hearts all through the day. We go more and more into this oneness. And when there is division it is tremendous suffering to be there, for our hearts are in Him and He wants oneness. Our whole goal is to be one with the Trinity. Our goal is eternal happiness in heaven! It is oneness that we seek. We are going more and more into His Heart. We know oneness in Him. Division bothers us tremendously. Our families are divided. Our workplaces are divided. Our Churches are divided. Our world is divided. And so we live in our little cocoon, the Shepherds of Christ. But we must love those that we are divided with, for God loves all. And it is in this love of all, despite the division, that we will have the fullness of life in Him.

I cannot go to the tabernacle and sit there all day by myself and say this is it, maybe, maybe a hermit, maybe a monastic life, one that prays all day for the world. But we, as shepherds, are being told to deal with these people. He has instructed us for one hour of adoration daily. If you are a shepherd apostle, you cannot do it unless you have that grace. For the devil wants to pick us off. But it is our focus to bring the light into the darkness, to bring the world into one fold in the consecration. Mary appears on the building in Florida to lead the children to the light through the consecration. This is the completion of the Fatima mission. It is a major part of that completion. Our Lord has gifted us with the greatest gifts. I am not trying to discourage Eucharistic adoration. We need to have, Our Lord has told me, a set up here in China where more people are coming and adoring Our Lord. We need these hours of adoration before the tabernacle. Our strength is in the grace. We can be as blind as a bat, a blind man, whatever it is, totally blind, and He gives His grace and the heavens open up. We are running around and bumping our heads. We have to obey the messages. It is not up to us. It is up to us to follow the plan given to us from Jesus. He is revealing the plan of the Father. This is His word that He speaks. He said to me, “Feed the hungry. Feed the hungry. Feed the hungry. Feed the hungry.”

6. Reference John 6: 26-31

R. But He says, ‘Do not work for food that perishes but for the food that endures for eternal life.’ And He says He gave them bread from heaven to eat.

Reference John 6: 32-40

R. And how do we see the Son? We see the Son by knowing Him not with earthly vision but with the eyes of faith. The more we give our hearts to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, the more we know God. It is in His Heart. He says over and over again in these messages that He has most intimately revealed Himself to us. And look what they did with His Blue Book messages, the ones that would lead to the Eucharist, all the things they did. He is revealing Himself for this great age in which men will be fed with the Bread of Life, that is the Eucharist and the Word of God.

7. Hail Mary

8. Hail Mary

9. Song: I am the Bread of Life - verse 1

10. Song: I am the Bread of Life - verse 2 & 3

 

The Scourging at the Pillar

1. Hail Mary

2. R. This is from the beginning of the first Blue Book and He told me to write this.

To The Reader

Jesus wants to share His love with you. He comes in these letters to tell you how you can be in intimate union with Him.

All of us possess everything we need to have an intimate union with Him. He has written to me since October of 1991. For at least a year I sat in front of the tabernacle and begged him to talk to me.

I wanted words. I prayed to the Holy Spirit and begged and begged Him to baptize me. After a long and seemingly endless search, trying to hear God, He told me to “feed the hungry.” For six weeks this was all I heard. I thought maybe I wasn’t feeding my children well or eating well enough myself. What a long wait for three words! At long last one day, as I was writing to Jesus, I received a letter back. He told me, “I am Jesus, Son of the Living God.” end of excerpt

3. Reference Matthew 25: 31-35

R. Adam and Eve were in the garden, but they disobeyed God.

We know that this is the mighty medicine. ...sick and you visited me, in prison... Matthew 25: 36

R. How many are locked in the tomb of darkness within their hearts?

Reference Matthew 25: 36-46

4. Reference John 6: 27, 34-35

5. Song: I am the Bread of Life

6. R. And so how is it with you? Do you stand by the tree and you feel as if you are holding on for dear life? And many times you are pressed on, pressed on, and so many things seem as if they are arranged to just test you and you are holding on and holding on. And it feels as if God is so far away, when in fact, that great suffering, He is so close. For He stood by the tree. He was hung on the tree to His death on the cross, and it is in that death that we have been able to share in this great life that He gives to us in the resurrection. Is not our life to be modeled after His life?

7. R. I felt as if I could not go on and there it was before me, the glorious clearing through the forest and I saw the light.

8. Sing: I Am Your Sacred Heart

9. Reference John 6: 65-71

10. R. And so, how many times do we say to Our Lord, “Yes, Lord, we choose this Ministry.” We want to be a lay apostle and we stand beside the tree and it is very difficult. And we feel as if we stand alone as Christ was alone in the garden. And He said the world will hate you, for they hated me first and you are not like the world. But Christ was slaughtered at the pillar and we are just sheepishly hanging on to the tree and we have the same words that we can say as Peter said. When Christ says, “Do you want to leave?” And Simon Peter answered and said, “Master, to whom shall we go?”

We see so many things with earthly vision and He is an infinite mystery. We are so earthy and He is heavenly. He has taken us into the depth of His Heart and He has revealed Himself most intimately to us, majorly through the consecration, through these writings, and in this Movement. And we know Him in His word.

They were saying something about Jesus and they said, “How does He know all this? He didn’t study scriptures.” How do I know all this? I didn’t study scriptures. I was a math teacher. But He has revealed Himself in these writings and you open up the Word and it’s like, “Ohhh man!” It all comes alive. From living in Him, we know Him most intimately. This is His Word. To know Jesus Christ is to know His Word. He is the Word. So to know Him most intimately is to know the Word.

 

The Crowning with Thorns

1. R. This is from a book that Fr. Carter wrote sometime in the ‘80’s, but He uses it to teach from all of his classes. And when Fr. Carter writes, it’s like the writings that Jesus gives to us. It has all this depth to it. We live in Him. We know it in greater depth as we live in Him. So it’s like the word ‘Father,’ the more I grow in my love relationship with Him, the word ‘Father’ just keeps getting more and more depth. So the more that we grow in maturity in our relationship with God, the more every word is to be savored and experienced deeply in our heart. For the Word is a love affair with God. I want to go deeper and deeper into His Heart. And in the writings of Fr. Carter, you’ll see that depth in the Divine Mind who is the author of his writings, the infinitude into the Divine mystery. So this is like at the beginning of this book.

Excerpt from Response to God’s Love by Fr. Edward Carter, S.J.

The Father, in a perfect act of self-expression, in a perfect act of knowing, generates his son. The Son, the Word, is, then, the immanent expression of God’s fullness, the reflection of the Father. Likewise, from all eternity, the Father and the Son bring forth the Holy Spirit in a perfect act of loving. end of excerpt

R. It starts out this chapter by saying, “The word ‘mystery’ basically means that which is secret or hidden.” And the title is, “The Mystery of Christ in Christian Existence.”

Excerpt from Response to God's Love by Fr. Edward Carter, S.J.

At the destined moment in human history, God’s selfexpression, the Word, immersed himself into man’s world.

God’s inner self-expression now had also become God’s outer self-expression. Consequently, the mystery of God becomes the mystery of Christ. In Christ, God tells us about himself, about his inner life, about his plan of creation and redemption. He tells us how Father, Son, and Holy Spirit desire to dwell within us in the most intimate fashion, how they wish to share with us their own life through grace. All this he has accomplished and does accomplish through Christ. St. Paul tells us: “I became a minister of this Church through the commission God gave me to preach among you his word in its fullness, that mystery hidden from ages and generations past but now revealed to his holy ones. God has willed to make known to them the glory beyond price which this mystery brings to the Gentiles—the mystery of Christ in you, your hope of glory. This is the Christ we proclaim while we admonish all men and teach them in the full measure of wisdom, hoping to make every man complete in Christ” (Col 1:25-28).

The Christian life, then, is rooted in the great event of the Incarnation. We must, consequently, always focus our gaze upon Christ, realizing that everything the Father wishes to tell us has been summed up in the life of Jesus of Nazareth. It only remains for us, then, to fathom ever more deeply the inexhaustible truth of the Word Incarnate: “In times past, God spoke in fragmentary and varied ways to our fathers through the prophets; in this, the final age, he has spoken to us through his Son, whom he has made heir of all things and through whom he first created the universe” (Heb 1:1-2). end of excerpt

2. R. And so God begins the first Blue Book with saying, “Feed the hungry.” And then tells about Himself in the tabernacle and the Eucharist and tells us so many things, and then He ends the book with this:

Excerpt from December 31, 1993 - Don’t Question God

Jesus: What I reveal to you here, I do in your heart. My connectedness to you is in your heart. I do not need the senses. Man wants God to be like them. Do not ask to have God explained in human terms. This, My child, is surely in the realm of the spirit. Things of God are not like the things of man. I communicate to you as I am. Others want you to explain to them just how it is.

Your human minds do not fathom the ways of God. To ask My messenger to answer your human questions is to ask her to tell you why stars shine, why a baby is conceived in the mother. In the end there is an element of mystery which is beyond words. Don’t ask her to tell you why and how she writes these letters. She writes these letters by the power I have. She writes these letters for Me. She writes these letters because I am dictating them to her for you. She sits, half asleep, and writes such clear lessons in faith. And, you My brothers, ask for explanations? I am Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God. I am He Whose boot strap you are unworthy to tie, yet I make Myself so personal to you in Holy Communion. But, little ones, I am God. You cannot comprehend one little speck of My ways. Your human mind is so limited. Do not try to make sense of Me in human terms. I write these letters to bridge a gap between you and Me. end of excerpt

3. December the 31, 1993 continues

Jesus: I am this personal to you, but My ways are not your ways and, though I try to make you understand some of the mystery, you cannot in your humanness explain the ways of God. Go ahead and try, child. It is a waste of your time. Do not ask My messengers for explanations that you will understand. You will not ever on this earth understand any of what is happening here. My ways are the ways of God. What is happening here is a miracle.

You ask too many questions and you, in your humanness, expect too many answers. I am the God of your Fathers. They never knew such a God. I was the same God to them and I spoke to similar people to open up Myself to them, but you have been given a great, great gift indeed in these letters. Do you question and question or do you study and become wise. Study My words and accept all I give you with faith. end of excerpt

4. December the 31, 1993 continues

Jesus: Be blessed for the faith you show. Your faith will save you in this sick world. I am here, all right. I am in the Eucharist, Body and Soul. Would you like for Me to explain the real presence. How can I, in your earthly form, explain such things to you? Wake up. I give you a gift and you spend your time asking how, why, where, when. I give you this day a gift of My love for you. You will not understand the ways of God but, from these letters, I will become as real as the nose on your face. You can busy yourself asking questions and miss the miracle of My coming to you in these letters. end of excerpt

5. R. And He ends the book with the same thing that I began it with which I was told to do, which I never knew this, He just told me to keep reading.

December the 31, 1993 continues

Jesus: I come to you, you who are hungry and thirsty and you are waiting for more. To those who listened, much was imparted to them. To those who remained blind, nothing was gained. They try to explain God in human terms. I cannot be explained to your liking, My child. To do so is just silly. end of excerpt

6. December the 31, 1993 continues

Jesus: I am God. I am Who Am. I am the Son of God. I am Human, but I am also Divine. You will not understand My divinity. You are a human. Be glad for what you are given. Pray for faith. So many souls will be lost for their stubbornness to have every situation explained. I will not ever be explained to you. If you do not go out on a limb, you will miss the sunset. The glories that you need to seek are to be seen at the end of the limb. end of excerpt

7. Jesus: Sit at your desk and scratch your head, My beloved ones. For you will only know when I give a great grace to understand. I communicate to you in your heart.

R. God talks to each of us inside of our hearts. There is an open pipe line between us and Him. The inner prompting felt in our hearts are the way God is speaking to us right now. He does not need our senses to talk to us. We take in our earthly knowledge through our eyes and ears. We communicate with each other through our senses, but God does not need senses. He communicates directly to each of our hearts.

And so, I went to Communion and God did not speak to me in words. I was overwhelmed with the presence of God, the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, and He was so one in the most intimate union. And I was awestruck and taken to the heights of heaven and I knew Him most intimately. Not in words did He speak to me but in my heart. I was one in the deepest ecstasy with my Almighty God.

8. R. And so how did He suffer when they pounded the thorns into His head? But the great suffering was not the thorns that poked His head and made Him bleed, but the suffering was in the haughtiness in the minds of men to think that they know it all and will not listen - the Lady of Fatima who tells us that we must consecrate our hearts. The Word will be born in their hearts. It will come forth and men will know God most intimately when they give their hearts to the Virgin Mary. And the Holy Spirit works and she places them into the Heart of her beloved Son. For this is what happens to me all through the Mass. I am there in the pew and I pray for the grace. But He has asked me to write a book, The Spouse of the Lamb. And you were there and you could be having a dark day, but with your whole heart, you want the Bridegroom to come with His great grace and to make Himself known to you. And He, indeed, is the Initiator, for in a second, He comes and you are overwhelmed with the presence of God.

And now I see the Bridegroom of my soul. The priest is to be so one with Christ to teach us how to be the spouse of the Lamb. He is calling a priesthood in the Shepherds of Christ that we will have priests for the new earth that will teach the souls how to be the spouse of the Lamb in the most intimate union. And He gave Himself to me and I was taken to the heights of heaven. And in that embrace of the Divine God, in knowing Him most intimately, not in words and in senses and in seeing and in hearing and whatever, in the heart. In being embraced by God and saturated with His Divine life, the presence of God overtook my soul.

9. R. But what happened in that moment is the realization that in every person, in the priest, Christ can be so alive in them. And as we unite in oneness with each other, Christ comes alive in our hearts. And so He tells us to love God and to love one another and I come to sit there in front of the tabernacle as I had to, to receive the beginning Blue Books for those hours. It was more and more the spousal relationship between the soul and the Lamb in love of God and in love of all others. There cannot be division in our hearts for others.

Galatians 2: 19-20

...I have been crucified with Christ and yet I am alive; yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me.
 

And our children, is it not our responsibility to correct our children and to tell them what they need to know to live in Him? Is it not our responsibility? We must live in the truth. It is not up to me in the Shepherds of Christ Movement to go out and to stand there and to argue with people and say, “This is the truth,” when somebody is not open. We are to feed, He says, the hungry. Our egos get in there. Here’s somebody and all the stuff comes in there when you have been pressed back and you’re going to convince them. That’s not what He’s talking about. He’s talking about feeding the hungry, not feeding our egos because we’ve accomplished something with somebody that’s hard as a rock, because satan gets in there and you’re arguing with them. Let us feed the hungry with His Word and telling them about Christ truly present in the Holy Eucharist. Feed them with the Bread of Life.

10. Jesus: My beloved ones, I speak to you and I tell you this. I have called you as lay apostles in the Shepherds of Christ Movement. You are Apostles of My Sacred Heart. You go to your homes. You live by the messages that I have given to you. For this mission, I ask you, to restrict your reading to the material that I have given to My messengers, Fr. Carter and to Rita, to help to bring the Reign of the Sacred Heart.

Stay focused on this Mission. I am asking you to read the Word and the Catechism and information that is approved by Fr. Carter. The time is very short for this mission. You must be trained as My apostles to help to bring about this new era in which there will be one flock and one Shepherd. It is oneness that you will help to accomplish the goal of the prayer that I said to My Father. This is a main mission for the Shepherds of Christ Movement to help to bring the Church and the world into oneness. There must be purity in your Movement, strict adherence to the truth. I am asking you to obey these messages and to stick to these messages. There will be many messages that will lead many astray. I am asking you to study the Apostles’ Manual. This is the mission that I give to you if you wish to be a lay apostle in the Shepherds of Christ Movement. If you do not wish to be a lay apostle in the Shepherds of Christ Movement, you can be an associate in this Movement. But the more you focus on this material as an associate, the more you will hear the voice that the Good Shepherd speaks to you in the messages to accomplish this mission. I am Jesus, Chief Shepherd of the flock. I come to separate the sheep from the goats. I am asking you to help to spread the light in the darkness.

Song: Were you there when they Crucified my Lord

 

The Carrying of the Cross

1. Song: Were You There

2. Jesus: I have attempted to purify your Movement. I have attempted to separate the sheep from the goats. There are many that are willful and are not living in obedience to the messages. It is most important that you live by the messages that the Reign of My Sacred Heart will come about on this earth. I am asking you to be a Shepherds of Christ lay apostle, a handmaid, a priest, for the Shepherds of Christ Movement. I have called you here. This is the intention of the Good Shepherd to help to bring about the renewal of the Church and the world. If you do not wish to join, then I am asking you to be an associate and to pledge your loyalty by recitation of the prayers as often as possible and living as much as possible to the requirements for lay apostles. I am not forcing you, My beloved ones. I have called you this day to purify your life. I have called you to service. It may be, at this time, that you feel you can recite the prayers and begin to live by the Blue Book messages or it may be that you are a full-fledged lay apostle, handmaid, or priest. It is at this time that you know what I am speaking to you in your heart.

3. R. This is a message from Jesus that I received today.

Song: You Are Mine.

4. R. This is from the Father’s message. I think it is January the 18th and I’ll just read this. This was one of my letters after Communion.

March 7, 1998 - 11th Day

R. My dear Spouse,

You take us to Your mountain top and show us Your light and the world slumbers and sleeps and the throng below the hill shakes the tree and the dead fruit falls, but they do not see it.

We hear the voice of the Father speak, “This is My beloved Son in Whom I am well pleased.” and we hear the voice of the Good Shepherd speak as He reveals His Father to us and His plan for the salvation of all men living according to His will. The voice of the Good Shepherd will be heard as men listen to Jesus. In this Movement, Shepherds of Christ, we pray for our priests, the Church and the world. end of excerpt

R. This is what the Father said in His message delivered in January of 1997, especially January the 18th, where He says –

God the Father: My Dear Children,

I am the Father. My plan is unfolding through you, My beloved priest, Fr. Carter, and Rita and the core group in the Shepherds of Christ Movement.

R. And it’s through the writings and messages of Fr. Carter and Rita that many will be touched.

January 18, 1997 continues

God the Father: My Son has revealed Himself as never before in history into His tremendous love for men and you treat Our gift with such indifference.

R. This is from January the 18th from the Father of 1997.

January 18, 1997 continues

God the Father: I am talking through these messages given by My Son and Mary to tell you how to accomplish this task of carrying out My plan.

R. He speaks through Jesus, His Son, the Son of God, God-made-Man. He further states this in this message. I haven’t received a long message from the Father in long time and then the Father spoke really since that, well, I got one on February the 10th, I know. So I can’t say I haven’t received, they were mostly in 1997. So the other day, I got this message, March the 7th from the Father. “Oh ye of little faith,” That is the word. It’s faith.

March 7, 1998

God the Father: Oh, ye of little faith, you do not comprehend the gifts I give to you and that I am revealing Myself to you in these messages. Come atop the mountain and I will speak to you, and to those who slumber and sleep, they will be comforted by the words you deliver from on high. The earth will be transformed and the earth will shine with light. I created the light in the darkness, a new day dawns on those who fear the Lord and harkens to the voice of My Son. Those who reject Him will suffer a dark day. My shepherds, My Son talks to you here. The dead will know they labor in vain, for when I spoke to you through My Son, Jesus, they defiled My word I gave to you and worshiped the molten calf, a thankless generation of stiffs. Every person who operates in the Shepherds of Christ Movement must operate from the heart. Treat one another as brothers in Christ. I am the Father. Mary is your Mother and this is the holy family that I want on this earth - a holy family of brothers and sisters living according to My will. Live in Christ Jesus, My Son, the Savior of the world. Holy Spirit, come and enlighten the hearts of the faithful. end of excerpt

Song: You are Mine

5. Song: A Song from Jesus

6. Song: Taste and See

7. Song: Taste and See - verse 1

R. It’s like Peter said, “Where else can we go?”

Song: Taste and See - refrain

8. Song: Taste and See - verse 2

9. R. This is These Forty Days of Lent.

Song: These Forty Days of Lent oh Lord

10. Song: Oh Sacred Head Surrounded

Song: Lord, let me walk, that Lonely Road with You

 

The Crucifixion

1. Song: Lord, let me walk, that Lonely Road with You

2. Song: Lift High the Cross

3. Song: Out of Darkness

R. This is like the whole thing is our participation in the Mass is like the most important.

4. Hail Mary

5. Hail Mary

6. R. This is from the book, The Spouse of the Lamb, March the 11th, 1998. It’s around the 15th or 16th entry.

March 11, 1998

R. My beloved Spouse, since the beginning of Lent, I have experienced Him as the Man in black, as the Bridegroom. Today, as never before, I have experienced His body. A real man offered sacrifice that Holy Thursday. I saw His body on the cross as I did on December the 5th, 1996 - a real body of a man. And I recalled another time, I think it was on Friday in Lent, when I experienced Him dead on the cross at St. Vincent’s, or almost dead. His mouth may have been moving then. I know I have experienced Him at the point of death three times at St. Vincent’s. I have had other experiences with Him dead or at the point of death on the cross there. So to see Him on December the 5th, 1996, was to dig into an already open wound from before and I could not hardly stand it because it was so vivid, Jesus, life-size, before me. What I experience mostly in this Mass was His humanity. In great joy of the immense revelation, I realized He had a flesh body, arms of flesh. I used to see Him give me Himself as the Jesus on the front of the Apostles’ Manual and it made me cry. I would see His glorified wounds and know Him this way and love Him. Now, since Lent, I see Him as a Man with a body and flesh. He is the celebrant of the Mass. He is the sacrifice. I am aware of a Man in a black suit, a Bridegroom. I experienced the Divine Lord. I know Him. I love Him. But to see Him in the body of a man offering Mass and dying for me makes Him so real. So I cried. I see the Lamb of God. He is Jesus. Jesus was a real man. Jesus was alive like me and He talked and He walked and He called to others. This has touched me to great tears. I heard, “Lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world, have mercy on us.” I received His Body, His Blood. I received the Savior of the world. When I see Jesus, celebrating the Mass through the priest, Jesus goes into the priest and I realize He is here this day in the priest. Such an honor to be a priest celebrating the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. My intense suffering to want Him so much, now becomes greatly lessened because I see Him with us this day acting through a priest. He is so present. He is not far off. He is with us today.

But I hear Jesus say, “Where are the priests that will teach the people to be the spouse of the Lamb?” For He said, “The old order of priests will pass away and there will be a new order of priests.” It takes the priests being so one in Him, united in a spousal relationship with Christ, in order for the people in the pews to receive this immense connection with God. It is up to us to pray and to pray and to pray and to pray, for Jesus wants a priesthood in the Shepherds of Christ Movement that will train the priests of this world to celebrate the Mass as spouse of the Lamb, that will teach the people about the Bridegroom, the Lamb of God.

I had an experience of the crucifixion today. I experienced being there. It was being there. I was removed from my surroundings and in immense peace. When I received Him in the Eucharist, I could hardly stand it.

7. R. This is entry one, on Ash Wednesday (February 25, 1998), and I was suffering and He said to me real strong – Jesus: “Do you think I acted on your soul less when I gave you the experiences of hell? I give to you the greatest graces to know My love. I act directly on your soul. I am the Bridegroom of your soul.”

R. Oh Jesus, He took me to the heights of ecstasy in Him in realizing how He is the Initiator and acts on my soul. How foolish I am indeed to think it is I who control the workings of God on my soul, when in fact He is the Bridegroom of my soul. I see Him look at me with the greatest love, as I did once in the study, when I knew He looked at me and loved me so. I sat with a white dress and my Bridegroom looked with love on me, thinking me so beautiful to Him, me the little child of the Father in all my faults, and looking on me with such love. He stood above me as a Bridegroom dressed in black, tall and handsome, and He looked down with the most loving eyes upon me and I knew the love of the Divine Creator. Today I knew how it was, how He acted on my soul. I see how it is when someone really acts in love and does something for me because that person loves me. I see myself as open, letting go, putting myself entirely in the hands of the Creator, the God I love, and the Bridegroom comes with the greatest love and His grace. He gives me Himself. My job is to be, just to be, a soul, waiting for the Bridegroom to just give me Himself in the greatest love. I am, I know it is He who acts, and when He acts His presence overtakes my soul. I am, I let go and I reminisce about all the times He just overtook my soul.

Little do I do, for it is the Bridegroom loving me, loving my soul and acting most intimately on my soul.

I sit and surrender myself entirely to Him. He is the Initiator. He is the One Who acts with His grace and NOTHING - no intimate experience, nothing here can fill the soul with this love and satisfaction.

For the Bridegroom acts and the soul is satisfied, the only desire is that it will never end. Sometimes there is such a longing and realizing the temporariness of it all. Sometimes He gives my soul such satisfaction, comfort and love, and I am filled with the greatest peace and satisfaction with less awareness of the temporariness, just peace.

Jesus: I give you the peace of the Sacred Heart of Jesus when He acts on the soul of His spouse. I am the Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world. I am the Spouse of your soul. I give you this satisfaction so that you will write to Me after Communion for My Mass Books for the world. This book will be entitled the Spouse of the Lamb. I will act on your soul most intimately.

And what My child is the key, but total surrender as a spouse who knows her spouse loves her and takes the love given. You, child, pray for this grace, to be possessed by the Lamb, the Bridegroom of your soul. What lesson did I teach you this day but that it is I who act upon you, you do not control My love given to you in any way. A grace is given, a grace is received. Your total surrender is the way to most optimally allow the Bridegroom, the Lamb, to act on your soul.

Total yielding, so that you will allow yourself to be IN ME.

R. Oh my God - how to explain that which happens when You act on my soul and what I experience. Are there any words that could do this justice when the Almighty God finds favor with me most intimately, and gives Himself to me?

Jesus: My child, I act, you are passive, empty and open. Surrender and I will possess your soul with the lights of heaven so you can experience your Divine Lover most intimately. Surrender, surrender, surrender, a state of being and surrender to live in Him at the point of greatest intimacy in the Mass. You will know days of darkness and joy as the shadows and lights fade in and out of your life and I reveal Myself most intimately to you.

I am Jesus Christ, the Bridegroom of your soul. Your hand must record these experiences for the marriage of the Lamb to the soul.

I act upon your soul most intimately.

A Prayer for Intimacy with the Lamb, the Bridegroom of the Soul

Oh Lamb of God, Who take away the sins of the world, come and act on my soul most intimately. I surrender myself, as I ask for the grace to let go, to just be as I exist in You and You act most intimately on my soul. You are the Initiator. I am the soul waiting Your favors as You act in me. I love You. I adore You. I worship You. Come and possess my soul with Your Divine Grace, as I experience you most intimately. end of excerpt

8. R. It is becoming more and more clear how the writings of John are just like right on for what He’s saying to us. He comes and He says in John, it starts out, “In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God and He was in the beginning,” and it goes on, “to what came was life and the life was the light of the human race and a light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it.” And then He says, “A man comes,” and then He says:

Reference John 1: 12-14

R. So then you look at this and the next thing it goes into John the Baptist testimony. So I was told to do this at Lent. So then, I don’t know, I guess it was about a week later. And it’s like this is how I read the Word; I know what’s coming in the next line because He’s giving us this. So, it’s like you know Him; it’s like knowing when your husband’s going to say something. And then John the Baptist testimony to Jesus -

Reference John 1: 29-38

R. It just goes on and on, but they talk about the Bridegroom, waiting for the Bridegroom, and there are foolish virgins. And this is really the age when people will know the Bridegroom of their soul and now they’re like the people down below the mountain with Moses that were worshiping the molten calf cause he took so long. Anyway, that’s all for this Hail Mary.

9. Revelation 1: 7

Look, he is coming on the clouds; everyone will see him, even those who pierced him, and all the races of the earth will mourn over him.

10. Jesus: My beloved ones, I am coming to you. I am coming soon. For the world will know Me. They will see as never before. They will remove the mud from their eyes and they will have clear vision, for they will know Me in their hearts and men will fall to their faces. It is now as if your earth is asleep, but they will see soon with the light of seven suns. And the light is slowly stealing across the sky as you spread the consecration. I give to you, My beloved shepherds, the Shepherds of Christ Movement that the world will be made into one flock with one Shepherd living in My Heart. I am Jesus, Chief Shepherd of the flock.

 

Reference John 10: 1-3, 14-18

Song: To Jesus Christ, our Sovereign King

R. And He will put all authority under His feet.