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Schedule for July 8, 2003

4:00 a.m. - Mass

4:37 a.m. - Morning Offering

4:41 a.m. - Daily Message from June 15, 2003

5:15 a.m. - Sorrowful Rosary Aves

5:47 a.m. - Song from Jesus

6:20 a.m. - 6:20 prayers led by Father Carter
                 Holy Spirit Novena
                 Shepherds of Christ Prayer Manual
                 Rosary

7:24 a.m. - Live Rosary January 13, 1997

8:53 a.m. - Newsletter 1999 Issue 1 (Priesthood)

10:18 a.m. - Morning Offering

10:22 a.m. - Choose Life - November 21, 1995

11:24 a.m. - A Blue Book Reading or Two and a Tribute
                    to Mary on Mother's Day - May 11, 2003

12:43 p.m. - Response to God's Love chapter 3 (Becoming)

1:31 p.m. - Consecration - July 31, 1999

3:03 p.m. - Joyful Rosary Aves

3:32 p.m. - Mary's Message

3:38 p.m. - Morning Offering

3:42 p.m. - Songs from Jesus

4:00 p.m. - Mass

4:37 p.m. - Daily Message from June 15, 2003

5:11 p.m. - Glorious Rosary Aves

5:44 p.m. - Mary's Message

5:50 p.m. - Songs from Jesus

6:20 p.m. - 6:20 prayers led by Father Carter
                 Holy Spirit Novena
                 Shepherds of Christ Prayer Manual

7:24 p.m. - Newsletter 1999 Issue 5 (Priestly Ministry & Priestly Holiness)

8:53 p.m. - Handbook read by Father Carter

10:27 p.m. - December 12, 2002 feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe

11:15 p.m. - Mysteries of Light from November 14, 2002

11:47 p.m. - Choose Life - November 21, 1995

12:49 a.m. - Mary's Message

12:55 a.m. - Live Rosary January 13, 1997

2:25 a.m. - Morning Offering

2:29 a.m. - A Blue Book Reading or Two and a Tribute
                    to Mary on Mother's Day - May 11, 2003

3:48 a.m. - Songs from Jesus

4:00 a.m. - Mass

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July 7, 2003

Messenger:        From Ignatius Spiritual Exercises

                            “Man was created to praise, reverence, and
                                   serve God and by this means to save his
                                  soul.”
  

                            Preparatory Prayer from St. Ignatius

                            “To ask God that all my intentions, actions,
                                and operations may be ordained purely
                                to the service and praise of His divine
                                majesty.”
  

Messenger:        This came from a book by
                                Francis Xavier McMenamy, S.J.
                                Edited by
                                     William J. Grace, S.J.
                                Eight-Day Retreat
                                based on the Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius

July 7, 2003 message continues

Messenger:    St. Ignatius feast is on July 31, 1994
                             He was very gifted.
                             Sing the Song “Take Lord Receive”

                      We live in a very busy world. Many things in the
                             world are not what God wants us to focus on.

                      There are many things that are told to us -
                             so many of these things are not truth.

                      We want the truth to be in us.

                       In dwelling in the Sacred Heart of Jesus, who
                             is the way, the truth and the life – we
                             are more likely to be in the truth.

                      We receive Jesus in Communion.
                             He comes to us in a very special way.
                             We are fed by His Body and His Blood.

                      The spiritual exercises of St. Ignatius help us to let go of
                             those attachments we should not be
                             attached to.

                      Many today do not want to admit they sin or
                             even have imperfections, they can blame
                             others when something goes wrong and won’t
                             look at themselves and tell the truth about
                             the matter.

                      We are imperfect human persons. We have a fallen
                             human nature. We sin, we are guilty of
                             jealousy or pride or the sins; some commit
                             sins of the flesh. See Christ in the Sorrowful
                             Mysteries of the Rosary.

December 19, 1998

The Sorrowful Mysteries

according to Mary

  

Mary speaks:  My dear children, please pray the rosary. Pray for grace to feel the emotion, the love of Our two Hearts.

The Agony in the Garden

Prayer:  I ask for grace to experience emotion and to know the love of Their two Hearts.

1. My children, my Son sweat Blood for you in the garden.
2. My children, the Apostles slept, when He woke them they did not hear Him.
3. My children, can you not spend time with my Son today in this special time before Christmas?
4. My children, Christmas is His birthday.
5. My children, do you have a gift for your God and your King?
6. My children, He knelt there in the garden, knowing all the precious souls that would be lost forever and He sweat Blood.
7. My children, Jesus gave Himself for love of you, for love of your souls.
8. My children, do you love your own souls? You are here, on a journey, this place is not your end.
9. My children, My mothers and fathers, it is your responsibility to teach your children about God.
10. My children, He came to bring peace. My children, peace is found in giving your hearts in consecration to Our two Hearts. My children, recite often to one another "I give my heart to Jesus and Mary with you in love."

 

Scourging at the Pillar

1. My children, my Son was tied to the pillar.
2. My children, He was held bound.
3. My children, He is the Light of the World.
4. My children, He was beaten.
5. My children, they beat the Son of God.
6. My children, He could have stopped them.
7. My children, He endured it for you.
8. My children, He loves each precious soul, He allowed Himself to be beaten.
9. My children, His Blood ran to the floor, His body was marred, His Heart torn with anguish for the souls that would reject Him, including ones that will be lost to the fires of hell today.
10. My children, will you not pray with me this special novena for your world, for peace, for the Church, will you not pray as I ask you?

 

The Crowning with Thorns

1. My children, I love you and my Son loves you so much.
2. My children, they mocked my Son, they spit on Him.
3. My children, they clothed Him in a dirty garment of purple.
4. My children, they watched Him with eyes of hatred and envy, they spit on Him and mocked Him.
5. My children, They tore my Heart, the men that abused Him. They abused the precious skin of my beloved Son. My Son, my Baby, my Child. They abused the Son of God. My children, they abuse Him today. He is with you in the Eucharist, you abuse the King, the Son of God.
6. My children, think of the Heart of perfect divine love.
7. My children, consumed with love for you, He withstood the torture.
8. My children, I am Mary your Mother. It is not too late. I plead with you, turn your hearts to God. My children, He loves you.
9. My children, I stood beneath the cross of my Son and I cried.
10. My children, I cried tears of sorrow and of joy for the ones that would be lost and the ones that would be saved. Luke 2:34-35 "Simeon blessed them and said to Mary his mother, 'Look, he is destined for the fall and for the rise of many in Israel, destined to be a sign that is opposed--and a sword will pierce your soul too--so that the secret thoughts of many may be laid bare.' "

 

The Carrying of the Cross

1. My children, He carried the heavy cross, laden with the sins of the world.
2. My children, my Son bore your sins on His back.
3. My children, I looked into His eyes and they spoke to me. They were eyes of love. He seemed to say "I would do anything for My precious souls."
4. My children, each of you is that special soul He carried His cross for.
5. My children, He knew you each by name.
6. My children, His thoughts were for you. His sacrifice was for you. My children, will you not take the Child Jesus into your heart this Christmas? I am your Mother, you must turn your lives to Him. There is not another way. No other way will lead you to joy, to happiness, to peace.
7. My children, I walked beside Him, He could barely manage the heavy cross. I ask you to see the cross in Florida and envision a man carrying this heavy cross on His back. The cross was so heavy, laden with the sins of the world.
8. My children, see my Son hanging on the cross in Florida. I appear to lead you to my beloved Son, that you will know His love.
9. My children, stand beneath the cross with me and shed tears of sorrow and joy. Come to my pure Heart. I will place you deeply in His Heart.
10. My children, He is Jesus, my children, the Light of the World.

 

The Crucifixion

1. My children, God the Father gives you the Mass today as the Sacrifice of Calvary, sacramentally made present.
2. My children, come to my pure Heart and the Heart of my Son. Unite at every moment to the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass around the world. Plead through my Immaculate Heart for grace and mercy for your world.
3. My children, I wish you to look at the pictures.
    

   Cross in China, Indiana

   Painting of Lucia's Vision

4. My children, Florida is my garden to help bring forth great fruit on the earth. Jesus my Son hangs there in the garden, the New Adam. I appear, the New Eve, the Lady Clothed with the Sun.
    
                                      
   
5. My children, I appear to lead you to the love of my Son.
6. My children, I wish you to listen to the Mary Message tape made on the feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe, December 12, 1996.

   Mary speaks: I stood beneath the cross of my Son, and my heart was in such pain for I saw Him before my eyes. I saw Him covered with blood. I saw Him die. My heart, my children, my heart to watch my Son, but my heart, my heart, how I suffered for my little children of the world that give in to this world and give up the love of my Son. O my little children of light, I give you this message. Carry this light into the darkness for your Mother Mary, for I stood beneath the cross and I cried. I cried for the little ones. I cried for the young ones, the ones that do not care and will lose their souls. How do I make you see for you will not listen to me? What can I do? I come. I appear. I beg. I plead. I give you these gifts from my Son, and you reject me. I do not deliver messages very often anymore for I have been ignored. The message is the same. You do not read the messages I have given to you. Please help me. Help the little children. I appear. I appear. I appear, and I am ignored. I stood beneath the cross, and I cried. I cried, and my heart was in such anguish for my little children, for I am searching for them this day as I searched for the Child Jesus. Please, please help me. I cannot hold back the hand of my Son any longer. I am Mary, your Mother. I ask you to help my children. You are my children of light.

   My children, please read the message slowly beneath the crucifix.
7. My children, please feel my emotion in your heart. Pray for grace to feel the emotion and love of Our two Hearts when you read the message.
8. My children, I wish you to read John 19:25-27. "Near the cross of Jesus stood his mother and his mother's sister, Mary the wife of Clopas, and Mary of Magdala. Seeing his mother and the disciple whom he loved standing near her, Jesus said to his mother, 'Woman, this is your son.' Then to the disciple he said, 'This is your mother.' And from that hour the disciple took her into his home."
9. My children, I wish you to pray for grace that the priestly newsletter, Mother at My Side, issue 5, 1998, will reach the priests of this earth.
   Pray: Oh my God, please grant the grace that the priestly newsletter 5, will reach the priests of the earth and they will respond to it. I pray further that the tape or disk will be used by my priests and people in private and public gatherings.
10. My children, pray likewise for newsletter, issue 4, 1998. My children, pray that the people of the earth and the churches pray the prayers my Son gives them and the rosary. (Shepherds of Christ Prayer Manual)
    Say: I pray that priests and people use the newsletter 4, that they use the tape and disk and that grace is granted to draw them ever closer to the Heart of Jesus. Please, Lord, help us to spread this newsletter to the ends of the earth. My God, please help the people of the earth to pray the prayers of the Good Shepherd and the rosary.

July 7, 2003 message continues

Messenger:     We are here on this earth to work out these imperfections.

                        In relating to others we see we “lock horns” many
                             times. We think differently, men think different
                             than woman, woman than men, we want certain
                             things our way (is it God’s will?) we may not be
                             soft and supple, some of us have “hang-ups”,
                             hurts from childhood and we do “bizare” things
                             because of this or to protect ourselves.

                       We must come from a place of love. Jesus loved us so
                             much He died for us. But what do you do when
                             people who work under you consistently hold onto
                             patterns that block the work and think what
                             they do is right, but it is not what is to be done.
                             How do you tell a person that won’t change,
                             but is blocking what needs to be done, because
                             they don’t want to do what someone else tells them?

                      We are here to build the Kingdom. This one statement
                             of St. Ignatius is so important -

                             “Man was created to praise, reverence, and
                                 serve God and by this means to save his soul.”

                      Many times we do not see ourselves.

                      People that tend to be “hermit-like” may have
                      to change for the honor and glory of God.

                      We have so little time on this earth.
                       I spent a lot of time in very private prayer
                       receiving the messages of Jesus. It was a joy
                       to me to be alone with Him, to be in ecstasies
                       during the rosary in 1994 & 1995 and watch
                       Our Lady appear.

                           That was then for that growth in my life and to
                       write the Red Rosary Book.

                           I had to detach from all my jobs except
                       my family to receive the Blue Book Messages.

      I had a special program of prayer at Holy Cross Immaculata before
 I attended Mass at Fr. Carter’s place and wrote
 the Mass book.

      There was a time we traveled as Apostles, first
going to Florida in 1995 and Mary appeared
every day to me for over 8 months in 1995.

      That was that time in my life.

      Father Carter said Mass every day and I was able
to go to confession daily. Now since his death, priests
tell me, I don’t need that daily confession, now I
go very less frequently and pray deeply for forgiveness
at the beginning of Mass.

      That was that time. Fr. Carter is dead, I know he
is deeply united to us, but he no longer walks the
earth. He would say to John and me, “You know I
am not going to be here forever.”

      I am the messenger left for the Shepherds of Christ Movement.
God chose me. I have a priest that helps me daily.
There are other priests that help us. Today God is not
calling me to that private life I once had, but the
things I learned from that are printed deep in my
soul. My relationship with God grows ever deeper.
I want to be so deeply united to God, to know the Persons
of the Trinity so intimately. I want the deepest union
I can have with God for all eternity.

      It is a process, it begins here below. We learn
how to love for our journey to heaven. We are learning
how to let go of our attachments here, we want
to be more perfected as Our Heavenly Father is
perfect.

      We can get so caught up in the things of the world
and pleasing other people – Our question always is
in dealing with others and making decisions -
What is God’s will for me today?
What is God’s will for me today?

Then do it!!

Don’t let satan try to control things – he may try
          to convince us – they did this, so you do that
          “tit-for-tat”.

Satan can help to block so much work by getting people
to focus on their hurt feelings or they feel those in
authority are controlling them and they don’t want
to be under. There has to be structure. God shows
us that with the family, (Parents have children,
children are under parents) The Church (the pope
is the head).  
 

Jesus speaks:   

                        Sometimes people give into a bad mood that creeps
                    up from one little word somebody else said -
                    then they spiral down doing a whole “bunch” of
                    destructive behavior because of a few words
                    somebody else said that may have made them jealous.
                    Then they block God’s work in something they
                    should be doing.

                          It is like satan can manipulate some
                   people by working on their feelings and the
                   person gives in then satan controls an important
                   event that should be happening.

                          Do you know the “pouters” that don’t care
                   about anything, but their bad moods and hurt
                   feelings. If the pope was coming, satan could
                   manipulate them through their emotions and they
                   would perform destructive behavior to block
                   the event, all because they were mad or hurt
                   or whatever – they are unpredictable – if something
                   is important, all satan has to do is work on their
                   memory and stir up hurt feelings and they do the
                   work to tear down the building of another bridge.

                       Satan works from within to manipulate and
                   try to paralyze the person. Some are so prideful
                   they won’t ever look at themselves. They are progressing
                   little on the spiritual life and satan continues to
                   manipulate them as the weak-link. They do not
                   identify their own bad behavior because they blame
                   others and really do not honestly examine their
                   conscience. They tell lies to justify themselves -
                   they project others mistreatment of them from
                    the past on current leaders and people in their
                   life. They give into satan’s manipulation of them.
                   They become a slave to satan and he uses them
                   every chance he needs to manipulate important
                   events because all he has to do is try to touch their
                   emotions through memory or untruths about
                   others and what they think of them and the person
                   gives in and hurts the very institution they are
                   supposed to be building and supporting. The person
                   may have a constant battle with authority, just
                   because they don’t want to be under anyone. The
                   person may always want to raise above the
                   authority by getting anyone they can to be over
                   those over their leaders, the Church, the law,
                   whoever they can get to
                   so they can be over their superiors.

                       Some people think this way. They are always
                   aware who is over their leader and they will go
                   to them so they will be over their own leader.
                   They are waiting for an opportunity to seize to
                   say this is it – now I will get them out of their
                   seat.

                       Children that do this with parents are really
                   unhappy, rebellious and not at peace, if the
                   parents are good parents trying to do God’s will
                   and operating in love. At a certain age older
                   children 18 etc. begin to break away from
                   parental authority and have to make decisions
                   on their own, but young children were put
                   under their parents by God.

                        Some children go to school officials
                   and lie about the situation at home, “blow
                   it up” so to speak to tell on their parents.

                   You must seek the truth in all things.
                   What is the truth.
                   Examination of conscience is important daily,
                       especially before bed.

                   You are here to be more perfected so you will
                       be with God in a deep union for all eternity

                   Lying about the truth, about yourself can deeply
                       deter growth in the spiritual life.

                   Some people just always go into every situation
                       and make themselves a victim.

                   If you put them in 10 out of 10 houses or
                       communities they would begin setting
                       up the same scenario with 10 different
                       sets of players.

                   The person has someone or many they blame, why
                       they don’t feel good.

                   Really, they don’t feel good inside, they don’t
                       love themselves, they don’t see themselves
                       of value, they are in the habit of being
                       unsettled and irritated, satan talks in
                       their head telling them awful things about
                       themselves and they continue the negative tapes
                       all day, focusing on themselves and how
                       they are mistreated by those around them,
                       directing blame, a lot, on those over them,
                       because they give into satan’s game. Satan
                       is trying to manipulate their behavior by
                       negative, condemning, thoughts about themselves.
                       Those around them may be thinking about other
                       things and think they are pretty nice.
                   You are at battle with the evil serpent the devil.

                   To want to live with your old imperfections and
                       not change can majorly stop your spiritual
                       growth.

                   Why are you here on this earth?
                   It is to prepare you for your heavenly reward.
                   It is to help you grow in your relationship with
                       God everyday.

                   Happiness, true happiness, is found in being
                       close to God.

                   You were created with this craving within you.

                   Satisfaction is found in this -
                       Knowing God and His love and
                       loving God in return.

                   Imperfections that exist keep you from
                       union with Me and union with
                       others.

                   Why would you want to lie to yourself
                       and others, you cheat yourself.

                   The soul craves union with Me.
                   Your peace lies in this.
                   Your joy lies in freeing yourself of attachments.
                   You must pray to be more perfected as your heavenly
                       Father is perfect.
                   Mary is mother of the Christ life.
                   Adam and Eve sinned
                   I am the New Adam you are to model your life after Me.
                   Mary is the New Eve you are to model your life after her.

                   She is the one human person conceived without sin.
                   She is the singular vessel.
                   You must go to Our Hearts.

July 7, 2003 message continues

Messenger:     Mary is Mother of the spiritual life.

Excerpt of The Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius, by Louis J. Puhl, S.J.
    

328. RULES FOR DISCERNMENT OF SPIRITS
II

Further rules for understanding the different movements produced in the soul. They serve for a more accurate discernment of spirits and are more suitable for the second week
  

329.  I.  It is characteristic of God and His Angels, when they act upon the soul, to give true happiness and spiritual joy, and to banish all the sadness and disturbances which are caused by the enemy.
   It is characteristic of the evil one to fight against such happiness and consolation by proposing fallacious reasonings, subtilties, and continual deceptions.

330.  2.  God alone can give consolation to the soul without any previous cause. It belongs solely to the Creator to come into a soul, to leave it, to act upon it, to draw it wholly to the love of His Divine Majesty. I said without previous cause, that is, without any preceding perception or knowledge of any subject by which a soul might be led to such a consolation through its own acts of intellect and will.

331.  3.  If a cause precedes, both the good angel and the evil spirit can give consolation to a soul, but for a quite different purpose. The good angel consoles for the progress of the soul, that it may advance and rise to what is more perfect. The evil spirit consoles for purposes that are the contrary, and that afterwards he might draw the soul to his own perverse intentions and wickedness.

332.  4.  It is a mark of the evil spirit to assume the appearance of an angel of light. He begins by suggesting thoughts that are suited to a devout soul, and ends by suggesting his own. For example, he will suggest holy and pious thoughts that are wholly in conformity with the sanctity of the soul. Afterwards, he will endeavor little by little to end by drawing the soul into his hidden snares and evil designs.

333.  5.  We must carefully observe the whole course of our thoughts. If the beginning and middle and end of the course of thoughts are wholly good and directed to what is entirely right, it is a sign that they are from the good angel. But the course of thoughts suggested to us may terminate in something evil, or distracting, or less good than the soul had formerly proposed to do. Again, it may end in what weakens the soul, or disquiets it; or by destroying the peace, tranquility, and quiet which it had before, it may cause disturbance to the soul. These things are a clear sign that the thoughts are proceeding from the evil spirit, the enemy of our progress and eternal salvation.

334.  6.  When the enemy of our human nature has been detected and recognized by the trail of evil marking his course and by the wicked end to which he leads us, it will be profitable for one who has been tempted to review immediately the whole course of the temptation. Let him consider the series of good thoughts, how they arose, how the evil one gradually attempted to make him step down from the state of spiritual delight and joy in which he was, till finally he drew him to his wicked designs. The purpose of this review is that once such an experience has been understood and carefully observed, we may guard ourselves for the future against the customary deceits of the enemy.

335.  7.  In souls that are progressing to greater perfection, the action of the good angel is delicate, gentle, delightful. It may be compared to a drop of water penetrating a sponge.
    The action of the evil spirit upon such souls is violent, noisy, and disturbing. It may be compared to a drop of water falling upon a stone.
    In souls that are going from bad to worse, the action of the spirits mentioned above is just the reverse. The reason for this is to be sought in the opposition or similarity of these souls to the different kinds of spirits. When the disposition is contrary to that of the spirits, they enter with noise and commotion that are easily perceived. When the disposition is similar to that of the spirits, they enter silently, as one coming into his own house when the doors are open.

336.  8.  When consolation is without previous cause, as was said, there can be no deception in it, since it can proceed from God our Lord only. But a spiritual person who has received such a consolation must consider it very attentively, and must cautiously distinguish the actual time of the consolation from the period which follows it. At such a time the soul is still fervent and favored with the grace and aftereffects of the consolation which has passed. In this second period the soul frequently forms various resolutions and plans which are not granted directly by God our Lord. They may come from our own reasoning on the relations of our concepts and on the consequences of our judgments, or they may come from the good or evil spirit. Hence, they must be carefully examined before they are given full approval and put into execution.

end of excerpt of The Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius

July 7, 2003 message continues

Messenger:     Many things in the world are opposed to what God
                            wants.

                   God gives us the world and each other.

                   God wants us to be as He wants us to be.

                   There is much violence and sin.

                   God gives us Himself in the Eucharist
                       to renew us and help make us whole.

                   That is a big word "whole" –

                       God wants us to strive to be more
                             perfected as our heavenly Father is perfect.
                       God wants us to admit we are tainted human
                             creatures.

                       The Creator is over us.
                       The Creator loves us.

                   Jesus gave us Himself on the cross.
                   It would be terrible to lie to ourselves
                       about our imperfections –

                         we stay stuck and we hurt ourselves.

Jesus speaks:   I call you to holiness.
                         I call you to let go of attachments.

Freedom

March 2, 1994
At Cathedral After Communion

Jesus: I want you to love Me as I love you. If I asked you to lay down your life for Me, you would give this freely of yourself. I need this surrender from you that you put Me above all things--not some things, all things. I am the Lord thy God, thou shalt not have any gods before Me--not your husband, your children, your life, your house. I want your total surrender! I am not asking you to give these things up. I am asking you to love Me more than any of these things, that you are willing to give them up for Me!

This is freedom. When your love is for Me and Me alone, no one has any control over you. You live for Me and I am Almighty. I love you with the most ardent love and you know all that comes from Me is from Him Who laid down His life for you.

Do you love Me? Would you lay your life down for Me? If you love, you give of yourself. Do you love each other? Do you give of yourself to one another or do you have relationships that give to you? This is not love. Love gives from the heart. Love is for the good of the other. I gave My life for you that you might live. Follow the Master. I did not die for any of My own gratifications, I died to show you how I loved you! I gave My only life for you. I love you this much!

I call you to love. Love is action from your heart. Do you love Me this way or do you just do busy work and call it love?

To learn about love you must come and be with Me. Sit and let Me teach you My ways. I sit with My red garb, covering My white tunic, you at My feet and I teach you ever so sweetly each day. You are My beloved ones. I died for you. I give you this same love today. Love gives to the other. Do you give this kind of love to Me and your brother or do you ask what others and I will give to you?

You do not know love if you do not come and you are not taught by Me. I am the author of love. I teach the mighty lessons of love. I died out of love for you.

You cannot love intimately if you hold back. To love Me, you must totally surrender, surrender all you hold on to. People do not love Me because they want to hold back. If you want intimacy with Me, you must be willing to surrender your all to Me.

Are you willing to do this? This is where the power is. When you give your all, I possess your soul and I am all powerful. I want your all, not little pieces you stingily let go of. I want your all. Then you will have an intimate union with God. Then you will live in His love and be powered by His might. Then you will be free. I will operate you and you will be united to Me as one. What power, God dwelling within your breast and acting from your soul! Become selfless and unattached to anything. I am God and you shall not have any gods before Me!

end of March 2, 1994

Prayer for Union with Jesus

    Come to me, Lord, and possess my soul. Come into my heart and permeate my soul. Help me to sit in silence with You and let You work in my heart.

    I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I want to be selfless and only exist in You. Help me to spoon out all that is me and be an empty vessel ready to be filled by You. Help me to die to myself and live only for You. Use me as You will. Let me never draw my attention back to myself. I only want to operate as You do, dwelling within me.

    I am Yours, Lord. I want to have my life in You. I want to do the will of the Father. Give me the strength to put aside the world and let You operate my very being. Help me to act as You desire. Strengthen me against the distractions of the devil to take me from Your work.

    When I worry, I have taken my focus off of You and placed it on myself. Help me not to give in to the promptings of others to change what in my heart You are making very clear to me. I worship You, I adore You and I love You. Come and dwell in me now.

-God's Blue Book, January 17, 1994

July 7, 2003 message continues

Messenger:          We should want whatever is God’s will.

We constantly pray for grace to do God’s will,
    to let go of those imperfections that keep
    us stuck.

We do all we do for praise and service of God,
    to promote His Kingdom.

Some good works are not God’s will for us.
What does God want me to do.
We get more grace doing God’s will, than
doing our own will even though we are
doing a lot of good.

We may be blocking His Plan in a big
    way doing our own will and our own
     good works.

He calls us to certain things.

God doesn’t want me getting a full-time job
    teaching math, but I could teach
    math all day, that is a good work,
    I could be an organist…

Walk in the Way of the Light

May 9, 1994 After Communion

R. Our feet carry us about in this world. We do not think much about our feet and how they do this job.

I have received visions of feet. In 1978, when I received a gift from God, I saw a shoe and I heard the verse, "Walk in the way of the Light."

I have a free will. My path must be the path set by the Master. He leads, I follow. His ways are not always the ways I want to follow. I sometimes do not want to forgive. I do not want to let go of hurts when I have been wronged. I want to hold on and be angry. Walk in the way of the Lord! I do not want to obey when I have a letter that is not nice, but that I must deliver. I would rather be popular and not cause any discomfort. "Walk in the way of the Lord."

Is this the same as doing His Will? I wanted to sing in the choir at the Athenaeum. I liked it. I felt important. I was singing beautiful songs to God. He took my voice away! I finally saw what His Will was for me. I wanted something very much. He didn't want me there.

I can see now so many things I wanted. I wanted to play the music at daily Mass. 'What a good thing to do!', you say? He wanted me to go to Mass and listen to His words and spend time in adoration after Mass and write these letters.

I wanted to get my children through college. I continued to teach. I lost my voice and I was miserable. I wanted to spend my time with Jesus. I spent some time with Him, but I had to work, too. I couldn't talk so I wrote up long lectures and tried to make it work. It made me miserable. For two years and two months, my voice was almost entirely out of commission but I still received special recognition for teaching. I worked hard to do a good thing. Teaching is a good thing. He was calling me to be writing these letters. I did my will and wrote some, but it was misery. I couldn't breathe because my vocal chords would swell and I had trouble breathing. Did I listen? When do we listen?

God speaks in the inner promptings of our hearts. The more I listened, the more I heard, the more I realized that I must have no preconceived ideas of what is to happen. He directs me. I knew these things were good things. I knew I was doing His Will.

I was a teacher. I went to school all those years. I had to teach. It was right. But it wasn't His Will! I can't try to think and make sense out of what is a good thing. I have to listen and wait for His answer-when He gives it. I know in my heart what He is saying, like it or not. His Will is His Will, not mine. They might be the same, or they might be entirely different, but I have to do His Will!

His Will He makes clear in the inner promptings of my heart. He speaks directly to me. I must be still to hear. I have to pray every day to the Holy Spirit for His gifts. When He tells me His Will, I know it is what He wants me to do. I don't figure it out. I am told and I know I have to do it. Then He nags me until I do. To me it is like a toothache. It stops when I do His Will. It bothers me until I do it.

He told me this morning that I am not perfect. I was being pushed by my son and I got angry. Then I felt, "What is the use? I got angry. Now give it all up." He said, "You are not perfect. Say you are sorry and move on."

In my pride, I think I should be perfect and know all things and never be learning His way. His way He makes clear to us in the inner promptings of our hearts. I am human. I fall, I say I am sorry, I learn a lesson. I do not get angrier and keep on being nasty or mean and then say, "Well, this is the end of this." In humility, I say I am sorry and move on to serving our precious Lord Who loves us so. This is His way!

Jesus: Walk in My way, My dear children. Walk. Your feet carry you down the road. Follow the road of the Master. If you take a bad turn, get back on the road. I am leading. I am waiting. I am walking with you where you walk. I never leave you. You move away from Me. I stay steadfastly by you.

Oh, child, be humble. Do not let pride and anger eat at your heart. When you are wrong, admit it and do My Will. I am calling you to follow Me. Follow My path. It is the only way to your happiness and peace of mind. Wherever you go, My sweet one, you never travel alone. I am with you. Love, love, love. Do not let Satan work in your head.

If I am telling you to do something, do it, even if it is unpleasant. This is what teaches you the way of the Lord. The more you obey Me, the more you hear Me. I am God. I do not necessarily communicate as you do. I may use your senses, but I do not need them to talk to you. I do not need words. I give you promptings. You know when I speak to you and you know you must follow.

Open yourselves up to Me. Pray to be open and to know how to listen to Me. I am God and I want to tell you all you need to know. No one can speak to you as I do in your heart. Come and be with Me in silence and let Me talk to you. I love you so, dear ones. I will never steer you wrong.

R. He never told me, in the letters, to get out of the chorale. I had to hear it in my heart after much misery, as I was holding on. I went to the doctor. I took voice lessons (with no voice) for two years and two summers. I continued to take voice lessons with no voice! I took antibiotics, and could hardly breathe, but I kept teaching the next year. Did He tell me to quit? No, He waited until after I had quit and then said, "You will not have any problem with your voice if you do not teach."

He gives us promptings in our hearts. He wants us to hear with our hearts. He taught me about His ways in the letters. Things about my life I had to hear in my heart. He communicates in our hearts, directly to us. Doing His Will is doing His Will. Do we cover up what He says and do what we want? Every time I do not listen to Him I move farther from Him and I hear less because my pipeline is not clear.

I cannot disobey Him ever or I cannot stand it. If I don't do His Will, I am miserable. If the whole world hates me, I still want to do His Will.

end of May 9, 1994

    
  

July 7, 2003 message continues

Messenger:          Recall the sin of Adam & Eve in the garden.  

Genesis Chapter 3

The Fall

Now, the snake was the most subtle of all the wild animals that Yahweh God had made. It asked the woman, 'Did God really say you were not to eat from any of the trees in the garden?' The woman answered the snake, 'We may eat the fruit of the trees in the garden. But of the fruit of the tree in the middle of the garden God said, "You must not eat it, nor touch it, under pain of death." ' Then the snake said to the woman, 'No! You will not die! God knows in fact that the day you eat it your eyes will be opened and you will be like gods, knowing good from evil.' The woman saw that the tree was good to eat and pleasing to the eye, and that it was enticing for the wisdom that it could give. So she took some of its fruit and ate it. She also gave some to her husband who was with her, and he ate it. Then the eyes of both of them were opened and they realised that they were naked. So they sewed fig-leaves together to make themselves loin-cloths.

The man and his wife heard the sound of Yahweh God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from Yahweh God among the trees of the garden. But Yahweh God called to the man. 'Where are you?' he asked. 'I heard the sound of you in the garden,' he replied. 'I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid.' 'Who told you that you were naked?' he asked. 'Have you been eating from the tree I forbade you to eat?' The man replied, 'It was the woman you put with me; she gave me some fruit from the tree, and I ate it.' Then Yahweh God said to the woman, 'Why did you do that?' The woman replied, 'The snake tempted me and I ate.'

Then Yahweh God said to the snake, 'Because you have done this,

    Accursed be you
    of all animals wild and tame!
    On your belly you will go
    and on dust you will feed
    as long as you live.
    I shall put enmity
    between you and the woman,
    and between your offspring and hers;
    it will bruise your head
    and you will strike its heel.'

    To the woman he said:

    I shall give you intense pain
        in childbearing,
    you will give birth to your children
        in pain.
    Your yearning will be for your husband,
    and he will dominate you.

To the man he said, 'Because you listened to the voice of your wife and ate from the tree of which I had forbidden you to eat,

    Accursed be the soil because of you!
    Painfully will you get your food from it
    as long as you live.
    It will yield you brambles and thistles,
    as you eat the produce of the land.
    By the sweat of your face
    will you earn you food,
    until you return to the ground,
    as you were taken from it.
    For dust you are
    and to dust you shall return.

The man named his wife 'Eve' because she was the mother of all those who live. Yahweh God made tunics of skins for the man and his wife and clothed them. Then Yahweh God said, 'Now that the man has become like one of us in knowing good from evil, he must not be allowed to reach out his hand and pick from the tree of life too, and eat and live for ever!' So Yahweh God expelled him from the garden of Eden, to till the soil from which he had been taken. He banished the man, and in front of the garden of Eden he posted the great winged creatures and the fiery flashing sword, to guard the way to the tree of life.

August 11, 1995

Messenger:  We are the children of the light. Mary is our Mother. She is the new Eve. Jesus is the new Adam. It is Mary who will lead the precious children to the Heart of her Son. We, the children of the light, are her army marching in battle against the enemy, the devil. He wants to devour all precious souls and take them to hell.

Jesus comes and gives us His life, released through the Heart of His Mother. He came to give us life to the full and take us home with Him.

I hear Him call out, "I am alive, I am alive, I am alive and I live in the hearts of men." As I live in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, as I unite with Their Hearts, my actions are actions likened to their action. They are living through me in this world. As I model my life after Their Lives, as I dwell in Their Hearts, as I unite with Mary and Jesus, and as I live in Their hearts, I live in peace and joy, according to the Father's Will. As each of us live in their hearts, we live in the same hearts of Jesus and Mary and we are united in this strong bond of love. We become one in Their hearts. As Mary leads all her children home to her Son through her Heart, the Heart of Mary will triumph on this earth and the Sacred Heart of Jesus will reign.

In one of my deepest experiences with Jesus, I heard, very clearly, Him call out, "I am alive, I am alive, I am alive. I love you, I love you, I love you." This sums up the message of Jesus. He loves us with the deepest love and He is alive this day. He is truly present in the tabernacle and He lives in a special way in the hearts of men. Every day Jesus and Mary have been teaching us through their messages and meditations on the rosary. In the rosary we meditate on the lives of Jesus and Mary. From the Emmaus scene the Gospel says of Jesus: "Then, starting with Moses and going through all the prophets, he explained to them the passages throughout the scriptures that were about himself." (Lk 24:27) He told them, with His burning love, about the scriptures, but they did not know it was Jesus. When they realized later that it was Jesus, they said, "Did not our hearts burn within us as he talked to us on the road and explained the scriptures to us?" (Lk 24:32)

The disciples experienced His burning love when Jesus spoke. Jesus and Mary are giving to us the messages this day that He is alive and loves us so much. He speaks to us in these rosary meditations and messages. As Jesus and Mary have told us about their lives in these meditations, Their lives have grown in my life.

I experienced emotions that Jesus allowed me to feel on Ascension Thursday and heard Him call out, I am alive, I am alive, I am alive. I cried for three days from this experience. Jesus calls out to us this day, "I am alive." It is in the quiet moments that we hear these cries. He lives in the busy and noisy world. As we encounter others, He is alive in others. As we grow in our life with Him, we realize His presence that surrounds us.

It is as the disciples on the way to Emmaus, I have heard the scriptures all my life, but when Jesus began to talk to me they came alive and they live in me, deeper and deeper and deeper. Now, every word I read in the scriptures, every word I pray in the Mass, fills my heart more and more with His burning love.

Jesus wants hearts on fire for love of Him. He remains with us truly present in the Blessed Sacrament, longing and thirsting for His precious souls to come to Him.

He is alive. He is the mighty medicine for the sick world. Rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary are messages and meditations to activate this burning love in our hearts. He is telling us this day of His love, not to replace the scriptures, but to help His life live in us. He tells us His love to enhance all that the church teaches, to make our hearts burn with the great gifts we are given. Jesus truly is present in the Eucharist, in the Scriptures, and the Sacraments. I love the Church. I love the Mass. I love the Priest. I love, love, love, Jesus in the Eucharist. I love Mary, the Saints, the angels, the souls in purgatory. I love my brother. I love more and more because my heart burns with the love of Jesus, alive this day.

He wants us to love Him with our whole heart, our whole soul, our whole being. He wants our hearts to burn with love of Him. As I attend the Mass and become one with Him in the sacrifice to the Father, my heart is burning with love for the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. He wants the priest to love Him so much and celebrate the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass in such oneness with Him, with their hearts burning with love as they say to the Father, "through Him, with Him and in Him", as they elevate the host and say, "This is My Body, this is My Blood." In their whole being, to put on Christ and become one in this great sacrifice to the Father, united in the Holy Spirit, with Mary, our beloved Mother. What great gifts we are given: the Church, the Mass, the Sacraments, the Priest, the Scriptures, the Rosary - are not our hearts burning within us! As we become one in the pure and tender Heart of Mary, as we live and dwell in her Heart, as we love the Father, as Mary loved her beloved Father, through her Heart and we love her Son as Mary loved her dear and precious Son, and love the Holy Spirit as Mary loved her beloved Spouse, as we learn to love through the Heart of our precious beloved Mary, love God as she loved Him, love each other as she loves her precious little children - then, her Heart will live in this world through us. As we dwell in the Heart of Mary, we dwell in the Heart of Jesus, for she dwells there in deepest union.

Oh, my heart sings as I sing the songs He has given to us. "Oh, burning heart, oh love divine, how dear you are to me. I see the Host, I know you are here to love and care for me. I know your love a little now, how dear you are to me - Come, give me life, abundant life, I thirst to be with thee! " How our life will grow as I give my all to the Father, with Jesus, in the Mass and as I live in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary and operate with their life flowing from me in this world. How our life will grow as I dwell in their hearts and I am saturated with this life flowing from the pierced Heart of Jesus and the pierced Heart of Mary. My heart is bathed in Their love and Their life. The Holy Spirit will transform me more and more into the image and likeness of Jesus as His Spirit moves in the Heart of Mary and I will be led to a closer union with my beloved Father. Oh burning Heart, my heart burns for love of you. As you pray these rosaries and read these letters from Jesus, may you know more and more His life within you and may your hearts burn in deepest love for Him. I love you, Jesus.

"Come give me life, abundant life, I thirst to be with thee."

end of August 11, 1995 message

July 7, 2003 message continues

Messenger:          Fr. Carter always said what St. Ignatius said

                                "What have I done for Christ?"
                                "What am I doing for Christ?"
                                "What ought I to do for Christ?" 

                          Fr. Carter always had me say when I went to
                                  confession to say I was sorry for
                                  all the sins of my past life.

                          We must be aware of our weaknesses and pray
                                  to God to not do the same sins from
                                  our past life with new people.

                          Sometimes people go from job to job,
                                  marriage to marriage trying to change
                                  everyone around them, trying to make
                                  them do their dance when they need
                                  to change themselves.

                          We seek purity to be likened to Jesus and Mary.
                                  That is why it is so important to
                                  meditate on the mysteries of the rosary.
                                  We live the mysteries of the rosaries in
                                      our lives.

                          Some people go into communities and relationships
                                  and never change at all – We are here to be
                                  constantly changing, getting rid of our imperfections.

                          It is important to examine our conscience and
                                  give everyone their due, not to see people
                                  as violating me.  
 

God the Father speaks:   

                          I give you so many good things. -
                          Live to be more perfected.
                          Don’t give into your negative thoughts.

                          Meditate on hell.
                          Meditate on heaven and purgatory.
                          Take time to think about this.

                          Say the Our Father 

The Our Father

    Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name. Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil. Amen.
  

                        Say “forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us...”
  

Jesus speaks:       Go to confession and confess your sins,
                               don’t focus on your brothers, focus
                                on yourselves.

                             Some people have hurt so many, all their lives
                               because they are afraid others will
                               hurt them being hurt by parents or
                               others as children in the past.

                             They do many things that are wrong to protect
                               themselves because of being hurt, defenses,
                               then when a superior addresses it in
                               community, they strike out and pout -
                                causing the community more pain because
                               they don’t want to be wrong and they
                               don’t want to change. What a sad thing
                               to keep hurting others because of defenses
                               that are destructive that they have developed
                               to protect themselves in situations that
                               no longer exist anymore.

  
Messenger:           We will be judged on what we do.
                           God may give us “lots of” opportunity to change
                                and we keep hurting those around us because
                                we were hurt in childhood or in other
                                relationships.

                             God help us to let go of those things that keep us
                                stuck. Mary we want to dwell in your
                                heart. Jesus we want to dwell in Your
                                Heart.
                          Outpour your grace so we can change our
                                 imperfect ways.

  
Jesus speaks:       Jealousy and pride, attachments to glory and
                          wealth are many reasons why
                          people stay stuck. Many are willful
                          and prideful and never see themselves
                          as wrong. They hurt others doing
                          many good works, not doing God’s will.
                          Sometimes people stop others from
                          reaching out and finding out things
                          for themselves, they want to be
                          rescuers than they feel good they think!

                             I love you.

                             Pray for grace.

Jesus speaks:        Write your love letter to Me.
                          Open up the Blue Books
                          and read My letter to you.  

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