25 Years Ago

R. I went to see Fr. Smith (was tempted not to pray between 12 and 3:00, but went to Immaculata at 12:30. I have been told to pray between 12 and 3:00 - no excuses.)

Through Him, With Him and IN HIM

Song: God’s Love

Excerpt from Response to God’s Love by Fr. Edward Carter, S.J.

... In reference to Christianity, God himself is the ultimate mystery. Radically, God is completely other and transcendent, hidden from man in his inner life, unless he chooses to reveal himself. Let us briefly look at this inner life of God.

The Father, in a perfect act of self-expression, in a perfect act of knowing, generates his son. The Son, the Word, is, then, the immanent expression of God’s fullness, the reflection of the Father. Likewise, from all eternity, the Father and the Son bring forth the Holy Spirit in a perfect act of loving.

At the destined moment in human history, God’s self-expression, the Word, immersed himself into man’s world. God’s inner self-expression now had also become God’s outer self-expression. Consequently, the mystery of God becomes the mystery of Christ. In Christ, God tells us about himself, about his inner life, about his plan of creation and redemption. He tells us how Father, Son, and Holy Spirit desire to dwell within us in the most intimate fashion, how they wish to share with us their own life through grace. All this he has accomplished and does accomplish through Christ.

R. God’s love is surrounding me, a permeating action. God fill me with Your abundant life. Action from the Heart of Christ. Oh, burning furnace of endless love, engulfed by the white mist, the glistening action of the Spirit, in the depth of Jesus’ Heart. I am one with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

See Diagram: like a pot-bellied stove - as heat (white heat coming off it) moving to sanctify and fill us with unity - oneness in Him!

From the Mass Book

December 15, 1995

He Wrapped Me in His Divine Embrace

Written at 12:30 p.m., in Holy Cross-Immaculata Church:

I wanted to love Him so much. I realized God’s magnificence and goodness, and I wanted to give Him such great love, but I realize my incapacity to love Him more in my human form.

I realize how God is so worthy of all my love. My intellectual realization of how worthy He is, does not match with my attempt to love Him. It hurts to want to love Him so much. He gives me an insight, a light into His magnificence, and I realize my littleness.

So overwhelmed with the desire to give Him love, no thought of myself - my whole being wants to love Him with this immense love. The world is non-existent. It is I and Him, and my whole being merges with Him and this one desire to unite endlessly, forever in the deepest union. Time stands still, and it is the meeting of our hearts, this oneness with Him. I slip into His Heart and nothing here matters, as if I have embraced such depth of union with Him. I want only Him. I see only Him, and I am one in this deep, deep embrace with Him. I lost myself in Him.

My existence is existence only in Him. It is being wrapped in love’s embrace with Divinity.

The world existed around me, and all I knew was the embrace of the Almighty God. My heart sunk into His Heart, and I existed only in Him, my whole being seeing myself existing only in Him.

I saw His body as I stood beneath the cross at Holy Cross-Immaculata Catholic Church. I wanted to unite with Him eternally in this great depth of love I felt. I wanted to be totally lost in Him forever. By being merged with Him, I existed in Him, knowing only Him and loosing myself. I saw the Child Jesus statue, and I was lost in God. I begged the Father through the tears of tender, loving Mary, in the Holy Spirit, to help me to make His love known to this world, to use me, use my life as He willed to make this love of God known. Then, coming back to myself, I begged the Father, through the tears of the tender, loving Mary, in the name of the Christ Child, in the Holy Spirit, to help me to make His love known to this world, to use me, my life as He willed to make this love of God known. end of excerpt

Diagram: Notes: His lament of love - Burning love - given by Him - Burning love - He wants from us.

December 17, 1991: Saw vision of a burning Heart Jesus gave me gentle messages - told me how precious I was, wooed me into His Heart. Jesus told me He loved me.

December 17, 1991

Jesus: I am Jesus. I have spoken as never before, you will spread My love to all souls on this earth.

His Burning Heart

R. I was alone in All Saints Church after Mass and Communion, in front of the tabernacle, when I saw the Sacred Heart. It was red around the outside, then a layer of yellow and then the brightest light in the center. I felt heat and it looked like an open furnace.

I thought about it all day and it instantly gave me peace and warmth in my heart. This is the purpose of these letters — to draw hearts to the ardent on-fire love of Jesus. I received the following message that day:

“Open your heart to the fire of God’s love. He is ablaze in your heart. He wants to dwell in you and love you and others through you. Love God, yourself and one another and experience the fire set aglow in your heart and experience the warmth of His love.”  end of writing

R. Sufferings: December 18, 1993: I heard: “I Died for You”. I felt Him in the study sitting next to me and lamented in my chair. He died - Jesus wants to dwell in us. See Blue Book I - p. 151

The Aching Heart messages - on December 17, 1995, I wrote: “O Divine lover of my soul, let me help make reparation to Your adorable Heart for the neglect and indifference against You.”

Jesus allowed me to suffer so much, then on December 15, 1995 He took me to the other side.

Excerpt from December 17, 1995 - The Earth Stopped and Touched Heaven

He allowed me to experience such pain in my heart - wanting Him so badly, so many times-and then on Dec. 15, 1995 - He gave Himself to me in the deepest union.

Nothing satisfies the soul but Him. He wants the nuns and priests to love Him. He chose them to spread His love.

Souls are hungry. They will only be fed with His burning love. Priests need to talk about Jesus’ love for us from the pulpit. Priests need hearts burning for love of Jesus. This will feed the hungry souls - lip service love doesn’t do it.

He is alive today. He is a Person. He wants us to love Him. end of excerpt

R. My Heart Bleeds - Blue Book II p. 145 – I allow you to suffer on Saturday and Sundays.

Excerpt from March 6, 1994 - Sunday Night

Jesus: I am Jesus, Son of God. I truly suffered. Your heart is experiencing aching. I allow you to ache and feel some of My emotions. I am a person. When people love one another, they share each other’s pain. Your heart aches as I, too, ache for love of My beloved ones.

Preach about My aching heart.

Every soul has periods of unrest because the soul was made to love the Lord. Sunday is a day I let you suffer My aching heart. I want you to tell others how I ache for love of them. I allow you to suffer on Saturday and Sunday for My aching heart. end of excerpt

R. I received the message on January 17, 1994, “I Want My Priests to Come Back” “Prayer for Union with Jesus” in Blue Book II. February 6th: My Heart Aches for You.

What I remember most:

December 18th, 1993 - sitting in my chair lamenting - He died, what more do we want?

Excerpt from Blue Book I - Take Up Your Cross

Jesus: ...Pain, child? I suffered so much for love of you! This is how I love you at this moment. In all that befalls you you must know at every moment that I know exactly what you are suffering. There is nothing that happens in your life without My consent and it comes from Him Who loves you.

Take your crosses and truly endure them. Accept them. Know that everything that happens in your life I have allowed. Accept it with the love with which I give it. You are being taught in that pain. You are suffering for yourselves and others. I endured all that pain. Did I once say, “Father, take it away?” I am your model. I showed you the way. I took it all, every last wound, every kick and smack and vileness. I took My cross and I carried it without a word. This is what I ask of you.

Know that when you are experiencing pain or suffering, or being taunted by those around you, look to the Master for your course of action. I took it all, every last wound, and accepted it to My death. I did not say, “Oh, how awful.” I did not complain. I walked in silence that bumpy road with a heavy cross, with My mother suffering by My side and I never complained. I accepted it all for love of you... end of excerpt

R. December 25, 1993 - Christmas (pain so bad in my heart, could scream - wanted anything to release pain.)

Excerpt from Blue Book I - I Came This Day as a Baby

Jesus: I am the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me. The gift I give is eternal life. I came this day as a baby to make ready your way to the Kingdom. I love you with such intensity. This is the reason for My coming.

If I could get inside of you and make you realize My love. I died a brutal death. I came and was born God as a man. I rose again from the dead and you don’t even realize My death and how important all this is to your salvation. You doubt My intense love, no matter what I said or did. You need to keep a list every day and put on it the proof that “my Lord loves me.” Make this your gift to Me and yourself this Christmas. A list every day of proof of My love for you! I love you so, little one.

Cling to Me and My ways. The world is in so much darkness and so much pain. ... end of excerpt

R. Then it started on the Sundays at 5 - 6:00. I had to go to the tabernacle at St. Phillips. Jesus would lament: I would have this tremendous pain.

February 5, 1994 - Vision

Jesus said important messages were in Blue Book II: March 6th, March 7th and March 13th, 1994. March 20th (said no one is listening) and March 21st., March 22nd - Day of the Big Boom.

Jesus started with Rosaries in Blue Book III and Jesus told me about Mary’s pain in Blue Book III in May, 1994. Blue Book IV - Insight into the Love of the Two Hearts: Jesus and Mary.

On June 16, 1994 - Blue Book III - Jesus told me to go to the Center and I would see as I have never seen before. I saw little white lights on my notebook.

Then July 5, 1994 Mary started appearing. On August 10, 1994, Blue Book IV I received The Peering Eyes message.

The Shepherds of Christ Meetings started Tuesday, August 30, 1994 at the Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center because of the direction of Jesus. This was the beginning of my Core Chapter of Shepherds of Christ. Many of the rosaries in this book came from these Tuesday meetings of the Core Chapter of the Shepherds of Christ.
 

 

R. Fr. Carter received the message July 31, 1994.

July 31, 1994

Words of Jesus to Members of Shepherds of Christ Associates:

“My beloved priest-companion, I intend to use the priestly newsletter, Shepherds of Christ, and the movement, Shepherds of Christ Associates, in a powerful way for the renewal of My Church and the world.

“I will use the newsletter and the chapters of Shepherds of Christ Associates as a powerful instrument for spreading devotion to My Heart and My Mother’s Heart.

“I am calling many to become members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. To all of them I will give great blessings. I will use them as instruments to help bring about the triumph of the Immaculate Heart and the reign of My Sacred Heart. I will give great graces to the members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. I will call them to be deeply united to My Heart and to Mary’s Heart as I lead them ever closer to My Father in the Holy Spirit.”

- Message from Jesus to Father Edward J. Carter, S.J., Founder, as given on July 31, 1994, feast of Saint Ignatius Loyola, Founder of the Society of Jesus (The Jesuits)

R. I received this message August 1, 1994. This is on the back of Blue Book IV.

August 1, 1994

Pray For The Success Of The Priestly Newsletter - Shepherds of Christ

R. The following is the first official message I received before the statue of Mary at Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center. It is a personal message for Father Carter.

Mary: (in front of the glowing statue of Our Lady of Sorrows) I am the Immaculate Heart. My Heart is glowing for love of all my beloved children. I am your most loving Mother. I am with you this day. Pray for the success of the priestly newsletter Shepherds of Christ. I am guarding your way. You will receive such graces to accomplish this task! Grace from God is so abundantly bestowed on you and will lead to the success of this endeavor! Pray for this cause at the Center. The priests will lead the people to the love of My beloved Son. This is no little task. It will take many prayers and graces. Pray hard, little one. Your prayers will change many hearts.

I am Mary, your Immaculate Mother. I bring this message to My beloved priest-son. end of August 1, 1994

R. Mary said how important Father Carter and the Shepherds of Christ Movement was to the world. These Rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary were given at the Shepherds of Christ Meetings. And messages where Jesus said we were to go out to the world with this message. I saw a vision of St. Margaret Mary the first night of the Shepherds of Christ Meeting on Tuesday.

August 1994

R. On the last Tuesday of August, 1994, there took place our first Shepherds of Christ meeting. While at mass at the Cathedral, I saw a vision of St. Margaret Mary reading from a white book. This happened right before the meeting. When I drove into the driveway of Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center, I heard Our Lord speak, “These are My apostles of My Sacred Heart.”, or something to that effect. end of excerpt

January 4, 1996; January 11, 1996; January 18, 1996; January 25, 1996; February 6, 1996 - Our Lady of the Woods; February 13, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; February 20, 1996 - Our Lady of the Woods; February 27, 1996 - Our Lady of the Woods; March 5, 1996 - Our Lady of the Woods; March 12, 1996 - Suddeth’s Home; March 19, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; and March 26, 1996 - Our Lady of the Woods.

R. The Junior Shepherds of Christ met on Thursdays. Many of these rosaries are in the Parents and Children’s Rosary Book. They were received and taped and Melanie Noe transcribed them.

January 6, 1996; January 13, 1996; January 20, 1996; January 27, 1996; February 1, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; February 8, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; February 15, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; February 22, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; February 29 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; March 7, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; March 14, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; March 21, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; and March 28, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center.

R. I saw a vision of Father Carter with his hand on the Church.

January 1995

R. Before the 17th meeting in January of 1995, I had received the following vision when at Mass at the Cathedral of Saint Peter in Chains. It was either late December, 1994 or early January, 1995. I drew the picture in the notebook.

It looks as follows:

The face was a flesh colored, but I could not see the features. The gown was white with a square neck. The next day Jesus told me it was Father Carter. This vision along with another vision I had received about the same time appeared on the 17th book in January 1995.

The other vision was a church that looked similar to our church in China, Indiana, and in the front of the church was a gigantic Host with tremendous light coming forth from it. On the cover was a Shepherd and the world.

The vision of the church looked like this:

There was a message at this meeting. The message said that THE POWER is in the Eucharist. end of excerpt

R. This vision is on the front of Blue Book 6A, B, and C

R. There was an important message January 5, 1995. The Plan of God the Father will unfold. - See the Big Picture (Blue Book 6A)

Rosaries began on the 13th of every month starting October 13, 1996 at the direction of Jesus. Special persons Melanie, Ellen, others would come.

May 13, 1995 - Could connect everything I did with Fatima – before I did not understand Fatima.

Florida June 26, 1995 - traveled. Message, “Unless the messages of His love are circulated in the Church, the bloodshed will continue.”

December 13, 1995 - suffered for 2 1/2 hours for the priests, Sisters and religious.

December 15, 1995 - taken to the other Side.

January 20, 1996 and January 21, 1996 - Saturday - suffered so much for the nuns and priests.

Vision: We dwell in her heart - I give myself to Mary. Holy Spirit works to make us more like Jesus. Deep cavern of His love - it is in the center I unite with the Father.

God wants us to know all Three Persons and to know God as one.

Notes: Non-Euclidian Geometry - around the 5th Postulate Euclidian works good in a small plane Theory of relativity - Airway travel uses non-Euclidean, must use it because of the curvature of the earth. The ways of the heart - sorrow, pain and elation.

 Things that are hidden

The Mystery - the depth

Sorrowful Mysteries

The Agony in the Garden

1. Jesus: Agony of agonies! How I suffered, My dear ones, in the Garden. I saw before Me all the sins of all men from all time. I knew the souls that would be condemned to eternal damnation despite My suffering.

2. Jesus: People do not want to hear this day. They plug up their ears and close their eyes. Children are being murdered in their mother's wombs!

3. Jesus: I saw before Me all the vileness in men's hearts, the cruelty they do to one another. How My Heart was wounded, for I love souls so dearly.

4. Jesus: You were created by the Father. You are His precious creation.

5. Jesus: How He loves the little children of this world! They are so precious to Him!

6. Jesus: I saw before Me all the suffering I was about to experience.

7. Jesus: I asked My Father that, if it were possible, this cup be removed from Me, but, not My Will, but His Will be done.

8. Jesus: My apostles-those that I loved-they slept!

9. Jesus: My little ones, can you not come and pray with Me? I asked My apostles to spend one hour with Me and they slept! Those that I loved and wanted to be close to slept!

10. Jesus: I am your best friend Jesus. I gave My life for you that you could be with Me in heaven. My little ones, how I love you and want to be so close to you.

Song between decades: I come to you with greatest love, I am your loving Savior. I am your God, I died for you. I come to you this day.

 

Jesus Is Scourged at the Pillar

1. R. Jesus was led away. They pulled His hair! They poked Him and hit Him! They took Him away and tied Him to a pillar!

2. R. What did Jesus do that these men felt they could put Him to death?

3. R. How hard it is sometimes to walk in this world today, to stand up for God when others have forgotten Him.

4. R. They took Jesus, tied Him to a pillar and whipped Him with harsh instruments that tore His skin and made Him bleed.

5. R. This is your best friend, Jesus. He is God! He came to earth so that we might be with Him forever in heaven. See Him covered with wounds, deep wounds, His marks of love covering His entire body!

6. Mary: Tell your children to pray the rosary. I am Mary, your mother. I give to you this rosary to spread to the children of this world. It is the rosary that will draw their hearts closer to my Son, Jesus.

7. Mary: They untied my Son and led Him away, covered with wounds, whipped and beaten.

8. Mary: Your friends may persecute you, my little children. They are cruel sometimes. Know that Jesus is your best friend. He loves you so much that He suffered the scourging at the pillar.

9. R. Do you know how it is to love someone and have them treat you cruelly. Jesus loves each and every soul so much that He suffered and died for them. How He is treated cruelly by those souls He loves so dearly!

10. R. He asks you to love all men! There is not one soul that He would not give His life for. He asks you to love those that are cruel to you, to be kind to all men, to follow in His ways. His ways are always gentle. His ways are kind. His way is the way of love.

Song between decades: I come to you with greatest love…

 

Jesus Is Crowned with a Crown of Thorns

1. Jesus: They took Me and gave Me a throne. They covered My bloodied wounds with a dirty robe and then pounded sharp thorns into My head.

2. Jesus: They laughed-a cruel, hateful laugh! They laughed and spit in My face and called Me a king! These were the souls that I gave My life for.

3. Jesus: You will be persecuted for My sake. The world has turned away from God. They have made other things their gods. They want themselves to be supreme. My children, pray for your world, for your prayers so please the Heavenly Father.

4. Jesus: Your friends are cruel to you. Love those who are cruel! People that are cruel are hurting inside.

5. Jesus: You must forgive. Pray for grace from the Spirit to transform you to be more like Jesus.

6. Jesus: Mary walked by My side all through My life. She is your mother. She walks by your side. Every minute of the day, your mother is with you.

7. Jesus: You are My little saints in this world. I love you so dearly and want to be so close to you. I never leave you. I am your beloved Jesus, Savior of the world.

8. Jesus: You will suffer from those who you wish would love you. But look how I suffered, My little ones! See Me as they spit in My face and hit Me on the head. The blood ran from My mouth from the blows they gave to My head. This is the love that I have for you.

9. Jesus: Do always the Will of the Father. He loves you, My dear, little children. Listen in your heart and you will hear Him speak to you.

10. Jesus: Children need to pray to the Holy Spirit. Ask the Holy Spirit to be your friend, to be with you and to guide you on your way.

Song between decades: I come to you with greatest love…

 

Jesus Carries His Cross Up Calvary

1. R. Jesus carried a heavy cross laden with the sins of the world.

2. R. He did not give up His cross. He carried His cross. He did not complain. Covered with wounds and covered with blood, He carried the cross on His back.

3. Jesus: I ask you to carry the little crosses I give you this day. It is in carrying these crosses that you will grow closer to Me.

4. Jesus: Satan wants you to be willful. He wants you to demand your own way. The way to Me, to the Father, to heaven, is to do the Will of the Father.

5. R. Covered with blood, He could scarcely go on. He fell under the cross three times. He did not give the cross up. He collapsed from the weight of it.

6. R. How closely united Jesus is to His mother. His mother was with Him in such close union His whole life. Now their eyes meet on the way to Calvary. In that meeting of the eyes there is such joy to see each other but such sorrow to watch each other suffer.

7. Jesus: My dear, little ones, I call out to you and ask you to pray for your friends in school.

8. Jesus: When you see people who are mean, pray for them. They are hurting in their hearts.

9. R. The Father, Son and Holy Spirit live inside of you every minute when you are in the state of grace. They live in such a special way within your very heart.

10. R. Make your hearts pure and model your lives after the lives of Jesus and Mary.

Song between decades: I come to you with greatest love…

 

Jesus Dies on the Cross

1. R. The greatest of all agonies, the agony of the Heart! How Jesus loves each and every special child!

2. R. He loves them so much that He gave His flesh and blood for each and every soul.

3. Jesus: The Father, out of greatest love, gave you a free will. I died on the cross. It was My Father's Will. But I remained at peace for I knew the Father's love. The Father loves you, My beloved children. Go to Him, talk to Him. Know that He loves you deeply.

4. R. Jesus has not gone. As He gave His life on the cross, He gives His life this day. He is here in His humanity and His divinity in the consecrated host, longing and waiting for you to come and be alone with Him.

5. R. We want God to be more like us, but God is as He is. God is a mystery! Give us the grace to know more and more the mystery of God.

6. R. When we are persecuted, help us to see before our eyes the crucified Jesus, to know that He was persecuted.

7. R. Mary is calling you to holiness. Will you turn your hearts to God?

8. R. Souls that are holy are at peace.

9. R. When you have love, you have joy!

10. R. The way to God is to love.

Song after the last decade: I come to you with greatest love…