Pope Francis!

January 10, 1996 - 9:00am at Mass

Emptying Yourself is the Only Way

R. Jesus gave Himself as the greatest sacrifice ever, totally emptying Himself. They pierced His Heart and what flowed out was blood and water. When we love Him we empty ourselves more and more and identify with Jesus' sacrifice of offering Himself. I realized how I was to empty myself because I love Him so much.

    In the Psalm of the Good Shepherd, it says, .."And I will dwell in the courts of the Lord for years to come." My whole desire is to be united with Him in deepest union forever, our lives have meaning in this.

    With all my heart I offer myself as a sacrifice for the spread of the devotion to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary and Their intentions. My whole consuming desire is for this intention of giving myself to God, to use me as you want to, according to the Father's Plan.

    Such love for the Father, giving myself to Him, imperfect as I am, but such great love for Him. The Gospel was about the Father - this overwhelmed me with love for Him, seeing how He is one with Jesus, but knowing Him as My beloved Father. Great joy in this oneness with God. I love the Trinity - I love each Person of the Trinity, I love God.

    I want to give the greatest love to God. The greatest love I can give is in emptying myself - it is in sacrifice wanting the Father's will for me. My great love for Him compels me to see no alternative. I love Him so much. I give myself freely without counting the cost. There is not another way.

    In my overwhelming love for Him I totally empty myself and realizing there is not another way, for to love Him is to give myself to Him as He desires.

    The greatest gift I can give to others is giving myself to Him. Jesus emptied Himself. I understand more, emptying myself with all my heart. Wanting to love Him more, I learn to empty myself, pray for self-lessness.

    We are to love Him with all our heart, all our soul, all our being. Our greatest desire is God's will. We should love to be united to Him in deepest union for all eternity, there is not a choice. It takes giving of oneself, emptying oneself to Him and giving great love to others.

    It is in the Mass we give the greatest love to God as we join in this sacrifice with His Son, Jesus. The Mass, offered through the hands of the priest, to the Father.

    Jesus emptied Himself and gave His all. In the Mass this sacrifice is sacramentally made present. We unite, we die to our selfish ways. When the priest raises up the Host and says, "This is My Body", the Father looks down and sees the sacrifice of His Son. We unite and give ourselves, give our all, offer ourselves, as a sacrifice to the Father, united to Jesus. When the priest raises up the chalice and says, "This is My Blood", we give ourselves - we empty ourselves, and we want to die to all that is not like Him. We die to live more in Him. Jesus feeds us with His Body and His Blood and He gives to us the "Bread of Life."

    He tells us, "I am the Bread of Life. He who comes to Me shall not be hungry." Look at the world. Look at the hungry souls. Jesus gives Himself to us, to feed us. He feeds us with His very own Body and Blood.

    As we unite in this Holy Sacrifice all over the world all day we can unite to the Mass. We see the Body and Blood of Christ raised and elevated in our hearts, we unite every moment of the day in our self-sacrificing gift of our love, given to God.

    We die to our ways not like Jesus and offer ourselves united to Jesus as a sacrifice to the Father. We receive an outpouring of His grace – His life more and more in abundance, dying that we share in His life. All through the day make spiritual communions and unite to this gift of Himself given in the Holy Eucharist. The greatest gift of our love is to empty ourselves and give ourselves to God.

   

January 10, 1996

R. This offering continues all day in all our actions, if we unite them to the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. We offer ourselves as a sacrifice. We die with Him, that we will raise to new life more and more in Him. Our every action is an offering with Jesus, His Son, to the Father in the Holy Spirit.

    This is our continual love, given to God and to all men, as we unite in this our offering. Whatever we do, if it is the Will of the Father, we are offering a great act of love to God.

    Through Him, With Him, and In Him, I die with Jesus and unite in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass.

Special Moments in the Mass:

    Let us celebrate the Mystery of God's love. Let us open our hearts to the graces He gives us that we may understand more fully the great gift of the Mass. Jesus Christ gives Himself to us. Who are we that God gave Himself as a sacrifice on the cross for love of us and the sacrifice of Calvary is sacramentally made present in the Mass, all over the world all day.

    Help us to receive graces to understand more fully this Divine Mystery of God's love and to treasure the gift of Himself, given to us in the Holy Eucharist.

    The world is so hungry, waiting to be fed and He comes with a kind and gentle Heart and gives us the gift of Himself. The world is looking for the perfect love affair. Jesus gives Himself to us and we give ourselves to Him in the deepest act of intimate love in the Mass.

    When the priest mixes the drop of water with the wine and says, "let us share in the Divinity of Christ, who humbled Himself to share in our humanity." Think of this God who gives us a sharing in His life.

    The first miracle at Cana was when God changed water into wine. How great it would be to witness this miracle. How much greater is the gift of the Mass when, through the hands of the priest, bread is changed into the Body of Christ and wine is changed into His Blood.

    I pray the priest raises high the consecrated host that I may love this gift more and more in the Mass, that I may see the great love of God, more and more. Let's spread this message about the intimate love of God at Mass.

    I want to adore His Body and adore His Blood, and to offer my all – my body, my blood, to the Father.

    Every word of the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass is so beautiful. Let us savor these special words of greatest love.

    I see the hands of the priest as so sacred. He is so sacred and chosen by God. Such dignity and love should be given to the priest!

   

January 11, 1996

R. Last night at Mass I had such an experience at St. Gertrude's. I was overwhelmed with offering myself united to Jesus as a sacrifice to the Father, in the Holy Spirit.

    They surrounded Him and cried "crucify Him". He carried the cross and offered no resistance.

    I realized, to have a love relationship with God, an intimate love relationship, there must be self giving on my part. I must give myself! An intimate act is the giving of each person to the other.

    I am overwhelmed in wanting to give myself to God. I am filled with this great grace and all I see is Him and His magnificence and I want to give Him my all.

    The more I give, the more intimate the act, the more I empty myself, the more intimate the act between Him and me. The more I give of myself, the deeper the intimacy.

    Yesterday I had a good day, realizing how He is truly with me and attentive to me at every second.

    I recognize it as a sharing in His Passion and He is in control. I accept the cross and seek to live His life, death and resurrection in my life. I am giving myself to Him.

    I see my wretchedness, in this self-giving. How far I am from being like Him! I realize the Holy Spirit will have to change me to be more like Jesus.

    Mary conceived Jesus in her womb through the power of the Holy Spirit.

 

January 11, 1996 

Sorrowful Mysteries

The Agony in the Garden

1. In this rosary, let us open our hearts and pray to be close to Jesus. Let us meditate on His presence, deep within our hearts.

2. Jesus knew that the time would come when He would suffer and die. He knelt in the garden and He saw before Him all of the sufferings that He would undergo.

3. Jesus suffered for all the sins of all men, all the men that lived before Him and all the men that lived after Him.

4. Jesus came to this earth that all men would be with Him someday in heaven. He died because He loves us so much.

5. Jesus comes with a kind and generous Heart. His Heart is a heart of deep love.

6. Many hearts in today's world are very cold. We go into the world, we go to school, and we see how hard some men's hearts are. Jesus' way is the way of love.

7. He remains with us this day truly present in the Holy Eucharist. This is how much He loves us.

8. He is a Person. He wants to be so close to us. He wants us to realize that He is with us every single second, every single minute, and He wants us to talk to Him all through the day.

9. As we walk with Him in His Passion, we see Jesus as He suffered. We too will have sufferings in our lives, but as we suffer, we will grow more and more in our love relationship with Jesus.

10. The world tells us that we should not have any problems. But Jesus comes and shows us the way. He suffered and He died. We, too, will have sufferings in our lives. His way is the way of the cross.

Jesus Is Scourged at the Pillar

1. Jesus is with us at every second. He wants us to put our trust in Him whenever we are afraid or worried, to talk to Him, and not to be afraid.

2. They seized Jesus. They tied Him to the pillar and they began to beat His body.

3. It is in thinking about how Jesus suffered that we realize how much He loves us.

4. He wants us to think about His Passion. He would suffer for us this day. He loves us so much.

5. Jesus wants us to tell Him how much we love Him. As we meditate on these mysteries of His life, we see His love for us. We should tell Him how we love Him.

6. Jesus is God. He loves us more than any human person can love us.

7. The Father created us to long for God and to need the love of God. Nothing will fill the longing in our hearts for God.  We must go to Him.

8. The greatest act we can do on this earth is the act of loving God. God created us to know, love, and serve Him.

9. It is very confusing to live in this world today. Many times we hear the name of Jesus used in vain. His light will shine to the rest of the world through us.

10. If we ask Jesus, He will give us grace to be closer to Him. We can ask for grace to love Him more. It is an honor to be a member of the Junior Shepherds of Christ Associates for we give our hearts to Jesus and Mary.

The Crowning with Thorns

1. It is very difficult to be with others when they are being unloving.

2. Jesus calls us to model our lives after Him, to act as He would act. We should always pray to the Holy Spirit to transform us more and more to be like Jesus.

3. Jesus shows us that love is giving. Love is not selfish. Love is giving to the other.

4. It is hard many times to be like Jesus. This is especially hard when others are being so cruel to us.

5. Jesus never leaves us. He knows our every thought. He knows all the feelings in our hearts. He knows when others persecute us and say nasty things to us. He wants us to know that He is always with us and guarding us.

6. The world seems heartless many times. Jesus comes as the Sacred Heart and He points to His most Sacred Heart. His Heart is filled with burning love for us.

7. We look at Jesus and see His head crowned with thorns and His face covered with blood. We know that He loves us so much. He allowed them to pound the thorns into His precious head.

8. They spit on Him. They ridiculed Him. He took it all. He loved those who did this to Him.

9. Jesus wants us to love each other. He came to show us how to love. His way was always giving to others.

10. To His death on the cross, He gave Himself as a sacrifice for love of us.

Jesus Carries His Cross

1. Jesus' Heart is of burning love. Jesus is all good and all perfect. They stood around Him and they shouted, "...'Crucify him!'" (Mk. 15:13)

2. They gave a heavy cross to Him. They put it on His back. He could hardly move ahead with the weight of the cross bearing down on Him.

3. They poked at Him to make Him move faster. The weight of the cross was so heavy that He fell to the ground.

4. Jesus is always with us. Sometimes our lives are difficult. He is there. He wants us to take the time to tell Him how much we love Him.

5. When we complain and grumble about our lives, He wants us to tell Him how much we love Him. He is waiting for us to tell Him of our love.

6. He walked with the cross on His back. His eyes met the eyes of His loving Mother. In that look, there was so much love between Jesus and His Mother.

7. Mary saw His face covered with blood. She saw Him fall to the ground. When we are suffering, Mary is watching us and loving us as she loved her Son.

8. In all of our trials and in all of our joys, our Mother Mary walks by our sides as she walked by the side of Jesus while He carried His cross.

9. Mary loves each one of us with a most personal love. She loves each of us as her little child.

10. Jesus fell to the ground two more times. His loving Mother was by His side. She could not even lift her arm to help Him. She walks by us as we struggle. Even though we do not feel her by us, she is helping us and guiding us. She wants us to turn to her.

Jesus Is Crucified and Dies on the Cross

1. Jesus is the Almighty God. At any moment, He could have stopped all the abuse that was given to Him.

2. They took big gigantic nails and pounded them into the hands of Jesus. They went all the way through His hand to the wooden cross.

3. They pounded a nail through His feet, all the way through His entire foot. Think of the pain all over His body. His hands and feet were nailed to the cross.

4. He died on the cross that we would share in His life.

5. He gave Himself for love of us.

6. He gives Himself to us today in the Eucharist. He is as present as the day He walked the earth. He is neglected by so many that He loves.

7. He loves us and He wants us to love Him.

8. At Communion, Jesus wants us to tell Him how much we love Him.

9. His Heart is offended by our sins and the sins of men. He wants us to tell Him that we are sorry for our sins and sorry for all the sins of the world. Communion is a good time to help make reparation to God for our sins and the sins of all the world.

10. He gave Himself that we would have life. He asks us to love Him with our whole heart, with our whole soul, and our whole being.
     

 

January 13, 1996 - 8:30am

There are 3 Persons in One God

R. I felt as if I couldn't breathe. I realized the Father's love and how He is one with Jesus and I receive the Almighty God in Communion. Deep connection is surrendering to Him as the little, dependent child, and realizing His immense oneness with Jesus. To know I receive the Almighty God, I realize the love between Father and Son and the Holy Spirit. I realize the presence of God in the Eucharist and my overwhelming desire to empty myself, that I may be deeper in union with God, my total desire being this deep union with God for all eternity.

    And, He reached down and in that moment I beheld God before my eyes, the Almighty, never changing, presence of God and my heart was in immense peace and awe for to know Him, to be saturated with His love, is to possess your heart's desire.

    Alleluia, God loves His people!

 

January 14, 1996 - 1:20am

What Are You Doing?

R. I was standing in the laundry by the dryer and felt the Lord asking me what I was doing and told me to go to bed. I knew He was there, the same as if He was standing there, and I was afraid: I fear the Lord - He is Almighty!

    I was in awe. He told me to come and pray and be with Him. Even feeling His presence as I did, I wanted to continue to do more things and make Him wait.

    I was aware of myself and He came from nowhere and it shocked me. I heard Him say, "what are you doing". He was standing in the doorway.

 

January 14, 1996 - 8:30 Mass

Love God, Love Others

R. I spent so much time tending to my life, being with others and I feel it takes me from Him and I want so much to be with Him and love Him and felt Him telling me that I must love Him in all others, see all the good things they do, see their unique beauty and with all the love I have for Him - pour it out to them. The world needs this love.

    This is how He loves the world through us. I love Him so much and He loves me so much that in my burning desire to give my love to Him, I see the reflection of Him in them and pour out my burning love to them. We are one body in Him. In loving others, I am loving Him.

    Love God - Love one another. The love of God flows into love of everyone. It cannot be disconnected, it is all one. We are all one. He is the Head, we are the members of His body.

    I long and thirst for You, my God. I give my love to You in others. Love flows as a bubbling brook. It doesn't stop and start - Love IS!

    My love is not separate. His love and love for others - it is all one. My burning love for Him compels me to love all His creatures. Anything to do with Him, I love because I love Him so much.

 

January 15, 1996

R. Even when I do not see you, you are so present, Lord. You are with me always - always there. I offered myself entirely to Him. I suffered so much since Friday about some things relating to others. I didn't get to pray much and that is what I love the most at those times with Him. I need Him and I miss Him when I feel distant from Him. I love Him so much.

    My body hurt all day yesterday. Friday night I had pains in my hands and feet. Yesterday I had pains in my right hand and chills, feeling sick. My hands have a constant ache. I had pains in my left foot most of the morning, but my body - how it hurt, hurt to move, my legs hurt when I stood and I felt as if I wouldn't walk or stand anymore because my legs hurt so much. I wanted to relieve the pain.

    I see more to love Him is to want to suffer with Him. Friday night when my feet and hands hurt, it was a constant realization of His presence with me.

    The more I am one with Jesus - the more I know the Presence of God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit. to have the presence of Jesus is to have the presence of God.

    It is because of the suffering pain I feel so close to Him now, after the Eucharist. I am close to Him when I suffer.

    When I am in pain, I can be in that inner room with Him. My left foot and my body really hurt. Yesterday I could hardly bend my knees. Right now my right foot hurts too, but it is as the pains - you experience the pain but you cannot touch it or press on it. I am just experiencing it at this moment - my left hand hurts and my right foot. 

   

 

January 15, 1996

R. Soon Mary began appearing on the 5ths at Holy Cross-Immaculata and I received extraordinary ecstasies concerning the Mass and was told to compile this book and publish it immediately. 

Fr. Carter could not have it discerned by the deadline of his birthday January 15, 1996 and soon the struggle began with the Imprimatur on this book. All messages from Jesus were de-messagetized to get the Imprimatur — the visions and experiences "watered down" so possibly I could receive the Imprimatur as God told us to do. Two years later we got it.

 

January 16, 1996

R. We become one in Him. He lives in us in this world. He acts through us. We live to serve God do His work. This world is godless. Many today have turned their backs on God. Many times His name is used in vain and not spoken with the reverence He deserves.

    Jesus wants to dwell in our hearts. God communicates to us in our hearts. We go to the world and interact, but we go to our hearts to listen to His direction.

    If we spent days being in the world and do not take time to be alone with Him, we can get our answers from others and the world. We need time to sort out all the fragmented pieces we have collected in our lives and ask God's plan for us. God can communicate to us, also, through others, but we need time every day alone to listen to God. We need to spend time alone with God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit everyday. We need to hear the message what God uniquely wants to give to us about our life.

    Jesus says, "I am the vine, you are the branches." If the branches do not receive their nourishment from the vine, they wither and die. No two branches are the same, each one uniquely different. To bear fruit they must be nourished well.

    Our job is to spread the Kingdom of God - This is our calling, this takes knowing God's Plan for us. We can be busy and not do God's will and cause more confusion doing busy work. Do God's will. Pray to know it. Am I too busy to be alone with God?

    If I run down the wrong road at the fastest pace, if I spin my wheels in a rut, nothing is accomplished. When I am one with Him, He operates. His way is not speed, His way is precision. His way is right. His way is the way.

    When we do not go to God as our source we can be too busy doing the wrong thing. The devil is able to direct us to do things in haste. We must be rooted in God. The devil is paralyzing: his work is our mind. He fills us with pride, anger, envy, gluttony, and our starved souls can begin to wither. So as you are in your heart, you will be in this world.

    How can you speak from your heart when all you know is your own will? The mind must be in conjunction with the heart, the heart rooted in God. As a nurtured branch, a heart filled with His grace operates on His Plan.

    The mind, when the devil influences it, acts with vice many times: pride, anger, lust, gluttony, envy.

    The mind and the heart must be rooted in Him. We do not have a right to judge others, to make ourselves better than others. We have so many faults of our own. Spiritual directors and those in authority are to correct as God wants them to. We must stay rooted to the vine. We must have time alone with God. Our mind is to be united to God's Plan for us and we are to work for right reasoning, pray for right reasoning.

    We must have time with God to have a heart rooted in God - every day, time alone with God. Love is giving. We need peace in our homes - we need to consecrate ourselves and our homes to the Sacred Heart and Immaculate Heart.

    I want to be with God before the tabernacle. Here at Immaculata Church I came in and saw Jesus again transfigured. I just wanted to be with God, to be alone and to be so one with Him. I am in awe of Him. I just love Him so much. I have been here three hours and I am so sad I only have one hour left. For the past three days I was unable to be here. I just long and want to know more about Him and be with Him and pray each word of each prayer so slowly and ponder it.

    I have had pains, especially in my left foot and my hands. My body aches and my knees feel as if I don't want to walk. I just want to love Him so much. I love Him - I love Him - I love Him.

 

January 17, 1996

R. These wounds hurt our beloved Savior, when some betrayed their friendship with God to do evil. Jesus is our friend. Sometimes more than one treated Jesus with disrespect and criticism.

    To live Christ's life in our life, to live His death, to share in His sufferings, this is the greatest gift of all. We walk the walk, not knowing the great gift He is outpouring and allowing us to suffer to know Him more and share in His life.

    I know today what He gives me is to teach me lessons that I may be more like Him. The hardest thing, it seems to me, is to be mistreated by several friends.

    I show the world the Jesus that lives within. I want to be a light. People act according to how deeply united they are to God. All different levels. To be like Him we must die to all that is not like Him and beg for the grace to be made holy.

    I want to be like Jesus. To do this I must be willing to look at my faults, see my sins, my weaknesses, the way I am not like Him.

    I love God so much. The statue was transfigured and He had on different garments. I realized His humanity.

 

January 17, 1996

R. There is so little love given this day. We can seek to receive and not give. We can seek others to fill us when only God can. Love is giving. Love takes time. God is the source of all love and so few have time to spend with Him and learn as He teaches the mysteries of His love.

    How can we love one another when we do not have time for God, who is love? We can be too busy to care, too busy to love, too busy to be Christ-like to others.

    We were created in the image and likeness of God, but are we acting like Him?

    Could we see Jesus talk about one another without love? Could we see Jesus rush by and not have time for anyone? Jesus came to give, He came to love, He came to serve.

    The world has made its end here and God speaks of the Kingdom to come. Open your hearts and you will know the mystery of His love.

 

January 18, 1996

Sorrowful Mysteries

Before the Tabernacle

The Agony in the Garden

1. Put yourself in the presence of the Almighty God Who is truly present and in this room. Jesus is longing for us to love Him from our hearts. Make this rosary an act of love to Jesus.

2. We do not realize how tenderly Jesus loves us. He waits and longs for us to come to be with Him. He wants us to tell Him how much we love Him.

3. The world is so busy this day. So few people talk about Jesus. He is with us and He is alive.

4. Think about His Passion. Think about Jesus kneeling in the garden alone. Think about the torture and the sufferings that He would undergo. When we think about these things, we realize more fully His love for us. He loved us so much that He gave His life for us.

5. He wants the little children to come and to pray. Mary calls her little children to come to His Heart. She wants them to know His love.

6. He felt agony in His Heart for all of the souls that He loved. For all time He would be rejected and treated so coldly by so many.

7. He asked His Apostles to wait with Him and they fell asleep. How many of us today fall asleep when Jesus asks us to pray and be with Him?

8. Jesus wants us to spend time talking to Him all through the day.

9. Jesus' agony was so great that He sweat blood in the garden.

10. We were created to know, love, and serve God. The greatest act that we can do on this earth is to love God.

The Scourging at the Pillar

1. They took Jesus away and they tied Him to a pillar.

2. They began to beat His precious flesh and Jesus bled.

3. Think of how it would be to stand by and watch a man be beaten.

4. Think of how it would be to stand by and to watch your best friend beaten and bloodied before your very eyes.

5. Think of how it would be to watch as your best friend was beaten for your own offenses.

6. Jesus, the Son of God, allowed Himself to be beaten for our sins. He could have at any moment stopped His attackers for He was God.

7. Jesus wants us to meditate on His Passion. It is in meditating on His Passion we know  how much more He loves us.

8. He loves us so much. He would suffer and die for us today.

9. Do you have a friend that would give his life for you, that would stand in and allow himself to be beaten for your offenses? Think of how much Jesus loves us, that He was willing to do this for us.

10. Hail Mary...

The Crowning with Thorns

1. Our life is very hard sometimes and we struggle. Jesus wants us to think about His life and to see Him as He suffers all through the Passion. He shows us the way, the way is to follow Jesus.

2. They pounded into Jesus' head sharp thorns.

3. Jesus is the King of all kings and they crowned Him with sharp piercing thorns.

4. Do we show love and respect for Jesus, the King of all kings?

5. Do we realize that Jesus is as present in the tabernacle as He was the day He walked this earth?

6. How do we treat Jesus? They spit on Jesus. Do we ever walk in front of the tabernacle and ignore Jesus? Jesus wants us to love Him and bow to Him.

7. We see people talking right before the tabernacle in church. Jesus is waiting for us to come and talk to Him. He is God, truly present, and longing for our love.

8. The King of kings sits on His throne in the tabernacle in every church. He is ignored and forgotten.

9. Picture the men pounding the thorns into Jesus' head and spitting on Him. We say, "How could anyone do that to Jesus?"

10. Jesus is truly present in the tabernacle. Look how He is treated by so many of those He loves.

Jesus Carries His Cross

1. Many times today we are asked to make sacrifices. We know we should be kind when others are cruel to us. If we follow Jesus, we see He loved those who persecuted Him. He loved those who crowned His head with thorns and who whipped Him at the pillar.

2. Jesus wants to live in us. He wants to give His love to others through us. We are giving His love to others. We must love when they persecute us.

3. Many surrounded Jesus. They condemned Jesus to death. We suffer persecution sometimes when we talk about Jesus and His love for all of us. We are ridiculed.

4. We must pray to the Holy Spirit to be strong soldiers. We must carry the cross as Jesus carried the cross. We must always act in love.

5. They gave Jesus a heavy cross that He carried on His back.

6. It was so heavy that He collapsed under the cross.

7. His Mother walked by His side. She saw her beloved Son fall under the cross and she was not able to help Him.

8. Her eyes met His eyes and she saw His face covered with blood. He saw her face, so red and filled with such sorrow.

9. He asks us to carry the cross today. The world tells us that we should not have struggles. Jesus shows us that the way to follow Him is to pick up our crosses. When we are carrying our crosses, we must still act lovingly.

10. Jesus wants the youth to pray. Jesus wants us to know about His life. He wants us to model our lives after His life. We should ask ourselves if Jesus would act as we are now acting.

A special meditation before the Glory Be:

It is hard to be a young person in the world today. Many people in the world are committing sins. We must pray to God to help us to know, love, and serve Him better.

Jesus fell three times under the weight of the cross.

Jesus Is Crucified and Dies on the Cross

1. Think of someone pounding nails into our hands and feet!

2. Jesus was the sacrifice offered to the Father for our sins.

3. He died that we could share in His life.

4. It is in Baptism that we become sharers in His divine life.

5. The price that Jesus paid for this life was the gift of Himself.

6. Mary stood under the cross and watched her Son give Himself for us.

7. Mary is the Mother of the Eucharist. We receive Jesus. He gives Himself to us in Holy Communion. This is such a gift. God gives Himself to man.

8. This is a love relationship between God and man. He gives Himself to us and we give ourselves to Him.

9. We can trust Jesus. If we look at the crucifix, we see how much Jesus loves us. He came to this earth. He gave Himself as a sacrifice that we would share in His life.

10. The price He paid was His life. When we go to the Eucharist today, we should tell Him how much we love Him. When we go to the Eucharist today, we should thank Him for dying for us. We should thank Him for giving Himself to us today.

A special meditation before the Glory Be:

This is a rosary from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary given for the youth of this world.

January 20, 1996 - After Communion

Jesus:  My beloved priests:

    I love you with the deepest love. Many of you are going through motions. Your hearts are cold and you have turned yourselves to the things of this world.

    I came to you with a kind and loving heart and I am rejected by My beloved chosen ones.

    I call you to love, to a deep love affair with Me. How My Heart bleeds for the indifference and coldness of many of My priests.

    I call you to love – to giving of yourselves, to consecration to My Heart and the heart of My Mother.

    I suffered so through My Passion, but My greatest agony was from the coldness and lack of love I received from My beloved priests.

    I beg you, My child, to speak to My priests, to speak to all who will listen about My burning love. I give to you great graces that you may deliver the messages of Our love for this world.

    I will shelter you in My Heart and lead you on your way to speak to the religious about the Mass.

    I call you to speak and to sing My songs of love.

    How I love you. I have chosen you. I am asking for your selflessness to respond to My request. Speak – I speak in you. Love, Jesus

 

January 27, 1996

R. Willfulness is not of God. Giving of self to God is not being willful and prideful. It is being a baby at the breast. It is trusting in Him and giving away the need to be right. Holiness is acquired by surrendering to your superiors, even if you do not understand or think they are not right sometimes, surrendering because God wants you to.

    Surrendering is giving yourself totally in obedience to your superiors – willingly – doing all you can to serve God and build His Kingdom. Holiness is acquired in our interaction with others, in listening to what they are telling us about ourselves.

    Wordy wisdom grows old if it is not displayed in the person's actions. To be like Christ, to live in Him, to talk in His ways, to die to self – I want to die to myself that I will live in Him.

    What does it profit a man if he gains the whole world and loses his soul? I can only live according to His will. I am not to do busy work opposing God's will. It is against God's will to be unloving – Love God, love others, love self. This must be my motivating compulsion. I give myself in an act of love to God.

    To give myself, to empty myself, I cannot hold onto self. The more I give myself, the more I love. I cannot hold onto my need to be right at all costs. I must give myself to Him and trust in Him, do the work of getting the job done.

    Selfish or Selfless

    Willful or Surrendering and trusting in God, yielding to superiors.

    Jesus gave Himself. He emptied Himself. He gave Himself to His death on the cross.

    The work is His to do. The ego is full of self, wanting to be right even when they are wrong, trying to show a mask to others. God knows our hearts. Only with His grace can I become more like Him. The way of the world is full of self.

    I gave myself to Him and He was able to more deeply unite to me. The glory of surrender – for in it is the bliss of serving God, preparing for our home in heaven, having the fullness of life some day in heaven. Preparing for heaven and in doing God's will now on earth, being like Jesus. Alleluia.

    Consecration: Consecration is giving myself to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. I have surrendered my will as never before to my precious Jesus tonight and now I can more fully unite in the deepest, deepest love with Him.

    Love is giving of oneself for the sake of others. I give myself to you, my precious Lord! My life must be spent in an act of continually giving myself, more and more, to you, to dying to self that I can forever live in you.

    And He took me to the inner recesses of His Heart and I existed only IN Him for to unite to Him is to unite with love itself, love is giving of self. What does a man gain if He runs down the wrong road at a fast pace and it is the wrong road? Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. In Him we have life. His way is the way of love, love is giving, He opened His arms and gave Himself!

    To unite to the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass all through the day is to unite in this greatest act of self-giving. I pray in this union. I can die to myself and live in Him.

    Disciplining my thoughts – developing right reasoning – I control my temptations to do evil. I do not give into willfulness, I do God's will first. I am not focused on myself and being right. Thinking, I knew more than my superior in this case. I must trust in God and listen to Him through my superior.

Total Consecration,

    I give myself totally to Mary and dwell entirely in her heart and pray for the action of the Holy Spirit, to work in me. I know the fire of God's love, works inside of her heart. I an enclosed entirely in her heart and I consecrate myself totally to the Holy Spirit. I give myself without reserve to Him and my spirit merges with the Holy Spirit as I become one with Him.

    In this Mary places me deeper into the Heart of Jesus, united with all those present and in Him. I am placed in this deep, burning, red cavern of His love. It is there I penetrate so deeply the love of the Almighty God as I go deeper and deeper into Jesus' Heart. It is there, in this oneness with Him, surrounded by love itself, I feel the presence of the Almighty God. I feel the love of God, the oneness of God and I unite to the Father deeply, in this love of God. Jesus is one with the Father in the Holy Spirit. I am wrapped deeply in the love of God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I dwell in Mary's Heart. I am embraced by love itself, deeply wrapped and united in Him. There are no cracks, there is this uniting with love itself that gives me such joy. I am one in Him. I give myself completely to Him.

    I surrender, give God my all and I dwell in Mary's heart. I have joy in God.

    I realize so deeply my desire to offer myself as a sacrifice to God. I pray through the intercession of Mary. I empty myself, wanting so much to give myself that it hurts because I am incapable of giving myself as I want.

    I realize His giving of Himself, seeing Him – His arms spread on the cross, His face bloodied, His head crowned with thorns, seeing now my greatest love, the Eucharist – this giving as He says: "This is My Body, This is My Blood."

    I unite to Him. I die to myself and give myself to God in the heart of Mary, and in giving myself to Jesus and Jesus giving Himself to me, I am more one with God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

    This is the mystery of God's love in the Mass when God gives Himself to man and He communicates His great love to us – the interaction of Father, Son and Holy Spirit given through the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, our little heaven on earth.

    And He took me to the deepest recesses of His Heart and I was embraced by the love of the Almighty God and touched eternity.

 

January 28, 1996

R. I went to the Sorrowful Mother before Mass and poured out my heart to her, united to Their Hearts. I was enclosed in the heart of Mary - total consecration to the Heart of Jesus dwelling in deepest union with Him in the red cavern and uniting to the Father.

    Recognizing my sinfulness, but through her sinless heart, dwelling deeply in His Sacred Heart, penetrating the depth of the cavern and union with God, the Father, connected with all the courts of heaven, through their intercession and all the souls in purgatory – begging with my whole heart to help me to do what They want me to do to spread the love of His Sacred Heart and Mary's Heart and the Shepherds of Christ Movement - to spread the rosaries and consecration to the priests, sisters and children.

    I realized my total dependency on Them and my incapability to do anything but with my whole heart I pleaded with Them. They are more alive to me than any person and God has all the power. I am enveloped in Their presence and Their love.

    The idea of giving myself, of emptying myself, is so important, united to Jesus' sacrifice on the cross, in the Mass I give myself to the Father in their Hearts.

    I plead from the cavern of His Heart, joined in this deep presence of God from my whole being: hearing and experiencing all the emotions of their Hearts, They have allowed me to experience, I am one in this union. They are my life - listening and strengthening me.

    I give You myself to do with as You will - You are the all powerful God. I surrender to You.

   

January 28, 1996

The Mass

R. I see the Mass all through the day, my heart burns from the Consecration, the great miracle that takes place. I see Jesus. I hear Him. I hear the words, "This is My Body", "This is My Blood."

    I see the priest as Jesus at the Consecration. I see Jesus in the priest at Mass. I want the words of the Consecration to linger, to adore Jesus. I hear Him say it and I see Him do it.

    Each priest should be so one with Jesus, they should celebrate the Mass as Jesus would do it. They should celebrate it as Jesus did at the Last Supper, knowing He was giving Himself for us.

    Jesus, the Son of God, gave Himself for our sins. the priest should celebrate the Mass and say each word as Jesus lives in Him.

Galatians 2: 19-20

...I have been crucified with Christ and yet I am alive; yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me.

R. I love Jesus so much. I love the Holy Sacrifice. I want to think about its words and hear Jesus say it and unite myself in this great act of self-giving to the Father.

    This is my life - my life is total consecration, giving myself totally to God in union with the Mass. I love Jesus so much!

Total Consecration
    - is giving of oneself to God at the Consecration of the Mass. He gives Himself to us and we give ourselves to Him.
    - The Consecration of the Mass
    - The Consecration to Their Hearts - total giving, given mostly through the Mass.

    We live His life, death and Resurrection in our lives.

    God created us to love Him and love each other. If I live as a hermit, I am not living as He intended, if I am not one in my heart with His precious souls, even though I don't interact with them. Jesus calls me to love my brother as He loves in me. Jesus calls us to love the unloving. I help souls as He lives in me and I put on Christ.

Strongest words from Jesus:

    I gave Myself to them.
    I give Myself to them.
    Tell them, tell them.
    I will tell you everyday until you tell them.
    This is My Body.
    This is My Blood.
    I am Alive, I am Alive, I am Alive.
    I died for you - what more do you want?
    I watched you child –

R. Like swords that pierce my heart, I feel and hear these words.

Mary's words: My little children are going to hell.

R. Deepest love affair I can have is in Him.
Cannot have that deep, deep love if it is not in Him.
The more I am in Him and you are in Him, we are deep in our love with Him.
My love with you depends on how deep my love is with Him.

Capability to love is rooted in how deep I can love Him. He knows my heart.

 

January 29, 1996

My Specially Chosen Shepherds

R. I will take all those who need love into my heart and go to the heart of Mary and dwell entirely in her heart. I take all those I know who need special prayer to the heart of their Mother and she mothers their spiritual life and coaxes them to come home to the Heart of her Son.

        We will be one flock with one Shepherd. If all of us, the Shepherds of Christ, took our loved ones and those in need of special prayers, to the heart of Mary and gave them to her, she, the Immaculate Heart, would call them and lead them to the Heart of her Son.

        For we are not alone in this world. We are living in God's world. He gives to us a sharing in His Divine Life in Baptism. For those who have been given this sharing in His Divine Life and have cut themselves off from the source of life by sin, we bring them to their mother and we give them to her. She loves them as the tenderest mother and bids them to come home to Jesus. She will call them for us. It is up to us to bring them to her heart through our prayers. 

 

Jesus: Oh Shepherds of Christ, My chosen network of apostles spreading My love and the love of My mother to this world. It is in your consecration to Our Hearts that you have been granted special privileges from Me and My mother to be able to bring your loved ones to Our Hearts. We allow you to bring us the hearts that need deeply our love because you have given your hearts to us in a special way. Many of your beloved brothers and sisters have cut themselves off from the source of real life and Mary their mother will call them gently home to My Heart.

        Do not underestimate the power of your prayers when you are consecrated to Our Hearts.

        My movement, Shepherds of Christ, is a network of specially chosen souls that I  have given and am giving great graces to, to draw them into the deepest union with Me.

        All members of this movement are receiving these special graces to live in Our Hearts. I will live in them in a very special way in this world today. You must consecrate your hearts daily to Our Hearts. Live this consecration all through the day. Unite it with the Mass throughout the world. Give yourselves to the Father united in the greatest act of love, the giving of Myself to My Father. How pleased is the Father when you unite yourselves with My Sacrifice to Him.

        I want your total giving of yourselves to Me. It is in this giving of yourselves that you dwell ever more deeply in My Heart and I dwell in this world in you. Pray throughout the day the Prayer for Union with Jesus.

        Consecration is giving yourself to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary.

        It is in this consecration you will live dwelling entirely in Mary's heart and the Holy Spirit will sanctify you. He will mold you more into the God-like image the Father intended you to be.

        I am the way, the truth, and the life.

        It is in dwelling in the heart of Mary, her pure and sinless heart, that she takes you to the deepest part of My Heart, the deep red cavern of My burning love. It is in this deep penetration that you unite deeply to My heavenly Father.

        Oh beloved, the Mass, lived in your daily lives, the union of your hearts with the Consecration of the Mass, God giving Himself to you and you giving yourself to Him in this most intimate act of love between God and man, how this Sacrifice pleases the Father. The more you give yourself to God the deeper this relationship becomes. Die to yourselves as I died on the cross that you will live in Me in all your actions.

        I am Jesus. I call for total consecration of your hearts, My specially chosen Shepherds. Come and dwell in the heart of Mary and give yourself as a sacrifice to God. A sacrifice is an offering. Offer all your joys, sorrows and love to Him.

R. Oh Hearts of Jesus and Mary, let us see more and more that dwelling in your Hearts is truly our heaven on earth. It is in giving ourselves to God that we will know more and more His rapturous love.

        ...And He took me to the deepest chambers of His Heart and in that embrace I knew the presence of the Almighty God, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. I was enveloped by love itself and I knew no fear, I was one, in Him and I could feel the heat of His love.

Jesus: This is rapture. I want this deep love with you, My chosen Shepherds that you may dwell forever in this fiery furnace of My endless love. It is in giving yourselves you will be bathed by My Divine Love. In this union you will know the Father's Love. The Holy Spirit will permeate your being with the active fire of God's love. Love is action from the heart, come and dwell in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary and live in celestial bliss.

R. ...And He took me to the deepest recesses of His Heart and I touched eternity... the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, our little heaven on Earth.

Jesus: Come to the Heart of My Mother and she will lead you home.

Prayer

        Oh Mary, Immaculate, take me to your Heart, that I may dwell there. I give myself to you.

        Oh Heart of Jesus, I give you myself, TAKE ME, ALL OF ME, all my faults, all of my strong points, all of my joys and sorrows, bathe me in your love and let me unite in deepest love to God.

        Holy Spirit, actively work on me in the Heart of my beloved Mother. Permeate my being with the fire of God's love, that I am sanctified and changed more into the image of my beloved Jesus.

        Father, I unite myself to the sacrifice of your Son being offered in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass throughout the world. I give myself, united to Jesus, to You. I love You, I love You, I love You, my precious God.

January 30, 1996

R. I realized in the Mass, the Sacrifice. I am to be one in this sacrifice united to Jesus. I am coming to offer myself, listen to the words, come to the table.

    Jesus gives us Himself. If you love someone you will do anything for them – you give them your all. Jesus loves us so much He gives His life for us. God became man for us.

    Jesus gives Himself to us at every Mass. I give myself - I sacrifice and offer myself. Look at the table, hold nothing back. Then unite in the deepest union with Him in the Eucharist.

Jesus: I am the Bread of Life.

March 1, 1996

First Friday, Noon

R. The agony I feel in my soul is so great. I wish there was something so simple here I could blame it on so I could forgive and it would be over, but nothing can help to stop the utter agony I am suffering in my arms and my legs are shaky.

I want to scream to know what I know and have no one to share this with. My God, my God, how truly I love only Thee! The utter anguish is indeed so great. No death could be this painful. The pain in the soul deep within, the soul that longs for God, the pain of those in purgatory.

The pain of everlasting hell is beyond the human mind's comprehension. We waste valuable time worrying about details. We must think of souls shriveling in the fires of hell for all eternity - the pain is not knowing God!

We play a key role in helping souls to know God. Many souls will go to hell. We must put aside our differences and see the souls parading into hell. He wants us to reach the precious souls of this earth with His love.

Satan will use every detail to slow us on our way. Satan will create division, doubt and anxiety. He will drag our spirits down with criticism. We are given such graces and gifts and we are ungrateful for the gifts He gives us.

The focus is to spread His love. Souls will be lost while we tarry. We must focus on the souls going to hell. We must let go of incidentals and spread the message of His love.

We love His priests with the most burning love. Souls are at stake. His message is for His Church and His world. We are the messengers to deliver His message of love to this world. We must thank Him for every gift, thank and praise God endlessly in song. The Holy Spirit will lift us high. I love You my precious Jesus.

I suffered so much agony for the souls suffering in purgatory. I cannot give in to feeling sorry for myself. Souls are at stake. We are given great graces to help in the work of redemption. We must reach the world with the messages of His love. We must not give in to the thoughts that Satan plants in our head to divide us.

You must take them in your heart whether they return your love or not. Your love for them will never be the same -- I do not want to hurt you anymore.

March 1, 1996

R. I must meditate on the differences I have with everyone and forgive them so my heart will be pure. If I am filled with anger toward my brother I am a clogged vessel. I want my heart filled with His love. I do not reflect His love in my actions when I am a clogged vessel.

    My heart must be pure. I cannot have anger in me for anyone. I must always respond in love. I must pray for the grace to forgive, to let go of any unforgiveness.

    I cannot make myself right and others wrong. I must want to do whatever is the will of God. If I have a difference with my brother, I cannot harbor anger in my heart, it festers inside of me, it effects my union with God, it robs my heart of needed love, it hurts how I am in my heart. My time could be spent loving God, loving others and doing His work.

    Mary and Jesus' Hearts are pure. If we dwell in Their Hearts we will become more like Them. If this Movement is to proceed ahead, it must be rooted in love. Every act must be delivered in love, realizing that we are one in Him, all uniquely created by Him to help carry out this plan, to spread His burning love to this world.

    To do this I must stay deeply rooted in His fiery heart.

    We must, all through the day, each and every member, tell Jesus we love Him. Tell Mary we love her. We give you, Jesus and Mary, our hearts. We must unite all our actions with the Mass, Jesus gave Himself for us, Jesus gives us Himself today. The Mass is the sacrifice of Calvary sacramentally made present. Jesus loves us so much. The Mass is celebrated all over the world. We unite all our actions to the Mass sacramentally made present all over the world. Oh God we love you, Thank you for the priest and the Mass.

    We must pray to God for the grace to be holy. Strive to be perfect as our heavenly Father wants us to be, reflecting the image of Jesus, Jesus is the Savior of the world. We must be prudent and temperate – I must pray for the virtues and the gifts. I must take care of myself, get the proper rest and eat sensibly.

 

March 2, 1996

R. We can identify with Mary as our heavenly Mother when we meditate on the mysteries of the rosary, Mary so lovingly carried Jesus, she so lovingly cares for us.

 

March 2, 1996

Notes on Words

R. People do not understand what it is to have God talk to you. I know what He says and they do not even comprehend how it is to see Mary and hear her say "souls are gong to hell". I come filled with energy and the devil wants to block these messages and writings. Some are so angry at me because satan wants them to try to stop Jesus' message. Mary and Jesus come in great love. Some interfere with the message to try to stop it, they take the energy out of me.

    Are we grateful for this gift God gives? Do you believe? Do you want me to just work to convince you?

Jesus: Division will divide this Movement as a two-edged sword. Words are precious gems that bind. The devil wants angry hearts to block My message of love.

R. I deliver this message first hand as God made it clear to me.
    Second Hand - is second hand.
    My misdeeds are when I offend Jesus. That is my concern.
    The devil wants people called to help me, to try to block this gift. My main focus is my spiritual life, my life with Jesus.

Jesus: Draw the people together to work for God - to do the work in love. Write for Me, My Blue Books. Draw the people in one heart. Be positive, tell them to support you.

R. Here is the beautiful thing God has told me, "I let you see Mary". See her love for us - I know we must go to Mary's Immaculate Heart.

Real love binds us together. My job is to unite all the people to pray for this Mission. The devil wants someone to divide our hearts, discredit me, stop the needed prayer God asks for here. God wants us fervently serving Him. God, the Holy Spirit wants us to pray to Him to unite us. God , the Holy Spirit wants to fill us. God wants us to serve Him. We do this for God, not wanting recognition, just to serve ourselves. God wants love and service.

    Negative - the devil wants to wipe out zeal, enthusiasm - the devil wants sadness, lathery. The devil wants to block all the work of love of God and helping souls. We are to grow in holiness, loving God despite opposition, and doing God's will.

 

March 2, 1996

R. The priest needs to feed the people with the love of God. When people come to the Mass and the Sacraments, they are spiritually fed. If they do not come, if they are not fed, they go away hungry.

    A priest, filled with the deep burning love of God, shows the faithful the love of Jesus. Jesus must live in the priest, his every action must be one with Jesus. He is a priest - according to the law of Melchizedek. He should offer the sacrifice of the Mass with such devotion and honor.

    The priest should talk about dying to self and uniting with Christ on the cross, speak with all their heart. Jesus is truly present in the Eucharist. Does the priest, filled with the Holy Spirit, show the life of Jesus alive in him? A priest does these things when he is one with Jesus. Love is action from the heart.

    Jesus wants His holy Church alive with His love. He wants them to sing with their hearts, the songs. Sing with the songs, be so one in the Mass. Be active, loving God, loving others.

    I saw on January 20th, with eyes unveiled, the Mass and experienced the great sorrow in my heart from Jesus. Every person at Mass was so disconnected, many coming to Mass to put in their time. Jesus wants love. Jesus wants us singing in one heart, being a family, caring for one another, living the Gospel. We are fed at Mass. We go to the Mass and receive the Sacraments, we are fed.

    The priest is another Christ to us. The priest holds up the host with the greatest love of Jesus and says, as Jesus would say, "This is My Body". As Jesus says, "I give you Myself, I give you Myself, tell them Rita, tell them." I hurt to tell the words I have heard Jesus holler. "they run from my altar and I am in them!" I hurt, I hurt, I hurt to know and hear Jesus call out: "I am alive, I am alive, I am alive."

    Jesus says: "I died for them - what more do they want?" "Tell them Rita, tell them. I am in the tabernacle. My Heart bleeds for them." Jesus calls us today. (He said about the priests: "To take out the aching heart messages is to give them what they already have - a non-emotional relationship with Me.")

    Notes: Read message of March 30, 1994: Larry referred to me as a recorder, a rush in the heart and God spoke - that isn't how it is.
February 6th said in God's Blue Book II -

My Heart Aches for You

February 6, 1994 5:00 a.m.

R. On January 5th I had such longing in my chest. The pain was terrible. Also, on January l6th, such an ache. I ache again today. I ached on Christmas so intensely, to love Him more, to behold my Lord a little, but never completely, such agony, such pain. This pain could be compared to the pain of the souls in purgatory. To want to behold someone so much, but be unable! Such pain of longing and waiting! The heart is in great pain to behold Our Lord.

He is indeed a true person. He is as a person you love so intently and long to behold but cannot. He has this ardent love for us. He longs for us to come and be with Him. He yearns for our time with Him. He begs from the tabernacle for us to come and be with Him, yet we say, "Oh, I am too busy!"

God-made-man sits alone in the tabernacle, lamenting the love He has for each of us. He is a person. He craves for us to come and share our love with Him. How can we be too busy for this ardent love? How do you stay away when your lover is waiting and begging you to come? He is indeed the bridegroom of the soul. He, with a heart of fire and intense love, waits for our time with Him. It wounds His aching heart when we treat Him with such indifference and turn our backs on Him. It wounds His aching heart when we reject Him and stay away. It wounds His aching heart when He comes to us in such a union in Holy Communion and we are cold! How hard to love someone so intensely and then be received with coldness. Think of the most ardent love you could have for someone and then to be treated coldly. It wounds His aching heart.

His heart is a furnace of endless love. He waits for you, His love, in the tabernacle and in Communion. He longs for you to come (I smell incense) and be with Him. He is the bridegroom of your soul. He is your ardent lover. He is God and He is waiting for you, longing for you.

end of excerpt
 

R. On January 5, 1994 I had such longing in my chest, the pain was terrible.

    On January 16th - such an ache. I ache again today. I ached on Christmas so intensely, to love Him more, to behold my Lord a little but never completely - such agony, such pain. I think of the souls in purgatory wanting to go to heaven. To want to behold someone so much, but be unable to. Such pain of longing and waiting. The heart is in great pain to behold Our Lord.

    Jesus is a Person you love so intently and long to behold but cannot. Jesus has this ardent love for us. He longs for us to come and be with Him. He yearns for our time with Him. Jesus begs from the tabernacle for us to come and be with Him, yet we say, "Oh, I am too busy."

    God-made-Man, is in the tabernacle. Jesus cries out for our love. Jesus tells us the love He has for each of us. He is a Person. Jesus longs for us to come and give our love to Him.

    The words in Blue Book II tell of the burning love God has for us. Jesus wants all to read these messages. Jesus calls out from the tabernacle - today - to us!   

March 13, 1994 - I remember this as clearly as yesterday and my insides feel the pain: "I was overtaken by an intense unrest. I was compelled to go to the tabernacle. I felt such suffering, suffering that Jesus suffered so for us and that everyone is too busy about their lives. Suffering for the indifference to Him and how He loves us despite our neglect. It was awful - I felt as I had on Christmas."

Jesus: "My whole Body ached from head to toe. I suffered so, My child. You will never know how I suffered for love of you. I am God and I loved all My precious ones to My death - and they ignore Me!" Read March 13, 1994. (The part that was deleted before the "big boom", was about the priests) "I am begging you to not hold back this emotion. Holler you must - get my messages out. I wait for My beloved souls. I love them so dearly.

"Oh, child, My beloved ones are blind and are going down the same road that leads to nowhere. You must preach My messages. You must distribute My letters. You must tell all how I wait here and no one cares.

"Do not depend on the priests to get out these messages - Go to My faithful ones. Spread the messages at the Center. Keep them in your car - You will be called on in an instant and I will speak My message to My beloved ones through you.

"Ready yourself for a big boom. No one is listening. I am crying out to you. Prepare your brothers. They are in darkness. Their souls are dying inside of them. Some come to Me with such indifference in Communion. Oh, this offends My Sacred Heart.

"I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I am on fire for love of them. I am Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God. I call you to this state of urgency. Move your friends by this urgent letter. There is no more time to waste. I call you all here to deliver this message personally to you. I am Jesus. I am begging each of you to spread My message. Tell them of My ardent love. In each moment you waste, souls will be lost.

    "I call Ellen, Linda, Martha, Gerry, Charlotte, Larry, Ken, Teal, Cathy and Joe. I call you to a state of urgency. My heart aches. I cry to you to listen.

"I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus. I am God. I am calling to you. Will you listen or will you be numb to My pleading?"

R. All through Blue Book II it talks of me having pain,

"Hearts are oh, so different! Hearts express emotion within, the more you are fixed in Me and My ways, the more your heart burns with My love.

Your pain of longing for me on Christmas was such an intense pain. You feel this pain deep in your heart because of such longing for me."

February 6, 1994 – He told me to give this letter to Fr. Allison.
February 6, 1994 – Had a vision of children before Mass.

Jesus: "Lead the children to the love of Jesus. Lead My priests and sisters to My infinite love. My love is abounding to all. My love is on fire for everyone. On fire! You must tell them. Speak for Me. All must know of this intense love for them. See the children - they will be led home. Their hearts will know My love. I want you to speak in front of groups about My love.

    Now I look at the book and see it is all full of my experiences with His aching Heart. I in pain and ecstasy. Jesus is a Person - Alive - He is ignored and forgotten.

March 6, 1994 - My Heart bleeds ... Every soul has periods of unrest because the soul was made to love the Lord.

Jesus on March 6, 1994

"Sunday is a day I let you suffer - My aching Heart! I want you to tell others how I ache for love of them. I allow you to suffer on Saturday and Sundays for My aching Heart."

R. He has told me so many times: You will have a stigmata of the heart. Yesterday I felt as if I would die - my heart ached so badly.

His Heart was pierced with a lance. He feeds us with His blood and He is ignored and forgotten.

Messages, most important to Jesus: May 25, 1995 I Am Alive!
Jesus wants Blue Book II in the hands of the priests.

   

May 25, 1995
I Am Alive!

R: Prayer is a lifting up of our minds and hearts to God. Who am I that I can change any event that is occurring in the lives of another, that I can affect the outcome of any event? I am a child of my Father. My Father is the Almighty God. How I love my dear Father. He is God and He has created me in His own image and likeness. My beloved, dear Father, how I love You that You give me such gifts - that You allow me to share in Your life!

You are the Father of Jesus and You are My Father. Thank You, My Father, for all Your gifts and for Your life. Who am I that I can affect the life of any person?

I am a child of God. I call on my dear Father and He loves me so, He listens to me. I lift my heart to You, my dear beloved Father and You listen to little me and You care for me so much. I call upon God and the Almighty God cares for me with such love that He listens.

Jesus: Such truths have been given to you from My Father because of His great love for you. You are far more precious than the finest pearls, My beloved child. The Father so loved you He gave His Son so that you would have life. He gave His Son as a sacrifice for you. The Father gives to you His life through Jesus, His Son. You partake in His divine life.

I am Jesus, Son of the Living God. My life I give to you, I live in your being, My beloved, I impart to you My divine life.

How many turn their backs on the great gift of this life given from the Father. To know this life and to know all those who have rejected this great gift!

I am the Almighty God, My power is endless. The power and might you felt within yourself is only a small sampling of My immense power.

I am God and I am allowing you to experience what you are experiencing to spread My love to others. Your immense understanding into these mysteries will help you speak and write them for others.

I have chosen you as an instrument to touch many hearts and bring them to My divine love. Great gifts and understandings into these mysteries I am giving to you. You will lead many priests to the love of God.

I am alive. I am God. I long to be loved by man and many have turned

their backs on Me and forgotten Me. You must tell them all I am allowing you to experience, these sufferings and understandings into My deep love.

This is the beginning of many days when I will allow you to experience the rejection I felt from those I loved. Your heart is in immense pain for the souls who reject Me despite My love for them.

I beg you to speak and write. Make reparation for souls that have forgotten My love. Spread the love of My Sacred Heart and My Mother's heart, throughout the world.

I love, I love, I love My beloved souls. I beg you to tell them. I beg Fr. Carter to tell every soul on this earth of My love. You will continue to suffer such pain and anguish in your heart. Suffer in silence for souls. I love so deeply and am so gravelly offended!

I am Jesus, My dear, little child. I am alive and in this world. I live in the hearts of men, I live in the consecrated Host, I am forgotten and ignored and treated with such dishonor.

Speak for Me, I beg you to spread this love throughout this earth. I am sending you as missionaries into this world.

On this Ascension Thursday, I have given you great sufferings and great joy. I have allowed you to experience the highest ecstasies in My love and plunge you into deep pain in your heart for those who reject Me.

You, I send as missionaries to carry out the work I have begun. Be fearless and pray to the Spirit. This day I am giving you abundant graces to speak, and through this speaking, others are sent into this world as My apostles.

It is through the Shepherds of Christ Movement My love will be spread. Circulate My messages and rosary meditations. The love of the two Hearts will be known throughout this world through these messages and rosary meditations.

You will be fearless, everyone I send to you is a messenger to carry out My love. Circulate these letters with FIRE for I am delivering them to you in FIRE.

I am Jesus Christ, the Living God. I am allowing you to experience My life, alive in you and giving you these emotions to spread My love.

On this Ascension Thursday, I beg you to carry out the message to this world. Live My life in your life, every moment My life living within you.

I am the Way, I am the Truth, I am the Life. I have commissioned you to go out and to carry this message - the message of My immense love for ALL mankind, including My burning love for My priests and religious. Souls will turn their hearts to Me from these letters. This is the mighty medicine to turn a sick, cold world to hearts filled with the love of God.

Prayer, My beloved ones, is the lifting up of your minds and hearts to God. When you intercede to Me through My Mother's heart, I will pour out My greatest mercy.

I will not refuse hearts begging for grace for their loved ones. Pray from your whole being. Let My life live in you.

You can pray and ask God to send help. You do not know the power of a heartfelt prayer. I listen to your prayers. The Father and Holy Spirit are listening to your prayers. The more you unite with God, the greater you intercessory prayer. I am Jesus. I am alive this day. I ask you to spread My messages to the world. I am crying out in your heart on this Ascension Thursday. I ascended into heaven and I have left behind you to carry out what I began. I am with you. I am alive this day. I will unite with you and the earth will know the power of the Almighty God. I am Jesus Christ, Chief Shepherd of the flock. Lead My little ones home - home to the burning members of My Most Sacred Heart, through My Mother's heart.

R: I cried so hard, I have never been so immersed in heartache. I heard Him shout, "I Am Alive, I Am Alive." I cried so hard, I could hardly write.

I know Him. He is alive in my being. My soul is filled with His love. I live the life of Jesus and Mary in my life. I love His life, her life - their presence forever with me. From this great gift, these rosary meditations, His life has become one with mine. I feel His life in the Mass. I hear Mary under the cross. I hear the cries for the souls going to hell for their willfulness and sins. I hear the laments of Jesus in the tabernacle - how He longs and thirsts for souls and is neglected and ignored. I hear Him tell of the sacrileges committed against the Holy Eucharist.

I heard Him this day. I felt His presence and the presence of the Almighty God as He cries out, "I am alive, I am alive, I am alive."

He is alive. We have the Mass. He gives us Himself in the Eucharist. Mary is appearing, we are given this rosary. We are sent as soldiers by Him in the Shepherds of Christ. We are thirsting for union with Him, sent by Him, apostles to go out to this world and spread His love, one with the Eucharistic Heart of Jesus, one with the Trinity. He will light this earth with hearts on fire for love of Him.

I come to you with greatest love, I am your loving Savior, I am your God, I died for you, I come to you this day.

The earth shakes and the Son of Man appears. He lives in the hearts of all. I want hearts on FIRE for love of Me. I want vibrancy and love from My beloved ones. Hold not back My love from this world.

I adore you, Oh Lord, I praise you, I worship you, I bless Him with my whole soul. My soul proclaims the greatness of the Lord and holy, holy is His name! Jesus wants souls that are holy, on fire with the love of Jesus. Make novenas to the Holy Spirit to have hearts on FIRE with the love of God. Sound the trumpet, sound the gong - Jesus LIVES - He lives this day! Alleluia.

Sunday is a special day to praise Him, to love Him, to pray to Him - His day to be honored and worshipped in a special way. Pray from a pure and holy heart, a heart that sings for love of the Lord. Pray from your whole being.

  

March 3, 1996

Jesus: You must love with a heart of love as I have loved them. You love as I love through you. To be one heart there must be this love, deep, accepting love of all My beloved ones. Love is giving. I loved those who persecuted Me. To My death, I loved all men. I love men in all their sins.

    If you want to love as I loved, you must love all men with this great love, for I love all men this way.

 

March 3, 1996

R. Be in the mind of the Father, see His Family as He sees us, truly as His children.
Be in the heart of Mary. Feel with her heart, know with her mind, think with her thoughts.
Be in the Heart of Jesus. Feel with His Heart, know His love.
Be there as Jesus was whipped at the pillar, think the thoughts to know the next blow that will tear His flesh.
Love with His Heart and feel the rejection, to know that those people He loved so much and was beaten for, would suffer because of their hate.
The tone of voice, eyes, reflect the Christ who lives within us. Let your hearts of love shine on your face. God's life filling us is too mighty to be contained.

    We cannot hide our interior life. The interior life is in our actions, in our being. We are a projection of the life within.

    Jesus calls us to be Him to this world, to live as He lived, in peace and in love. We are the lights that shine forth in the darkness. His light be reflected in our whole being. Jesus wants to live in the world in us. Jesus no longer walks the earth, He lives in us. Jesus wants us to be His light that shines in this world. As we are in our hearts, so we will be in this world. Jesus is our Beloved Savior.

It isn't all the prayers - we must share time and love with one another.
He calls us to serve as He served. He walked this earth in service, in love, in peace.
He did not come as a high and mighty, He came as a lowly servant, a helpless baby.
We follow Him by our life of love and service.
How many times do we scatter? We are struck in this world. Torn apart by those focusing on themselves and not serving Jesus. We turn away from our precious Lord.
Jesus is with us in the tabernacle today.
I was blind but now I see. What the world does to us because they won't listen, is to tell us we cannot see.

    We are to endure suffering focusing on God's will for us. Stay rooted in Him even when things are touch in our lives, we don't become bitter, we are Christians, we are like Christ who came to this earth and suffered, but did the Father's will, despite His rejections and suffering. We are to live in Him and be holy and stay fixed on Him, witnessing to Jesus who lives in us.

 

 

March 5, 1996

See Mary's Eyes Looking Into Jesus' Eyes

R. Mary and Jesus' Hearts met and They knew each other's sorrow when everybody else was cold. Their eyes met, and in that look They shared the deep sorrow within.

    The great sorrow of suffering alone was lessened by the sharing of Their sorrow.
    In that look They shared deeply in Their souls Their terrible agony.

    Jesus suffered so much bitter agony in the Garden. He felt every human emotion. He felt alone and rejected by those He loved so dearly and was willing to give His life for them, anyway.

    Jesus saw before Him His whole Passion - the spitting on Him, the tearing of His flesh.

    We do not understand even minutely how He, in His Divine Mind, knew all these things, but He knew all of the physical suffering, coupled with all of the sufferings of rejection and indifference, for all time and all the sins of men.

    In this moment of love that I give to Jesus, it comforts Him during His bitter Passion.

    Think of the deepest loneliness in your heart, the deepest time when you were all alone, and know how it comforted you when someone you loved deeply shared your pain.

    Jesus, in the Garden, was in the greatest agony that He sweat blood. How sweet is the love I give Him at this moment. How cool the drops of love against His furrowed brow. How His Heart longed for this love! Our love was sweetness in His great sorrow and our love comforted Him in His bitter Passion. Jesus knew our sweet love in His Passion

    Oh, Jesus, that I may never forget this experience, as I suffered and felt pressed down in deepest agony, I know you love me. I felt the great love of Your Heart and your Mother's heart. In this agony I shared in that look with you, Your agony and Your comfort through the meeting of Your eyes with Your beloved Mother.

    May I forever give you the greatest love that as You suffered in the garden, at the pillar, when You were crowned with thorns, knew my love here for You this day. Sweet Jesus I love You, so much.

    May I look into Your eyes as Your Mother did on the way to Calvary and give You my love.

    I was bowed down and pressed on, my spirit was at the deepest low and I saw the peering eyes of my beloved Savior and in that look I knew His love. I saw His Bloodied face. I know how He suffered. I unite my suffering to the Bloodied face of Jesus.

    I love You, I love You, I love You. It is in our suffering that we share deeply in His love.

    When the whole world is cold, we meet the eyes of Jesus, we see His Bloodied face, and we know His love. I understand more deeply the intimacy shared between Jesus and Mary on the way to Calvary and this helps me understand His love more deeper for me and for souls. Focus on His Bloodied face in suffering. See it, see it before you in the suffering.

Song: See the Eyes That Look at Mary

R. See the eyes that look at Mary, her tender infant Son. See Jesus and Mary - the look of comfort and love, the sharing of sorrow. We can ponder the love of these 2 Hearts for each other. (Use Blue Book 4)

    The evil one wants us sad, despondent, dragging us and others down, dark, disconnected – inharmonious. He wants commotion, division, unrest - negative energy. I cannot let what people say to me affect me. As He knew all the sufferings, He focused on the Father's love.

    We do not know the pains Jesus suffered during His bitter passion. We must give God great love. Jesus says: "Comfort My aching Heart for the souls who reject Me, Comfort My aching Heart with your sweet love, now."

R. Christ suffers no more. He died once, the bitter death. He has been raised in glory. He cries out to us today to comfort His aching Heart. His Heart experienced pain and suffering for the rejection and indifference of all men from all time. He likewise experienced all joy and love of those who love Him, comfort during those bitter hours of His agony.

    We must comfort His Heart. We must make reparation after communion for our sins and the sins of men. We must pray for the grace to love Him deeper.

 

March 5, 1996

R. Jesus wants to live in us. To be one in us. We are commissioned to carry out His life, death and resurrection in our lives. These messages are letters of His love. Jesus is alive, He is alive, He is alive. We are never alone. I am very sinful and fall, I need Him. I thank Him for His great gifts to me. When I do good it is because of His grace and my cooperation with it, it is a gift from God.

    I see how it is that I ache and suffer, agony and Jesus gives me a gift of knowing His love for me. That sharing of great love lifted me out of the pit of despair and I was healed.

    Feel the pain as He felt the pain and feel His love flow through you as He gives you His abundant love. I know how good it feels to be accepted and love. Jesus accepts and loves me. I must focus on Him. Each person plays in the symphony, they focus on the conductor, I focus on Jesus. Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. Jesus leads, I follow.

    Jesus is my Center. He is my love. He is my all. The sun rises and sets on Him. In loving Jesus with all my heart, all my mind, all my soul, I see His reflection in others. I see the handiwork of the Divine Master. I see the beauty in all He creates.

    The devil wants hate - he wants us to think jealous thoughts, envious thoughts. The devil wants us to seek acceptance from the world as our goal, affections from men.

    Jesus raises above all this. He gives us a sharing in His life in baptism. He is the source of love. He loves us. Jesus fills all our needs. I need Him. I love Him. I want Him. I must not give into the temptation of satan to take my eyes from Jesus. I do all things for the honor and glory of God. Each person is a person for me to love. I am God's faithful servant. God is my Master. In Him, I move, I live, I breathe. Without God I am nothing. He fills me.

    God is my Master, my King, my All. I want to live and dwell in You, my God, then I spread Your light to the world.

  

March 6, 1996

R. Life can be compared to a symphony. The Father is the Creator, the composer. Jesus is the Director. The Father has a plan, each special soul so uniquely created by Him. It is in living according to His Will that we all live in harmony and love. Life is music played for the world.

    Each person in the symphony has a unique talent, each has a part to play. Each player must focus on the director - must continually look at him for his cues. All members of the symphony are joined in one spirit, all in one heart and one mind as they surrender to the mind of the conductor. The conductor is reflecting the creation of the composer.

    If each part is played to perfection, the music is sweet and harmonious. It is one beautiful piece. Each player reflecting their uniqueness in the piece played, it is more than a piece, it is music - alive - that penetrates the heart and soul of the audience. It portrays a distinct message, it moves the hearts from sadness to joy, from anxiety to peace. All the players working as one, creating the desired effect.

    If a player is willful and takes their eyes from the director, the piece has lost its oneness. If many players take their eyes from the conductor, the piece will be ugly, with such disharmony.

    Our minds have turned to loud noise and disturbances - this has been accepted in this world. Clamor, Discord, Disobedience. A symphony where all are in discord would wound the ears of those listening. Only when they follow will there be harmony.

 

March 7, 1996

R. Who can probe the heart and know its ways? Why it acts a certain way, why it chooses this or that? Only the mind of the Lord knows from whence the soul comes and goes. God knows everything. Who are we then to judge the actions of any man - this alone is the Lords.

    I saw, like the mind of God, the human heart, and realized it would take a Divine Mind to judge them fairly. I saw a big heart with all its intricacies. Only God could probe this heart.

    The heart, ruddy and shredded as a real heart, lots of shreds, and lots of little places for hurts to hide. There are places that need to be lighted and cleansed by His Divine Love.

    I see the jealousy, the pride, the wanting for love and acceptance in myself. I know more and more the little places in my heart where flaws have hidden, keeping me from Him.

    Lent is a time to bring out the debris and wash it away with His grace and love.

    What a Mass: I see how He probes the heart and judges men. Only a Divine Mind could do this.

    I see my role in comforting Him with my love now in His Passion. As He suffered so much pain and anguish, I look into His eyes as they holler at Him: "Crucify Him, Crucify Him", and I give Him my love and my kisses.

    I look into His eyes when they give Him His cross and I tell Him how I adore Him and love Him. I look into His eyes when He lays on the ground, His chin on the ground, and I give Him my kisses and my love to comfort Him.

    I join in the look of His Mother and feel this deep love for Him and share in the most intimate union in this love for Him, for her, union in Their Hearts.

    I see His naked, marred body. I kiss Jesus' flesh, Jesus' wounds, Jesus' nail prints. I kiss most tenderly the wound in Jesus' side, the wound from the lance that entered His adorable Heart.

    I love my Lord, I adore Him, I give Him my love - imperfect, but oh how sincere it is in all my sin. It is in this comforting love of Him I learn to love Jesus in others. Oh, teach me to love as You loved. I see You, bare flesh, in the arms of Your Mother, lifeless and covered with wounds for my sins - teach me to love as You love us!

    O Sacred Heart of Jesus, how pure is Your bountiful love. How sweet the kiss of Your beloved Heart, given to this world and rejected by those You love. Give me the grace to love You with the greatest love that I might comfort Your sweet Heart of endless love.

    When I look into the eyes of the suffering, I look into the suffering eyes of Christ. When I see my brother lying on the ground and wounded and I kiss His wounds, I am comforting the wounded Christ. He is alive in this world today. Let us love Him as You love Your brother. As we love one another, so do we love Him. It is Jesus I kiss and Jesus I love, when I comfort and love my brother.

    The world is God's world and we are but a speck, but Jesus raises us to such heights and we love in Jesus. We are one body. If one member suffers, the whole body suffers. Whatsoever I do to my brothers, I do to Jesus.

    We are all children of the Father. There is no division between us. We are brothers and sisters in Christ. Christ came as our brother. As we love our brother today, we love Christ in the world.

 

John 6: 32-35

Jesus answered them: "In all truth I tell you, it was not Moses who gave you the bread from heaven, it was my Father who gives you the bread from heaven, the true bread; for the bread of God is the bread which comes down from heaven and gives life to the world."

"Sir," they said, "give us this bread always." Jesus answered them:

"I am the bread of life. No one who comes to me will ever hunger; no one who believes in me will ever thirst."

 

John 6: 48-58

"I am the bread of life. Your fathers ate manna in the desert, and they are dead; but this is the bread which comes down from heaven, so that a person may eat it and not die. I am the living bread which has come down from heaven. Anyone who eats this bread will live for ever; and the bread that I shall give is my flesh, for the life of the world."

Then the Jews started arguing among themselves, "How can this man give us his flesh to eat?" Jesus replied to them:

"In all truth I tell you, if you do not eat the flesh of the Son of man and drink his blood, you have no life in you. Anyone who does eat my flesh and drink my blood has eternal life, and I shall raise that person up on the last day. For my flesh is real food and my blood is real drink. Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood lives in me and I live in that person. As the living Father sent me and I draw life from the Father, so whoever eats me will also draw life from me. This is the bread which has come down from heaven; it is not like the bread our ancestors ate: they are dead, but anyone who eats this bread will live for ever."

 

Romans 8: 14-17

All who are guided by the Spirit of God are sons of God; for what you received was not the spirit of slavery to bring you back into fear; you received the spirit of adoption, enabling us to cry out, "Abba, Father!" The Spirit himself joins with our spirit to bear witness that we are children of God. And if we are children, then we are heirs, heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, provided that we share his suffering, so as to share his glory.

 

March 8, 1996

Many Graces Will Be Granted

Jesus: My beloved Apostles of the Eucharistic Heart of Jesus, I have called you to a special apostleship, My beloved ones. I am crying out to you from My Eucharistic Heart to pray as you have never prayed before. The power, My dear chosen ones, is in the Eucharist. Your world is in a very serious state. The Church, the pope, the bishops, the priests, the Sisters and Brothers are all in need of tremendous prayer power.
    You have been called to the quiet of the tabernacle to take your prayer petitions to My Eucharistic Heart. The renewal of the Church and the world is at hand. From the prayers you pray here, many graces will be granted.
    I am calling all in this Movement as well as all others in the Shepherds of Christ Movement to consecrate their hearts to My Heart and the heart of My Mother. All through the day I am calling you, priests, sisters and brothers in the religious life, laity, including children, to give your hearts to Me and to My beloved Mother. As you dwell in Our Hearts you will be one with each other.
    Come to Me with your petitions. I am truly present in the tabernacle, no less present than the day I walked the earth. I wait for you to come and to pray for your Church and your world. Many graces will be given there for the priesthood and those in the religious life. I have chosen each priest and sister and brother in the religious life to help spread My love to this world. The highest calling is to be called to the priesthood. The calling I give to My beloved priests, sisters and brothers is a special spousalship to Me. How My Heart is wounded by the priests and sisters and brothers in the religious life who have turned worldly. I, the almighty God, call them to such a deep intimate love affair with Me and they go to the world for their love.
    When the religious are fixed in My Heart many will be fed by My burning love.
    The world is in a state of urgency. The Church in part has become worldly. The medicine for the hurting world is My burning love. Nothing, nothing will feed the starved soul but the love of God. I am calling you to pray for My holy priests, to pray that all priests come to a state of deep holiness.
    I have called you as part of the Shepherds of Christ Movement to join in prayer before Me and to beg for graces for your Church and your world.
    The renewal of My Church and My world will be helped greatly through many giving themselves to this movement.
    At Fatima My Mother said that, until a sufficient number of faithful are consecrating their hearts to My Heart and the heart of My Mother, there will not be peace in this world.
    In the Shepherds of Christ Movement including the Apostles of the Eucharistic Heart of Jesus Movement, I am reaching the priests, sisters and brothers in the religious life, laity, including the children - with this Consecration.
    As you dwell in Our hearts you are one with us. As you give yourselves to our Hearts, you are one in our Hearts. These movements will prosper for all are joined in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. You will proceed ahead in one heart and one mind. You will be more joined as a true family, brothers and sisters, living according to the will of your heavenly Father and dwelling in the heart of your heavenly Mother.
    Oh, beloved children, in these movements you have been hand-picked and chosen for this mission by Me. I am giving to you such graces to unite more and more deeply to My Heart. You will be one with each other and one with God. As you dwell in My Mother's heart and My Heart, you unite with the Father in the Holy Spirit.
    You are especially chosen, my apostles, to help carry My love to this world. As you join in this oneness with Me, I live in you and you in Me and I am alive in this world in a special way through this union.
    I have called you to this apostleship, I am guarding your every breath, I am giving you abundant graces to help carry out the plan of the Father. "Come to me, all you who labour and are overburdened, and I will give you rest." (Matt. 11:28)1
    Bring the cares of the Church and the world to Me. I am waiting to give you all you need. I am Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God. I live this day in the world. I am truly present in the Blessed Sacrament. Come to Me and I will live in you.
    I love you, I love you, I love you. I am your beloved Savior, Jesus.

 

March 8, 1996 - Friday during Lent - Mass 2:10pm

God is Real

R. Everyday this week I have received a special grace when I went to Mass at Fr. Carter's Chapel. Today I realized what was really real is all I believe about the Father, Son and Holy Spirit and my heart was filled with immense joy to know clearly the really-real is this. It has been every day as instantly a veil goes up and I see with such insight - through this special grace I receive. Today I knew more and more the reality of heaven. I existed so deeply in God, given such an awareness of this. I knew the love of all 3 Persons of the Trinity. I was overwhelmed with joy at this vision. I see my own wretchedness and how He loves me despite my sinfulness.

    I realize from the Tuesday morning Mass how so much is because of His grace. I have been begging Him to not take this special grace from me. I long for His gifts. If I am good it is because of His grace, how wretched I would be if He withdrew His grace. I am totally dependent on Him. I love my Papa so much, I see so clearly the little child, that wants to be His - that wants to be His little dependent child and it gives me such great joy.

Matthew 11:25

At that time Jesus exclaimed, 'I bless you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, for hiding these things from the learned and the clever and revealing them to little children.

R. I realized today from the message I received earlier, after early Mass, how God is truly present in the Eucharist. I unite to the Father and Holy Spirit through this great gift of Jesus, who gives Himself to me. I feel the presence of God. I realize the love of each Person of the Trinity, I know God as one. This is reality: God gives Himself to me in the Holy Eucharist. Such joy and love is mine to be given this great gift.

 

March 9, 1996

Love is Being in the Embrace of the Hearts of Jesus and Mary

R. I was wrapped with sorrow. I felt as if I could not take the pressure and in a moment Jesus outpoured His love to me. I was wrapped in the 2 Hearts, in the love between Jesus and Mary. When They looked into each other's eyes on the way to Calvary, it was a deep comfort in my sorrow and I was comforted as They both were in that moment, when Their eyes met on the way to Calvary.

Song: See the Eyes That Look at Mary

R. I realized through what They gave me - sufferings of His agony to His body, and even greater, agonies of His Heart, for all those who would, for all time, abandon Him, neglect Him, hate Him, curse Him, sin against Him, kill and persecute Him when they persecuted their brother. Jesus looked into the eyes of His Mother and knew her great love for Him. This comforted His Heart immediately helping in the excruciating agony. Mary, too, looked into Jesus' beautiful face, looking deeply into Jesus' Heart, as she peered in that instant into His eyes. Mary felt His great love for her and her sorrow was turned to joy to behold the love of His Heart.

    This is my goal in life: to forever look into the eyes of the suffering Christ and give Jesus' my love, to see Jesus on the ground, Jesus' chin skinned from the fall, and look into Jesus' eyes and tell Jesus: Oh, Jesus, sweet Jesus, how truly I love Thee with my whole heart, my whole soul and my whole mind. This is what I want to do: to see Jesus, surrounded by those hard-hearted men that Jesus loved so dearly, calling out, "crucify Him, crucify Him." I look into His eyes there and say, sweet Jesus, I love Thee, I love Thee, and to comfort Jesus' bleeding Heart.

    This is His delight for us to help make reparation to His Heart and Mary's heart after Communion when we are so intently united to Him, when our prayers have the most power. The Power is in the Eucharist. Praying after Communion is the most powerful time.

    God is offended by the sins of men. Mary is blasphemed in her Virginity, her Motherhood, her purity. It is after Communion that we comfort Their Hearts for all of the offenses against the Hearts of Jesus and Mary.

    Mary's Heart is the gateway to Jesus' Heart. Mary's Heart is the key to intense, deep union with God. It is through Mary's Heart we unite with Jesus' Heart and unite to the Father and the Holy Spirit.

    I see all through the rosary the interaction between Jesus and Mary, the intimacy between the highest human person and the Divine Person, Jesus. I see the constant union between Mary and her Spouse, the Holy Spirit. I see the union of Mary and the Father. In the rosary, I am swept in the embrace of this love between Mary and Jesus. I know the love of Mary for the Trinity more and more. Mary the singular vessel.

    In the rosary I see the interaction of Jesus and Mary's Hearts. I was swept up in this love that I knew existed in the 2 Hearts. This morning before Mass - it was as if I was joined intently to the love of these 2 Hearts and comforted in my deep sorrow. This is what happens in the rosary, the seven sorrows and the stations. I am joined in the embrace of love between Jesus and Mary, between Divinity and humanity, when I join in Their Hearts.

    In one instant I was swept from suffering to immense joy by this gift of sharing in the loving embrace of the two Hearts. I want to live in this union. The love and comfort I felt in that glance between Jesus and Mary on the way to Calvary.

    All through the rosary, the seven sorrows, and the stations, if I am caught up in that love between the Two Hearts, it is love in action. Divinity unites to humanity in this embrace with the 2 Hearts. Love is interaction. Love between God and man reaches its heights between Jesus and Mary when I am caught in this embrace between Him and her - I am saturated with the greatest love.

    I love you with the deepest, deepest love, O Hearts of Jesus and Mary!

 

March 9, 1996

R. We plead to the Father for our souls as we join in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass.

I see clearly how we unite in this Holy Sacrifice with Jesus and the priest and offer ourselves as a sacrifice to the Father for our sins and the sins of all mankind.

    I am indeed so joined to all my brothers. We unite with all the angels and saints, all the souls in purgatory and we beg the Father for mercy for we have offended God.

    Until a sufficient number of people have given their hearts to Jesus and Mary, we will not have peace in this world. We plead in one mind and one heart at Mass to the Father for mercy. Man has sinned. We beg for grace and mercy.

Jesus gives Himself to us in the Mass. We unite to the sacrifice of Calvary, sacramentally made present in the Mass and to help make reparation for the sins of mankind.

    Our every act, we unite through the Mass that continues all over the world. This act is most pleasing to the Father. We beg for mercy and for grace for the sins of all men, united to the Masses going on all over the world.

    We are sinful. We must unite in our hearts. We unite as a people with loving hearts. We become one in our hearts.

    It is through the Heart of Jesus, a Divine Person, and Mary, and her Immaculate Heart, that we unite our hearts and plead to the Father for mercy and grace. I see so clearly this - but cannot write what I have seen with eyes unveiled. We must pray for His grace. It is because we need His grace to see and to know. The world can know Him and He can outpour His grace and grant mercy to us if He wants. It is through His grace the world will know Him and His mercy and love. It is by consecrating our hearts to the Sacred Heart and Immaculate Heart that we can be united in Him. As we dwell in Their Hearts, the treasures of God unfold.

    Oh, Heart of Jesus, I find my life in You. You are my refuge and my all.

 

March 11, 1996 - After Mass 1:30pm

R. I saw at Mass how I want to plead to the Father for my sins and the sins of all men. I could see the sinfulness of us, as men, and I wanted to unite in such oneness with Jesus in the Mass and beg, beg the Father for forgiveness and to outpour His grace and mercy on this sinful world.

    Our whole act ought to be one of such thankfulness for the gift Jesus has given to us, begging Him to forgive us, His sinful creatures. We unite to the Father, the prayers after the consecration, we unite with the whole world, to the Church and we pray united to God, Through Him, With Him and In Him, and we beg to give ourselves as a sacrifice, to die to selfish ways and give ourselves to help make reparation for our sins and the sins of all.

    We beg for mercy. We pray the Our Father and with every word we cry out to our Father with all our heart to outpour His grace and mercy on the world.

    The grace and mercy flow through the pierced Heart of Jesus.

    We want to help make reparation for our sins and the sins of this sinful race, we must unite with all, through Him, with Him and in Him.

    We are emptying ourselves, we give ourselves entirely, deeply pleading with all our hearts. We see the sinfulness of this race - we know we receive this abundant outpouring of His life on our graced baptized soul at Mass. He outpours His grace and mercy. He gives Himself to us in the Eucharist. We are in the deepest union with Him in Communion and we want to help make reparation for the sins of men in this deep union - and to help make reparation to the Heart of Jesus and help make reparation to the Heart of Mary too.

    The Father gave us His Son and look how we treat Him! This is the Father's gift to us - we are such ungrateful creatures. We beg at the Lamb of God:    

        Lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world, have mercy on us.
        Lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world, have mercy on us.
        Lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world, grant us peace.

We beg three times - we beg before we receive Him.

Adoration
Petition
Thanksgiving
Satisfaction for Sin

In the depth of the pain, I met my Lord. Look at all the sufferings in our lives. It was in the depth I saw His eyes. My heart was united to Him. The intimacy was in the deep, deep moments of pain. Lord have mercy. Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world, have mercy on us.

 

March 13, 1996

R. Jesus told me that the Mass Book was important to the Church and the world. Since First Friday, I have felt very strongly that if I don't stay home and do it, I am going to get really sick. I opened this notebook two times today and He said He wants the Mass Book out, more than anything else I may be doing.

    The priest must be open and centered in Christ. He is another Christ to us. He is celebrating the Mass, we are united to the Mass, the sacrifice of Calvary, sacramentally made present. Jesus wants the priests to be so holy, consecrated to His Sacred Heart and Mary's Immaculate Heart.

    Jesus wants us loving, praying from our hearts. Every word at Mass should be spoken with a heart that is fervent. A priest is given such a gift to celebrate the Mass.

    Every word from the priest should be so heartfelt, united so deeply to Jesus, it should penetrate the souls of those present. We are going through motions. Jesus wants our heartfelt praise, adoration, thanksgiving and sorrow for sins. (our sins and the sins of the world)

    This is a Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. What a gift the hands of a priest. He should strive to have a heart more and more like Jesus!! Is the priest's heart so holy for such an honor? Has the priest consecrated his heart to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and Immaculate Heart of Mary?

    See Jesus at the Last Supper. Jesus feeds us with Himself. Jesus gives us His Body and Blood at Mass. The sacrifice of Calvary is sacramentally made present at Mass. Love, Jesus emptied Himself.

    Does the priest give Himself? Is His Heart open and pure? If we were giving ourselves to the point of death, how would we make the sacrifice? Let us unite and be holy.

    Jesus says: This is My Body, take and eat, My beloved ones. This is My Blood, My Blood given up for you.

R. What power when we unite to Jesus and offer ourselves and beg the Father for mercy and grace. I love You Jesus.

Let us see ourselves, behold the cross before us and imagine ourselves in such union with our beloved Jesus. Let my hands hold the pierced feet of my beloved, sweet Jesus and kiss and caress His wounded foot. Let me hold His beautiful hand and kiss and caress each hand, pierced for love of me. Let me kiss the head that bore the wounds from the thorns. Oh, sweet Jesus, wounded for love of me. Lastly, let me kiss, with the most love, the precious wound that leads to His most beauteous Heart, the Heart of greatest love!

 

March 14, 1996 - After Mass 7:05am (smelled incense during Mass)

R. Yesterday I prayed with my whole heart to be possessed by Him at Mass, to dwell so deeply in me, to be in me, that He would live in this world in me.

Vision: On March 13th I had two visions and felt what I saw was 'seeing more through God's eyes - the big picture.'

    I was standing in the kitchen and I had the sense I knew I was on this earth, I knew I was here, but what was more real was the 'whole' of everything. I saw as if this was where I was but the "whole" existed around me. The unseen became more real to me, more real than just being where I was in the kitchen. What was real was all that I did not see. It put me in a whole new perspective. I saw, as in the mind of God, through His eyes - I saw myself here and now - but in relations to all time and all that exists. It makes the moment as it is – a moment in time – part of all of eternity – so important, but in the perspective of all things.

    It was a vision as when I saw through God's eyes, all time, all people, all one family in Him. That is how I want to live - that I live in this world in Him, as I did when I had the vision on December 15th. I was in Him, I existed in Him in a way I cannot describe. I saw to a degree with the eyes of God, knowing more how He loves, how He looks deeply into the soul of the other and loves them. No longer looking at their body, but looking beyond to their soul. Seeing them, so clearly, in their fears and joys, seeing what is really them, not their body. It was a place far beyond what I know and love deeply each one, knowing them in their soul, it is as He sees them and loves them so deeply.

    Yesterday at Mass I saw how the priest must be open to give the love of Jesus to all. The priest being so identified with Christ. They were chosen by God to be a priest. Persona-Christi. ??

    The Word is a two-edged sword. How deeply I understand this. The person reading the Word should be so holy, focused on God, not themselves - delivering the Word in Him.

    This is how it is with the priest when He says the Mass. He puts on Christ. He should identify with Christ offering the Holy Sacrifice to the Father. I want to see Christ in him - so holy - so one with Christ as he celebrates the Mass not thinking of himself or his glory, identifying with Jesus, being so one in Jesus. Emptying his mind of his own glory and focusing on the glory of God, not focusing on problems he has, not being distracted before. So one in the Mass. They identify with Christ. It is the duty that the priest puts on Christ in all His actions. When the priest does this, we will not have a problem with vocations. The role modeling must be there. Young men need to see that this is a great calling, God calling a man to be a priest.

    Likewise we all are as God intends us to be according to how we put on Christ and He lives in this world in us. My most fervent prayer is for grace that He will live in me.

    Oh, sweet Jesus, You are my sunrise, my rest after a long day, my comfort in the dark night, my dearest love. My sweet Jesus, that I could kiss forever Your wounded head and the wounds in your hands and feet and know You suffered for me, that I too may carry my cross with love and be, as You are in me, to the world.

    I love You with my every cell and give myself entirely to You, every hair, every speck of myself, that You will possess me and live in me. I am yours, my beloved, sweet, adorable, wonderful Jesus.

(He told me to read the message of February 17, 1994.)

Seek True Treasures

February 17, 1994 5:30 a.m.

Jesus: My little ones, how are you doing? Are you getting bogged down in this weather? Do you know yet that you do not control the elements? You live every day and you think you have much to do to control your actions but you do not see the eyes of Him Who watches over you with loving care.

I give to you this earth and all you need to sustain your life here. Man worries about the earth and if this or that will happen. Man has become so independent that he thinks he controls all things and he needs to worry about his present and future.

You, My favored, chosen ones, know that life here lasts but a moment and like smoke it is gone without a trace. Look at your ancestors. So few people ever remember their ancestors, yet your ancestors thought that at every moment their actions were so crucial. Little ones, you hold on to life. You hold on to these little happenings here and you worry in vain! Look at the big picture, My little ones. Here today, gone tomorrow, and where are you going?

The days go by with such speed. "Oh," you say, "Where have the years gone?" You think every second is so important. You worry, you fret, you wander empty roads and I watch you. I see you with your emphasis on the moment. You are being deceived, My little ones. It is in seeing the moment as part of eternity that you really know what is going on. Each moment you live, you are the teacher about the God Who dwells in your breast. Each moment you live, you are My messenger to this cold, scared world. Nothing you do means anything except as you are serving Me.

Take off your glasses. Behold the life above. See every moment as a drop of the life to come. See every moment as part of eternity. All these drops together make up your pass into My kingdom.

You worry, you wonder, you fret, you hold on. I give you a toothache, I take it away. One second and a toothache is gone. Is that not how it is with life–one second and it is gone? Oh, how those little precious moments seem to die away and you scarce can remember what happened! Yet during people's lives those moments seem earth-shattering. Those moments are yesterday's forgotten memories. You hold on, you fret, you fume and I watch you let go of each moment, only to become forgotten by today.

Store up your moments as part of eternity. Every moment here is part of your pass to My kingdom. How are you living this moment? Is it used to give service to Me and preach My gospel? Are you making all your moments count towards your eternity? Each moment is but a breath and it is gone. Did you use the moment I gave you to do My work? This time is not yours. I can snatch your moments away in one breath. It matters, My children, only as you choose to serve Me and spread My love!

If everyone had God as their primary goal, what love you would possess. What power you would know, because God is the mightiest force. I have all the power. Other power is false power!

Do you get it yet? Do you think anything you hold on to is so precious here? Here today, gone tomorrow, and I snatch you from your seats and you never return to finish what you deemed so important.

Are you comprehending My words here? The body is but an instrument to get you around. Reach with the spirit within. Live from the soul. Communicate with Me in your soul. Look for the unseen world that surrounds you constantly. Die to yourself.

You have a soul at this very moment that is a vibrant spiritual force alive within you. Live from your soul, My little ones. Focus on your soul. Live from your heart. Do not fret and fume for the things of this world. Here today, gone tomorrow, and then forgotten. Today's moments, yesterday's forgotten treasures. Do they mean so much or do you forget what seemed so important?

Reach with the soul. Live for God. Each moment is your chance to store up treasures for eternity. They will never be forgotten. What you do to help others to know Me will never be forgotten. How you loved will never be forgotten. How you gave lives on in those you touched. Your love is like a bubbling brook. It bubbles and keeps on bubbling. Your selfishness dies the moment after you live it.

Love is the force. Love is the power that reflects the God above. Love is not selfish. Love does not demand its own way. Love gives and doesn't stop giving. On the day of judgment it will be found in the hearts of those you touched. Think of only yourself and watch your moments become yesterday's forgotten moments. Love your brothers and watch the world reflect the love you gave, from now to the end.

Love or selfishness? I call you to love. I call you to plant a seed that grows into a mighty oak. Plant My seeds of love. Ask not how you can attain your goal but how you can fulfill the goal of God. Love God, love one another. Too simple, too hard for many.

Love, children. Reflect the God Who dwells within your soul. Store up your moments forever lest they become yesterday's forgotten treasure.

Like ripples on a pond, your love never dies. It reaches on and on and goes into the moments of eternity. Love is lasting. Love never dies. Love God, love one another. Die to yourself and live.

 

March 14, 1996

Seeing the Moments of Your Life as Part of Eternity

R. (Caught in love's embrace - This is really real. I knew at Mass that all I know about God is real and I was plunged into such deep joy, I cried.)

From Blue Book II - February 17th "It is in seeing the moment as part of eternity that you really know what is going on."

R. Magnify the moments of your life in its sorrow or its joy, to see the picture of your life here and hereafter. The focus is on the whole, the moment is magnified for it is part of your life forever. To focus on the moment is drudgery, it goes nowhere. It must be played in the context of your whole life - here and hereafter. To realize the moment as part of the whole is "give all you can for your treasure is in heaven. Give all you can to all. Live to love God and others as God intends and love yourself as God intends, being one with all our brothers in the human family of God."

    To live the moment in this life as an end is a disaster. To live the moment as part of the whole plan is joy. To live the moment as an end means I must squeeze it for all the selfish pleasure I can derive; to live the moment as part of my life here and hereafter means I must give all to that moment for the love of God and love of all, to live for eternity.

    To live the moment as an end makes me tired sometimes, always seeking selfish gratification. To live the moment as eternity, as the end gives me energy for building the Kingdom of God.

Jesus: I have all the power. Take off your blinders, see your world through the eyes of God. (R. This takes grace - we must go to the Eucharist - give ourselves to Him.)

March 2, 1994 "You cannot love intimately if you hold back."

R. Priests need to open their hearts. I need to open my heart, become one with all, one in God – living the Consecration to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary.

    I unite in this depth of my soul with others. (I saw Ellen's heart as if I saw with eyes unveiled what God sees: the love, the reflection of God, within the person.)

    As we are joined within the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, we become more and more holy and reflect His love. I want to be in Their Hearts that He lives in me in this world and He is doing His work through me. What a great honor that He uses me to do His work.

    I unite in my heart with everybody else, in deep, brotherly love, rooted in Him. He is not heavy, he is my brother – You are my brother. Who is my brother, sister? We are all one in Him.

    Relationships lose their importance – we are ALL brothers. But, He shows us the importance of blood ties too - in that respect, relationships are important.

    We do not understand the Divine mind. I see this – in no way would I see it as He sees it – He makes it so clear and I see as He sees. It widens my vision. It is a grace whereby I see. It is not the way I see in my human mind at all.

    We have to quit reaching for the heights in analyzing problems from a human point and put our efforts into giving to Him so we get Divine wisdom.

    No man sees as the Divine Mind sees unless God gives him insight into the mystery with a special grace, but all things were created with the Divine Mind and run by the Divine Mind so to know, really know, is to know as He knows for it is beyond our comprehension. Only in His great goodness, He releases insights into His Divine Wisdom to us and we comprehend more of the mystery through His grace.

    There is no way that I see as He sees, or that I love as He loves, unless He gives me the capability to be more like Him.

    Loving as He loves - Jesus wants us to be more and more like His Heart. If we saw a graced soul, (I saw Ellen's heart - I know Ellen - it was not what I looked at, her body - it was her heart, her love.) We see the body; He sees the soul.

  

March 14, 1996

Sorrowful Mysteries

The Agony in the Garden

1. Do we know that Jesus suffered so much in the garden for love of us?

2. Jesus saw before Him all the sufferings that He was about to undergo.

3. Jesus was in so much agony, He sweat blood.

4. He saw all the sins of all men from all time.

5. He knew that He would be rejected by those He loved so much.

6. How tenderly Jesus loves each one of us.

7. He loved us so much that He came to this earth and took on a human body.

8. God loved us so much that He took on human flesh.

9. Jesus is alive this day and He wants us to love Him.

10. God created us to know, love, and serve Him.

Jesus Is Scourged at the Pillar

1. Jesus allowed His flesh to be beaten for love of us.

2. The most important thing in our lives is how we are in our hearts.

3. Jesus allowed His body to be beaten raw.

4. We must get in touch with our hearts and our souls.

5. Jesus' body was covered with wounds and blood, but His Heart was vibrantly filled with burning love.

6. They whipped and whipped Jesus and He withstood all the treatment.

7. His way is always love.

8. His greatest agonies were not the agonies that He suffered to His body, but to His Heart for all those that would reject and hate Him.

9. Jesus, I want to comfort You with my love. I want to make reparation for my sins and the sins of men.

10. Let us give Him all our love to help ease some of the pain from those who hate Him.

Jesus Is Crowned with Thorns

1. Jesus could have stopped the treatment they gave to Him. He is all-powerful and almighty.

2. Jesus endured the suffering because He knew the Father wanted Him to endure it.

3. It is in all of the suffering that Jesus rose to new life.

4. Jesus allows us to suffer today and it brings us closer to Him.

5. Jesus loved us so much that He was beaten, crowned with thorns, and crucified on a cross for love of us.

6. Think of how it is when someone does something just for you. Jesus allowed Himself to be beaten, crowned with thorns, and crucified for us.

7. He comes and He shows us His wounded head and His face covered with blood. He asks us to give Him our love.

8. When we see all that He suffered for us, can we say "no" to Him and refuse to give Him our love?

9. Jesus is a Person Who loves us with greater love than any human person can love us.

10. We cannot fully understand the immensity of God's love.

Jesus Carries His Cross

1. The mob stood around Jesus and cried out "...'Crucify him!'" (Mk. 15:13)

2. They gave Him a heavy cross that they placed on His back.

3. His Heart was filled with such pain to be treated this way by those He loved. What sorrow to see all the men who would treat Him with such hatred when He loved them so much!

4. In His great pain, He looked into the eyes of His Mother and He was comforted by her deep love for Him.

5. We comforted Jesus during His Passion with our great love that we give to Him today.

6. His Mother Mary walked beside Him all through His Passion. She suffered during His Passion. When He fell to the ground, she felt the pain and watched Him.

7. When they poked at Him, when He bled, she felt the pain.

8. Mary could not lift a hand to help her Son. Her heart was filled with such agony.

9. Jesus was covered with wounds and blood. Mary suffered deeply within her heart.

10. There is such love between the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. Let us be focused on the love of Their two Hearts.

Jesus Is Crucified and Dies on the Cross

1. Imagine what it would be like to have nails pounded into your hands against the wood cross.

2. Jesus spread His arms for love of us.

3. Jesus held nothing back. He gave His all, His blood, His flesh, His life.

4. He gives Himself today in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. We receive the Body and Blood of Jesus.

5. Graces are released at every Mass.

6. There is so much grace given through the Eucharist.

7. Jesus wants us to give Him our hearts.

8. Jesus loves us with such love that He gave Himself as a sacrifice on the cross.

9. Jesus wants to take care of us. We must give ourselves to Him.

10. Let us ask Him to fill our hearts with His love.
     

 

R. There were three main visions I received on March 26, 1996, April 6, 1996, Holy Saturday and April 9, 1996.
 

March 26, 1996

Very carefully discerned by Fr. Carter

R. I came to All Saints Church before a beautiful Monstrance of gold that contained Our beloved Savior. He was adorned in light, the altar beneath shone with the brightest light and the cross behind was entirely silhouetted with the same celestial light. I was overwhelmed with the presence of God and cried deeply from the awe of it all.

    To be so aware of the Almighty God truly present in His splendor and glory—to know the presence of God, to see the glistening of the gold and the light and reflection of the cross behind Him—my beauteous love—words do not exist to describe the rapture of a heavenly embrace! I cry because of the immense awe within my being to know Him. God truly present in His majesty and glory and oh, God, I behold the presence of a heavenly court. You opened wide the heavens and lifted up the veil and I knew You in Your splendor and glory. I behold God, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

    "I am the Way, the Truth and the Life." He is the Almighty God. He shows us the celestial lights with which He will light this earth. Many must surrender their hearts to His Heart and Mary's heart. It is in surrendering, the Spirit will move in the hearts of men and the light of God will shine on the darkened earth. Not with a light that you comprehend, but a light that is divinely granted—a light beyond all lights, a vision beyond all visions. It takes the surrender of minds and hearts to God. The Spirit cannot move in us when we are in control. Surrender and give Him our heart and He will make us fishers of men.

    We are His apostles in the Shepherds of Christ Movement. He is sending us out into the world to light the hearts with His burning love. We are chosen by Him and He is giving us abundant graces to grow in our union with Him. He will light this world with His burning love. Our hearts must be open. We must surrender and let go and reach beyond the senses, reach with our hearts. Pray for faith, pray for the vision of God.

Note:  I cried all through this writing, having the presence of God and being in great ecstasy to behold Him. May God touch your heart and may His Spirit move within you. May you be filled with the grace of God to surrender and let Him accomplish a great work within you.

    And I was filled on high with His miraculous light and He reached down and spoke within me. I was filled as never before and knew the presence of God, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

Note:  As I finished, the bells at All Saints Church rang at 9:00 A.M. As I began to experience the immense splendor, the bells of 8:00 rang. Words do not express anything that I saw or experienced or know from this ecstasy. This was the greatest and the first of three visions, which defined clearly to me our role in the Shepherds of Christ Movement. Jesus defines clearly the role of Fr. Carter in this great mission given to him by the Father.

For Fr. Carter from Jesus:

Jesus:  To him who has eyes to see, they will see - not with earthly vision, but with the eyes of faith, and to him who has ears to hear, he will hear with the fluttering of the Spirit moving within him.

    I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. I am the Almighty God. I say to the rocks to fall and they fall and to the grass, grow, and it grows, and to the sun, shine, and it shines. I give to you My love in these letters. Filled with My love, you will conquer this earth, not with weapons and powder or force, but with fires of My love. The fire will wipe out the hatred in the cold hearts and the earth will be covered with My celestial light. The earth will rock and I will appear in the heavens adorned in power and glory and the contrite hearts will be saved. I came to separate the sheep from the goats, the light from the darkness. I come and no one pays Me heed.

    To you, My beloved son, Father Carter, I have sent you on a mission to spread this fire that will cover this earth. The hearts of men will turn from their sick and desolate ways to hearts gentle as a little lamb.

    There will be one flock and one Shepherd and My staff will rule over all. Hearts consecrated to Our Hearts will lead the light across the earth. This light will be a light of intense brightness, brighter and hotter than any light from a flame. It will be the fire of God's love. The Spirit will move in the hearts of all consecrated to My Heart, and you will know how fire truly spreads, for the love of God is a fire. It is vibrant. It is encompassing. It is smoldering, burning deep within and speedily spreading on the outside. No fire on this earth can ever describe the burning embers that burn from the Sacred Heart of Jesus. No fire burns like the fires coming from My Heart and hearts filled with the love from the Sacred Heart of Jesus.

    I have written your name, Fr. Carter, in My Heart, never ever to be blotted out and this earth will be renewed with the fire of God's love through you. You are My beloved priest-son, forever, according to the order of Melchizedek. Most holy and most sacred are your hands that consecrate the Host and write My precious newsletter for My beloved priest-sons. You are never unguarded. You are held within the deepest chamber of My Heart, and you will spread My love to the priest-sons of this earth.

    I am Jesus. You will spread My love to all souls on this earth. I love you with the tenderest burning love. I am Jesus, your beloved Savior.