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June 19, 2008
June 20th Holy Spirit Novena
Scripture selection is Day 2 Period II.The Novena Rosary Mysteries
for June 20th are Glorious.
We really need money for the building
and money for the Priestly Mailing.
June 19, 2008
We need money for the building.
My mom died on June 19, 1952 when I was 5.
Excerpt from September 4, 2000
R. I learned about the interior life when my mother died. I knew the veil of death. I knew when something so dear to me was taken away that I had to reach for something else beyond. I knew in my heart that my beautiful mom existed. I knew she was living with God, she told me about Him in her love and holiness. Yes, at five I learned about the curtain of death and the life hereafter. I could have gotten in the casket of the dimly lit funeral home and been with her body, but I knew she wasn't in the casket anymore, only her body, clothed in a brown Franciscan garb of the 3rd order of St. Francis. When they let me touch her body and told me to kiss it, it was cold, dead in that casket, and I ran around the funeral parlor and played games, but inside I was facing a mighty jolt and no one was talking to me about how I felt. I felt alone and scared and I smelled the roses so strong that for a good part of my life I didn't like the smell because it reminded me of the funeral parlor and my mom.
But now I know that the roses meant Our Lady was there with me and it was Our Lady telling me that although my heart ached and I wanted love, someday, Jesus would reveal Himself to me and she would appear when I was 48, the same age my mother was when she died. It took a life of searching for love, I felt a sword in my heart at that early age of five. In reality, I found that God gave me a great gift in my mom's death, helping me understand about that curtain of death between this world and the next. And when Jesus spoke to me in 1991 and showed me His Heart, December 17, 1991.
R. I didn't know how truly important that date was for the world, or that Mary would appear on the building for all her children to see. Five years after I saw Jesus' Heart on fire Mary appeared on the building that same day of the same month, December 17, 1996. And I did not know the first message Jesus gave me would be published December 17, 1993, with the title, "Children Need Time and Attention".
end of excerpt from September 4, 2000
June 19, 2008
We can be ungrateful for our earthly
parents.We can be ungrateful for our heavenly
Father --
He has the plan.
We are to do His will.Mary is our heavenly Mother.
July 16, 1994
My Mother
Messenger: My mother died when I was five and I missed her all throughout my life. I will now be 48 in a couple of weeks, the age she was when she died. My birthday present was and is the gift I received from her: her old, worn prayer book. The pages torn and yellow where she wore them out from her prayers. She prayed so much they were all torn. I have her crucifix from her rosary, which has her name, Alice, attached to it. I received her prayer book and the cross from the rosary.
Nothing is an accident. She gave me the greatest gift of all, she gave me my life at birth and I have her prayer book and crucifix from her rosary as her love for me. This is one of the most precious gifts a child could ever have - her mother's prayers! Early on she shared with me her deep love of God.
I want to lead others to meditate on Jesus' life - His life at birth and Mary's life, lived in the rosary. From the youthful face to the old woman she became, from her joy to her deep sorrow. I see Mary's face alive in the statues. A parade of faces, all the emotions of the heart, for us, relived in every rosary! This is our call: to be likened to Christ. I must meditate on Christ and His life. This will help me grow in my love relationship with Jesus and Mary in the rosary. I love the rosary because it is their lives. His life was given for love of us. He gives Himself to us this day in the Eucharist. We must live their lives to put on Christ. A Christian is one who acts like Christ. They will know we are Christians by our love. To love like Christ, we must meditate on His life with Mary.
I am called by Mary to lead others to the love of her precious Son. When I live as Christ and Mary did, then I will preach the gospel in my life. Do I act like Christ? Look at our lives and see if we are acting like Him today. Study Him in the rosary. Learn about His love, poured out for us in the Eucharist. Sit with Him in front of the tabernacle and pray the rosary, slowly, from the heart, and meditate on His life and the life of His Mother.
Sit alone with Him and learn of His love for us, this day. Be silent in front of the tabernacle. He will speak in the silence. We are given such gifts of His love. We should live Jesus' and Mary's lives in the rosary!
July 16, 1994
Meditation on His Agony
Messenger: He was pressed on, from all sides, His head crowned with thorns and bleedings, His face open wounds from being hit, His shoulders so hurt from carrying the cross and His flesh torn on His back, His hands pierced all the way through with nails, His head and neck ached, His feet pierced all the way through with nails.
Think of a pin prick in your fingers, His head was pierced and His hands had big nails in them, likewise His feet.
Live the rosary, meditate on the mysteries during the day.
If one little sore hurts we complain, think of these things, thorns and nails piercing His body.
It wasn't enough they beat up His exterior flesh, they pierced His insides.
Did He give His all?
We wonder how we are violated, how someone hurts our feelings with words.
He underwent such torture to show us the way to surrender.
Jesus: They went inside My body Rita, I gave My insides for love of you. I gave the blood in My veins.
Do you want more proof of My love?
Messenger: Agony: His greatest agony was the suffering He experienced to His loving Heart. He, who loved each soul so dearly and they would reject Him and treat Him indifferently! He saw before Him all the souls that would go to hell, despite His sufferings.
end of July 16, 1994
From December 18, 2000
Father Carter died December 18, 2000, 7:10 p.m.
Message from Jesus, received before 2 p.m. Mass at the hospital in Cincinnati, Ohio
Jesus: I have taught you to pray as a body, to pray that the cancer be cast into the sea.
Pray for your world, that the cancer in the world may be cast into the sea.
Now you know how to pray deeper than ever before for the priests, the Church, and the world.
"May the cancer be uprooted and cast into the sea."
Would you wish to deprive Me of giving a holy soul their reward?
That is what they lived for, that some day they would be with Me in heaven.
Messenger: From the image site during the rosary December 17, 2000, Mary gave the following message after the 4th mystery some time before midnight.
Mary: Pray for your founder, my children, in this last hour.
Messenger: The rest of the message from the rosary will follow.
Jesus and Mary told us to quit praying the healing rosary and just pray for Father Carter. Mary said to pray the Divine Mercy for Father Carter.
3:00 a.m. Jesus said: Would you wish to deprive Me of giving a holy soul their reward?
That is what they lived for, that some day they would be with Me in heaven.
December 18, 2000 - Second Message
A Note from Colombiere
Messenger: Last night at 3:00 a.m., I prayed so hard for Father's healing and
He said to me: "Would you wish to deprive Me of giving a holy soul their reward?That is what they lived for, that some day they would be with Me in heaven."
I knew then I had to get from Florida to Michigan, I wanted to be with
Father at his death and pray the Divine Mercy and hold his hand as he
slipped into heaven.We flew to Cincinnati, Ohio, John and I, and the plane timing was perfect. We wanted to
go to Mass, for I never miss Mass and the holy hour. I felt our Lord wanted
us to go directly to Colombiere.I went to the chapel and got the following message. Our Lord then
told me to take the Eucharist as I normally do to my mom and to go to
Colombiere with John.In the plane, my heart was in such anguish for I knew our Lord
wanted me here as soon as possible.John and I now sit in Father's room in Colombiere, where he died. We just missed
his body, which had been taken away.We loved to see his room and were heart broken we missed our
beloved priest who passed away at 7:10 p.m.Emily called, and John and I and Emily, on the phone, prayed the
Chaplet of Mercy. John and I were at his bed, John knelt by
the bed and I sat on the bed and we prayed. I felt his very strong
presence with us. It was sometime shortly after 9:00 p.m. when we
finished.John looked at the clock in Father's room and it said 7:09, one
minute before he died.
At one point when I was in the room when we first
got there, I heard all this noise in the clock
and I said to myself "What is wrong with that clock?"
I did not look at it. Then we prayed the Divine Mercy
a second time which ended shortly after nine. The second time
we prayed, Emily prayed with us on the
phone. That is when John looked at the clock and it
said 7:09. But actually it was a little after 9 p.m.
The clock continued to operate normally with the earlier time.I see his little Pooh bear here we gave him. He said
he always "goes with the flow like Winnie the Pooh." I see
his scapular and his apostle pendant he wore around
his neck that turned from gold to silver and his apostle rosary,
that he always prayed on.There are beautiful roses we sent him and a big card
Melanie made with lots of signatures. Father Carter loved
so many, so deeply.I call to mind a line from the Sound of Music, it goes
something like "How do you hold a moon-beam in your
hand?" He died at 7:10 p.m. about the time a lot of people are
ending or still praying the 6:20 prayers. I know our Lord wanted
him to die then.Jesus died on the cross and many of his apostles were not with
him. Everyone had every reason why I should not go here to Colombiere and I knew
Jesus wanted us here. John and I are still in his room. I feel him
with us in a special way.Last night at 3:00 a.m,. when our Lord gave me the message, I could see
the glories of heaven and how hard it is here and I thought "why
would I want Father to stay if God wants to give him his reward."He told John in the hospital in September that several months
earlier our Lord had told him "That his earthly role was diminishing."
Amongst the very few things he had a Christmas card from a very dear
soul, one he loved. Father Carter loved so deeply. He taught us about love.
He taught us how to love. He gave himself so
much to the Ministry. He hardly ever missed his 6:20 prayers, even
when he was so sick he prayed them. He could hardly talk and he said
he was praying his 6:20 prayers.He loved the Mass and another priest almost said it daily
at the Faber House and he went no matter how sick he was,
he loved it so much.He told me when I talked to him, he was so close to Jesus.
Last night under Mary's image we prayed from 6:20 - 12:00 midnight
ending with a procession around the building, singing songs.
We prayed a healing rosary singing the Hail Mary's praying with all our
hearts for the priests, the Church and the world, and telling God how
sorry we were we had sinned and telling him we were sorry for
the sins of the world. We sang songs to honor Mary. We sang songs
to praise and honor God. We sang with all our hearts.I was told at the beginning of the 4th mystery to ask
Joe L. to sing Our Lady of Clearwater. I was told to take pictures of
Mary, she was so gold. John took pictures of Mary and Mary gave
us the following message.
Message from Mary given live during the December 17, 2000, rosary under the image and transcribed from a tape
Mary
speaks: Let all the memories go through your mind of all the good times that you
shared with one another, my children, as shepherds of Christ, and see the gifts that your
God has given to you to draw you into such a family as you have here. And this has pleased
your Father that you have come to sing and give yourselves to His Son, Jesus. Let all the
memories go through your minds from the first time you came to the Shepherds of Christ
Movement, the joys and the sorrows, all the moves, and all the different places. Where
would you go next for a rosary from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary? And they sent you from
one place to another, to another, to another. And God will not be outdone, for He gave to
you, my shepherds, this building to sing your songs and to praise your God. And that is
what God wants from you this night: praise and honor and love from hearts that are filled
with joy, but praying for the Church and the world and asking God to forgive men for the
sins. Pray for your founder, my children, in this last hour.
Messenger: God has wanted us to pray here as we have, and we plead and we beg for forgiveness for our sins and the sins of the earth. And we want to help make reparation for our sins, for we have committed many throughout our lives in offending people, and we are sorry for those things.
We ask You, God, to help us to be sincere and loving, to see with eyes to see how we can be kind in all of our ways. Help us to cherish the moment with each other, for we never know tomorrow if we will be here or if we will be gone, and what lives on are the seeds that we planted. We are so sorry for the whole earth and all the sins of the whole earth. And we unite to the Mass and we pray through the intercession of Our Lady of Clearwater that great grace will be released from this place tonight to change the hearts of men, that we will be able to reach so many to pray the prayers and reach them with the Morning Offering, reach the nursing homes and the people that are hungry in the prisons and try to get them just to pray the prayers, if nothing else.
Oh Father, we need Your help, we need Your help for the funds. We need Your help for all that we do and the purchase of the building, and we ask You, please, to help our founder, Father Carter.
And she wants us, after the rosary, to pray a Divine Mercy. As far as I can see, it does not mean that he has died. I do not understand what she said. That is all she said: to pray in the final hour. But I was told not to finish the healing rosary, but to just finish the rosary. Amen.
(End of excerpt from December 17, 2000 live rosary)
Messenger: I was told not to continue the healing rosary to just pray for
Father Carter.I was told that after the rosary we should pray the Divine
Mercy for Father Carter and we all prayed it after the
rosary under the image. Mary was so gold.The first message I received from Jesus in the
hospital before Mass was very important.We have all learned to pray as a body, united so deep in our
hearts to the Mass through the intercession of Our Lady
of Clearwater for the healing of Father Carter's cancer,
NOW we must pray for the healing of the cancer in
the world with the same fervor.What do we pray for now?
We pray for the world, for the Church, for our priests,
for our children with the same fervor that we prayed
for Father Carter's healing.Now we pray united as a body, so deeply united praying
with all our hearts for the Movement, the Church, the priests
and the world, for Mary's children.We pray the cancer is uprooted in the world and cast into
the sea.We pray for healing for the souls of the earth.
There are many sick children.
Mary and Jesus want us to pray now united as
a body for the sick children of the earth.I love you so much,
the messenger
December 18, 2000 - Third Message
Written on a plane on the way home from Florida
Messenger: Father Carter modeled for an artist friend so his friend could make a picture of Jesus on the cross.
There are people in the picture and St. Ignatius.
Messenger: This picture was taken December 14, 2000.
December 14, 1996, Father Carter said the first Mass
for the Shepherds of Christ.I put this picture on the Internet at the
request of our Lord.
Above Father Carter's head is a lighted cross.
Above my head is St. Ignatius.
To the right of me is the Pope. We did not plan this.When Father was leaving for Michigan he asked a
few of us to come to the Faber House his
Jesuit community.In those last few moments when I didn't know if
I would see Father again, John, our
president took this picture. (He took
the beautiful pictures of July 5, 2000, of
Mary's image and he took the picture of Mary's
image on the back of the Daily Message Book.)We did not plan it. St. Ignatius just happened to
be over my head and the Pope to the right of us
both. The cross of light showed over Father's head.We followed where the cross is to the elevator
that took us downstairs to where Father left.
I see the picture of Father at the Mass December 14, 1996, at
Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center and I see Father
in the picture about to leave December 14, 2000, both
were about the same time of the morning. This is
the front and back cover of that chapter of the ministry.
December 14, 1996 |
December 14, 2000 |
Messenger: Within are the pages of a book of Masses
in which he taught the Movement
about Jesus in the Mass.I see him offering Masses. He is so holy and so
one with Jesus in the Mass.
Messenger: Tomorrow is December 19, 2000.
Here are messages I received December 19, 1996, two days after Mary appeared.
Excerpt from the Apostles' Manual
December 19, 1996
Message from MaryMary: My dear children, I give to you, my Son, Jesus, born in a stable in Bethlehem on Christmas morn. He is the Almighty God, the Light of the World.
I appear to you, my children, on a (former) bank in Florida. You have made money your god! Do you know how cold are your hearts? You turn away from my Son, Jesus, for your money. Your money is your god.
I am Mary, your Mother. I do not appear as I once appeared to you. I am asking you today to circulate my message given on a tape on the feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe, December 12, 1996. Please circulate this tape now. Give it to as many people as you can. I am Mary, your Mother. Please circulate my Rosary Book.
Excerpt from Apostles' Manual
December 19, 1996
Received in a few minutes after Communion
St. Gertrude ChurchJesus: My Beloved Ones,
You will know a great time of trial and darkness. I have written to you of the great sufferings to come. The sinfulness of this world greatly displeases Me. I beg you to pray for forgiveness and turn your hearts to love.
And darkness covered the earth and the light was cast in little corners of the earth. Those who were willful remained in intense darkness, those who were rooted in God, and giving themselves to consecration, were the children of the light.
And the light shown in the darkness and the darkness grasped it not, but to as many as responded, they became the children of the light and from them His life flowed into the hearts that were cold and dark and slowly, very slowly, the light began to steal across the darkened sky and the moon was covered with blood. The blood was the blood of the Lamb. The blood represented the blood He shed to give us life. But the blind just saw ordinary blood and were scared to death. They responded with the greatest fright and lacked peace, but those rooted in God, those whose hearts were consecrated to Mary and Jesus, knew the sign was from God--that the time of reckoning was at hand. Many were punished and suffered a great chastisement. Many were left to death, but the children of light prayed the rosary and trusted in God.
And the night was no more for the light of day came stealing across the sky and myriads of angels filled the sky and the heavens. Sing Alleluia, Praise the Lord, you saints and angels, show yourselves to the survivors for they walked in darkness and could not see, but the light was alive in their hearts and they dwelt within the furnace of His Heart.
Have no fear now, My people, for you are the children of the light and My hand is forever upon you. You may suffer now a little, but it is nothing compared to the splendor to come.
Messenger: Oh, reign of peace, reign of the Sacred Heart, triumph of her Immaculate Heart, we wait for you anxiously for the nights have been cold and dark and we cried a bitter cry in the darkness but we knew of the glories to come for we forever trusted in You and Your mighty hand.
Your hand is struck with power. The Virgin Mary warned the poor children that died an eternal death to mind their ways and they cried out, "Not me, oh, no, God -- your ways are stiff necked and cruel. I want for foolish pleasure now and tomorrow will care for itself."
And the Lord called and called and they marched into the darkness with cold hearts, telling the Almighty God, 'no'.
Mary: Oh, my children, my little children of light, the time is nigh and many will be lost forever. I appeared and warned and told all to mind their ways and come to the Heart of my Son and they said "No, my Lady, not for you or any mother. We are children of darkness and that we remain, for we seek our pleasure by day and feast on sin all night and when you called, mother, we laughed at your Son and ignored Him and His ways." And He called and His call fell on deaf ears.
Please, my children of light, come to my heart now for although you walked next to the children of darkness. I smite the dragon that whirled around you and protected you in my heart and you will now feast on the glories of His Kingdom, my little children of light.
(End of excerpt from Apostles' Manual)
Messenger: On that same day I received this writing
from Jesus and I was told to put it in the Mass Book.Here is the picture Father's friend
made of Jesus on the cross with St. Ignatius and
the people.
Messenger: And another writing given the same day as the previous writings.
Excerpt from the Mass Book
December 19, 1996
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HERE IS A MAN ON THE CROSSGod wants union with us. He wants fire. Many try to love God with a cold heart. They tell Him words that they think they should say that are loving.
When one loves, they do not need to be prompted to say words. From the depth of their being they cry out their words of love. It is a cry from within, from the fire within their chest, behind the words. The words are burning in their chest and must be released because of the fire behind them.
We are as blind men. We do not see the great gifts that God gives to us. It is as if we stand by the shore of the sea and throw little words at Jesus. We must not be afraid to jump into the water and be completely immersed in His love. He was consumed with such love for us. He gave Himself to His death on the cross.
There is a man on a cross and he tells us so many things. He does not have to speak. When we study Him on the cross, He speaks to us with His pierced hands, His head covered with blood, His body withered and beaten. He speaks to us of His undying love.
Oh, beloved Savior, I am blind. I am selfish. I do not see the great reservoir of love that you give to Me. I see the man dying on the cross. How do I see Him? Do I see a figure and think, oh, is it a pretty cross, would it look good in my living room? Do I see the cross and think, oh, I guess I should have one in my house, others will think I am holy then? Holy people do have a cross in their homes.
Do I see the body of a man, a live man? Do I see His labored breath? Do I see His chest move as His Heart beats within? Do I see the real skin of a man? Do I see the real blood He shed? Do I see the light that silhouettes His withered body? Do I see the Light of the World? Do I see the tender skin of an infant laid on bare wood in the manager and then the torn, lacerated, bloodied skin of this man?
This is love! There is a man on the cross. There is a child born to us today. He is the Light of the World. His light is shining in the darkness, but people do not see. They see the wood, but they view it for the beauty it will create in their newly decorated living rooms.
The cross is not a thing of the past, the cross is with us today. We carry it on our backs as He showed us we would, but we try to take it off and throw it away.
It is in the cross there is the resurrection. It is by meditating on the crucifix, we see His undying love. We must open up our eyes and see. Pray for vision to see clearly the man Who gave Himself for love of us, Our Divine Lord.
And how do we return His love?
Love is spontaneous, love is fire in our hearts, love is alive and emitted with force. God is love.
Do we realize that His last thoughts on the cross were for us. In this agony, as He hung on the cross, He was consumed with burning love for us. When He was scourged at the pillar, He was comforted by our acts of love that we give to Him today. Our burning love for Him was sweetness to His most Sacred Heart in the moments of His bitter Passion.
Love gives and wants to give its all. A person in love does not need to be prompted and told to love. Love wants to give.
Love is given spontaneously, it is not controlled. Love is tenderness pouring forth from the heart. Love is not concerned with commitment, love by itself is committed. It pours forth from the mouth of the lover because of the fire burning deep inside.
Let us study the battered body of Christ on the cross. As I study His pierced hands and feet, His head crowned with thorns, the blood pouring forth from His Heart, as I view the lacerations covering His body, I feel His word well up in my heart. He speaks to me in the depth of my soul and I hear Him say, "I love you. I love you. I love you, to My death on the cross."
He gives, He gives, He gives to us constantly. He gives and how is He treated by us? We take and we take and we take and we don't even say thanks. Thanks for our breath, our heartbeat, the beautiful sky, the sunlit day, the moon at night, the beautiful eyes of our friends. Oh, how many things He gives to us and how ungrateful we are!
How is your day? Is your glass half-empty or half-full?
How often my glass is half empty, as I am reminded by my spiritual director, Fr. Carter. How often I do not thank Our Divine Lord for His gifts!
When I am filled with love, I see more clearly. The secret is to know God's love. We must pray for the grace to know His love more and for the grace to love Him more.
There is a man on the cross. Do we see His undying love for us? He speaks no words. He shows us the crucifix. The words are alive in our hearts.
The Father created us to love and to be loved. God is love. He wants union with us. He gives Himself to us. This is love. There is union in proportion to how I give myself to Him.
Jesus gives and gives and gives and we treat Him "nonchalantly". He gives us love, but we must give ourselves to Him to have union with Him. He wants us to be one with Him.
We must relish the great gifts He gives to us - the greatest gift being the gift of Himself. We should anticipate the great gift of receiving Him in the Holy Eucharist with such eagerness in our hearts. The words I feel in my heart are expressed in the song, "I Love You, Jesus":
Oh Burning Heart, Oh Love divine, how sweet You are to me. I see the host, I know You're here to love and care for me. I know Your love a little now, so dear You are to me. Come give me life, abundant life, I thirst to be with Thee. I cannot say. There are not words to say what my heart feels. I love You so, I scarce can breathe when You come into me. I know Your love a little now, so dear You are to me. Come give me life, abundant life, I thirst to be with Thee. Your tender Heart, Oh how it beats for love of each this day. I want to give You all my love, surrender totally. I know Your love a little now, so dear You are to me. Come give me life, abundant life, I thirst to be with Thee.
When we awake at night, we must think of Him and how we will receive Him the next day. We long to go to Communion to receive Him. We love Jesus in the Eucharist so much. A King comes to us. He enters our body and unites with our soul. He is the King of the kingdom of heaven…He is our Lover, He is the Almighty God, a Divine Person, and He comes to us. He wants us to come to Him with such longing. He wants us to think of Him all day. He wants us to long for Him.
Ps. 63:1-8:
God, you are my God, I pine for you;
my heart thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
as a land parched, dreary and waterless.
Thus I have gazed on you in the sanctuary,
seeing your power and your glory.
Better your faithful love than life itself;
my lips will praise you.
Thus I will bless you all my life,
in your name lift up my hands.
All my longings fulfilled as with fat and rich foods,
a song of joy on my lips and praise in my mouth.
On my bed when I think of you,
I muse on you in the watches of the night,
for you have always been my help;
in the shadow of your wings I rejoice;
my heart clings to you,
your right hand supports me.The priest says in the Mass at the Offertory, "By the mystery of this water and wine may we come to share in the Divinity of Christ, Who humbled himself to share in our humanity." He gives Himself to us. He shares His Divinity with us. We are human creatures and He shares Himself with us. My heart burns when the priest puts the drop of water in the wine. This is, indeed, a great mystery that God remains with us today, truly present in His Divinity and humanity in the Holy Eucharist, that He gives Himself to us in Communion, and that He waits for us to come to the tabernacle and be with Him. He wants to outpour His divine love and His divine life to us.
We should swoon for our Lover the Almighty, Divine God, yet we go to Him with such cold hearts. He wants our burning love.
The song "I Love You, Jesus":
Oh Burning Heart, Oh Love divine, how sweet You are to me. I see the Host, I know You're here to love and care for me. I know Your love a little now, so dear You are to me. Come give me life, abundant life, I thirst to be with Thee. I cannot say. There are not words to say what my heart feels. I love You so, I scarce can breathe when You come into me. I know Your love a little now, so dear You are to me. Come give me life, abundant life, I thirst to be with Thee. Your tender Heart, Oh how it beats for love of each this day. I want to give You all my love, surrender totally. I know Your love a little now, so dear You are to me. Come give me life, abundant life, I thirst to be with Thee.
(End of excerpt from the Mass Book)
THE SORROWFUL MYSTERIES according to Mary
from December 19, 1998Mary speaks: My dear children, please pray the rosary. Pray for grace to feel the emotion, the love of Our two Hearts.
The Agony in the Garden
Prayer: I ask for grace to experience emotion and to know the love of Their two Hearts.
My children, my Son sweat Blood for you in the garden.
My children, the Apostles slept, when He woke them they did not hear Him.
My children, can you not spend time with my Son today in this special time before Christmas?
My children, Christmas is His birthday.
My children, do you have a gift for your God and your King?
My children, He knelt there in the garden, knowing all the precious souls that would be lost forever and He sweat Blood.
My children, Jesus gave Himself for love of you, for love of your souls.
My children, do you love your own souls? You are here, on a journey, this place is not your end.
My children, My mothers and fathers, it is your responsibility to teach your children about God.
My children, He came to bring peace. My children, peace is found in giving your hearts in consecration to Our two Hearts. My children, recite often to one another "I give my heart to Jesus and Mary with you in love."
Scourging at the Pillar
My children, my Son was tied to the pillar.
My children, He was held bound.
My children, He is the Light of the World.
My children, He was beaten.
My children, they beat the Son of God.
My children, He could have stopped them.
My children, He endured it for you.
My children, He loves each precious soul, He allowed Himself to be beaten.
My children, His Blood ran to the floor, His body was marred, His Heart torn with anguish for the souls that would reject Him, including ones that will be lost to the fires of hell today.
My children, will you not pray with me this special novena for your world, for peace, for the Church, will you not pray as I ask you?
The Crowning with Thorns
My children, I love you and my Son loves you so much.
My children, they mocked my Son, they spit on Him.
My children, they clothed Him in a dirty garment of purple.
My children, they watched Him with eyes of hatred and envy, they spit on Him and mocked Him.
My children, They tore my Heart, the men that abused Him. They abused the precious skin of my beloved Son. My Son, my Baby, my Child. They abused the Son of God. My children, they abuse Him today. He is with you in the Eucharist, you abuse the King, the Son of God.
My children, think of the Heart of perfect divine love.
My children, consumed with love for you, He withstood the torture.
My children, I am Mary your Mother. It is not too late. I plead with you, turn your hearts to God. My children, He loves you.
My children, I stood beneath the cross of my Son and I cried.
My children, I cried tears of sorrow and of joy for the ones that would be lost and the ones that would be saved. Luke 2:34-35 "Simeon blessed them and said to Mary his mother, 'Look, he is destined for the fall and for the rise of many in Israel, destined to be a sign that is opposed--and a sword will pierce your soul too--so that the secret thoughts of many may be laid bare.' "
The Carrying of the Cross
My children, He carried the heavy cross, laden with the sins of the world.
My children, my Son bore your sins on His back.
My children, I looked into His eyes and they spoke to me. They were eyes of love. He seemed to say "I would do anything for My precious souls."
My children, each of you is that special soul He carried His cross for.
My children, He knew you each by name.
My children, His thoughts were for you. His sacrifice was for you. My children, will you not take the Child Jesus into your heart this Christmas? I am your Mother, you must turn your lives to Him. There is not another way. No other way will lead you to joy, to happiness, to peace.
My children, I walked beside Him, He could barely manage the heavy cross. I ask you to see the cross in Florida and envision a man carrying this heavy cross on His back. The cross was so heavy, laden with the sins of the world.
My children, see my Son hanging on the cross in Florida. I appear to lead you to my beloved Son, that you will know His love.
My children, stand beneath the cross with me and shed tears of sorrow and joy. Come to my pure Heart. I will place you deeply in His Heart.
My children, He is Jesus, my children, the Light of the World.
The Crucifixion
My children, God the Father gives you the Mass today as the Sacrifice of Calvary, sacramentally made present.
My children, come to my pure Heart and the Heart of my Son. Unite at every moment to the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass around the world. Plead through my Immaculate Heart for grace and mercy for your world.
My children, I wish you to look at the pictures.
Cross in China, Indiana
Painting of Lucia's Vision
My children, Florida is my garden to help bring forth great fruit on the earth. Jesus my Son hangs there in the garden, the New Adam. I appear, the New Eve, the Lady Clothed with the Sun.
My children, I appear to lead you to the love of my Son.
My children, I wish you to listen to the Mary Message tape made on the feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe, December 12, 1996.
Mary speaks: I stood beneath the cross of my Son, and my heart was in such pain for I saw Him before my eyes. I saw Him covered with blood. I saw Him die. My heart, my children, my heart to watch my Son, but my heart, my heart, how I suffered for my little children of the world that give in to this world and give up the love of my Son. O my little children of light, I give you this message. Carry this light into the darkness for your Mother Mary, for I stood beneath the cross and I cried. I cried for the little ones. I cried for the young ones, the ones that do not care and will lose their souls. How do I make you see for you will not listen to me? What can I do? I come. I appear. I beg. I plead. I give you these gifts from my Son, and you reject me. I do not deliver messages very often anymore for I have been ignored. The message is the same. You do not read the messages I have given to you. Please help me. Help the little children. I appear. I appear. I appear, and I am ignored. I stood beneath the cross, and I cried. I cried, and my heart was in such anguish for my little children, for I am searching for them this day as I searched for the Child Jesus. Please, please help me. I cannot hold back the hand of my Son any longer. I am Mary, your Mother. I ask you to help my children. You are my children of light.
Song: O Lady of Light, shining so bright, be with us this day, guiding our way, O Lady, O Lady of Light.
Mary speaks: I appear to you as Our Mother of Sorrows.
My children, please read the message slowly beneath the crucifix.
My children, please feel my emotion in your heart. Pray for grace to feel the emotion and love of Our two Hearts when you read the message.
My children, I wish you to read John 19:25-27. "Near the cross of Jesus stood his mother and his mother's sister, Mary the wife of Clopas, and Mary of Magdala. Seeing his mother and the disciple whom he loved standing near her, Jesus said to his mother, 'Woman, this is your son.' Then to the disciple he said, 'This is your mother.' And from that hour the disciple took her into his home."
My children, I wish you to pray for grace that the priestly newsletter, Mother at My Side, issue 5, 1998, will reach the priests of this earth.
Pray: Oh my God, please grant the grace that the priestly newsletter 5, will reach the priests of the earth and they will respond to it. I pray further that the tape or disk will be used by my priests and people in private and public gatherings.My children, pray likewise for newsletter, issue 4, 1998. My children, pray that the people of the earth and the churches pray the prayers my Son gives them and the rosary. (Shepherds of Christ Prayer Manual)
Say: I pray that priests and people use the newsletter 4, that they use the tape and disk and that grace is granted to draw them ever closer to the Heart of Jesus. Please, Lord, help us to spread this newsletter to the ends of the earth. My God, please help the people of the earth to pray the prayers of the Good Shepherd and the rosary.
December 17, 2000, Mary speaks:
Help me to circulate my red and blue
Rosary Books and the
prayers my Son gives to you.This is a gift we give you.
All the revelations are gifts given to you.
My Son is the Light of the World.
He is Jesus born in a stable.
Will you help me?
He is the Light of the World. Help me, help me
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A rosary can be used to pray for healing. It is powerful to unite our prayers to the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass and pray through the powerful intercession of Our Lady of Clearwater.
In times of trouble, for special prayer, we can use our rosary and pray as follows.
A Rosary for Healing or for Someone with Cancer.
On one Hail Mary bead or as many as you desire, say:
May God heal through the intercession of Our Lady of Clearwater in union with the Mass and all the Masses being celebrated around the world.
Pray the Hail Mary or Hail Mary's then pray this after the Hail Mary.
May the cancer be uprooted and thrown into the sea.
We believe with all our hearts.
After the Glory Be— pray the following petition.
May be healed through the intercession of Our Lady of Clearwater if it be the holy will of God.
Note: You can look at Mary on the image rosary while you pray this rosary.
Note: The above section can be printed out from a PDF file, and you can pray the rosary looking at the pictures.
end of December 18, 2000
Written September 24, 2000
Messenger: I watched by his bed.
A book for those who help cancer patients, for their relatives and friends who need to cope with the suffering of losing a loved one.
It was a quiet day or so it seemed, the long months of watching John go "down hill" had come to an end.
I did not know that the end was indeed so near, but the story had been written in the days that went before, but I really never read the message given in the days that led up to that final page.
There were months of warnings, but I just lived every day coping with that day’s events and when the final page was about to be written, I felt shocked, empty and afraid.
The days before were all telling the story, but like anyone in love with a family member, who wants to think that days of parting might be so soon? Oh, but they were so soon. As I look back now, I see I just didn’t recognize them.
Every person can only do so much, but out of love those we love deeply and love us, sometimes, cover up their real conditions in an attempt to live life as usual.
Cancer is a mighty menace. It attacks the weak and the strong. It acts like an aggressive machine growing and growing inside someone’s body and they may not notice the gradual sucking of their life from the other parts of the body until it almost leaves them dead.
I was a little girl of five years old when the deadly disease ate away the cells in my mother’s body as it took over her body and she soon died.
But I am not here to make you feel sorry for me or to tell you about anything new, but to write of the dying and rising of my dear friend, Fr. Carter.
The signs were there, for in January he became very sick and even though he wanted to go to the Virgin Mary building to say a private Mass there, he could not go and the once held plane reservations were cancelled.
He remained sick and on February 5, 2000, when we opened the Rosary Factory in Clearwater, Florida at Mary’s Image site, he did attend, but he didn’t feel good and he continued trying really hard to serve us as a ministry.
Now, I don’t know, in September after they opened him up and told us what they did, how he ever did all he did, being so sick. It was September 22, 2000, when they operated on him and it was January 22, 2000, when we were supposed to go to Clearwater, Florida, exactly eight months later.
Father Carter continued to keep a hectic schedule.
Jesus told him to write the lengthy spirituality newsletter in which he summed up a great deal about the spiritual life. We could all study it for our entire life.
As I write this, I don’t know if he will ever tape record this 20 page newsletter or the next newsletter.
I do know this, the signs were there and Father worked really hard to continue doing all he did despite his sickness, weakness. His faith in the Movement never wavered. He had a burning desire to serve Jesus and help renew the priesthood, the Church and the world.
Father worked and worked because he loved us all so much and loved the world and he didn’t complain, ever.
His faith in this Movement and the messages of Jesus is shown in his life given to this.
Father showed us the message of Jesus in his life. He lived in such union with Him. He offered Mass every day praying so fervently for souls and for all of us.
I see the signs especially on the trips. Mary was adorned in gold on the building July 5, 2000, during the evening prayer service.
September 24, 2000 message continues
Messenger: Father was in the motel and he didn’t feel good.
After the Mass he had to sit and he didn’t think he would make it during the Mass because he was weak.
I watched a lot of Masses that way, between his blood sugar levels and he seemed to just sigh sometimes to do ordinary motions, but he kept serving God and loving us all.
I watched him look up to the Father and say, “through him, with him and in him”.
Through Him, with Him and in Him
September 24, 2000 message continues
Messenger: He lived for the Mass. He offered it for the Movement and for all of us, the whole Church and the world, to help bring about the Reign of Jesus’ Sacred Heart.
I can show you the picture taken on my birthday, August 8, 2000, he looked really bad and I worried about him so much I cried as I spoke to him, but in his calm, peaceful attitude, he assured me everything was okay as God wanted it and he was getting proper care.
September 24, 2000 message continues
Messenger: Every day he looked weaker and he coughed whenever he talked and we all prayed more.
He was determined to say Mass in China on the Feast of Mary’s birthday, September 8, 2000, and he paid a big price for it.
For about 4 months he struggled with the cough and he walked slower and slower and he looked sicker every day, but he knew what God was telling him and about his mission.
end of September 24, 2000 message
