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                I ponder your goodness, Oh God —
                    that is my delight —
                    I know that You, God, dwell in me.
                    I know my Father, I know the Son.
                    I know the Holy Spirit —
                    I want to know God
                    I love Him so much —
                    I want to meditate on how He is —
                    I love to think about God —
                    I know God loves me —

Ephesians 3: 8-12, 14-19

I, who am less than the least of all God’s holy people, have been entrusted with this special grace, of proclaiming to the gentiles the unfathomable treasure of Christ and of throwing light on the inner workings of the mystery kept hidden through all the ages in God, the Creator of everything. The purpose of this was, that now, through the Church, the principalities and ruling forces should learn how many–sided God’s wisdom is, according to the plan which he had formed from all eternity in Christ Jesus our Lord. In him we are bold enough to approach God in complete confidence, through our faith in him;
This, then, is what I pray, kneeling before the Father, from whom every fatherhood, in heaven or on earth, takes its name. In the abundance of his glory may he, through his Spirit, enable you to grow firm in power with regard to your inner self, so that Christ may live in your hearts through faith, and then, planted in love and built on love, with all God’s holy people you will have the strength to grasp the breadth and the length, the height and the depth; so that, knowing the love of Christ, which is beyond knowledge, you may be filled with the utter fullness of God.

Ezekiel 34: 11-16

“For the Lord Yahweh says this: Look, I myself shall take care of my flock and look after it. As a shepherd looks after his flock when he is with his scattered sheep, so shall I look after my sheep. I shall rescue them from wherever they have been scattered on the day of clouds and darkness. I shall bring them back from the peoples where they are; I shall gather them back from the countries and bring them back to their own land. I shall pasture them on the mountains of Israel, in the ravines and in all the inhabited parts of the country. I shall feed them in good pasturage; the highest mountains of Israel will be their grazing ground. There they will rest in good grazing grounds; they will browse in rich pastures on the mountains of Israel. I myself shall pasture my sheep, I myself shall give them rest–declares the Lord Yahweh. I shall look for the lost one, bring back the stray, bandage the injured and make the sick strong. I shall watch over the fat and healthy. I shall be a true shepherd to them."

Deuteronomy 7: 6-11

For you are a people consecrated to Yahweh your God; of all the peoples on earth, you have been chosen by Yahweh your God to be his own people.

‘Yahweh set his heart on you and chose you not because you were the most numerous of all peoples—for indeed you were the smallest of all—but because he loved you and meant to keep the oath which he swore to your ancestors: that was why Yahweh brought you out with his mighty hand and redeemed you from the place of slave–labour, from the power of Pharaoh king of Egypt. From this you can see that Yahweh your God is the true God, the faithful God who, though he is true to his covenant and his faithful love for a thousand generations as regards those who love him and keep his commandments, punishes in their own persons those that hate him. He destroys anyone who hates him, without delay; and it is in their own persons that he punishes them. Hence, you must keep and observe the commandments, laws and customs which I am laying down for you today.

1 John 4: 7-16

My dear friends,
let us love one another,
since love is from God
and everyone who loves
    is a child of God and knows God.
Whoever fails to love does not know God,
because God is love.
This is the revelation
    of God’s love for us,
that God sent his only Son into the world
that we might have life through him.
Love consists in this:
it is not we who loved God,
but God loved us and sent his Son
to expiate our sins.
My dear friends,
if God loved us so much,
we too should love one another.
No one has ever seen God,
but as long as we love one another
God remains in us
and his love comes to its perfection in us.
This is the proof that we remain in him
and he in us,
that he has given us a share in his Spirit.
We ourselves have seen and testify
that the Father sent his Son
as Saviour of the world.
Anyone who acknowledges
    that Jesus is the Son of God,
God remains in him and he in God.
We have recognised for ourselves,
and put our faith in,
    the love God has for us.
God is love,
and whoever remains in love
    remains in God
and God in him.

Matthew 11: 25-30

At that time Jesus exclaimed, ‘I bless you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, for hiding these things from the learned and the clever and revealing them to little children. Yes, Father, for that is what it pleased you to do. Everything has been entrusted to me by my Father; and no one knows the Son except the Father, just as no one knows the Father except the Son and those to whom the Son chooses to reveal him.

‘Come to me, all you who labour and are overburdened, and I will give you rest. Shoulder my yoke and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Yes, my yoke is easy and my burden light.’

                I remember asking Jesus if you wrote a
                    book would you use my hand —
                    October 5, 1992 — 16 years ago Jesus gave me this
                        message

October 5, 1992 - 3:30am

R. Dear Jesus, Give me Your hand to write this book for you. I am your servant. I want to be Your hand to this world. If you, Lord Jesus, would write a book, what would you say?

Jesus: My dear children,

   Today I come to deliver a message to each of you. I want to tell you of each person's dignity, of their beauty and their self-worth. Each child is, oh, so uniquely precious to My Most Sacred Heart. Each child is full of the talents I have given to them. Each person is divinely created by God and given all these gifts to be happy and love one another.

   The problem comes when you feel you will be left out. That you will be left by another who has trodden on you and will do it again. I see you all as My most precious children. I watch your every move and know all pain and anguish in your heart. My Heart aches, you have insecure feelings about yourself. I came to this earth I died for you. I felt cold, hungry, lonely on this earth. You need not worry that no one knows the pain and anguish in your heart. God created you with such special gifts and talents. It is important for you to raise above your wound and forgive those who hurt you.

   You need only turn your will and your life over to Me and I will guide you in all your ways. I have all the Power. Many are not of My ways. The key to life is to recognize your faults, but still know you are this precious gift of My Father a gift to this world. This world is in need of your strength. Running yourself down, blaming others hurting them can cause you misery and pain. At this very moment, you are the precious creation of God!! You must operate with Me in your heart.

   You need not run yourself down. I am with you every day guiding your ways, lest your foot stumble and you lose your way. You will not wander far from your path if every day you keep bringing your focus back to Me. If you dare let Me be at the helm, if you dare to really let Me run your life, I will do with you such wonders that you yourself would be amazed. But you will know with such ease when you did these things that you did not do them alone. You will know My power, moving the mountain, My power chipping at the stone, My power working on your hardest problem and you will be set free.

   Oh yes, you will be set free and know a serenity that only comes from letting go and letting Me run your life. To you, My child, I have given all that is good. I made you My holy soldier, My warrior in a world of pain and hatred. You are the light that shines in the darkness, you are the coat to a cold child, you are the smile that warms a troubled and lonely heart. You are the comfort for everyone you meet, because My most precious Heart powers you, smiles through you, understands and loves through you.

   Love your fellows for Me. There are so many troubled hearts that need to know My love. I can love through you if you let Me, I can be their friend through you if you let Me. I am He who comforts you and you are he who comforts them. My power is endless, it never runs out, there is not a power failure EVER. In your darkest hour, My light shines in the darkness and I say to you, "Oh blessed of My Father, look at yourself with awe, you are My creation, you are indeed so precious to Me, you are My light to this world, you are My hands and My feet and most of all My Heart."

   Oh, you are My loving Heart, to those who are bowed down, to those who are lost in the darkness, you carry My smile and wear My armor in a world that is trying to tear one another down with hate and ugliness. There is gentleness, there is love, there is hope in you, if you open yourself up to Me. Be My knight to the world, wear My armor. I am your God and I will protect you from the darkness. Plug into My power, be not afraid, I go before you always and you can rest in My arms when you feel weary. You can put your head in My lap and weep, you will know, I am truly with you and you are My light to this world. I created you so special - to cast out fear in the darkness, to clothe the naked, to give hope to the oppressed, to be as I live in you and love through you and you are My smile and I touch My hurting ones through your love.

   You are he who loves this world. You must stay plugged into My power-source. This world is hungry for My love. It needs My love, I give to them through you. I am your God and I made you as a gift to the world. You are filled.

    Focus on Me and your life will be abundant and whole, joy in suffering, freedom — but you can take the knocks because you will know you do not go it alone, but with Me. I love you My precious child.

end of October 5, 1992

Babies are learning how to love —
babies can act like babies —

                But God has blessed us so abundantly
                    and we are to have a more mature
                    love —
                    not a selfish love —
                    not a love that is coming from a
                        wounded, selfish person

                God has given us the ability to know Him
                    more and more — He has given us the
                    Holy Eucharist —
                    Jesus feeds us with Himself —
                    We are saturated more and more with
                        His life
                    Jesus loves us so very much —
                    He wants us to love Him and love
                        each other —
                    to be more and more saturated with His
                        life

                We were created with this desire to love
                    God that can only be satisfied
                    by loving Him

There is enough to go around —

                If we are adults and we are seeking a baby,
                    selfish love and feeling unloved — we
                    are not seeing the gifts God is
                    giving us

                God gives us love in our lives today —
                    We may want a selfish love and see
                        only through eyes of getting
                        love we want — love that we
                        think we need to fill us and it
                        isn't love at all — it can be
                        jealous, pouty, possessive —
                        slavishly dependent

                Real love for an adult comes from a deep love of God first —
                    We are strengthened by meditating on God's
                        love for us
                    We are saturated more and more with His
                        grace in us

Jesus says:

                    Oh how I long for souls to come to Me
                        just to love Me — to be wed to Me
                        the bridegroom of their souls —
                        to thank Me for the gifts given
                            to them —
                        to see the gifts in creation and say
                            yes —

                    I long for your love
                    I long for your time spent alone with
                        Me pondering My love for you —
                        the mystery of the Trinity

Genesis 3: 9-15

But Yahweh God called to the man. ‘Where are you?’ he asked. ‘I heard the sound of you in the garden,’ he replied. ‘I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid.’ ‘Who told you that you were naked?’ he asked. ‘Have you been eating from the tree I forbade you to eat?’ The man replied, ‘It was the woman you put with me; she gave me some fruit from the tree, and I ate it.’ Then Yahweh God said to the woman, ‘Why did you do that?’ The woman replied, ‘The snake tempted me and I ate.’

Then Yahweh God said to the snake, ‘Because you have done this,

    Accursed be you
    of all animals wild and tame!
    On your belly you will go
    and on dust you will feed
    as long as you live.
    I shall put enmity
    between you and the woman,
    and between your offspring and hers;
    it will bruise your head
    and you will strike its heel.’

                    R: Creatures have a wounded human nature
                and even though baptism erases
                original sin, creatures still have tendencies
                toward sin called concupiscence. Creatures are
                imperfect except Mary. At the moment of conception
                in his mother's womb — creatures are marked
                with original sin, except Mary, Mother of God.

                    Creatures are imperfect. They love imperfectly —
                How can we see all that God has created and
                be so pompous, prideful to think we know
                it all — Seek dominance for dominance sake.

                We were taught by imperfect men —
                children learn dysfunction from generations
                past —
                some people try to make others live by their dysfunctions
                because they are so ingrained in them —

Psalm 130: 1-8

From the depths I call to you, Yahweh:
Lord, hear my cry.
Listen attentively
to the sound of my pleading!

If you kept a record of our sins,
    Lord, who could stand their ground?
But with you is forgiveness,

I rely, my whole being relies,
    Yahweh, on your promise.
My whole being hopes in the Lord,
    more than watchmen for daybreak;
more than watchmen for daybreak

    let Israel hope in Yahweh.
For with Yahweh is faithful love,
    with him generous ransom;
and he will ransom Israel
    from all its sins.

                The more the person is not humble, but
                    prideful the bigger the problem with
                    others and the greater the lack of
                    real holiness.

                The more that God dwells in us the more
                    beautiful we are — the more attractive
                    we are to others — for we were
                    created for God

                Oh God — I lay at night in my bed and ponder
                    your beauty — I know you dwell
                    in my graced soul — I want to
                    think about Your perfection

Zephaniah 2: 3, 3: 12 - 13

Seek Yahweh,
all you humble of the earth,
who obey his commands.
Seek uprightness,
seek humility:
you may perhaps find shelter
on the Day of Yahweh’s anger.

But in you I shall leave surviving
a humble and lowly people,
and those who are left in Israel
will take refuge in the name of Yahweh.
They will do no wrong,
will tell no lies;
nor will a deceitful tongue
be found in their mouths.
But they will be able to graze and rest
with no one to alarm them.

1 Corinthians 1: 26-31

Consider, brothers, how you were called; not many of you are wise by human standards, not many influential, not many from noble families. No, God chose those who by human standards are fools to shame the wise; he chose those who by human standards are weak to shame the strong, those who by human standards are common and contemptible—indeed those who count for nothing—to reduce to nothing all those that do count for something, so that no human being might feel boastful before God. It is by him that you exist in Christ Jesus, who for us was made wisdom from God, and saving justice and holiness and redemption. As scripture says: If anyone wants to boast, let him boast of the Lord.

We have been given such love —

                It is just we give into selfishness,
                    some of us — seeking others through
                    foolish possessive pursuits —
                    anxiousness wanting to be filled
                        by some human creature —
                        when we were created to be only
                        filled by God

Song: God's Love

Song: Eye Has Not Seen

December 18, 1995

Excerpt from the Mass Book

IN THE DEEPEST RECESSES OF HIS HEART

    The place Jesus took me was into the deepest recesses of His Heart. I was enveloped in His burning love. It was a red room with heat and an intense glow. I was swept away in this embrace, and I only existed in Him. The power of the Almighty God enveloped me, and I only existed in Him. There was no fear, for I was existent in this Almighty Being. My heart was wrapped in the eternal embrace of this Supreme Being. The security, the power I know was His deep presence in which I existed.

    I knew the room was red and warm. I knew His immenseness, but I felt my own completeness in Him. I did not feel little, as a speck, but elevated and empowered for I existed then in Him in a most special way.

    I was overtaken by the love of God. The fire of the Holy Spirit filled me. I was absorbed by the love of the Father, and I existed IN Him and in the deepest recesses of the Heart of Jesus. Our heaven on earth is these inner chambers of His magnificent Heart - the Heart of the Almighty God, with all the power, with omnipotence, with the fire of the love of God. He took me to the deepest chamber of this fiery Heart, and in that moment, I touched eternity, for I knew what it was to be enveloped in the deep furnace of His love. I now want to exist in this chamber of His Heart, swept away in His burning love, absorbed in my every cell with His love.

    We do not understand the fire of His love. We do not understand what it is to be absorbed by love itself. He took me to the inner, deepest chamber of His Heart, and I felt the heat and knew the presence of love itself, and there was no fear, only a feeling of completeness, omnipotence, all-embracing, penetrating love - a power indescribable in words, a saturation of my being in the presence of God, and I was as I was created to be - living in Him!

    This is how I will forever live my life, saturated with His divine life and love deep within this inner chamber of His burning Heart, living in Him as He possesses my being, and I operate with His power in me.

    Little creatures though we are, we are His, His power, His life, flowing through us. In Him, we are as the Father intended: one in Him, each one of us, dwelling in this fiery furnace of His love. With our fears quieted and our hearts empowered by His life, we live forever in Him - in the Heart of Jesus.

    Let no man separate what God has joined together. I am wed in the deepest love with my beloved Spouse, wed to the Heart of Jesus. As I am, I am one in Him. I live and I breathe in Him. He, Who is love, He Who is our all, He Who is mighty and without limits, He Who is, He Who is God and as I live, He lives in me in this world.

    I am wed to Him, and I shall not fear for He is God - one, complete, loving, God. Heart of Jesus, I place my trust in Thee. As I live, I live in Your most adorable Heart, the furnace of God's love!

end of December 18, 1995 writing

                Once we know the gifts given to us by
                    God how can we seek foolish
                    pleasures —

                God has blessed us so abundantly and given
                    us plenty of love in our lives, but
                    we don't see the gifts and the love if
                    we are focusing on our selfish,
                    imperfect, impure wants.

                The devil tempted Adam and Eve in the garden
                    and they disobeyed God —
                    God has a Plan for us
                    God created us to love Him and others —
                    God has been watching over our lives —
                    People may want so-called - love (affection,
                    attention not really love from
                    others) to help heal their wounds of
                    the past —
                    they seek a person to finish some
                        unfinished business

                They may create conflict with those in authority
                    to dominate to try to rectify a controlling
                    dad that they didn't like his controlling
                    ways from the past — They
                    may seek another woman and want to control
                    her because they were betrayed in love
                    etc.

                    What about making the best of every
                moment with the people God sent
                us to help build His Kingdom, not use
                them for sick abandonment needs —
                or selfish control — emotionally trying
                to dominate them to heal old wounds —
                what about God's Plan —

                    We have been given so much
                love — Our strength comes in Him —
                to love and be a person rooted in His
                love — His plan — His Kingdom —
                building His Kingdom —

                    If we want to be attractive we
                should try to be like Jesus — then
                we are trying to be in His image and
                likeness — like a fish in water — not like a
                fish out of water —

                    Families teach us imperfect
                things from generations past — they
                are drilled in us —
                We must want God's way of life —
                not imperfect ways from the past —

We are always in the state of becoming —
so is the Church, and the world —

Men live and die —
We aren't babies

                Today is the day to hear His voice and
                    live to do God's plan and be like
                    Jesus

                    Holy Spirit fill us
                    Holy Spirit give us the fruits
                        of the Spirit

                    "charity, joy, peace, patience, kindness,
                    goodness, generosity, gentleness, faithfulness,
                    modesty, self-control, chastity"

The Our Father

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name. Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. Amen.

Glory Be

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit. As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

Apostle's Creed

I believe in God, the Father Almighty, Creator of heaven and earth; and in Jesus Christ, His only Son, our Lord; who was conceived by the Holy Spirit, born of the Virgin Mary, suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died and was buried. He descended into hell; the third day he arose again from the dead; he ascended into heaven; sits at the right hand of God the Father Almighty; from thence he shall come to judge the living and the dead. I believe in the Holy Spirit, the Holy Catholic Church, the communion of Saints, the forgiveness of sins, the resurrection of the body, and life everlasting. Amen.

All the ends of the earth have seen the
saving power of God

Psalm 97: 1-2, 5-6, 9, 11-12

Yahweh is king! Let earth rejoice,
the many isles be glad!
Cloud, black cloud enfolds him,
saving justice and judgement the foundations of his throne.

The mountains melt like wax,
before the Lord of all the earth.
The heavens proclaim his saving justice,
all nations see his glory.

For you are Yahweh,
Most High over all the earth,
far transcending all gods.

Light dawns for the upright,
and joy for honest hearts.
Rejoice in Yahweh, you who are upright,
praise his unforgettable holiness.

                    God wants us to be one body united. The
                Holy Trinity is our model — 3 Persons in
                one God — perfect unity
                                perfection
                                love

                    God wants us to come like 50 brand
                new cars with different jobs that unite
                as one — optimumly — we don't come like
                a jalopy who needs a new radiator and is out of
                commission most of the time — nor do we come
                as an old Cadillac who needs an engine - overhaul
                We come at our best — filled more and more with
                His life — using our unique talents — as one
                body doing a mighty work — no jealousy,
                possessiveness, seeking dominance for dominance
                sake — working out old passed down anger — not
                ignoring our actions — not working out
                stuffed anger in passive-aggressive ways —

                    We want the truth in Jesus
                    We are most attractive being like Jesus —
                    We live to build the Kingdom —
                        we work for Jesus

                    Jesus will reward our diligent work —
                    Jesus will help us suffer for building
                        His Kingdom, for the souls —
                    We are Apostles of Jesus
                    We are in Jesus' army —
                    We have a deep relationship with God
                    We live to please Jesus —
                    We don't act like a moving pole —
                        one whose actions change depending
                        on who pushes our buttons or gives
                        us strokes —
                    We live to please God

Prayer for Union With Jesus

    Come to me, Lord, and possess my soul. Come into my heart and permeate my soul. Help me to sit in silence with You and let You work in my heart.

    I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I want to be selfless and only exist in You. Help me to spoon out all that is me and be an empty vessel ready to be filled by You. Help me to die to myself and live only for You. Use me as You will. Let me never draw my attention back to myself. I only want to operate as You do, dwelling within me.

    I am Yours, Lord. I want to have my life in You. I want to do the will of the Father. Give me the strength to put aside the world and let You operate my very being. Help me to act as You desire. Strengthen me against the distractions of the devil to take me from Your work.

    When I worry, I have taken my focus off of You and placed it on myself. Help me not to give in to the promptings of others to change what in my heart You are making very clear to me. I worship You, I adore You and I love You. Come and dwell in me now.

-God's Blue Book, January 17, 1994

                    Today we can see in the Movies —
                important truths for spiritual growth are
                not presented truthfully and since it is
                a movie — the senses are used dynamically
                to prove what they are trying to convey —
                little children, teenagers, even older people
                not knowing the truth can be easily persuaded
                through the drama to go in a direction that
                has been presented as truth — In a two
                hour movie, using unreal things a child or
                young adult — even adults can be
                lead away from the truth through the
                violins, beautiful people — glamour and
                it can be wrong — even evil —

In the scripture it says — "let your 'yes'
be 'yes' and your 'no' be 'no' "—

                    If we confuse others from the truth —
                    If we make movies for money and to
                        spread evil because of the
                        desire to get others to take notice,
                        presenting wrong as right and
                            right as wrong —

                We can enormously hurt our own
                    spiritual life and damage others
                    for life.

                Jesus wants truth —
                The more we walk in the truth — the more
                    we are like Jesus —

                The Father is pleased when we work to do all
                    we can in our lives to bring about
                    the Plan of the Father —

We are to live to please the Father —
do His will in love —

Adam and Eve sinned

The New Adam — Jesus died doing the
will of the Father

Mary, the New Eve, lived to please the
Father.

                God has called us to be in His family —
                    we live to be like Jesus —
                    not keep on being imperfect in our
                    actions — Our life is lived to graduate
                    into heaven — to get our Heavenly Reward Degree —