R. What is reality?

                Reality is the truth – God created us
                and He loves us like He tells us in
                the Blue Books and after years
                of giving into the deadly sins –
                jealousy, pride, anger, envy, etc.
                becomes a habit –

                    I remember several children were
                playing and a little girl not in
                the group felt left out – so
                she started something about something
                hurting, crying to get immediate
                attention and stop those who were
                laughing and singing and enjoying themselves.

                    People can live their whole lives
                giving into jealousy and envy and
                pride and anger and not living –
                not really living working with others
                to build relationships of love –
                relationships where satan can tempt
                them and they know exactly how to
                divide and bring down the house
                because they are jealous, they feel
                left out, they want to be the good-
                favored party and they are acting-out
                hurting their sister that was favored
                over them 50 years ago at home –

                    St. Ignatius talks about letting go
                of inordinate attachments, jealousy,
                envy. Wanting to win mom's attention
                can be going on in an adult that
                choose to close themselves off from
                others because of wounds they
                had at home when little.

                Many people who force dysfunction
                on others and waste time where
                that is all they want to do is
                act-out old wounds of the past
                never tried to work through with
                others – giving and taking – rising
                above their unfinished business –
                or like yesterday's message, realizing
                wounds take time to heal and we
                have to be truthful and not push them
                under a rug – or punish innocent
                others in adult life because we
                give into the deadly sins like bad
                habits of lust, gluttony, pride,
                anger, jealousy, envy, slothfulness.

                    It is almost like a man who can
                walk forcing himself to sit in a
                wheelchair and make everybody
                put up with his act.

                    We were put here by God to grow
                in love with each other and work
                as a group for the building of
                the Kingdom.

                    When a person is closed down and
                their vision is to be alone and keep
                others out – that is what results –
                they can have every excuse why – but
                what makes them secure is to push
                others away – to not open the door –
                to be jealous, to act-out unfinished
                business and to use some force
                to get away with it.

                    Like the little girl breaking up
                the group of other children playing
                by a call of urgency and attention –
                that little girl is much older now
                and very much a part of social
                circles – she was four years
                old when that happened and she worked
                with friends at school, in sports,
                her sisters, so many others to learn
                what children are supposed to learn –
                how to get along in relationships and
                not live in these tendencies of the
                deadly sins – life long because a
                person has wounds that need to
                heal, they need to work with others,
                be responsible for their actions,
                be accountable for what they do
                and work to change childish
                ways they keep working out
                because of unfinished business
                they have.

                    People may need help, talking to others
                because they cannot seem to change
                their bad habits or are even in denial
                of what they do.

                    Denial keeps a person stuck. All
                the talk may not change a person who
                never thinks they do anything that is
                that bad and needs attention. They
                don't want to change and as long
                as they can get away with it – they
                won't change because a person can
                talk about their bad habits until
                the cows come home and they are
                in denial. They stay by themselves,
                they aren't open to learning how
                to grow in relationship and love
                and they won't change if they
                can get away with their ways
                that are wrong.

                    Some people need psychological
                help to be truthful about themselves,
                but for some it is a spiritual
                problem and the Blue Books and
                the Movement and Prayer can
                help them if they really want to
                serve God and learn the truth
                about how He loves them and life
                is a calling from God to go out
                and witness to others by our
                actions, our example – living
                in faith and hope and love –
                living virtuously and not being
                enslaved to the deadly sins – bad
                habits that lead men to hugging
                the darkness.

Jesus: ... Oh yes, you will be set free and know a serenity that only comes from letting go and letting Me run your life. To you, My child, I have given all that is good. I made you My holy soldier, My warrior in a world of pain and hatred. You are the light that shines in the darkness, you are the coat to a cold child, you are the smile that warms a troubled and lonely heart. You are the comfort for everyone you meet, because My most precious Heart powers you, smiles through you, understands and loves through you.

   Love your fellows for Me. There are so many troubled hearts that need to know My love. I can love through you if you let Me, I can be their friend through you if you let Me. I am He who comforts you and you are he who comforts them. My power is endless, it never runs out, there is not a power failure EVER. In your darkest hour, My light shines in the darkness and I say to you, "Oh blessed of My Father, look at yourself with awe, you are My creation, you are indeed so precious to Me, you are My light to this world, you are My hands and My feet and most of all My Heart."

   Oh, you are My loving Heart, to those who are bowed down, to those who are lost in the darkness, you carry My smile and wear My armor in a world that is trying to tear one another down with hate and ugliness. There is gentleness, there is love, there is hope in you, if you open yourself up to Me. Be My knight to the world, wear My armor. I am your God and I will protect you from the darkness. Plug into My power, be not afraid, I go before you always and you can rest in My arms when you feel weary. You can put your head in My lap and weep, you will know, I am truly with you and you are My light to this world. I created you so special - to cast out fear in the darkness, to clothe the naked, to give hope to the oppressed, to be as I live in you and love through you and you are My smile and I touch My hurting ones through your love.

   You are he who loves this world. You must stay plugged into My power-source. This world is hungry for My love. It needs My love, I give to them through you. I am your God and I made you as a gift to the world. You are filled.

    Focus on Me and your life will be abundant and whole, joy in suffering, freedom — but  you can take the knocks because you will know you do not go it alone, but with Me. I love you My precious child.   end of October 5, 1992

                Jesus: Love comes in trusting Me and
                others – a person shut down and
                not trusting anyone does not trust
                Me –

                The Commandment I give is to –               

                Jesus: When a person wants to get up and
                    give a talk or perform a
                    piece of music before others
                    they must do it to get
                    comfortable with it.

                Exposure before others to give a
                    talk, to let go, to play
                    music does not come
                    naturally to all –

                If you know you were called to be
                    a teacher before a class – you
                    have to be able to get before
                    others –
                    forget your self-consciousness –
                    give and take with the people in
                    the class – who are really there –
                    and think on your feet –
                    about your subject, about
                        your work –
                    answer questions etc.

                The only way a person afraid can
                    do this is by doing it –
                    praying to answer your
                    vocation –
                    Wanting to rise above the fear
                    and do what you were called to do –
                    out of love
                    out of conviction to what is God's will –

                A person has been given the gift of music –
                    God calls them to share it before others –
                    they are shy –
                    should they not do God's will because
                        they don't want to get up before
                        others –
                    the only way to do God's will is
                        to pray for the gift of
                        fortitude – to do the difficult
                        when God calls –

                Being stuck in an isolated life
                    and forcing dysfunction on others
                    will not bring growth –

                Living according to God's will –

                Building things to build up a community
                    comes from not giving into
                    yourself –
                    what makes you secure,
                    being isolated –
                    will close down the house –

                The evidence is in what happens –
                Being in denial, saying it
                    isn't happening doesn't
                    help it get better –

                A person that loves – goes out to
                    meet the one loved –

                They are not tied to a pillar of
                    their own restricted way
                    of living –

                Life is not for cowards –
                Life is in living –

                Life is in living according to
                    the Father's vision –
                    not living in fear and
                    growing in darkness and
                    forcing others to play
                    your drama and
                    attention getting games
                    of unpredictability

                Like the person who cannot teach
                    others when they give into
                    their fears of being in
                    front of a class –

                A person not loving themselves
                    or seeing themselves through
                    the Father's eyes –
                    or not wanting growth,
                    themselves –
                    will not miraculously make
                    the outcome of their actions
                    change
                    course from their behavior –

                People that want to win see the goal
                    before them –

                They sacrifice and work for the
                    goal –

                If survival from an unhealthy
                    self-concept and sitting
                    back to make your fears
                    your comfort zone is your
                    goal –
                    you will close the place
                    down –

                Ask yourself – can a man build
                    a brick wall - when he
                    won't apply the bricks and mortar –

                I have given you the prescription to
                    know you are so loved
                    by God and to go out and
                    spread this good news –

                To spread the Blue Books and
                    the prayers

                To bring people to begin prayer
                    chapters by calling the
                    existing prayer chapters –

                I have given you what you
                    need to work together
                    as a unit, as a community
                    in love –

                To be attractive in your ways to
                    other young people to want
                    to come and know My love
                    from My gifts given in
                    My love letters –

                This is not living by survival
                    tactics from dysfunctional
                    homes –

                Predictability is in following
                    in love –
                    following the building of
                        My Kingdom
                    working together with
                        each other –

                Living virtuously –
                    in faith, hope, love,
                        humility,
                        prudence, temperance,
                        justice and fortitude –

                Not in living by the deadly sins
                    pride, anger, envy, jealousy,
                        slothfulness, gluttony,
                        lust –

                I have never given such a
                    gift to men to know how
                    much I truly love them
                    as I have in these letters
                    of love –