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                The man with tainted vision is acting
                    out of his wounded
                    human nature —

He is not giving his free will to
God's will

He is selfish —

                    He sees himself first and what he
                        wants and he acts from this —
                        opposed to God's will for his vain
                            glory —

The person with his eyes focused on
God first

acts to praise, reverence and serve God

He acts under the Standard of Christ —

He is under the Master —

He lives to build the Kingdom of Christ

The person with his eyes focused on
himself — sees himself as master —

I had a dream about the Carson house
and remembered my dad —

He wanted everything put back exactly
as he wanted

                    He was teaching us kids obedience, but
                I had a dream of people at war outside
                and children were in the house taking
                refuge, afraid because bombs were
                outside — I usually don't dream
                about this, but it was at the Carson house and
                children were inside while bombs went
                off outside —

                I saw down the street Carson and Glenway —
                    it was raining and the street was glassy
                    and there was a mysterious light where
                    the attackers were

                But I was praying really hard with no fear,
                    because I was so deeply connected
                    to God — praying so deep and I had
                    trust in Him and no fear

                What was interesting was the same
                    corner Carson and Glenway and that
                    turned corner is where I had
                    a vision of children turning the
                    corner in the second Blue Book
                    led by a lady with a tweed coat
                    and I was there

It was an interior vision — the kind I

see in my eye lids like a movie
and a screen and it is accompanied by

that same glistening, sparkling light

when the vision starts

February 6, 1994 5:00 a.m. (excerpt)

Notes: At 6:30 a.m. I saw a vision of children, two adults by their side, walking together in a group. One adult in front was wearing a scarf on a tweed coat. She had brown hair which was curled. She turned and had her hand on a child. She was leading them. The other adult was in the back. There were about 20 to 25 kids on a street. They all had their coats and they had just turned the corner.

Mary help me to love the Holy Spirit through

your Immaculate Heart

Holy Spirit

June 30, 1994

R. Dear Spirit, oh, Holy Spirit, how little I tell You of my love! You are indeed a Person. You are God. It is through Your gifts that I receive the knowledge of God, to know, love and serve Him more. Open me, oh, Spirit. Open this closed heart of mine and fill me with the fire of Your love. Impart to me the tongues of fire I need to do the work God wants me to do. Give me Your love so I can love God more than myself. Help me to surrender to You and let You live and dwell in my heart in such union!

Oh, Spirit of God, open my eyes so I can see more and more with Your gifts what I need to see to serve and to love You. Help me to love my brothers as You want me to, to know how to love as God wants me to.

Mary, you are the spouse of the Holy Spirit. It is through Him that Jesus was conceived in your womb. Draw me to your Spouse, the Holy Spirit, to greater union with Him. Help me to love the Holy Spirit more and more through your Immaculate Heart.

Help me to grow in my intimacy with You, oh, Holy Spirit. Help me to hear what You want to tell me. You are the love between the Father and the Son. Help me to know the fire of this love. I want to know more Your love for me. I want to love You more, to grow in deeper union with You.

Mary, help me to love the Holy Spirit through your Immaculate Heart.

Father, Son, Holy Spirit: three Persons in one God. Each Person to be loved individually, yet God to be loved as One, in union with Mary! Such burning in my heart for each Person, a burning to love God, three in one, through Mary's Immaculate Heart.

I could spend such joyful hours dwelling on this immense love. God is present and truly in our midst and in our hearts. I cannot love my brothers as God wants me to if I do not know God. When I am filled with the love of God, then I can love my brothers as He wants: "that you are willing to lay down your life for your brother." It takes that intimacy, that oneness, to know God, to love as God wants me to love.

To love you, my brother, I must constantly try to be more united with the one, true, magnificent God. Through Mary, I learn to love God more intimately.

Open me, oh, Spirit of the living God. Open my heart to love, to the fire of Your love. Enkindle it deep in my heart. The love of the one, triune God!

Oh, Mary, help me to love God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, through your Heart.

Praise God in His magnificence. Praise God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit! Let us pour out our abundant love, through Mary, on Them. Teach us to love You, God. Help us, in our littleness, to give You love through Mary's sinless Heart. I can grow in my intimacy with God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

end of June 30, 1994

                How do we teach ourselves to have
                    our agenda and even in prayer
                    think about ourselves instead
                    of God —

Can we let go of those — like in my

dream — coming to attack and be

focused so deeply in God

close our mind to distractions where

we are jealous, angry, and give

the reverence to God that is

His due

At Mass can we be united so deeply to Jesus

praying to the Father in the Holy Spirit and

all the angels and saints and

the souls in purgatory and

pray united to the Church

for the salvation of souls

Or am I always thinking of how I

look, what detail is in my life —

how I sound —

Do I get deep down like I was at the

Carson house with bombing outside

and really try to get united to God —

shutting myself, distractions out and

focus on communicating with God —

Do I dare to let go of my control
my mind

my plan

And love — Prayer is love of God
Fr. Carter says

The Mass is an act of love

A Prayer before the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass

    Let me be a holy sacrifice and unite with God in the sacrament of His greatest love.

    I want to be one in Him in this act of love, where He gives Himself to me and I give myself as a sacrifice to Him. Let me be a holy sacrifice as I become one with Him in this my act of greatest love to Him.

    Let me unite with Him more, that I may more deeply love Him. May I help make reparation to His adorable Heart and the heart of His Mother, Mary. With greatest love, I offer myself to You and pray that You will accept my sacrifice of greatest love. I give myself to You and unite in Your gift of Yourself to me. Come and possess my soul.

    Cleanse me, strengthen me, heal me. Dear Holy Spirit act in the heart of Mary to make me more and more like Jesus.

    Father, I offer this my sacrifice, myself united to Jesus in the Holy Spirit to You. Help me to love God more deeply in this act of my greatest love.

    Give me the grace to grow in my knowledge, love and service of You and for this to be my greatest participation in the Mass. Give me the greatest graces to love You so deeply in this Mass, You who are so worthy of my love.

-Mass Book, December 27, 1995

Prayer for Union with Jesus

    Come to me, Lord, and possess my soul. Come into my heart and permeate my soul. Help me to sit in silence with You and let You work in my heart.

    I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I want to be selfless and only exist in You. Help me to spoon out all that is me and be an empty vessel ready to be filled by You. Help me to die to myself and live only for You. Use me as You will. Let me never draw my attention back to myself. I only want to operate as You do, dwelling within me.

    I am Yours, Lord. I want to have my life in You. I want to do the will of the Father. Give me the strength to put aside the world and let You operate my very being. Help me to act as You desire. Strengthen me against the distractions of the devil to take me from Your work.

    When I worry, I have taken my focus off of You and placed it on myself. Help me not to give in to the promptings of others to change what in my heart You are making very clear to me. I worship You, I adore You and I love You. Come and dwell in me now.

-God's Blue Book, January 17, 1994

All acts are done for the honor and glory of God —

I see with glasses marked God's will first —

Not glasses marked ME, ME first, My Plan

I see Me first, jealous, angry — never
get to my heart to

GIVE LOVE TO JESUS

Prayer is LOVE

To the fact I LET GO —

give my free will to God's will

Heaven perfectly obedient to God's will —

Unity — ONENESS

Why did God make me?

Eve wanted to be equal to God

Mary, perfect handmaid of the Lord

Mary saw God first

Mary lived to serve God

Mary adored God, reverenced Him —

Mary's desire to do God's will —

Mary espoused to the Holy Spirit

Prayer for Union with Jesus

    Come to me, Lord, and possess my soul. Come into my heart and permeate my soul. Help me to sit in silence with You and let You work in my heart.

    I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I want to be selfless and only exist in You. Help me to spoon out all that is me and be an empty vessel ready to be filled by You. Help me to die to myself and live only for You. Use me as You will. Let me never draw my attention back to myself. I only want to operate as You do, dwelling within me.

    I am Yours, Lord. I want to have my life in You. I want to do the will of the Father. Give me the strength to put aside the world and let You operate my very being. Help me to act as You desire. Strengthen me against the distractions of the devil to take me from Your work.

    When I worry, I have taken my focus off of You and placed it on myself. Help me not to give in to the promptings of others to change what in my heart You are making very clear to me. I worship You, I adore You and I love You. Come and dwell in me now.

-God's Blue Book, January 17, 1994

SELF less

Dying to self

Jesus died on the cross for our

sins

Jesus died

Jesus rose

We are to die to the selfish focus on

ourselves

What does God want of me —

Not have an agenda

Why did God make me?

Are all the details I worry about going

to matter —

screw drivers in a row when I

screamed to be a perfectionist and

hurt the dignity of others

Where are the screw drivers if the

guy is in purgatory for his

selfish, unloving angry heart

The Ignatian Retreat is

majorly to look at our sins

to admit them

to forgive

and not to sin again

Taking responsibility for our sins

Obedience verses rebellion

(1) doing the will of God

(2) not be like the angels who fell and said
"I will not serve"

(3) What am I doing for Christ —
What have I done for Christ —

We must pray for the grace to be obedient —

to have deeper union with Jesus

Sin makes us miserable

Disobedience makes us miserable —

Look what happened to us because of Adam and Eve's
sin

Sin is ingratitude

Sin hurts our relationship with
God and others

                    Selfishness is not God's will — Being
                        jealous, possessive, combat, arguing to
                        be over those over us

How is my heart?

Am I rebellious?

Is my heart like ice — so focused on details and
unloving?

Is my heart like stone?

Think about hell —

There is no relationship in hell —

For all eternity knowing I will never have this
relationship with God and others

Total isolation

Hatred in hell

Hell is the ultimate consequences of

mortal sin —

How we love God and love others determine

our outcome for eternity

Make a good confession —

Pray to the Holy Spirit

Beg to be forgiven for all the sins of your
past life

Forgive your enemies

Ask for the grace to see your sins and be sorry

for how you have offended God and others —

How foolish to

Spend your life, sinning, being disobedient

and then trying to prove you are

perfect — are right

People who spend their life trying to prove

they are right, seeking dominance

over authority are seeing through

tainted glasses —

Do they put themselves over God?

Discipleship

Mary is the perfect handmaid of the Lord

Mary — humility

Luke 1: 46-55

And Mary said:

My soul proclaims
    the greatness of the Lord
and my spirit rejoices
    in God my Saviour;
because he has looked upon
    the humiliation of his servant.
Yes, from now onwards
    all generations will call me blessed,
for the Almighty
    has done great things for me.
Holy is his name,
and his faithful love extends age after age
    to those who fear him.
He has used the power of his arm,
he has routed the arrogant of heart.
He has pulled down princes
    from their thrones
        and raised high the lowly.
He has filled the starving with good things,
    sent the rich away empty.
He has come to the help
    of Israel his servant,
        mindful of his faithful love
—according to the promise
    he made to our ancestors—
of his mercy to Abraham
    and to his descendants for ever.

Humility is truth —

The humble person doesn't want

to lie —
they live their lives in truth —

Some lie and it is a habit — the devil is the

father of lies

When we give into

focusing on what others think —

not seeing as God wants first

This becomes a habit in us

Worrying how others see us

We can make this how we act —

this can become more important than

God's will

St. Peter denied Jesus when Jesus was about to

be crucified —

Peter was worried what others would think —

This was a defect in Peter's character —

He had done this before —

even after being that close to Jesus —

When we give into jealousy — we can

act jealous almost automatically with

our tainted glasses —

we have a free will —

we can change those bad

habits and vices

But we have to want to change —

We have to examine our conscience and see our

defects and beg for the grace to change them —

A prideful man tells himself he is perfect —

he is right and

Eve went so far to want to be equal to God

Mary did the will of God

Eve did not obey God

Judas sinned ———> hung himself

Peter sinned ———> Peter was sorry

Why do we act

(1) for ourselves

(2) vain glory

(3) power

(4) affection from others for ourselves

Do we act —

FOR LOVE of God

to please the Father

Jesus left home

Jesus did His mission

Jesus did not abandon His

mission

To His death on the cross —

He gave His all

Jesus did the Father's will

Jesus wants us to be made clean —

To get rid of dirt in us

To go to confession —

We need to be washed —

Jesus washed the Apostles' feet

He is the Master

Judas betrayed Jesus

Peter was sorry — Peter loved Jesus

You Were Hungry and I Sent Manna from Heaven (excerpt)

May 17, 1994 After Mass at Father Smith's Chapel (3 priests were there)

Jesus: I will become one in you. You will become one in Me as you open your hearts to My love. Be open, little ones. I want to love you and love through you. Empty yourself of any impurities in your heart. Forgive your brothers. Do not be angry. Keep yourselves clean and free from sin. Go to Confession. Fast, My beloved ones. It is in fasting you are drawn close to Me. Do not give in to yourselves. Discipline yourselves. This will increase your union with Me.

I am God. There is no better reward for your efforts than to achieve union with God. I want this union with you. It is you who keep us apart. Die to yourself, child, and live in Me. You must surrender your lives to Me and let Me operate your very being. Die to self and live in Me.

R. Alleluia. And they knew new life. It was the life of Christ that dwelled within them. Praise the Lord! Praise and honor to the one, true God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

He constantly says, "Unite in My love. I call you to be one in Me. I am sent from the Father that you shall be one in Us."

Jesus: I am He Whose bootstraps you are unworthy to tie, yet I come with such love for you. You will be one in Us. Unite in My love. Go out into the world, spread the gospel, go to the highways and the byways, spread My love. My love is the way. You will unite and become one when you love in Me for there is no division in a heart of God. You must be one in Us. As the Father has sent Me, I send you into the world to spread My love. Will you answer My call? Harken, for time is short. Your brothers are in need of this work. In your actions of love you will preach My gospel. Go and love one another as I have loved you.

R. Unity and love are coexistent. Hate and love do not coexist. I must love, love everyone. He died for my precious brother. I must love more and more like Him.

He is talking about unity. Unity is only achieved through loving. To hate any man causes division. My heart must be pure, free from all hate. I cannot do this alone. I need God's love to love my brothers as He is calling me to do.

end of excerpt

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