The monthly retreat will be at the
St. Anthony Shepherds of  Christ center
 in China, Indiana from
April 10th through the 13th.

Those who have came in March
had a marvelous retreat!

     

   

 

The Lamb, Jesus Christ

June 12, 1994

R. He is the Lamb. The Father loved us so much He gave His own Son that we might have eternal life. Jesus paid the price of our salvation with His Blood. I see Him accepting all silently, to His death, His head bowed down in quiet acceptance, as a little lamb, not noisy, just complying with the Will of the Father.

He is the unbloody sacrifice in the Mass. He complies totally with the Will of the Father, in silence, with such love for us. This is the gift of the Mass. He gives us His own Body in the Eucharist, out of ardent love for us. He gives us Himself. He wants our love. He wants us to be united in such love with Him. God-made-man gives us His very own life! How do I receive Him Who gives Himself to sinful me with such love? Am I blind to what is transpiring here? Holy Spirit, open me up to know the truth about God. Give me all Your gifts so I can better share in the life of Christ, given to me in the Mass.

 

 

We Have One Life in Christ

June 12, 1994

R. Our lives cannot be separated. We must be united in Christ. We do not have our lives and then go to church and share in His life. Our lives are to be lived in Christ.

Christ, be ever in my breast, on my lips, in my actions, in my thoughts. What comes from me is Christ, acting through me. As I become one in Christ, He lives in me and it is a might that cannot be contained. He flows from my actions. He speaks with my tongue. The more I am in union with Him, the more He operates from me. There is a oneness. I live in Him, He lives in me. What flows from me is the life of Christ in me. His love flows to those I touch. The ideal is to be united so closely to Him that my life is His life radiating from me. My life is to be lived minute by minute in union with Him. To put on Christ and to live in this world with His life within me, this is my goal, Christ's life ever present in all my actions.

 

Contemplatives in Action

 

The Carpenter

June 12, 1994

You are he who goes to a carpenter to learn to make a cabinet. You know nothing. You do not have any idea of what you are to do. The carpenter knows exactly. He has a procedure whereby his plan will be accomplished. Every detail must be observed. He is the Master. You do not have the talent. You need talent to do woodwork. If you were given the talent and the directions, you could accomplish this task with such beauty.

I am the carpenter. You are he who needs to be taught. You lack the talent. You need the gifts of the Spirit to accomplish My task! You come to Me in total ignorance. You are open, the Spirit fills you with the gifts. You have everything you need to do My work. The Father created you to accomplish His tasks. You are perfect. You must come open. You must know the plan. The plan is His Will for you. If you do not follow the plan, the cabinet will not be built correctly.

I am the Master. I guide you. I love you. I give you all you need. I walk you through every move. If you try on your own, you have a problem. You know not the way to build cabinets. You know not the way to Me on your own. You must come to Me to be taught. To go it alone is to your own detriment.

Oh, little one, it is so simple. You, in your will, want to work your own plans. You know not how to do it. Only I can teach you what you need to know. Oh, please come to Me. I have all you need. The Spirit fills you with the gifts to know, love and serve God. To go it alone is like trying to build the cabinet with no knowledge of woodworking. Oh, little ones, I love you. Come to Me. Let Me teach you. The Will of the Father is the happiness for your life.

I am Jesus Christ, Son of God. I am God. I, God, long to be with you and teach you. Go not off on your own. Come to Me. I love you so!

end of June 12, 1994

 

April 7, 2007 - Holy Saturday

We are blind
We do not see
See the Darkness and the light of this Special night
See the Flame

Many times we worry and we get focused on details
we forget how close Jesus is to us
Like a spouse He cares for my every need I am not alone

If in one second I could not see my whole world would be very different
I could not operate to do the work He is calling me to
I could not see
Impaired vision

God the Father has a plan
We can be like little ants trying to be the big dominating ant
I am a messenger
Through God's Word in the scripture He reveals His Plan
He is telling us right now what to do to help His Plan be revealed

I remember when Jesus appeared on the cross December 5, 1996
His mouth was open and He was hanging on the cross straining to talk
His jaw moved up and down
no words came out

I cried so very much because I saw the body of a man on a cross in such suffering
Jesus said later that night- His mouth moved because "no one was listening"

I see the quote of the Good Shepherd
The hierarchy is listening
They are hearing the voice of the Good Shepherd
We can help to hold up the weary hands of our priests through the Newsletter and our prayers in the prayer chapters as Fr. Pasquini said

I am a child of God
I have been called through baptism to a special commission
I can listen to Him and follow His plan

The devil is there to get us to be selfish, self-focused, jealous, envious, prideful
all these things waste precious time when God has called us to this magnificent mission

A man went out to run a marathon
another man came and tied a big ball and chain on the runner's ankles
The man still tried to run the marathon
but he could not go very fast

One man seeking his own honor and glory is like this to a man who is trying to run a race for Christ

He may have lots of wounds, hurt, jealousy, anger, hidden untruths
We all have imperfections
but to carry anger like a bomb ready to put on the back of the one carrying the flag is silly if we want the flag to go somewhere.

 

Anger Is Destructive-Love Heals

April 12, 1994  After Communion at All Saints Church 7:00a.m.

R. Love is healing. If you attack me and I respond with love by the grace of God, but let it fester later into anger, I have an active emotion inside of me. You hurt me. I was right, you were wrong. I get angry or I get depressed. Some action occurs within me. If, by the grace of God, I acted lovingly when you attacked me, then, when I go away, I must continue to dismiss any thoughts of how I have been wronged and beg God for His help to forgive and love you.


 

Satan's Way Is Division

April 12, 1994  After Communion at St. Gertrude Church

To preach the gospel in your very being, you must always be fixed in My love. When they tore My flesh, I loved them. I at no time responded to them with anything but love. The way to Me is the way of love. I forgave them. I forgive you for your sins.

You must always love and forgive. When they persecute you and holler every slander against you, remember the way to Me is love. Love those who persecute you. Love your attackers. Love your brothers. Love is action from the hearts. It is not lip service. Love is giving. Love is action. Love mends broken fences.

Satan's way is division, hatred, anger. These create such a destructive force! It is an energy that tears at the hearts of men. It is transmitted and lives in hearts, just as My love is transmitted and lives in hearts.

Purify your heart at every second. Keep it so clean. Do not let any anger, resentment, hatred for your brothers mount up by the side of your heart. Flush it away. Pray, pray, pray for grace. Pray for love. Pray for your brothers. You need My love to respond with love. I give you freely of My love when you ask. I am the source of all love. You come, you partake, you give to your brothers as I have given to you. Love is a force. It is a mighty life. It is a light that shines brightest in the darkest night.

Be at peace. Be full of joy. I am God. Do not fret or fume or doubt. Do not be angry or feel you have been wronged. These are from the evil one.

I am in control. I am God. I am by your side this very day in that cross you carry. You in your pain will learn My mighty lessons of love. I am molding you and shaping you into My mighty soldiers, soldiers in My army of love!

Be open, pray for love, pray for the grace to forgive. See Me dying on the cross. I held not back. I gave the last drop of My blood, the last beat of My Heart, for love of you! Can you not forgive your hurting brothers? I need you to love those who hurt you. I need you to forgive those who injure you. You are My soldiers. You will fight My battle for My loved ones. You will carry the flag of love to those who are hurting.

Forgive all those who hurt you and pray for them. Love is the answer. My way is the way of love. Love finds the way to peace. If you want peace, you must forgive and let go. You must trust totally in Me and know that I will never desert you. My hand is in everything you experience. I allow suffering for a reason. You learn mighty lessons in your trials. You are purified in your sufferings. You can gain many graces for yourselves and others when you accept all I give you with love. I give you love. I give you what you need. Let go and surrender to Me, My little, beloved ones. I never ever leave your side.

end of April 12, 1994

   

April 7, 2007 continues

A man was asked to build a bridge and he had lots of problems inwardly-
he spent lots of time arguing with his men and with the man who had the vision for the bridge-
He didn't see how every man was called by God to help build the bridge.
He had only his vision and it was very impaired besides narrow because he was doing it to heal his wounds, for his control, for his own honor and glory.

Why does Christ show us all His wounds
then He shows us the glorified wounds of Easter
He did all things for the honor and glory of God.

Wounds are a part of life.
We advance in the spiritual life by leaving not rocks with worms under it.

When we feel what is in our hearts
love for God and others we are living as God intends us to live.


A child who tries to tie their Father to a tree soon learns they have no money or food.
Even though the child thinks they are autonomous and need no one- eventually they have to get off their high ladder and admit-they don't have a job and they don't know it all.

Mary operated without sin.
Some people are so spiritually blind they do not even recognize jealousy and pride.

To me this is a story of this day.
The blind men come out of their tombs and when they see the glimmering light they see
the bandages they have by their pride and jealousy and lies about their wounds and they ask for healing.

Yes blind men the Holy Spirit will fill our eyes when we go to the pure sinless Heart of Mary and ask the Holy Spirit in her Immaculate Heart to form us more and more in the image of Jesus.
Pure truth.

Jesus says
I am the way, the truth, and the life.

This Easter is a call.

Remember the reading of Lazarus that came forth from the dead.
Remember the reading of the blind man that could not see.

Yes Darkness to light.

The fire ever glowing.
The light of Christ alive in our hearts.
Not held back by the weaknesses of the flesh or our wounds of the past.

We carry the white flag of victory
the poor banished children of Adam and Eve
We carry the blood stained flag
stained with the Blood of Jesus
We approach the altar of His grace at Mass
and He outpours His grace to us.
We are filled with His life.

That is life
to be filled with His life alive in us.

If I give into the concupiscence of the flesh I am seeing more blind. The more I go to the altar of sacrifice I see less blind.

When I am filled with Him
when I am filled with His grace
when my life is saturated with His grace
I live more a holy existence in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary
being one in the sacrifice of Calvary sacramentally made present at every Mass.

What is life.
For me it is being saturated with His life.
Life is life rooted in Him.

Jesus: Come alive My weary travelers on the path of life.
I give you My Body and Blood to eat.
I shower you with My grace.

The blindness of sin keeps you focused on the dark.
Come into the light and taste of My banquet prepared for you.

I set before you the promise of eternal life to those who love and serve the Lord.
Why serve the dark master- the one who wants the devastation of your soul.
Don't give into the jealousy, the pride and be ruled by your old wounds- you let rule you
Seek purity
come out of the tombs
follow the will of God
this is your freedom
Amen.

     

I Am Alive!

(Apostles Manual pg. 418 - 421)

May 25, 1995

Messenger:  Prayer is a lifting up of our minds and hearts to God. Who am I that I can change any event that is occurring in the lives of another, that I can affect the outcome of any event? I am a child of my Father. My Father is the Almighty God. How I love my dear Father. He is God and He has created me in His own image and likeness. My beloved, dear Father, how I love You that You give me such gifts - that You allow me to share in Your life!

You are the Father of Jesus and You are My Father. Thank You, My Father, for all Your gifts and for Your life. Who am I that I can affect the life of any person?

I am a child of God. I call on my dear Father and He loves me so, He listens to me. I lift my heart to You, my dear beloved Father and You listen to little me and You care for me so much. I call upon God and the Almighty God cares for me with such love that He listens.

Jesus: Such truths have been given to you from My Father because of His great love for you. You are far more precious than the finest pearls, My beloved child. The Father so loved you He gave His Son so that you would have life. He gave His Son as a sacrifice for you. The Father gives to you His life through Jesus, His Son. You partake in His divine life.

I am Jesus, Son of the Living God. My life I give to you, I live in your being, My beloved, I impart to you My divine life.

How many turn their backs on the great gift of this life given from the Father. To know this life and to know all those who have rejected this great gift!

I am the Almighty God, My power is endless. The power and might you felt within yourself is only a small sampling of My immense power.

I am God and I am allowing you to experience what you are experiencing to spread My love to others. Your immense understanding into these mysteries will help you speak and write them for others.

I have chosen you as an instrument to touch many hearts and bring them to My divine love. Great gifts and understandings into these mysteries I am giving to you. You will lead many priests to the love of God.

I am alive. I am God. I long to be loved by man and many have turned their backs on Me and forgotten Me. You must tell them all I am allowing you to experience, these sufferings and understandings into My deep love.

This is the beginning of many days when I will allow you to experience the rejection I felt from those I loved. Your heart is in immense pain for the souls who reject Me despite My love for them.

I beg you to speak and write. Make reparation for souls that have forgotten My love. Spread the love of My Sacred Heart and My Mother's heart, throughout the world.

I love, I love, I love My beloved souls. I beg you to tell them. I beg Fr. Carter to tell every soul on this earth of My love. You will continue to suffer such pain and anguish in your heart. Suffer in silence for souls. I love so deeply and am so gravely offended!

I am Jesus, My dear, little child. I am alive and in this world. I live in the hearts of men, I live in the consecrated Host, I am forgotten and ignored and treated with such dishonor.

Speak for Me, I beg you to spread this love throughout this earth. I am sending you as missionaries into this world.

On this Ascension Thursday, I have given you great sufferings and great joy. I have allowed you to experience the highest ecstasies in My love and plunge you into deep pain in your heart for those who reject Me.

You, I send as missionaries to carry out the work I have begun. Be fearless and pray to the Spirit. This day I am giving you abundant graces to speak, and through this speaking, others are sent into this world as My apostles.

It is through the Shepherds of Christ Movement My love will be spread. Circulate My messages and rosary meditations. The love of the two Hearts will be known throughout this world through these messages and rosary meditations.

You will be fearless, everyone I send to you is a messenger to carry out My love. Circulate these letters with FIRE for I am delivering them to you in FIRE.

I am Jesus Christ, the Living God. I am allowing you to experience My life, alive in you and giving you these emotions to spread My love.

On this Ascension Thursday, I beg you to carry out the message to this world. Live My life in your life, every moment My life living within you.

I am the Way, I am the Truth, I am the Life. I have commissioned you to go out and to carry this message - the message of My immense love for ALL mankind, including My burning love for My priests and religious. Souls will turn their hearts to Me from these letters. This is the mighty medicine to turn a sick, cold world to hearts filled with the love of God.

Prayer, My beloved ones, is the lifting up of your minds and hearts to God. When you intercede to Me through My Mother's heart, I will pour out My greatest mercy.

I will not refuse hearts begging for grace for their loved ones. Pray from your whole being. Let My life live in you.

You can pray and ask God to send help. You do not know the power of a heartfelt prayer. I listen to your prayers. The Father and Holy Spirit are listening to your prayers. The more you unite with God, the greater you intercessory prayer. I am Jesus. I am alive this day. I ask you to spread My messages to the world. I am crying out in your heart on this Ascension Thursday. I ascended into heaven and I have left behind you to carry out what I began. I am with you. I am alive this day. I will unite with you and the earth will know the power of the Almighty God. I am Jesus Christ, Chief Shepherd of the flock. Lead My little ones home - home to the burning embers of My Most Sacred Heart, through My Mother's heart.

Messenger: I cried so hard, I have never been so immersed in heartache. I heard Him shout, "I Am Alive, I Am Alive." I cried so hard, I could hardly write.

I know Him. He is alive in my being. My soul is filled with His love. I live the life of Jesus and Mary in my life. I love His life, her life - their presence forever with me. From this great gift, these rosary meditations, His life has become one with mine. I feel His life in the Mass. I hear Mary under the cross. I hear the cries for the souls going to hell for their willfulness and sins. I hear the laments of Jesus in the tabernacle - how He longs and thirsts for souls and is neglected and ignored. I hear Him tell of the sacrileges committed against the Holy Eucharist.

I heard Him this day. I felt His presence and the presence of the Almighty God as He cries out, "I am alive, I am alive, I am alive."

He is alive. We have the Mass. He gives us Himself in the Eucharist. Mary is appearing, we are given this rosary. We are sent as soldiers by Him in the Shepherds of Christ. We are thirsting for union with Him, sent by Him, apostles to go out to this world and spread His love, one with the Eucharistic Heart of Jesus, one with the Trinity. He will light this earth with hearts on fire for love of Him.

Jesus: I come to you with greatest love, I am your loving Savior, I am your God, I died for you, I come to you this day.

The earth shakes and the Son of Man appears. He lives in the hearts of all. I want hearts on FIRE for love of Me. I want vibrancy and love from My beloved ones. Hold not back My love from this world.

Messenger: I adore you, Oh Lord, I praise you, I worship you, I bless Him with my whole soul. My soul proclaims the greatness of the Lord and holy, holy is His name! Jesus wants souls that are holy, on fire with the love of Jesus. Make novenas to the Holy Spirit to have hearts on FIRE with the love of God. Sound the trumpet, sound the gong - Jesus LIVES - He lives this day! Alleluia.

Sunday is a special day to praise Him, to love Him, to pray to Him - His day to be honored and worshipped in a special way. Pray from a pure and holy heart, a heart that sings for love of the Lord. Pray from your whole being.

end of May 25, 1995

 

 

(ASCENSION THURSDAY)

Jesus: (with great emotion)  COME OUT OF YOUR TOMBS, COME OUT I CALL YOU!!!!  I have imparted to you knowledge of Myself, transforming your heart and soul to be more likened to Mine.

I give you messages after the reception of the Eucharist for it is then I am most one with you. Put aside the thoughts of burgers and what have you in your minds and listen to Me you earthly beings.

Come out of your tombs, come out I call to you who slumber and sleep and do not hear the voice of the Mighty One. Your are like the dead that need to be raised. A trumpet horn blaring would not waken a man who is blind from birth. Only the Lord will unlock the minds of the senseless men, so foolish, but oh how I do indeed love them so.

Come out I tell you, I call you, in your sleepy state with scales in your eyes you do not see. If these scales were removed and a fresh lens graphed on the already existing eye, the men may see then clearly that I speak in these messages to bring about the Reign of My Heart and the triumph of the wailing Woman’s Heart on the earth.

I came, I gave the gifts and the world slept. My little ones, the Apostles slept in the garden when My hour was at hand.

Oh My shanty little town, you are stuck indeed, in your ways. You walk the streets as blind men and I shout to you.

My earth, come out of your tombs, come out and live a life rooted deeply in My Heart.

Messenger: I was in the cage, it was a prison held on all sides by bars, I cried, I screamed, I felt no way to escape and low and behold I turned and where I had thought I was totally enclosed, a whole wall was not even there and I gaily walked into the free night and the sun followed me as I walked.

Jesus: Your earth is enclosed in a wall of their own making. They have put up walls to enclose themselves. They have traveled around in their little boxes and spit at the freedom that I wished to give them.

Freedom is in living according to God’s will. Freedom is in Me.

Talk of chains, for you have some. You have bars and are enclosed in your stone or brick houses. A mighty fortress is your dwelling, you think. A mighty fortress is in the walls of My Heart. I am the Gateway that leads to freedom. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus, the Holy One of the Virgin Israel. I am the Gateway to heaven. I am God!

Messenger: As I unite with Him in the most intimate experiences in the Eucharist, I become one in His desires and what He wants, I become more as He is. He is the life, He is the resurrection, He is God.

I become more in Him, His desires are my desires, the Father’s plan is imprinted in my soul during the Mass and the reception of the Eucharist and before the tabernacle. I am transformed immensely in those moments after Communion to being alive in Him.

God the Father: I am God, you are man, I have given My Son Jesus to you to unite your soul to Me. I am the Father, He is the First Born from the dead. Life will abound in heaven and on earth.

God has visited His people and now He Reigns. He has ransomed them with the Blood of the Lamb.
 

Excerpt from September 24, 1998

Messenger: Sometime between Ascension Thursday, May 21, 1998 and Pentecost, May 31, 1998.

I saw a vision of an open door, the light within it resembled the light of the vision of March 26, 1996 that can be found in the Apostles’ Manual (p. 34-36).

The open door was glistening with this reflective golden color mirror-like light. I cannot describe, as I could not describe concerning the 3 main visions, the first being March 26, 1996.

The closest light I can describe to this is the sun reflecting on the water at Tom’s farm but this too leaves an emptiness to its description.

There was a little white sheep at the bottom of the open, glistening door and the little sheep hobbled over a small threshold and went in.

The door was rounded on the top, no corners, like a semi-circle on the top, and the wall surrounding this door was black. The light I describe was within this door and peered out to me in the vision.

I heard our Lord over and over again cry out during this period, "Come out of your tombs, dead, dead, dead, you are dead."

I heard the words similar to the message of May 21, 1998.

I was walled in on all sides – BARS – a prison of my own making. I turned and there was a wall missing and I gaily walked into the free night and the sun followed me as I walked.

I hear Jesus speak: "I am the gateway that leads to freedom."

I know the sea of glass from the vision of March 26, 1996. I know the open door from the vision.

I know the Power, I know the Intimate Burning Heart of Jesus in the Mass.
 

Jesus: (Ascension Day May 21, 1998)

Your earth is enclosed in a wall of their own making. They have put up walls to enclose themselves. They have traveled around in their little boxes and spit at the freedom that I wish to give them.

Freedom is in living according to God’s will, Freedom is in Me.

Talk of chains, for you have some. Your have bars and are enclosed in your stone or brick houses. A mighty fortress is your dwelling, you think. A mighty fortress is in the walls of My Heart.

I am the Gateway that leads to Freedom. I am the Sacred Heart of Jesus, the Holy One of the Virgin Israel. I am the Gateway to heaven. I am God.

Come out of your tombs, I am alive, I am treated as a dead object.

Sing a new song, the dead shall be raised.

They conquered the devil with the Blood of the Lamb.

Pray to the Holy Spirit to come mightily on you.

Jesus: I wish to refer you to Revelation Chapter 4.

Revelation 4

Then, in my vision, I saw a door open in heaven and heard the same voice speaking to me, the voice like a trumpet, saying, ‘Come up here: I will show you what is to take place in the future.’ With that, I fell into ecstasy and I saw a throne standing in heaven, and the One who was sitting on the throne, and the One sitting there looked like a diamond and a ruby. There was a rainbow encircling the throne, and this looked like an emerald. Round the throne in a circle were twenty-four thrones, and on them twenty-four elders sitting, dressed in white robes with golden crowns on their heads. Flashes of lightning were coming from the throne, and the sound of peals of thunder, and in front of the throne there were seven flaming lamps burning, the seven Spirits of God. In front of the throne was a sea as transparent as crystal. In the middle of the throne and around it were four living creatures all studded with eyes, in front and behind. The first living creature was like a lion, the second like a bull, the third living creature had a human face, and the fourth living creature was like a flying eagle. Each of the four living creatures had six wings and was studded with eyes all the way round as well as inside; and day and night they never stopped singing:

Holy, Holy, Holy
is the Lord God, the Almighty;
who was, and is and is to come.’

Every time the living creatures glorified and honoured and gave thanks to the One sitting on the throne, who lives for ever and ever, the twenty-four elders prostrated themselves before him to worship the One who lives for ever and ever, and threw down their crowns in front of the throne, saying:

You are worthy, our Lord and God,
to receive glory and honour and power,
for you made the whole universe;
by your will, when it did not exist,
it was created.