Shepherds of Christ Daily Writing |
April 10, 2009 - Good Friday
April 11th Holy
Spirit Novena |
The Novena Rosary
Mysteries |
China Retreat
Holy Saturday Start
10:00-10:30 April 11th
Mass 11:00 a.m.
April 13th
The church needs to have the stucco replaced
and also the community building.
It is about $38,000 to repair it.
People pray in the church 24 hours a day.
We have prayed in there for 11 years.
The archdiocese gave the church to us
for this purpose for a small price.
Can you help us?
April 4, 2009
while Jesus appeared in Clearwater, Florida
Transcribed from a tape Recorded live
NOT EDITED
Excerpt before the Rosary
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Sing: Were you there when they crucified my Lord
Were you there when they crucified my Lord
Oh-h-h some times it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they crucified my LordJesus: I have called you to be a major part, in the completion of the Fatima mission in the world as it is this day. Do you see? Have I sent to you the message of the people that are hurting? I obeyed My Father to My death on the cross.
Sing: Were you there when they crucified my Lord
Were you there when they crucified my Lord
Oh-h-h some times it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they crucified my LordWere you there when they nailed him to the tree
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree
Oh-h-h some times it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they nailed him to the treeJesus: Did you see My hand, with the nail print? Did you see the hole? Did you know how it was, when the nail was put through My hand for your sins? And I cry to you. I suffered for your sins, and the souls on this earth today, and I have given to you this calling to pray, to help make reparation.
Sing: Were you there when they laid him in the tomb
Were you there when they laid him in the tombJesus: Were you there? Do you see? Do you really see the dead body of a man, crucified for your sins?
Sing: Oh-h-h some times it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they laid him in the tombSing: My God, My God, oh why have you abandoned me
Jesus: Were you there? Did you see? Did you see the darkened sky? Did you watch Me, as I hung for 3 hours for the souls that are on this earth today? This is your chance to live your vocation in the Shepherds of Christ, helping to strengthen the Church in this world today that is suffering — the young ones that have turned to drugs, the death culture, the games, videos, DVDs, the computer, the blackness, the skeletons. And I have raised you to such heights in understanding My love. Can you not see the price that I paid, for the souls that I have asked you to reach this very day? Why do you give into the evil one, when your lives are but a breath when compared to eternity. Here today gone tomorrow. Lethargy - combat — I cry to you with blood in My eyes. I cry to you with thorns on My head. I cry to you with the marks of the nails that pierced My hands through.
Sing: Were you there when they nailed him to the tree
Were you there when they nailed him to the treeJesus: This is love that I have given to you.
Sing: Oh-h-h some times it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Jesus: Do you really love Me? I ask you — Do you love Me to serve Me? You serve yourself for a few short years. Do you hear the wailing in the cold nights, the children once little ones, now in there teenage years, wandering as if in the hordes of hell walking the earth? What did you give to these children? Did you feed them poison? Did you give them darkness? Did you tell them of sex and abortions? Did you teach them of the dignity of life? And when I cried out to you — "Oh My children, you do not know" — and I gave you the weapons to fight with, the weapons of My love, you said — "That's their kids, mine will be okay." The children of Mary are the children of Mary, over the entire earth, Mary's children are the ones I died for.
Sing: Were you there when they nailed him to the tree
Sing: Our Blessing Cup is a communion with the blood of Christ
Our Blessing Cup is a communion with the blood of ChristWhat return shall I make to the Lord for all the good He has done for me
I will take the cup of salvation, I will call upon the name of the Lord
Our Blessing Cup is a communion with the blood of ChristPsalm 116
How precious in the eyes of the Lord is the death of his faithful children
I am your servant, the son of your handmaid and you have loosed my bonds
Our Blessing Cup is a communion with the blood of ChristIn thanksgiving I will offer you sacrifice, I will call upon the name of the Lord
My vows to the Lord I will pay in the presence of all his people
Our Blessing Cup is a communion with the blood of ChristJesus: Are you blind that you do not see all that I have given to you? Come to the Last Supper. Look at the gift of My Body and Blood, given for you.
Sing: All that we have and all that we offer comes from a heart both frightened and free
Take what we bring now and give what we need all done in his nameSome would rely on their power, others put trust in their gold
Some have only their Savior whose faithfulness never grows oldJesus: Come to the feast!
Sing: All that we have and all that we offer comes from a heart both frightened and free
Take what we bring now and give what we need all done in his nameSing: Sometimes the road may be lonesome
R. Not as lonesome as hell.
Sing: often we may lose our way
R. God has called us to love, to love Him and to love one another, to follow His rules, to be obedient and to do what He wants us to do, in loving.
Sing: Take courage and always remember love isn't just for a day
R. How long did the love of Jesus last, when He hung on the cross for 3 agonizing hours, with nails through His hands, clear through, and through His feet.
Sing: Sometimes the road may be lonesome, often we may lose our way,
Take courage and always remember love isn't just for a dayR. It is the way of love that God's wants us to have that He lives in us in all of our actions.
Sing: All that we have and all that we offer —
R. Say thanks.
Sing: comes from a heart both frightened and free
R. Giving and taking.
Sing: Take what we bring now and give what we need —
R. Being like Jesus.
Sing: all done in his name
R. Not stingy. Not saying I'll give you this so I can get something back. How did He give?
Sing: Sometimes when troubles are many, life can seem empty its true
But look at the life of the Master, who loving suffered for youAll that we have and all that we offer, comes from a heart both frightened and free
Take what we bring now and give what we need all done in his name
all done in his name, all done in his nameJesus: I speak to you and I say to you — I give you Myself. Come to the feast for I have given to you My Body and My Blood that I paid for with a price — a price you do not even understand — and you return the gift with such ingratitude — that you understand giving and taking. I gave My flesh, My blood, My all for you.
Sing: A Blessing Cup is a communion with the blood of Christ
A Blessing Cup is a communion with the blood of ChristWhat return shall I make to the Lord for all the good that He has done for me
I will take the cup of salvation I will call upon the name of the Lord
A Blessing Cup is a communion with the blood of ChristHow precious in the eyes of the Lord is the death of his faithful children
I am your servant, the son of your handmaid —Jesus: When you were young, the world was not like it is today. I died for the children being born today, too. And I have called you to live this day, to reach them. You were given this to reach these children, giving and taking — and you say, "But it's my life, if I want an abortion, it's my life."
Sing: and you have loosed my bonds
A Blessing Cup is a communion with the blood of ChristJesus: How far do you go in the darkness, for you will never reach the bottom, and as you go in your blindness you do not see how you go deeper and deeper into that blackness, becomes blacker and blacker and blacker. And you still try to tell yourself in your tainted vision, that your vision is right. For the devil tries in the fallacious reasoning, to get you to buy, that right is wrong and wrong is right. He is the one that says, "I'm right, I'm right, I'm right."
Sing: In thanksgiving I will offer you sacrifice, I will call upon the name of the Lord
My vows to the Lord I will pay in the presence of all his peopleJesus: How was your childhood? Did you know the trauma of the children today? If you know the trauma of the children today, why have you decided it's not your affair? I hung to My death on the cross for the sins of the world this day.
Sing: A Blessing Cup is a communion with the blood of Christ
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Sorrowful Rosary
R. For the Holy Father
R. Help me to see with Your eyes, to know with Your heart and to act as You act in me.
For Faith, Hope and Charity
The Agony in the Garden
1. R. We see the weakness of Peter. We see how Jesus took the Apostles to the garden with Him, and Peter slept in the garden. And He went away and He said, that He wanted them to pray, but they were tired. And so they slept. Jesus sweat blood and the angel appeared to strengthen Him — and the Apostles, His friends — where were they? Ah, they were having their rest He said. We see the weakness that He shows us over and over again of Peter. And yet He made Peter the head of the Church. "Thou art rock and upon this rock I will build My Church."
Sing: Do you really love Me Jesus says to Peter. Do you really love Me Jesus says again, Lord you know I love you.
R. So Jesus says what — "Feed My Lambs and feed My sheep." What does He say to us commissioned in baptized to go out to spread the Good News. Act as if it isn't important to Jesus when He sweat blood in the garden. Jesus has called us in the Shepherds of Christ to go out to be His Heart beating in the world, to tell the world of the love that He has. How do I speak to anyone, after seeing Jesus appear over and over again and hearing Him talk. How do I say it Jesus? Are there words to say the love that, You have so much that You have given in the Blue Book writings over and over again for 18 years? You can't verbalize the Hail Mary? What is wrong with us? Do we think that God is saying — "Oh you can go out and scream at the football game. You can put all the energy into all these things that you want in this world, but when it comes to your prayer, "Oh that's O.K."
Jesus gave His life. He sweat blood in the garden, so much so, for the souls that would be lost forever, willing to give the last drop of blood and the last beat of His Heart. How much are you willing to give, and when you give - do you want it back? What do you want back for yourself, that you are saying "What can I get out of this, every time that we do something for Jesus? As we go up every day and receive the Eucharist, and we don't see our commission in Baptism praying for the priests, the Church and the world? What do I say God? How many more times should Mary appear? And how many more times can you give a different message to me, when the message you have given has been ignored, a good part of the time, ignored flat. The emotion that I know is within my soul, the message carried in my tissues. Jesus, Savior of this world — Savior.
Sing: I come to you with greatest love I am your loving Savior I am your God I died for you I come to you this day
R. 15 years ago He said in the Blue Book II, you stand on the side throwing little words at Me.
Jesus: I want love on fire. I want your heart. I want your soul. How is it? Do you want to be wrapped in a tomb? When will you come out of that tomb? Ever? Does the wrap become tighter? Does the heart become more like stone?
R. What happens when you sing? What happens to your heart, when you lift your voice to God? Is He not worthy of such praise and love, so much so, that we can sing, for He sweat blood for you and for me. Did you ever have anyone that sweat blood for you? Their love so great that they sweat blood, with that much care? What do you want Jesus to do? It is your heart that needs changing. It is your heart that needs to be full of gratitude for the gift of the priests and the Church, for the gift of the Eucharist, for the gift of Baptism, for the gift of the sacraments. It is your heart that looks at the sun and blue sky every day and says "more, more, more." And He says —
Jesus: I have painted for you the beautiful sky and given to you the birds that sing. I have given to you each other, and the people that I put in your path. You did not love. I am a Heart of love. It is in unity that you will be a strong unit, operating to do my work. And yet you want to lead — lead — and the way is not the way of My way. The way is not the way of God. Seeking dominance for dominance sake. I sweat blood in the garden, for My precious souls. How precious indeed is the loss of a single soul. Help Me, for hell is forever.
2. Hail Mary
3. R. Help me to see through Your eyes God, to know with Your Heart and to act as You act in me.
Jesus: Oh My child, how dearly I love you, in all your imperfections. I wait for you to come and to tell Me of your love, to make Me the King and Center of your heart, to serve Me willingly with much love, to know that I am always with you. I love you so much.
4. R. Help me to see through Your eyes God, to love with Your Heart, and to act as You act in me. Help me in this mission that You have given to us. Give to us what we need. Oh God, how deeply we want to serve You and to spread the love of Your Heart, and the heart of Your Mother throughout this earth, to touch the priests with our love, that they will know the support that they have in the Shepherds of Christ, to tell the world of the great gift of the Church. Thank You my God. Thank You for the Church. And He is appearing with all kinds of light.
Jesus: My Heart is a vat of love, so much so, that I died for you. Why do you not see in your brothers starving to death? Why do you not see the unloving ways of your heart? Why do you hold on to your pride, when I call you to be sweet and meek and gentle in heart, with a heart likened to Mine.
R. Help me to see through Your eyes Lord, to know with Your Heart, and to act as You act in me.
Jesus: My child, I am gentle and kind in Heart. My Heart is a vat of endless love. To be likened to Me, you are loving and kind.
5. R. And I see His hands with the wounds, straight through, the wounds of love. And His Head punctured for our sins, the sins of pride and anger and envy. He wore the thorns for the sins.
6. Hail Mary
7. Hail Mary8. Mary: I stood beneath the cross of my Son, and my heart was in such anguish for the little ones that would be lost forever.
R. Oh Mother Mary, I stand by you at every Mass, the Sacrifice of Calvary sacramentally made present. And as the host is raised, I see the sacrifice of Calvary, and I pray with everything inside of me, that grace will be released for the souls of this earth, that grace will be outpoured. I live in the Mass, in this unity of the Masses going on around the world, standing at the foot of the cross, knowing that the more we become one in our hearts, and we do what God is telling us, offering our lives of love and joy, that He will outpour His grace to the world. Not doing hard things, doing the very, simple things that He has asked in obedience and love, relying on the power of God, not having an agenda, but having an ear open to God's will — obedience.
What do we control when we're done controlling, that is the question. Our bodies wither more and more every day. What are we controlling? When the very thing that we are trying to control is uncontrollable. It's like saying to the stars of the sky, hold on a minute star, I'm going to control you or the sun - that I will put you in the palm of my hand, or to the vast universe - that I will be out there like atlas with my hand up high, holding it all in the palm of my hand. The Almighty God created — created from nothing and He keeps it in place. And He is mindful of us, and He loves us and it's beyond any comprehend that any single one of us could ever understand, and the miracles He has given here in the Shepherds of Christ that we have watched one after another after another after another, are miracles.
Let us surrender to the will of God. Let us learn how to be more one in Him. Let us pray united with greater purity in our hearts and our souls. Let us celebrate every moment that we live because God has given us such a gift to be members of the mystical body of Christ, to know and yet not to know. Oh precious Lord, how beautiful indeed are the wounds that You suffered for our sins. How beautiful Your Heart, how gentle Your ways, how vibrant the lights that I see that surround You, that only show a hint of the heavens above.
9. Hail Mary
10. Hail Mary
The Scourging at the Pillar
1. Jesus: And I was whipped for your sins of pride. They came at Me with their whips and torn My flesh deep. Their anger, their hatred, their hearts so hard and filled with evil, and they laughed, so proud of their control. And I could have stopped it all. But I give to you a free will and I ask you to freely choose to love. And they murder the babies this day, the creation of God in the womb of the Mother. How can you rest for a moment in your ways, My beloved earth. And how you to whom I have revealed the secrets of My Heart, can you treat it as trash — when the world is starving and many, many, many are falling into the fires of hell.
Oh you of hardened heart, would any words penetrate the glory of your control and how you have made the importance of being right your God. In the end will you win? They whipped My body for the sins of pride, they tore My flesh, the blood in My head and My eyes. I looked at the men through blood-stained eyes for your sins, that you say "Not me. I sin none." It is your own grave that you dig. For I am kind and gentle of heart and forgiving. I raise you to heights but you do not deceive Me. It is with a humble heart, the heart of joy, the heart of chastity and love, the heart of vigor, the heart consumed with love for God, the willingness of the spirit to serve as I served you, as I served the Apostles when on earth, as I washed their feet.
2. R. Oh Jesus, gentle and loving of Heart, with every letter that You wrote to me, every night when I woke, I knew Your kindness and Your love. I knew Your desire that others would know the message that You wanted to tell them. And with each handwritten letter, Fr. Carter treated them as He said, "They were his as much as mine" and he wanted them out, to help the souls to love, to know the love of God. Fr. Carter, our founder, our superior, the one who said that the Blue Books are the backbone of the Movement, and that we are to live by the Blue Books, that we are to get the Blue Books circulated. And the daily writings that he stayed up every night reading 4 times, over and over again, and the discerning of the rosaries, in the 96's before Mary appeared here. Fr. Carter laid down his life for this Movement.
And I have laid down my life doing the things that God has called us to do in these retreats in making reparation to God, for the offenses of the souls of this earth. The people that are sinning against God and God says "I call you to make reparation. I call you to lay your lives down and to pray with all your heart, to sing, to be docile in heart, to be gentle in your spirit, to come with a willing spirit to serve Me, to be obedient." This is the mission of the Shepherds of Christ. Take out the retreats, the daily messages, the Blue Books — what do you have? — when God has given to us, all He has given, including this building where the Mother of God appeared, and on the 5ths appeared in all colors and rainbow, to any one who is here to see. And He says
Jesus: You see but do not see — you hear and do not hear, for your hearts are hard and your minds focused on yourselves. When I cry to you in the night, you are asleep in your beds — during the day, busy for other things. The time is now for you to beg to have a heart likened to Mine.
Sing: Give Me Your Heart Oh Jesus Give me a heart like Yours
Teach me to love You with this new heart
Oh I know little of how to love You
Create in me oh precious Savior this special heart
Give Me Your Heart Oh Jesus Give me a heart like Yours3. Sing: Give Me Your Heart Oh Jesus Give me a heart like Yours
4. R. Let me see through Your eyes. Let me know with Your heart. Let me act as You act in me Lord. For I am your servant and I come to do Your will. I come to be Your instrument of light in the world. I come to love You and to tell the world the message that You have given. The message that is the world's, for they are hungry. They are falling over from the lack of being fed, for they run away from the spiritual gifts that You want to give them. And it is in spreading the consecration that You will — soften their hearts, help them to be more holy, help them to be gentle and meek and kind and loving. Oh Jesus, You are so beautiful. I love You so.
5. Hail Mary
6. Hail Mary7. R. And I see You Jesus with Your love so, so much for us and I know it inside of me. Could I write another word to know what I know? One more Mass Book entry, to speak of the beauty of the Mass and its power in this world. The world is withering from holding on to it's plastic nick-nacks, in its cold and desolate ways. Am I just an empty tomb here, trying to write the message of my soul with a pen that doesn't exist, for a world that doesn't see or hear with stone hearts, that disobeys the commandments. I'm sorry, my God. I'm sorry for our sins of pride and anger and envy, for jealousies, for the sins that, were so red and yet so hidden, that we did not even take responsibility for any of them.
Oh Lord, the souls are black in hell. The anguish of not a drip of love forever, of never knowing Thee. I want You God. I want the world to know You, and the Church. How do I write the message that does not exist in words? To the men that are arrogant, the men that whipped you — their hearts were hard, their anger welled up, their laughter was the laughter that pierced Your hands straight through. The arrogance, the pride — to nail the Son of God to a cross.
8. Hail Mary
9. Hail Mary
10. Hail Mary
The Crowning with Thorns
1. Jesus: Did you ever cry for the blood on My Body? Did you ever cry for the wounds that I suffered for you? But you cried for yourself — when I outpoured My richest love, and I came to call you in the night and tell you, you said, "Off with you, I am busy thinking about my lack of love" — victimizing yourself from one who was doing nothing to you, wasting your life, letting the darkness grow darker allowing your own unloving ways become more unloving.
And I stood at your door and I knocked at the door, with a Heart on fire and filled with love, and I cried "Come to Me for I will heal your wounds. I will send satan far from you" for you are answering his door. When I am painting for you a picture of the rich valley and the sounds of the birdies in the sky, a park bench, a time to rest and to think about the insight into the mystery, the love of the Trinity, the gift of the Mass, the vocation that I have called you to, to be My witness of love in the world.
And you shouted at Me — and I knocked louder and you shouted "Go away Jesus, I'm too busy being angry and mad, and when others come to me and I can touch them with the love of Your heart, I'm thinking of myself and how I was wronged", and I said "no, my child" It is satan that is tricking you to think about yourself, and I am calling you with the tenderest Heart of love, and you say "No, go away" — while you continue in your habits, that lead you into greater isolation, and put your hand away from the door blocking My entry.
Foolish one, what you do not know is the truth. You do not know of My real ways of perusing you, of loving you, of asking you to admit your sin, that you would be set free, for you turn your face to the world, and for fear that you are not perfect, you lie to yourself and stay stuck. I was crowned on My head for your sins of pride and anger and envy, for the thoughts of a woman, that aborting a baby would set her free, the guilt, deep down in her soul, the guilt of murder.
2. Hail Mary
3. Jesus: I am the King of all Kings, the King of heaven and earth. I call you to build My Kingdom, and you build your own. Listen to Me before it is too late, that your hearts be turned to love. I am love. I call you to be likened to Me.
4. R. Help me to see through Your eyes God, to know with Your Heart and to act as You act in me.
5. Hail Mary
6. Hail Mary
7. Hail Mary
8. Hail Mary
9. Hail Mary
10. Hail Mary
Jesus Carries His Cross
1. Hail Mary
2. Hail Mary
3. Hail Mary
4. Hail Mary
5. Hail Mary
6. Hail Mary
7. Hail Mary
8. Hail Mary
9. Hail Mary
10. Hail Mary
The Crucifixion of Jesus
1. Hail Mary
2. Hail Mary
3. Hail Mary
4. Hail Mary
5. Hail Mary
6. Hail Mary
7. Hail Mary
8. Hail Mary
9. Hail Mary
10. Hail MaryR. Dear God, please help us get all the money that we need to get the Mass Book printed right now, and to get this mailing out that You've asked for, to pay Elmer off for the priest house, and for the stucco on the church, and the other bills that we have that are really big, that are just outstanding little bills that just grow up from every day operation. You know that we don't own this building. We have a big loan, so then we have to have this balance in our checking account every month, so we got to just come up with $5,000 to maintain this ratio at the end of the month, even though we make the payments which are almost $11,000 a month and the insurance is $2,500. So for such a gift that God has given to us, there's really very little support that's coming to us for this.
God is calling more and more people to help us to keep this building, for it is the center of light in this world. And Mary's image appeared here for 7 1/2 years. Please help us do the work of the Shepherds of Christ. I'll be here tomorrow, the retreat. It's the 5th. I'll start at 1:30 and I'll do a prayer service in the afternoon, and then tomorrow night the really big 5th prayer service. Please tune in or specially come if you can, because you get a lot of grace when you come here.
As far as the retreat in China, I'll be there on Good Friday and Holy Saturday, during the day on Holy Saturday and down till 5:00 or something. Then on Easter Monday, which is the 13th, we have Mass at 11:00 and that will start the day and then we'll pray there until about 5:00. And my cousin will say Mass. He's just absolutely wonderful. So pray for him and come to China if you can, because we really are going to pray on Good Friday and Holy Saturday, during the day on Holy Saturday. Thanks a lot. Amen.
Pictures taken
April 3, 2009
Betty is a handmaid who has prayed in the
China Church for 11 years. To get from her
house to the church she uses a walker and
must go over a creek and a little bridge.
We wanted a little place she could rest
by the Church. We need about $1,000 to
make this happen. Can you help us?
We are trying to get
Response to God's Love
and the Mass Book out.
Anybody who wants to help us
with a donation to get these 2 books
out in the Priestly/hierarchy mailing —
Please call Kathleen 1-888-211-3041
July 31, 1994
Words of Jesus to Members of
Shepherds of Christ Associates:"My beloved priest-companion, I intend to use the priestly newsletter, Shepherds of Christ, and the movement, Shepherds of Christ Associates, in a powerful way for the renewal of My Church and the world.
"I will use the newsletter and the chapters of Shepherds of Christ Associates as a powerful instrument for spreading devotion to My Heart and My Mother's Heart.
"I am calling many to become members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. To all of them I will give great blessings. I will use them as instruments to help bring about the triumph of the Immaculate Heart and the reign of My Sacred Heart. I will give great graces to the members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. I will call them to be deeply united to My Heart and to Mary's Heart as I lead them ever closer to My Father in the Holy Spirit."
- Message from Jesus to Father Edward J. Carter, S.J., Founder, as given on July 31, 1994,
feast of Saint Ignatius Loyola, Founder of the Society of Jesus (The Jesuits)
The China Church is over 140 years old
and we pray in there 24 hours a day.
It needs stucco and so does
the community building.
Can you please help us?
Call Kathleen 1-888-211-3041
Likewise the priest house
is 150 years old.
Jesus told us to repair it
which we have been doing.
We need $13,000.00 for this work.
You can help put the Blue Book V
in the hands of 1,000 people
we need $1,200 postage for this
It is ready to go
Call Kathleen
1-888-211-3041
You can help put Fr. Joe's homily
book in the hands of
1,000 priests — it costs $1,100
This can help 1,000 parish priests
talk about Covenant for Lent
Please help us
It is ready to go
Call Kathleen 1-888-211-3041
Call Kathleen to Order any of the items below
1-888-211-3041