June 23, 2019 - Feast of the Body and Blood of Jesus
  

I am Our Lady of Clearwater.

Mother of the Eucharist.
 

                Today's Readings

 

Luke 9: 11-17

But the crowds got to know and they went after him. He made them welcome and talked to them about the kingdom of God; and he cured those who were in need of healing.

It was late afternoon when the Twelve came up to him and said, 'Send the people away, and they can go to the villages and farms round about to find lodging and food; for we are in a lonely place here.' He replied, 'Give them something to eat yourselves.' But they said, 'We have no more than five loaves and two fish, unless we are to go ourselves and buy food for all these people.' For there were about five thousand men. But he said to his disciples, 'Get them to sit down in parties of about fifty.' They did so and made them all sit down. Then he took the five loaves and two fish, raised his eyes to heaven, and said the blessing over them; then he broke them and handed them to his disciples to distribute among the crowd. They all ate as much as they wanted, and when the scraps left over were collected they filled twelve baskets.

 
 

Through Him, With Him, In Him
 

A Prayer before the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass

    Let me be a holy sacrifice and unite with God in the sacrament of His greatest love.

    I want to be one in Him in this act of love, where He gives Himself to me and I give myself as a sacrifice to Him. Let me be a holy sacrifice as I become one with Him in this my act of greatest love to Him.

    Let me unite with Him more, that I may more deeply love Him. May I help make reparation to His adorable Heart and the heart of His Mother, Mary. With greatest love, I offer myself to You and pray that You will accept my sacrifice of greatest love. I give myself to You and unite in Your gift of Yourself to me. Come and possess my soul.

    Cleanse me, strengthen me, heal me. Dear Holy Spirit act in the heart of Mary to make me more and more like Jesus.

    Father, I offer this my sacrifice, myself united to Jesus in the Holy Spirit to You. Help me to love God more deeply in this act of my greatest love.

    Give me the grace to grow in my knowledge, love and service of You and for this to be my greatest participation in the Mass. Give me the greatest graces to love You so deeply in this Mass, You who are so worthy of my love.

                                               -Mass Book, December 27, 1995

                R. God is love and in Him is no
               darkness. Little children learn
                to walk and talk and are
                learning every day.

                    We are here to learn, especially
                and grow in the spiritual life,
                if we watch others that have
                taught us wrong, we need to
                re-learn things the right way.

                    I could not ignore vital steps in
                mathematics – computation must
                be accurate and drilled.

                    In math if an important aspect
                of problem solving is missing, a
                person cannot work problems
                correctly.

                    I went to school lots of years
                to learn math, my learning was
                directed by teachers and I
                attained a degree to teach math in
                college. I was taught, tested and
                graded – Every step of learning
                had a program – then I was
                able to teach others math from
                grandchildren to college classes.
                There were methods of proofs,
                there were ways to approach
                word problems, all ordered
                and accurate.

                    When I took piano I studied 13
                years, then took organ lessons,
                voice lessons etc. Order was
                necessary in manipulating my
                hands on the piano –

                    I listened, I was taught by
                teachers, I taught others, they
                listened, they used the skills
                for other things –

                Math is a tool for science, statistics,
                for finances etc.
                Order, rules, structure –
                There are math models for
                working problems –

                I went to psychology workshops
                lately and learned disordered
                behaviors – disordered patterned
                behaviors can be put into a
                model.

                If a person was taught in dysfunctional
                ways in family systems and
                resistant to change or admit
                their dysfunction, they can use
                their whole life to force their
                ways on others – keep working
                the one system they know –
                act out family disorder with
                other players and force their
                ways of inflexibility and
                inadaptability on others so
                they don't need to change
                their dysfunctional rigid system.
                They aren't seeing things as being
                directed by God, the Word, the
                Commandments.

                    A sick dog by the curb will
                bite a Vet if he comes because
                what the Vet will do is move the part
                that hurts and the dog doesn't
                understand he comes to help him
                heal.

                    God is first – He has a plan
                to help us change disordered,
                dysfunctional behavior. Some
                dysfunction is so toxic and it
                goes back, generation upon generation.

                    A person has to want to change or
                they won't change. Pain from childhood
                can be so severe the person can
                live their whole life running from
                the past and saying "I won't
                go there, I won't admit the pain" –
                DENIAL –
                using others as scapegoats, through
                manipulation and force, so they don't
                have to change
                and acting out the past on innocent
                others.

                God gives us the greatest commandment.

Matthew 22: 34-40 

‘Master, which is the greatest commandment of the Law?’ Jesus said to him, ‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the greatest and the first commandment. The second resembles it: You must love your neighbour as yourself.  On these two commandments hang the whole Law, and the Prophets too.’

                R. There are 3 loves

                    (1) God (2) Others (3) Ourselves

                We must love all 3 –

                Mary at Fatima told us we must
                    convert –

                The pascal mystery is death / resurrection

                Christ took on our wounds and
                    glorified them –

                We are the child of the past –

                When we refuse to have relationships
                    where we trust no one – how
                    can we trust God that we do
                    not see –

                Disordered Compulsive Behavior

                Drama Cycles –

                Persecuting others to make them
                    our victims.

                Holding out in power games
                    stopping business to
                    force behaviors that are
                    toxic –

                First to thine own self be true –

                God is Absolute Truth –

                Walking in darkness is just
                    that walking in darkness –

                We are accountable and responsible
                    for our actions –

                Lying is from satan –

                God operates in structure.

                God operates in rules –

                God's plan is perfect –

                Mary is the perfect handmaid
                    of Jesus –

                Mary is the perfect disciple –

                A person isolated and refusing
                    correction and direction –
                    forcing dysfunction on
                    others can bring down the
                    house in destructive, patterned,
                    rigid, toxic behaviors, generations
                    old –

                Same dance

                Same toxicity growing worse –

                At the heart of the Fatima
                    message is Conversion –

                If you want to grow supernaturally
                    in Faith, Hope, Love, Prudence,
                    Temperance, Justice, Obedience,
                    Humility, Fortitude, you must
                    go to God to know the things
                    of God.

                Why would a person close down and
                    live in their own world between
                    their ears – PAIN –

                Why do many over-eat, drink, use
                    drugs, lie, use sex wrong,
                    shop till they drop –

                NUMBING PAIN –

                Boredom –

                Wounds unhealed –

                Saying –

                    I won't look back
                    Denial

                Pain that makes a person run from
                    their past in their days on earth
                    needs to be looked at –

                Die to ways not like Jesus –

                Admit the truth

                Live by the Commandments –

                Listen to those God puts in our
                    lives as spiritual guides –

                Trust, talk, co-operate – love
                    and be loved –

                Don't close the door on the past –
                    feel the pain and work through
                    it to love and joy as God
                    commands –

                The deadly sins are deadly –
                    They make us numb –
                    Pride, greed, envy, wrath,
                    lust, gluttony, and sloth.

                    What happens if a person knows
                one dysfunctional, toxic way to
                do something is they can do it
                harder for the same and worse
                results.

                    A person in denial, just overlooks
                their behavior and then keeps doing
                it – hurting others, like others hurt
                them and blaming innocent others
                for what they are doing.

                    In Baptism God opens the
                supernatural life to us and gives
                us a sharing in His life –

                    He gives us the Eucharist
                and the Word to feed this life.

                    He gives us Confession for we
                are accountable and responsible
                for our sins –

                He gives us Confirmation to strengthen
                    us and make us soldiers of
                    God.

                He gives us Marriage and Holy Orders
                    and the Anointing of the
                    sick –

                Flexibility and Adaptability –

                Not some one who has forced all
                    around them into their toxic
                    generational, sick behavior –

                God is light and in Him is no darkness.

                Pride, a deadly sin, keeps a person
                    stuck in forcing others and
                    controlling and manipulating
                    others for their own selfishness.

                The idea of sacrifice is all through
                    the Bible –
                    putting God first –

                Opening ourselves –

                God gives us an open door to our
                    hearts –
                    full of light and love –

                A person living in dysfunctional,
                    disordered, toxic behavior
                    has to admit it and want
                    to change –

                It gets more and more toxic, destructive
                    and controlling –

                What is right is right and
                What is wrong is wrong –

                Satan is a liar, he tries to
                    make right - wrong and
                    wrong - right –

                Living in lies gives a liar's
                    reward – NOT Good