31 Years Ago

May 25, 1995 - Ascension Thursday

The Christ Event

R. At Mass that day, I had a revelation of Jesus in so many mysteries, His Ascension, His birth, and so forth, and how I know Him now. It was as if my whole relationship was one with His whole life, I knew Jesus. In that I knew Him in His birth, the Eucharist, as my Bridegroom. In such experiences it is the fullness of His life I experience, the depth of the mystery.

R. On Ascension Thursday 1995, I had such a deep experience at Mass. I saw Him ascending into heaven. I saw before me Jesus. I had deep insight into the Mystery of Christ. I knew Him in my deep intimate union I experience in the Eucharist, I knew Him so deeply in the Divine Mysteries. I knew Him so deep in my soul.

I will never forget the deep and vivid vision I had of Him ascending into heaven, it is planted most deeply on my soul. He was clothed in a red tunic and a white gown. His hands were extended upward and there were rays of light coming down from above in the form of an upside down funnel (little end up). He was up a little from the bottom wide side, then I saw Him going upward. He ascended upward. The rays of light were bright and beautiful.

I was in a very deep state of ecstasy. When I left Fr. Carter’s Jesuit house I could hardly walk. The mud looked so dirty and the trees so plain. It was hard to go from this experience to the world outside. I saw this vision and was taken so deeply into this experience and then I saw the world as it was. It was such a let down.

This was May 25, 1995, but I remember it all so vividly and I see the vision clearly as I saw it that day. Whenever I meditate on the ascension I can see this vision. It fills my heart with joy.

May 25, 1995—I left Church and was in such a weakened state. When I got home I experienced deeper and deeper revelations. I was made so aware that the Father would answer my prayers. Here is the writing I received.

Then I went into an ecstatic experience and terrible suffering and I heard Jesus call out. I am alive, I am alive, I am alive. Here is the message I received that day It was very strong and for days afterwards I just wanted to cry from the experience of hearing Him shout this out.

 

May 25, 1995
 

I Am Alive!

R. Prayer is a lifting up of our minds and hearts to God. Who am I that I can change any event that is occurring in the lives of another, that I can affect the outcome of any event? I am a child of my Father. My Father is the Almighty God. How I love my dear Father. He is God and He has created me in His own image and likeness. My beloved, dear Father, how I love You that You give me such gifts - that You allow me to share in Your life!

You are the Father of Jesus and You are My Father. Thank You, My Father, for all Your gifts and for Your life. Who am I that I can affect the life of any person?

I am a child of God. I call on my dear Father and He loves me so, He listens to me. I lift my heart to You, my dear beloved Father and You listen to little me and You care for me so much. I call upon God and the Almighty God cares for me with such love that He listens.

Jesus: Such truths have been given to you from My Father because of His great love for you. You are far more precious than the finest pearls, My beloved child. The Father so loved you He gave His Son so that you would have life. He gave His Son as a sacrifice for you. The Father gives to you His life through Jesus, His Son. You partake in His divine life.

I am Jesus, Son of the Living God. My life I give to you, I live in your being, My beloved, I impart to you My divine life.

How many turn their backs on the great gift of this life given from the Father. To know this life and to know all those who have rejected this great gift!

I am the Almighty God, My power is endless. The power and might you felt within yourself is only a small sampling of My immense power.

I am God and I am allowing you to experience what you are experiencing to spread My love to others. Your immense understanding into these mysteries will help you speak and write them for others.

I have chosen you as an instrument to touch many hearts and bring them to My divine love. Great gifts and understandings into these mysteries I am giving to you. You will lead many priests to the love of God.

I am alive. I am God. I long to be loved by man and many have turned their backs on Me and forgotten Me. You must tell them all I am allowing you to experience, these sufferings and understandings into My deep love.

This is the beginning of many days when I will allow you to experience the rejection I felt from those I loved. Your heart is in immense pain for the souls who reject Me despite My love for them.

I beg you to speak and write. Make reparation for souls that have forgotten My love. Spread the love of My Sacred Heart and My Mother's heart, throughout the world.

I love, I love, I love My beloved souls. I beg you to tell them. I beg Fr. Carter to tell every soul on this earth of My love. You will continue to suffer such pain and anguish in your heart. Suffer in silence for souls. I love so deeply and am so gravely offended!

I am Jesus, My dear, little child. I am alive and in this world. I live in the hearts of men, I live in the consecrated Host, I am forgotten and ignored and treated with such dishonor.

Speak for Me, I beg you to spread this love throughout this earth. I am sending you as missionaries into this world.

On this Ascension Thursday, I have given you great sufferings and great joy. I have allowed you to experience the highest ecstasies in My love and plunge you into deep pain in your heart for those who reject Me.

You, I send as missionaries to carry out the work I have begun. Be fearless and pray to the Spirit. This day I am giving you abundant graces to speak, and through this speaking, others are sent into this world as My apostles.

It is through the Shepherds of Christ Movement My love will be spread. Circulate My messages and rosary meditations. The love of the two Hearts will be known throughout this world through these messages and rosary meditations.

You will be fearless, everyone I send to you is a messenger to carry out My love. Circulate these letters with FIRE for I am delivering them to you in FIRE.

I am Jesus Christ, the Living God. I am allowing you to experience My life, alive in you and giving you these emotions to spread My love.

On this Ascension Thursday, I beg you to carry out the message to this world. Live My life in your life, every moment My life living within you.

I am the Way, I am the Truth, I am the Life. I have commissioned you to go out and to carry this message - the message of My immense love for ALL mankind, including My burning love for My priests and religious. Souls will turn their hearts to Me from these letters. This is the mighty medicine to turn a sick, cold world to hearts filled with the love of God.

Prayer, My beloved ones, is the lifting up of your minds and hearts to God. When you intercede to Me through My Mother's heart, I will pour out My greatest mercy.

I will not refuse hearts begging for grace for their loved ones. Pray from your whole being. Let My life live in you.

You can pray and ask God to send help. You do not know the power of a heartfelt prayer. I listen to your prayers. The Father and Holy Spirit are listening to your prayers. The more you unite with God, the greater you intercessory prayer. I am Jesus. I am alive this day. I ask you to spread My messages to the world. I am crying out in your heart on this Ascension Thursday. I ascended into heaven and I have left behind you to carry out what I began. I am with you. I am alive this day. I will unite with you and the earth will know the power of the Almighty God. I am Jesus Christ, Chief Shepherd of the flock. Lead My little ones home - home to the burning embers of My Most Sacred Heart, through My Mother's heart.

R. I cried so hard, I have never been so immersed in heartache. I heard Him shout, "I Am Alive, I Am Alive." I cried so hard, I could hardly write.

I know Him. He is alive in my being. My soul is filled with His love. I live the life of Jesus and Mary in my life. I love His life, her life - their presence forever with me. From this great gift, these rosary meditations, His life has become one with mine. I feel His life in the Mass. I hear Mary under the cross. I hear the cries for the souls going to hell for their willfulness and sins. I hear the laments of Jesus in the tabernacle - how He longs and thirsts for souls and is neglected and ignored. I hear Him tell of the sacrileges committed against the Holy Eucharist.

I heard Him this day. I felt His presence and the presence of the Almighty God as He cries out, "I am alive, I am alive, I am alive."

He is alive. We have the Mass. He gives us Himself in the Eucharist. Mary is appearing, we are given this rosary. We are sent as soldiers by Him in the Shepherds of Christ. We are thirsting for union with Him, sent by Him, apostles to go out to this world and spread His love, one with the Eucharistic Heart of Jesus, one with the Trinity. He will light this earth with hearts on fire for love of Him.

Jesus: I come to you with greatest love, I am your loving Savior, I am your God, I died for you, I come to you this day.

The earth shakes and the Son of Man appears. He lives in the hearts of all. I want hearts on FIRE for love of Me. I want vibrancy and love from My beloved ones. Hold not back My love from this world.

R. I adore you, Oh Lord, I praise you, I worship you, I bless Him with my whole soul. My soul proclaims the greatness of the Lord and holy, holy is His name! Jesus wants souls that are holy, on fire with the love of Jesus. Make novenas to the Holy Spirit to have hearts on FIRE with the love of God. Sound the trumpet, sound the gong - Jesus LIVES - He lives this day! Alleluia.

Sunday is a special day to praise Him, to love Him, to pray to Him - His day to be honored and worshipped in a special way. Pray from a pure and holy heart, a heart that sings for love of the Lord. Pray from your whole being. end of May 25, 1995

A Few Thoughts

 June 1, 2025

Sorrowful Mysteries

The Agony in the Garden

1. Luke 22: 39-46

The Mount of Olives

He then left to make his way as usual to the Mount of Olives, with the disciples following. When he reached the place he said to them, ‘Pray not to be put to the test.’

    Then he withdrew from them, about a stone’s throw away, and knelt down and prayed. ‘Father,’ he said, ‘if you are willing, take this cup away from me. Nevertheless, let your will be done, not mine.’ Then an angel appeared to him, coming from heaven to give him strength. In his anguish he prayed even more earnestly, and his sweat fell to the ground like great drops of blood. When he rose from prayer he went to the disciples and found them sleeping for sheer grief. And he said to them, ‘Why are you asleep? Get up and pray not to be put to the test.’

2. Remember the Garden of Eden.
    Adam and Eve were given such
    gifts and they disobeyed God.
3. One Garden, where Adam and
    Eve sinned, another Garden,
    the Garden where Christ suffered.
    Jesus sweat Blood for the sins
    of men.
    Jesus said “yes”, He paid for
    our sins.
    He is the New Adam.
4. Mary is the “New Eve, Mary
    said “yes”.
    Jesus and Mary loved God’s
    will the two greatest Hearts of
    pure and perfect love.
    Adam and Eve did their own
    will, and sin entered the world.
5. We can think of roses- such a
    beautiful flower, and there are
    thorns.
6. We have bitter and sweet in
    our lives. Death / Resurrection
7. There is the evil spirit and the
    Holy Spirit.
8. Come to me Lord and possess
    my soul.
    We have bodies, that is matter,
    it can decays and die
    God gives us an immortal soul.
9. What fills me with vigor is the
    life of the Holy Spirit in my spirit.
    Mary said at the visitation”
    My soul proclaims the greatness
    of the Lord
    And my spirit rejoices in God
    my Savior.
    Mary put God first, Mary
    rejoiced in the Lord.
    She shouted, filled with the Holy
    Spirit,in “my spirit rejoices in
    God my Savior.
    How is the spirit in us? Is our
    spirit full of life in Him?
10. Mary is perfect handmaid of
    the Lord.
    Eve ate the forbidden fruit,
    Adam disobeyed God and sin
    entered the world, with it
    disorder, chaos, confusion,
    disobedience to God…..

    And Jesus sweat blood in the
    Garden, Jesus, the New Adam
    paid for our sins.

    In the end after His death Jesus
    was buried in a new tomb, in a
    Garden.

    Jesus the “First fruits”.
    Eve ate the forbidden fruit.
    And we say in every Hail Mary
    .. and blessed is the fruit of thy
    womb, Jesus.

    We go to Mary’s Immaculate Heart -
    her spiritual womb for us and we
    are good fruit formed by the Holy
    Spirit in Mary’s heart - good fruit
    formed in the image of Jesus in the
    world, in the Church as the Holy
    Spirit fills us and molds us gently
    to be a good fruit likened to Jesus.

    In a Garden we expect fruit.

    It’s like bookends

    Adam and Eve in the Garden -
    a snake

    Jesus was buried in a new tomb -
    the New Adam
    And came forth Glorious
    Bring us New Life

    St. Ignatius thought Jesus appeared
    to Mary first after He came out in
    the Resurrection even though it
    doesn’t say that in the scriptures.

    That is in “The Spiritual Exercises
    of St. Ignatius”
 

The Scourging at the Pillar

1. Matthew 27: 24-26

Then Pilate saw that he was making no impression, that in fact a riot was imminent. So he took some water, washed his hands in front of the crowd and said, ‘I am innocent of this man’s blood. It is your concern.’ And the people, every one of them, shouted back, ‘Let his blood be on us and on our children!’ Then he released Barabbas for them. After having Jesus scourged he handed him over to be crucified.

2. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

but he has answered me, 'My grace is enough for you: for power is at full stretch in weakness.' It is, then, about my weaknesses that I am happiest of all to boast, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me; and that is why I am glad of weaknesses, insults, constraints, persecutions and distress for Christ's sake. For it is when I am weak that I am strong.

3. We are helpless without God.
    When we empty ourself of
    our self-will not of God, we
    can be filled more and more
    by God.
4. Jesus was beaten for our sins,
    He emptied Himself, His
    wounds covered His entire
    body, He was stripped of His
    clothes. He stood in a puddle
    of His own blood.

5. Galatians 2:19-20

...I have been crucified with Christ and yet I am alive; yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me.

6. Our capacity to know and love
    God more likened to Him is
    elevated in Baptism.

    The more we discipline our will
    to serve God’s will the stronger
    we become. We rely on God.
    (like an athlete exercising,
    spiritual exercises).
7. June is the Month of the Sacred
    Heart, we give our will to the
    Father in love. We do not
    count the cost.
8. Most Sacred Heart of Jesus I
    want to do what You want,
    Most Sacred Heart of Jesus,
    I trust in Thee.
9. When we are tired we go to
    Christ’s Heart on fire for love
    of us, who withstood the
    awful beating to His precious
    flesh at the pillar.
10.Jesus was bound, tied to a
    pillar and whipped and He
    spread His arms, nailed to
    the cross for our sins.
    Do we not see” we can trust
    Jesus, the Sacred Heart.
 

 

The Crowning with Thorns

1. Matthew 27: 27-31

Then the governor’s soldiers took Jesus with them into the Praetorium and collected the whole cohort round him. And they stripped him and put a scarlet cloak round him, and having twisted some thorns into a crown they put this on his head and placed a reed in his right hand. To make fun of him they knelt to him saying, ‘Hail, king of the Jews!’ And they spat on him and took the reed and struck him on the head with it. And when they had finished making fun of him, they took off the cloak and dressed him in his own clothes and led him away to crucifixion.

2. The more we place our trust in
    the Sacred Heart, the more we
    experience His peace.
3. Fr. Carter says: If He endured
    such agonizing suffering for love
    of each of us, why do we not
    have the greatest trust that He
    wants to be so close to us,
    attending to all our needs –
    if only we allow Him?
4. Jesus loves us so much, do
    we not see it in His Passion,
    His life given, His gifts to us?
5. Jesus wants to guide us, be one
    in us, and giving us strength.
6. Jesus wants our love.
7. Jesus was crowned not with
    gold and jewels, but with
    Thorns for our pride and
    selfishness, and unloving ways.
8. Jesus’ eyes, ears, mouth all filled
    with blood and blows to His head.
9. By His blood we are saved.
10. Sing: Crown Him with Many Thorns
 

The Carrying of the Cross

1. Luke 23:26-31

As they were leading him away they seized on a man, Simon from Cyrene, who was coming in from the country, and made him shoulder the cross and carry it behind Jesus. Large numbers of people followed him, and women too, who mourned and lamented for him. But Jesus turned to them and said, ‘Daughters of Jerusalem, do not weep for me; weep rather for yourselves and for your children. For look, the days are surely coming when people will say, "Blessed are those who are barren, the wombs that have never borne children, the breasts that have never suckled!" Then they will begin to say to the mountains, "Fall on us!"; to the hills, "Cover us!" For if this is what is done to green wood, what will be done when the wood is dry?'

2. God give me the strength I
    need to go through this.
3. Letting go can be the hardest
    thing to do.
4. Jesus carried the cross laden
    with all the sins of the human
    race.
5. Jesus’ love was perfect,
    pure Divine love.
6. Jesus fell and got up because
    He loves us so much.
7. Jesus carried the heavy cross
    for love of us, what makes us
    think He would not walk with
    us every day when we ask Him
    to walk with us.

8. John 3:16

For this is how God loved the world:
he gave his only Son,
so that everyone who believes in him 
    may not perish
but may have eternal life.

9. Jesus was so weak, so wounded,
    exhausted, and He never gave up,
    He went to the bitter end.
10. God must come first in our lives.
 

The Crucifixion

1. Mark 15: 24-38

Then they crucified him, and shared out his clothing, casting lots to decide what each should get. It was the third hour when they crucified him. The inscription giving the charge against him read, ‘The King of the Jews’. And they crucified two bandits with him, one on his right and one on his left.

The passers–by jeered at him; they shook their heads and said, ‘Aha! So you would destroy the Temple and rebuild it in three days! Then save yourself; come down from the cross!’ The chief priests and the scribes mocked him among themselves in the same way with the words, ‘He saved others, he cannot save himself. Let the Christ, the king of Israel, come down from the cross now, for us to see it and believe.’ Even those who were crucified with him taunted him.

When the sixth hour came there was darkness over the whole land until the ninth hour. And at the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, ‘Eloi, eloi, lama sabachthani?’ which means, ‘My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?’ When some of those who stood by heard this, they said, ‘Listen, he is calling on Elijah.’ Someone ran and soaked a sponge in vinegar and, putting it on a reed, gave it to him to drink saying, ‘Wait! And see if Elijah will come to take him down.’ But Jesus gave a loud cry and breathed his last. And the veil of the Sanctuary was torn in two from top to bottom.  

2. They pounded nails in Jesus’
    hands and feet.
3. Jesus hung for 3 hours on
    the cross to His death.
4. From Fr. Carter: Priestly Newsletter 2000 #2

He hung upon a cross on a hill called Calvary. Death was near. How
much Jesus had already suffered! He had been derisively crowned with
thorns. In a terribly weakened condition, He carried the heavy cross to the
hill of Golgotha. There He was stripped of His garments and mercilessly
nailed to the cross. After all this brutal and agonizing suffering, Jesus finally
died.

5. From the Priestly Newsletter 2000 #2

Pope John Paul II speaks of the role suffering plays in the Christian
life: “Every man has his own share in the redemption. Each one is also called
to share in that suffering through which the redemption was accomplished.
He is called to share in that suffering through which all human suffering has
also been redeemed. In bringing about the redemption through suffering,
Christ has also raised human suffering to the level of the redemption. Thus
each man in his suffering can also become a sharer in the redemptive suffering
of Christ…
“Those who share in Christ’s sufferings have before their eyes the paschal
mystery of the cross and resurrection, in which Christ descends, in a first
phase, to the ultimate limits of human weakness and impotence: Indeed, he
dies nailed to the cross. But if at the same time in this weakness there is
accomplished his lifting up, confirmed by the power of the resurrection,
then this means that the weaknesses of all human sufferings are capable of
being infused with the same power of God manifested in Christ’s cross. In
such a concept, to suffer means to become particularly susceptible, particularly
open, to the working of the salvific powers of God offered to humanity
in Christ. In him God has confirmed his desire to act especially through suffering,
which is man’s weakness and emptiness of self.” 2

2. Pope John Paul II, On The Christian Meaning of Human Suffering, United States Catholic Conference, Nos. 19 and 23.

6. Mary’s Message from the Rosary of August 27, 1996

Mary:  I stood beneath the cross of my Son, and my Heart was in such pain for I saw Him before my eyes. I saw Him covered with blood. I saw Him die. My Heart, my children, my Heart to watch my Son, but my Heart, my Heart, how I suffered for my little children of the world that give in to this world and give up the love of my Son. O my little children of light, I give you this message. Carry this light into the darkness for your Mother Mary, for I stood beneath the cross and I cried. I cried for the little ones. I cried for the young ones, the ones that do not care and will lose their souls. How do I make you see for you will not listen to me? What can I do? I come. I appear. I beg. I plead. I give you these gifts from my Son, and you reject me. I do not deliver messages very often anymore for I have been ignored. The message is the same. You do not read the messages I have given to you. Please help me. Help the little children. I appear. I appear. I appear, and I am ignored. I stood beneath the cross, and I cried. I cried, and my Heart was in such anguish for my little children, for I am searching for them this day as I searched for the Child Jesus. Please, please help me. I cannot hold back the hand of my Son any longer. I am Mary, your Mother. I ask you to help my children. You are my children of light. end of Mary's Message

7. Sing: A Song from Jesus

8. Fr. Carter said: It’s not there is
    so much suffering in the world,
    but so much is wasted.
9. There are children that are sick,
    people of all ages with terminal
    illness, elderly that are so sick.
    Some people have children with
    brain disease, heart disease, and
    have such crosses.
10. We live the life, death and
    Resurrection of Christ in our
    lives.

    By the blood of Christ we
    are saved.