At Fatima 70,000 people saw
                    the miracle of the sun on October 13, 1917.

                Now see Our Lady of Clearwater when
                    I did the rosary on the 5ths.

Our Lady of Clearwater Florida
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                God has given to us Mary, all pure, our
                    spiritual Mother —
   

Hail Mary

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee; blessed art thou among women, and blessed is the Fruit of thy womb, Jesus. * Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

                Mary was preserved from any
                    stain of original sin from
                    the first moment of conception.

                Sing: Immaculate Mary

                Mary told Bernadette at Lourdes
                    "I am the Immaculate Conception."

                Since the fall of Adam and Eve, each of us
                    comes into the world bearing the
                    stain of original sin on our souls.

                To Mary God poured forth special graces at the
                    moment of her conception, and she
                    was conceived without original sin.

                The patroness of the United States of
                    America is the Blessed Virgin
                    under the title of the Immaculate Conception.

                I can see why Mary appeared in
                    CLEAR-WATER Florida
                    on the building

                Mary crushes the head of the serpent

                The Fruits of the Holy Spirit, the 3rd Person of
                    the Holy Trinity and the Spouse of Mary
                    are
                    charity, joy, peace, patience, benignity,
                    goodness, longanimity, mildness, faith,
                    modesty, continence, chastity

                Virtuous acts are to be performed with
                    pleasure and love — delight —
                    satisfaction replaces difficulty
                    in performing these acts

                The gifts of the Holy Spirit are
                    understanding —
                    wisdom —
                    counsel —
                    fortitude —
                    knowledge —
                    piety —
                    fear of the Lord

Prayer for the Holy Spirit and His Gifts

Come Holy Spirit, come, come into our hearts, inflame all people with the fire of Your love.

Leader: Send forth Your Spirit and all will be reborn.
All:  And You will renew the face of the earth.

We pray for the seven gifts of the Holy Spirit, we ask for perfection in our souls to make us holy, holy souls likened to God.

Dear Holy Spirit, we give ourselves to You soul and body. We ask You to give us the Spirit of Wisdom, Understanding, Counsel, Fortitude, Knowledge, Piety, and Fear of the Lord.

                We have been given the great gift to love
                    and distribute pictures of the Sacred
                    Heart of Jesus —

                The Heart of Jesus is used to show us
                    His infinite and Divine love.

                December 17, 1991 - 5 years to the day
                    Mary appeared at Clearwater —
                    I was given a vision of Jesus'
                        Heart — on fire — like a
                        pot-bellied stove 

                    I put it on the front of Blue Book II as
                        I saw it —

December 17, 1991

    

His Burning Heart

Messenger:  I was alone in All Saints Church after Mass and Communion, in front of the tabernacle, when I saw the Sacred Heart. It was red around the outside, then a layer of yellow and then the brightest light in the center. I felt heat and it looked like an open furnace.

    I thought about it all day and it instantly gave me peace and warmth in my heart. This is the purpose of these letters—to draw hearts to the ardent on-fire love of Jesus. I received the following message that day:

    "Open your heart to the fire of God's love. He is ablaze in your heart. He wants to dwell in you and love you and others through you. Love God, yourself and one another and experience the fire set aglow in your heart and experience the warmth of His love."

end of writing about December 17, 1991

Promises of Our Lord to those devoted to His Sacred Heart: 

1. I will give them all the graces necessary in their state of life.

2. I will establish peace in their homes.

3. I will comfort them in all their afflictions.

4. I will be their refuge during life and above all in death.

5. I will bestow a large blessing on all their undertakings.

6. Sinners shall find in My Heart the source and the infinite ocean of mercy.

7. Tepid souls shall grow fervent.

8. Fervent souls shall quickly mount to high perfection.

9. I will bless every place where a picture of My Heart shall be set up and honored.

10. I will give to priests the gift of touching the most hardened hearts.

11. Those who promote this devotion shall have their names written in My Heart, never to be blotted out.

12. I promise you in the excessive mercy of My Heart that My all-powerful love will grant to all those who communicate on the first Friday in nine consecutive months the grace of final penitence; they shall not die in My disgrace nor without receiving their sacraments; My divine Heart shall be their safe refuge in this last moment.

                At the Visitation Convent of Paray-le-Monial,
                    France 1673-75 Christ appeared
                    to St. Margaret Mary and complained
                "Behold the Heart which has so loved men
                    that it has spared nothing, exhausting
                    and consuming itself in testimony
                    of its love. Instead of gratitude I receive
                    from most only indifference, by irreverence
                    and sacrilege and coldness and scorn
                    that men have for Me in the Sacrament
                    of Love."

                    Jesus asked the Friday after the
                Octave of Corpus Christi be made
                a feast of reparation, and, He gave
                her the 12 Promises to all who
                give devotion to His Sacred Heart.

                Jesus gave Fr. Carter the prayers in the
                    prayer manual and gave him
                    the following message with a
                    promise at the end

                The First Friday devotion arose from
                the result of the appearance of
                Our Lord to St. Margaret Mary Alocoque.
                Jesus promised the grace of a happy
                death to those who receive Holy Communion
                on the First Friday of nine
                consecutive months.

                Envy is one of the seven capital sins.
                    It is wrong to use our minds and hearts
                    to bring self-destruction by looking
                    with anger or temper on others or
                    wishing them misfortune.

                Some in the world act like offenses that displease
                    God are not sins.
                    If we lie about sin we are deceiving and
                        giving into satan.

                We are not to commit adultery that is a sin,
                    but it is shown in our world
                    today as if it is accepted.

                Man has natural tendencies to sensuous
                    pleasure or evil which is called
                    concupiscence, this is the
                    result of the fall of Adam and Eve.

Romans 7: 7-12

What should we say, then? That the Law itself is sin? Out of the question! All the same, if it had not been for the Law, I should not have known what sin was; for instance, I should not have known what it meant to covet if the Law had not said: You are not to covet. But, once it found the opportunity through that commandment, sin produced in me all kinds of covetousness; as long as there is no Law, sin is dead.

    Once, when there was no Law, I used to be alive; but when the commandment came, sin came to life and I died. The commandment was meant to bring life but I found it brought death, because sin, finding its opportunity by means of the commandment, beguiled me and, by means of it, killed me.

    So then, the Law is holy, and what it commands is holy and upright and good.

Colossians 3: 5-11

That is why you must kill everything in you that is earthly: sexual vice, impurity, uncontrolled passion, evil desires and especially greed, which is the same thing as worshipping a false god; it is precisely these things which draw God's retribution upon those who resist. And these things made up your way of life when you were living among such people, but now you also must give up all these things: human anger, hot temper, malice, abusive language and dirty talk; and do not lie to each other. You have stripped off your old behaviour with your old self, and you have put on a new self which will progress towards true knowledge the more it is renewed in the image of its Creator; and in that image there is no room for distinction between Greek and Jew, between the circumcised and uncircumcised, or between barbarian and Scythian, slave and free. There is only Christ: he is everything and he is in everything.

1 Thessalonians 4: 3-5

    God wills you all to be holy. He wants you to keep away from sexual immorality, and each one of you to know how to control his body in a way that is holy and honourable, not giving way to selfish lust like the nations who do not acknowledge God. He wants nobody at all ever to sin by taking advantage of a brother in these matters; the Lord always pays back sins of that sort, as we told you before emphatically.

                God gives us confession to confess
                    our sins.

Matthew 16: 19

I will give you the keys of the kingdom of Heaven: whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven; whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.’

   

Matthew 18: 18

    ‘In truth I tell you, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven; whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven

John 21: 18-19

    In all truth I tell you,
    when you were young
    you put on your own belt
    and walked where you liked;
    but when you grow old
    you will stretch out your hands,
    and somebody else
        will put a belt round you
    and take you
    where you would rather not go.'

In these words he indicated the kind of death by which Peter would give glory to God. After this he said, 'Follow me.'

John 20: 21-23  

                Man is to control his sexual drive.

Matthew 5: 27-30

1 Peter 3: 2-6

when they see the reverence and purity of your way of life. Your adornment should be not an exterior one, consisting of braided hair or gold jewellery or fine clothing, but the interior disposition of the heart, consisting in the imperishable quality of a gentle and peaceful spirit, so precious in the sight of God. That was how the holy women of the past dressed themselves attractively-they hoped in God and were submissive to their husbands; like Sarah, who was obedient to Abraham, and called him her lord. You are now her children, as long as you live good lives free from fear and worry.

Titus 2: 1-8

It is for you, then, to preach the behaviour which goes with healthy doctrine. Older men should be reserved, dignified, moderate, sound in faith and love and perseverance. Similarly, older women should behave as befits religious people, with no scandal-mongering and no addiction to wine-they must be the teachers of right behaviour and show younger women how they should love their husbands and love their children, how they must be sensible and chaste, and how to work in their homes, and be gentle, and obey their husbands, so that the message of God is not disgraced. Similarly, urge younger men to be moderate in everything that they do, and you yourself set an example of good works, by sincerity and earnestness, when you are teaching, and by a message sound and irreproachable

Proverbs 5: 15-20

Drink the water from your own storage-well,
    fresh water from your own spring.
Even if your fountains overflow outside,
    your streams of water in the public squares:
let them be for you alone,
    and not for strangers with you.
May your fountain-head be blessed!

Find joy with the wife you married in your youth,
    fair as a hind, graceful as a fawn:
    hers the breasts that ever fill you with delight,
    hers the love that ever holds you captive.
Why be seduced, my son, by someone else's wife,
    and fondle the breast of a woman who belongs to another"

Genesis 39: 7-20  

and it happened some time later that his master's wife cast her eyes on Joseph and said, "Sleep with me." But he refused. "Look," he said to his master's wife, "with me here, my master does not concern himself with what happens in the house, having entrusted all his possessions to me. He himself wields no more authority in this house than I do. He has exempted nothing from me except yourself, because you are his wife. How could I do anything so wicked, and sin against God?" Although she spoke to Joseph day after day, he would not agree to sleep with her or be with her.

    But one day when Joseph came into the house to do his work, and none of the men of the household happened to be indoors, she caught hold of him by his tunic and said, "Sleep with me." But he left the tunic in her hand, took to his heels and got out. When she saw that he had left the tunic in her hands as he ran out, she called her servants and said to them, "Look at this! My husband brought in a Hebrew to make a fool of me! He burst in on me, but I screamed, and when he heard me scream, he left his tunic beside me and ran out of the house."

    She kept his tunic by her until his master came home. Then she told him the same tale, 'The Hebrew slave you brought to us burst in on me to make a fool of me. But when I screamed, he left his tunic beside me and ran away." When his master heard his wife say, "This was how your slave treated me," he became furious. Joseph's master had him arrested and committed to the gaol where the king's prisoners were kept.

                The ancient world stressed the
                    nature of the flesh as opposed
                    to the nature of the Spirit of God.

Romans 7: 14-25 

We are well aware that the Law is spiritual: but I am a creature of flesh and blood sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand my own behaviour; I do not act as I mean to, but I do things that I hate. While I am acting as I do not want to, I still acknowledge the Law as good, so it is not myself acting, but the sin which lives in me. And really, I know of nothing good living in me -- in my natural self, that is -- for though the will to do what is good is in me, the power to do it is not: the good thing I want to do, I never do; the evil thing which I do not want -- that is what I do. But every time I do what I do not want to, then it is not myself acting, but the sin that lives in me.

    So I find this rule: that for me, where I want to do nothing but good, evil is close at my side. In my inmost self I dearly love God's law, but I see that acting on my body there is a different law which battles against the law in my mind. So I am brought to be a prisoner of that law of sin which lives inside my body.

    What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body doomed to death? God -- thanks be to him -- through Jesus Christ our Lord.

    So it is that I myself with my mind obey the law of God, but in my disordered nature I obey the law of sin.

 

Romans 8: 5-11  

1 Corinthians 3: 1-3

And so, brothers, I was not able to talk to you as spiritual people; I had to talk to you as people still living by your natural inclinations, still infants in Christ; I fed you with milk and not solid food, for you were not yet able to take it-and even now, you are still not able to, for you are still living by your natural inclinations. As long as there are jealousy and rivalry among you, that surely means that you are still living by your natural inclinations and by merely human principles.

                Jesus took Peter, James and John in
                    the garden — He told them to
                    be aware of temptations —
                    Jesus said
                    "Sit down here while I pray"

                Christ begged the Father as He
                    knelt to pray

                    "Father if it is your will, take
                        this cup from me, yet not
                        my will but yours be done"

                Christ knew the suffering He would
                    suffer.

                An angel appeared to strengthen Him —
                His sweat became drops of blood falling to
                    the ground
                He returned to the sleeping disciples —
                Judas then appeared.

Revelation 14: 1-5

Next in my vision I saw Mount Zion, and standing on it the Lamb who had with him a hundred and forty-four thousand people, all with his name and his Father's name written on their foreheads. I heard a sound coming out of heaven like the sound of the ocean or the roar of thunder; it was like the sound of harpists playing their harps. There before the throne they were singing a new hymn in the presence of the four living creatures and the elders, a hymn that could be learnt only by the hundred and forty-four thousand who had been redeemed from the world. These are the sons who have kept their virginity and not been defiled with women they follow the Lamb wherever he goes; they, out of all people, have been redeemed to be the first-fruits for God and for the Lamb. No lie was found in their mouths and no fault can be found in them.

 

                Holy Spirit Revelation about lying

                    The first commandment of God
                        "I am the Lord thy God; thou
                        shalt not have strange (false)
                        gods before Me"

                    We are to give to God what is His due.
                    We give highest honor to God —
                    We have faith, hope and love.
                    We adore God
                    We must offer God the supreme
                        worship that is His due.

                    God wants us to obey out of love.
                    He tells us to call Him "Our Father"
                    We are not to see ourselves as slaves
                        obeying God.

Matthew 5: 1-12

Seeing the crowds, he went onto the mountain. And when he was
seated his disciples came to him. Then he began to speak. This is
what he taught them:

How blessed are the poor in spirit:
the kingdom of Heaven is theirs.
Blessed are the gentle:
they shall have the earth as inheritance.
Blessed are those who mourn:
they shall be comforted.
Blessed are those
   who hunger and thirst for uprightness:
they shall have their fill.
Blessed are the merciful:
they shall have mercy shown them.
Blessed are the pure in heart:
they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers:
they shall be recognised
   as children of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted
   in the cause of uprightness:
the kingdom of Heaven is theirs.

Blessed are you when people abuse you and persecute you and
speak all kinds of calumny against you falsely on my account.
Rejoice and be glad, for your reward will be great in heaven; this
is how they persecuted the prophets before you.

                    Could we even comprehend how it was for
                Christ to come upon the earth and to deal
                with the people who did not know or
                understood the things He knew.

                    How horrendous it was for men to
                mock Jesus and accuse Him so unjustly —
                Jesus, all perfect, the Son of God, to walk
                amidst the unforgiving, pompous,
                arrogant men — so filled with pride,
                anger, lust — crying out to God —
                'Crucify Him".

                    And they hung Him between two
                criminals. They hung Jesus shamefully
                by nails, body almost naked, on a
                tree, people watched as Jesus died —
                they watched a man put to death —
                Jesus allowed this humiliation — He
                took the nature of a slave — He hung and
                went through a derisive death.

                    See men as they watched Jesus carry
                the cross, laden with the sins of the
                world. Gawkers — like gawker that
                watch a wreck —

                    Jesus all merciful
                    They had no mercy
                    Their hearts — hearts of stone
                    Their anger so great that they could
                        crucify an innocent man.

                Did you ever see a man that is so
                    consumed with hatred to act it
                    out — to 'save face' — he pokes and pokes
                    at an innocent other to try to infuriate
                    them — because he sees himself too
                    perfect to act out his own anger —
                    It is deceptive, lying, he is angry,
                    full of hate and he acts in hate
                    to a scapegoat an innocent other —
                    then like a whipping boy — he gets
                    relief watching the other suffer —
                    He hides His impurities, his hatred
                    from himself and he laughs little
                    unless he has made another suffer —

                    Anger is an outburst of emotion
                    and is filled with revenge —
                    It is one of the 7 capital sins —
                    it is a disorder, full of passion — indignation

                    Jesus was the Lamb led to the
                slaughter — They wanted Jesus dead
                on the cross — They whipped Jesus to
                their own exhaustion — Did you see
                anything but darkness inside men who
                make others a scapegoat who are
                consumed with pride, hatred and
                anger because they were betrayed and
                they act out their hatred on another —
                they work to 'save face', blaming another,
                trying to look innocent and calm themselves;
                when someone is passive-aggressive —
                they can be filled with hatred.

                    The life I have lived is to try to grow
                in greater holiness — writing God's
                messages for 17 years to help people
                to love, to be pure inside, to know
                God's love — to know about the Eucharist
                the scriptures, meditations on the
                rosary — forgiveness — hope ——

                Judas betrayed Jesus, of the twelve Apostles — Judas
                sold Jesus for 30 pieces of silver —
                Now what happens when a man has
                been so wounded by another and
                betrayed — his family torn apart —
                does he carry the hatred in his
                heart wanting to punish and punish,
                but the law says don't do that
                so deceptively he tries to control
                to inflict pain, causing confusion,
                disharmony to have combat for
                his hatred inside — attacking others
                innocently who love and try to do
                good —

                    How could they tear the flesh
                of Jesus, the Son of God, how could
                they beat Him, how could they argue
                with their words of untruth to
                justify their actions.

                They used profanity on Jesus, blaspheming Jesus —
                    disrespecting Jesus — Jesus, the Son of God -
                    died for these prideful men's sin.

                    The commandments command we speak
                the truth in all things.

The Ten Commandments

1. I am the Lord thy God; thou shalt not have strange gods before Me.

2. Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain.

3. Remember thou keep holy the Sabbath day.

4. Honor thy father and thy mother.

5. Thou shalt not kill.

6. Thou shalt not commit adultery.

7. Thou shalt not steal.

8. Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbor.

9. Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's wife.

10. Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's goods.

                    The commandments — command we act
                and think as God tells us. God made it a rule!!
                The ninth commandment says
                Thou shalt not covet thy neighbors wife.

                    The heart is an organ in a man —
                it gives blood to the whole body —
                pumping life to the whole body —
                when the heart is obstructed the body
                can die.

                    Now look at all the people wounded
                by divorce, watching children learn
                to live divided lives, when children
                have come to this earth in a beautiful
                act of co-creating and God has
                made marriage a sacrament, but
                the sacrament of marriage as beautiful
                as it is can be torn apart by selfishness,
                unfaithfulness to the marriage vow.
                (Some marriages can legally be annulled by the Church and legal authorities.)
                The most intimate act of giving
                oneself completely to another —
                based on trust to the core of one's
                heart — commitment, bearing
                children and then one morning some
                are betrayed — left with a 'whole in their heart.'

                Jesus showed us how the Apostles
                followed Him but Judas lied —
                Judas talked to Jesus' enemies
                to sell Jesus, the Son of God.
                At the Last Supper when Jesus
                took bread and blessed it

                Jesus knew Judas was going to betray Him.

                What about the trust of another — when
                you give your life to them and then
                because maybe you argued, were
                hard to get along with, didn't
                fill emotional needs — the other
                finds someone who is able to fill their emotional needs and
                who gives them love, understanding —
                what about their children —

                    How many others because of being
                betrayed live with stone hearts
                punishing an innocent other, not
                laughing life long, not feeling because
                their life is now ship-wrecked.

                    When pain of abandonment is so
                great another can shut down their
                heart and not feel, laugh, show
                anger become a heart of stone —
                They rationalize they will never get
                hurt again so they shut down the
                bleeding wound and put up a big
                sign "Do not enter" because they
                never want to be betrayed again,
                but we were created to love — we
                were meant to be sensitive, to laugh
                to show frustration, to act with
                emotions, but they cannot jostle
                their bleeding heart, they think, so they
                may wound innocent others now in their life

                    A 'pot' of hatred and unforgiveness for
                the betrayal — finally they can destroy
                themselves if no one wants to be around them —
                A negative, locked up person can live
                in a tomb of darkness — fear of
                abandonment or knowing the horrendous
                pain of betrayal they feel would be
                more then they can deal with — so they
                lock themselves up and their god
                becomes - making sure they don't
                feel again — so they won't have to
                deal with the pain inside — they
                in a sense — shut down because
                they think they could not take it

                    Now God intends us to be sensitive —
                to have relationships of giving and
                taking — to be able to act from our
                hearts in the world — to be sensitive —
                to learn how to do God's will more
                and more with a vibrant growing
                heart of love, trust, commitment
                most likened to Jesus.

                    How many hearts are shut down —
                where they should be one in purity
                to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary —
                they lack sensitivity having one
                divorce, maybe two, living
                betrayed — angry — not wanting to feel
                or trust again and in this darkness of
                this locked up tomb of pain — the
                devil works in fear — they may
                want to slavishly hook onto another
                so they can control them through
                some measures of exchange — you
                need me — I have this power — so you
                stay connected while I slavishly
                hold onto you.

                    What happens when a heart is like
                stone, unable to trust others, unable
                to commit to others honestly for fear
                of being betrayed again — so they
                control everything or they try to control
                others trying to make them slavishly dependent
                so they will never to abandoned again, they think.

                    Adults can feel abandoned by alcoholic
                parents who never gave children what they
                needed emotionally to feel secure, loved, important.

                    Mom and dad could have selfishly
                fought — showing hate — unsecurity
                for a little child and no love
                was shown between parents —
                competition, seeking dominance
                over the other, selfishness,
                lack of predictability — then to
                'save face' forcing all to go outside
                around others and never speak
                of the unloving war-zone they were
                forced to survive under —

                    When someone is wounded and shut
                off does the Spirit of truth live
                deeply inside or do they lie to themselves
                and their all consuming desire is
                to protect their face so no one sees
                their fear of abandonment, no one
                knows they don't act spontaneously, they think.
                Having a wild spirit inside — one unharnessed
                from the evil one — doing as you please
                is death. Discernment of the Spirit
                is vital.

                    Here is what I put on last week -
                    from Thursday's message about
                    Discernment of the Spirits.
                    It will put on at the end of the message —

                When a person gives themselves in marriage
                to another — they have extended themselves
                as they have to no other person — to
                be betrayed by another at the core
                is a horrendous thing — When children
                are involved can be far worse.

                    A person wishing to 'save face' from
                a gaping wound that has been locked
                away and never healed can be like
                carrying an 'atom bomb' — The person
                must face the fear, the abandonment,
                the betrayed trust — they don't keep
                acting out the unfinished hatred they
                feel on others —

                    Children in dysfunctional homes
                can be robbed of their emotional needs
                as parents act out all kinds of
                things and try to 'save face', when there
                is a big wreck inside the heart
                of the parent.

                    In giving the Blue Book messages to
                us and going to the Eucharist Jesus fills
                us with the knowledge of His love for
                us — His Divine all perfect love —

                    Jesus tells us about His passion — how
                they whipped Him and how He died for
                us in the Blue Books and Rosaries from
                the Hearts of Jesus and Mary — Jesus
                is there to help our hearts be vibrant
                and filled with love and truth in
                many places where people have hearts
                like a big wreck or a stone heart
                acting out hatred, deception, lies
                on others.

                    Jesus shows us how His wounds became
                glorified wounds. Jesus died — Jesus
                rose from the dead —

                    Jesus gives us the gift to know about Saul.
                Jesus shows us the weakness and strength
                of Peter —

                    The connection for religious, for all of
                us to be one is in our hearts. We are
                one in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary
                living in the truth. When children
                have been wounded in homes, it is
                healing when a child talks about it
                at 10, 15, 20, 30, 40 etc. and the
                parents listen and validates the suffering
                a child may have endured while
                they were in the family under them
                as parents. A child (10-60) could say,
                "When this happened — this was awful."

                A parent wanting to help the child work
                through their pain, can validate what
                the child suffered — "I know, I am
                sorry, that happened"

                A parent living deception — wanting to
                'save face' may throw the focus on
                themselves —

                    denying it happened
                    telling the child how they suffered
                        instead of listening and validating
                        pain a child suffered at
                        the parent's hands —

                In validating the truth of how children
                    may have suffered under their
                    leadership as parents they can
                    help the child work through
                    painful things because it was
                    validated by the parents — It was
                    telling the truth to the child for
                    love of repairing their wounds
                    because of parental things —

                A parent who never admits their
                    mistakes can send a child away
                    with
                    "Oh that wasn't that bad"
                    "Look at how I suffered"

                This closes the door to a child's open
                    heart — wanting healing and
                    validation
                    (a child should not do this every
                        day to manipulate
                        the parent)

                This may only need to be done once or
                    twice and it can help a child
                    heal.

                A person suffering an awful divorce
                    should not be in a fish bowl
                    expected to look like a good
                    fish and nothing happened —
                    Living to 'save face' — so others
                    can say
                    "Oh look how strong he or she is"

                A person forced to get a divorce and suffering needs to
                    get in touch with the feeling
                    of betrayal and how their hopes
                    and dreams were shattered
                    and cry, validate the horrendous
                    thing that happened.

                A person forced to act strong, 'save face',
                    worry with what others think rather
                    than dealing with the bleeding wound
                    inside — will stuff that bleeding
                    wound and like a jumping
                    worm inside — it doesn't
                    go away —

                    they can continue to act in hate,
                    hidden anger, passive-aggressive
                    ways on innocent others even at the
                    memory of birthday's, Christmas —
                    the devil can work through negativism
                    deep in this cavern of pain and
                    lack of living the reality —

                How division with another is not what God
                    wants — we must work through it —
                    ending a marriage is pain and suffering
                    the truth must be faced
                    to have the truth in us —

                Projection is common among some
                    setting up a surrogate relationship
                    trying to act out unfinished
                    business, resolve tension —
                    so the business is finished
                    once and for all.

                    Blaming and hurting innocent
                    others lead us into deeper and
                    deeper darkness and
                    the hatred becomes thicker —
                    the lies about what happened to
                    ourselves more advanced as we try to
                    act it out on others —

                It won't go away —
                Trauma like a divorce needs to be
                    recognized and healed —
                    not acting out hatred on innocent
                    others.
                    acting like - it was nothing —
                    I don't need to cry and forgive
                        and finish the business —
                        Let them go — if they
                        are married with new children.
                        Are you punishing everybody
                            else while you hold
                            on in love to the
                            betrayer —

                Do you need division with another surrogate
                    person so you can control the division
                    in this relationship, since you have no
                    control over the division forced on you?

                Do you need to punish others through
                    combat so the cycle fighting - resolving,
                    fighting - resolving, can act out your
                    unresolved issue over and over again
                    on an innocent other?

                The divorce ended the marriage -
                    no fighting with others and resolving
                    will bring the unfinished busines

                Only facing the pain, facing the anger
                    and betrayal of the marriage will end
                    the unfinished 'worm' jumping inside —
                    START A FIGHT — combat with an
                    innocent other — get forgiveness start again —
                    the forced divorce, annulment must be let go of
                    especially if new children are in the picture.

                Forgive them — look at your hidden
                        stuffed pain — move on
                        quit punishing innocent others

                There are as many hearts as faces —

                Punishing another woman for your
                    woman problems with other
                    women is wrong.

                Punishing another man because of other
                    male problems in your previous
                    life is wrong.

                Some children of abusive
                    parents do not know how they need
                    to validate what happened,
                    forgive the parents and
                    move on —
                    they carry that unfinished
                    business because it is too
                    painful to look at, they think — they
                    were robbed of emotional love
                    and support from parents —

                They need to validate what happened
                They need to forgive the parents
                    and move on — UNFINISHED BUSINESS
                            IS LIKE MICE IN YOUR HOUSE

                Who wants mice and rats crawling on
                    a clean kitchen floor — getting
                    in the children's stuffed toys and
                    making a mess which can lead
                    to infection —

                Cleaning one's heart — means just that —
                    validating old wounds —
                    looking at fear of abandonment —
                    letting people we inter act with today go
                        freely in and out doors not holding on to them
                        and being slavishly dependent
                        because of sick abandonment needs —

                    Not being afraid like a baby —
                        they won't love me the same
                        when they come back —
                        they may not come back —

                Children learn trust —
                Mom leaves — mom comes back and
                    loves me the same

                People with angry parents may
                    have learned — he acts
                    nice today — he says
                    abusive things tomorrow —
                    he made me feel useless
                    from what he told me as
                    a child

                Learning from a sick parent is
                    just that — they needed healing —
                    they may spray you with
                    their spray can of anger —
                    You have to recognize you were
                        sprayed and get rid of that old
                        generational anger         
                    not try to continue it on innocent
                        others telling yourself it
                        is okay — people did it to me —
                   
                You need to stop it —

                Loving people live in unity
                Loving people like Christ —
                    love, not use others
                    in manipulation and
                    control to wound them

                Ignoring your past wounds can
                    be ignoring an 'atom bomb' —
                    get rid of it

                Christ

                            wounds

                                        were

                                                    glorified

Excerpts from Blue Book 6B

Excerpt from March 27, 2008

Excerpt of The Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius, 
by Louis J. Puhl, S.J. pp. 141-146

313. RULES FOR DISCERNMENT OF SPIRITS
I

Rules for understanding to some extent the different movements produced in the soul and for recognizing those that are good to admit them, and those that are bad, to reject them. These rules are more suited to the first week
  

314.  I.  In the case of those who go from one mortal sin to another, the enemy is ordinarily accustomed to propose apparent pleasures. He fills their imagination with sensual delights and gratifications, the more readily to keep them in their vices and increase the number of their sins.

    With such persons the good spirit uses a method which is the reverse of the above. Making use of the light of reason, he will rouse the sting of conscience and fill them with remorse.

315.  2.  In the case of those who go on earnestly striving to cleanse their souls from sin and who seek to rise in the service of God our Lord to greater perfection, the method pursued is the opposite of that mentioned in the first rule.

    Then it is characteristic of the evil spirit to harass with anxiety, to afflict with sadness, to raise obstacles backed by fallacious reasonings that disturb the soul. Thus he seeks to prevent the soul from advancing.

    It is characteristic of the good spirit, however, to give courage and strength, consolations, tears, inspirations, and peace. This He does by making all easy, by removing all obstacles so that the soul goes forward in doing good.

316.  3.  SPIRITUAL CONSOLATION.  I call it consolation when an interior movement is aroused in the soul, by which it is inflamed with love of its Creator and Lord, and as a consequence, can love no creature on the face of the earth for its own sake, but only in the Creator of them all. It is likewise consolation when one sheds tears that move to the love of God, whether it be because of sorrow for sins, or because of the sufferings of Christ our Lord, or for any other reason that is immediately directed to the praise and service of God. Finally, I call consolation every increase of faith, hope, and love, and all interior joy that invites and attracts to what is heavenly and to the salvation of one's soul by filling it with peace and quiet in its Creator and Lord.

317.  4.  SPIRITUAL DESOLATION.  I call desolation what is entirely the opposite of what is described in the third rule, as darkness of soul, turmoil of spirit, inclination to what is low and earthly, restlessness rising from many disturbances and temptations which lead to want of faith, want of hope, want of love. The soul is wholly slothful, tepid, sad, and separated, as it were, from its Creator and Lord. For just as consolation is the opposite of desolation, so the thoughts that spring from consolation are the opposite of those that spring from desolation.

318.  5.  In time of desolation we should never make any change, but remain firm and constant in the resolution and decision which guided us the day before the desolation, or in the decision to which we adhered in the preceding consolation. For just as in consolation the good spirit guides and counsels us, so in desolation the evil spirit guides and counsels. Following his counsels we can never find the way to a right decision.

319.  6.  Though in desolation we must never change our former resolutions, it will be very advantageous to intensify our activity against the desolation. We can insist more upon prayer, upon meditation, and on much examination of ourselves. We can make an effort in a suitable way to do some penance.

320.  7.  When one is in desolation, he should be mindful that God has left him to his natural powers to resist the different agitations and temptations of the enemy in order to try him. He can resist with the help of God, which always remains, though he may not clearly perceive it. For though God has taken from him the abundance of fervor and overflowing love and the intensity of His favors, nevertheless, he has sufficient grace for eternal salvation.

321.  8.  When one is in desolation, he should strive to persevere in patience. This reacts against the vexations that have overtaken him. Let him consider, too, that consolation will soon return, and in the meantime, he must diligently use the means against desolation which have been given in the sixth rule.

322.  9.  The principal reasons why we suffer from desolation are three:

    The first is because we have been tepid and slothful or negligent in our exercises of piety, and so through our own fault spiritual consolation has been taken away from us.

    The second reason is because God wishes to try us, to see how much we are worth, and how much we will advance in His service and praise when left without the generous reward of consolations and signal favors.

    The third reason is because God wishes to give us a true knowledge and understanding of ourselves, so that we may have an intimate perception of the fact that it is not within our power to acquire and attain great devotion, intense love, tears, or any other spiritual consolation; but that all this is the gift and grace of God our Lord. God does not wish us to build on the property of another, to rise up in spirit in a certain pride and vainglory and attribute to ourselves the devotion and other effects of spiritual consolation.

323.  10.  When one enjoys consolation, let him consider how he will conduct himself during the time of ensuing desolation, and store up a supply of strength as defense against that day.

324.  11.  He who enjoys consolation should take care to humble himself and lower himself as much as possible. Let him recall how little he is able to do in time of desolation, when he is left without such grace or consolation.

    On the other hand, one who suffers desolation should remember that by making use of the sufficient grace offered him, he can do much to withstand all his enemies. Let him find his strength in his Creator and Lord.

325.  12.  The enemy conducts himself as a woman. He is a weakling before a show of strength, and a tyrant if he has his will. It is characteristic of a woman in a quarrel with a man to lose courage and take to flight if the man shows that he is determined and fearless. However, if the man loses courage and begins to flee, the anger, vindictiveness, and rage of the woman surge up and know no bounds. In the same way, the enemy becomes weak, loses courage, and turns to flight with his seductions as soon as one leading a spiritual life faces his temptations boldly, and does exactly the opposite of what he suggests. However, if one begins to be afraid and to lose courage in temptations, no wild animal on earth can be more fierce than the enemy of our human nature. He will carry out his perverse intentions with consummate malice.

326.  13.  Our enemy may also be compared in his manner of acting to a false lover. He seeks to remain hidden and does not want to be discovered. If such a lover speaks with evil intention to the daughter of a good father, or to the wife of a good husband, and seeks to seduce them, he wants his words and solicitations kept secret. He is greatly displeased if his evil suggestions and depraved intentions are revealed by the daughter to her father, or by the wife to her husband. Then he readily sees he will not succeed in what he has begun. In the same way, when the enemy of our human nature tempts a just soul with his wiles and seductions, he earnestly desires that they be received secretly and kept secret. But if one manifests them to a confessor, or to some other spiritual person who understands his deceits and malicious designs, the evil one is very much vexed. For he knows that he cannot succeed in his evil undertaking, once his evident deceits have been revealed.

327.  14.  The conduct of our enemy may also be compared to the tactics of a leader intent upon seizing and plundering a position he desires. A commander and leader of an army will encamp, explore the fortifications and defenses of the stronghold, and attack at the weakest point. In the same way, the enemy of our human nature investigates from every side all our virtues, theological, cardinal, and moral. Where he finds the defenses of eternal salvation weakest and most deficient, there he attacks and tries to take us by storm.

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Excerpt of The Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius, by Louis J. Puhl, S.J.
    

328. RULES FOR DISCERNMENT OF SPIRITS
II

Further rules for understanding the different movements produced in the soul. They serve for a more accurate discernment of spirits and are more suitable for the second week
  

329.  1.  It is characteristic of God and His Angels, when they act upon the soul, to give true happiness and spiritual joy, and to banish all the sadness and disturbances which are caused by the enemy.
   It is characteristic of the evil one to fight against such happiness and consolation by proposing fallacious reasonings, subtilties, and continual deceptions.

330.  2.  God alone can give consolation to the soul without any previous cause. It belongs solely to the Creator to come into a soul, to leave it, to act upon it, to draw it wholly to the love of His Divine Majesty. I said without previous cause, that is, without any preceding perception or knowledge of any subject by which a soul might be led to such a consolation through its own acts of intellect and will.

331.  3.  If a cause precedes, both the good angel and the evil spirit can give consolation to a soul, but for a quite different purpose. The good angel consoles for the progress of the soul, that it may advance and rise to what is more perfect. The evil spirit consoles for purposes that are the contrary, and that afterwards he might draw the soul to his own perverse intentions and wickedness.

332.  4.  It is a mark of the evil spirit to assume the appearance of an angel of light. He begins by suggesting thoughts that are suited to a devout soul, and ends by suggesting his own. For example, he will suggest holy and pious thoughts that are wholly in conformity with the sanctity of the soul. Afterwards, he will endeavor little by little to end by drawing the soul into his hidden snares and evil designs.

333.  5.  We must carefully observe the whole course of our thoughts. If the beginning and middle and end of the course of thoughts are wholly good and directed to what is entirely right, it is a sign that they are from the good angel. But the course of thoughts suggested to us may terminate in something evil, or distracting, or less good than the soul had formerly proposed to do. Again, it may end in what weakens the soul, or disquiets it; or by destroying the peace, tranquility, and quiet which it had before, it may cause disturbance to the soul. These things are a clear sign that the thoughts are proceeding from the evil spirit, the enemy of our progress and eternal salvation.

334.  6.  When the enemy of our human nature has been detected and recognized by the trail of evil marking his course and by the wicked end to which he leads us, it will be profitable for one who has been tempted to review immediately the whole course of the temptation. Let him consider the series of good thoughts, how they arose, how the evil one gradually attempted to make him step down from the state of spiritual delight and joy in which he was, till finally he drew him to his wicked designs. The purpose of this review is that once such an experience has been understood and carefully observed, we may guard ourselves for the future against the customary deceits of the enemy.

335.  7.  In souls that are progressing to greater perfection, the action of the good angel is delicate, gentle, delightful. It may be compared to a drop of water penetrating a sponge.
    The action of the evil spirit upon such souls is violent, noisy, and disturbing. It may be compared to a drop of water falling upon a stone.
    In souls that are going from bad to worse, the action of the spirits mentioned above is just the reverse. The reason for this is to be sought in the opposition or similarity of these souls to the different kinds of spirits. When the disposition is contrary to that of the spirits, they enter with noise and commotion that are easily perceived. When the disposition is similar to that of the spirits, they enter silently, as one coming into his own house when the doors are open.

336.  8.  When consolation is without previous cause, as was said, there can be no deception in it, since it can proceed from God our Lord only. But a spiritual person who has received such a consolation must consider it very attentively, and must cautiously distinguish the actual time of the consolation from the period which follows it. At such a time the soul is still fervent and favored with the grace and aftereffects of the consolation which has passed. In this second period the soul frequently forms various resolutions and plans which are not granted directly by God our Lord. They may come from our own reasoning on the relations of our concepts and on the consequences of our judgments, or they may come from the good or evil spirit. Hence, they must be carefully examined before they are given full approval and put into execution.

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                We are to constantly cleanse ourselves
                    of our sins to serve God better —
                    the evil spirit wants us with
                    troubles, fears, sadness, false
                    reasoning, scruples

                The good Spirit gives us courage and
                    strength

                We are to focus on the love of God
                    focus on His Divine Mysteries

                    have joy in our vocation
                    meditate on our salvation
                    have peace
                    rest in God

                We are not to give into desolation.
                    Instead we are to focus on God — the light.
                    We are not to focus on the darkness, division, but
                    love and service of God

                We must discern where our thoughts
                    come from, not give into
                    impulses from the devil —

                We must have discipline and self control
                Ask for help to control dark,
                    destructive ways,
                    disobedience to superiors —
                    changing directions

                Be patient — pray in desolation —
                    do not act for relief

                We may be tested — must pray —
                Wait for God's favors — comforts —
                    pray in patience

                Don't give into desolation

                We depend on God's grace in desolation —
                    pray, read the Blue Book

                We must put our trust in God's power

                When satan is attacking us — He wants
                    us to give in —
                    He presses down —
                    Why give in when being attacked
                        by satan

                A spiritual advisor can see a person
                    in desolation —
                    Satan wants the person to oppose
                        a spiritual direction so
                        he can keep them under
                        his mask of trying to get
                        them to give into him.

                Satan attacks the weakest place of
                    our human nature — his
                    enemy is one who can spiritually
                    advise us

                God fills a soul with spiritual gladness.

                The devil is at war for a soul filled
                    with God — he presses in and
                    in and tries to get us to get
                    away from this spiritual
                    gladness to darkness, anger,
                    depression, lack of love,
                    no productivity, crippling.
                    hatred, division

                God wants us to love
                God wants us to have harmony

                A person who is disobedient to the
                    authority makes disharmony,
                    division with the authority —
                    then the devil tempts them through
                    pride, seeking dominance,
                    to deny their error, lie to themselves
                    and cause further disharmony through
                    their lie about their disobedience.

                Satan tempts men in their weakness
                    to act for dominance over
                    women authority rather
                    then obey the rules.

                God wants to act on our soul with His
                    favors if we ask Him —
                    God will not act
                        in a dark, sinful,
                        selfish, disobedient heart.

                We seek God and beg for grace and receive
                    Him with a humble spirit —
                    unless He chooses to do
                    something to us like He did
                    in St. Paul's blindness
                    with a special grace.

                The Holy Spirit acts in light and doing
                    good, forgiveness, harmony,
                    peace, obedience —

                    the devil wants the soul to
                    do evil and to perish and be dark.

                The devil comes at first as an
                    angel of light (a good idea)
                    then he works later in his
                    evil ways to try to deceive
                    the soul and lead them to evil.

                    In the beginning the evil one lures
                through acting like it is for a good
                deed — then lures the soul into
                disobedience and darkness once he
                can get them to give into his
                crafty scheme.

                    We MUST see the action —
                beginning, middle and end —
                Not get on automatic pilot and
                say —

                    "Oh a good work — lets go and
                then disobey as we commit
                sin and give into an evil act or
                one against God's will"

                    We must discern our thoughts
                beginning, middle and end —
                All 3 must be right to be from
                the Holy Spirit — but if dark
                in the middle then it is from
                the evil spirit.

                    Look at our reasoning —
                How we were to do something,
                but the devil came said
                "Oh do this good act" but
                    in the end we didn't do
                    what we were told to do or
                    needed to do and instead didn't
                    do God's will —

                We were lead astray by a good
                    deed that was not what
                    God wanted us to do.

                The good Spirit moves like water
                    on a sponge — the bad one
                    is harsh, violent, sneaky,
                    lying, deceptive —
                    Rain on a stone

                Some go from bad to worse, day after
                    day — they keep control that
                    is not theirs — they won't
                    let go. They rationalize incorrectly
                    "I'm right" "I disobey authority"

                The devil can come looking like it is
                    consolation from the Holy Spirit,
                    and in fact it is from the angel of darkness —
                    the person may rationalize
                    "oh now I am seeing lights,
                    getting messages" —
                    just because lights are present,
                    the devil can lure through false signs and messages.

                If signs and messages have error or are
                    opposed to God's way, the commandments, the Word,
                    the Church, we know they are not from God.
                    We must discern messages and lights.

                Lights and messages are never opposed to God's ways,
                    the commandments, the Word, the basic teachings
                    of the Church (Catechism etc.)