April 8, 1998

This is a Spouse of the Lamb Entry

My Bridegroom,

    I wanted You so bad, my main focus was desire for You, wanting You, between flashes of glory which I felt so strongly through the Mass the glory that must be given, by a soul, to You, but to write and to have to think about glory is not it at all. The soul is in such a state of knowing God that glory is what it gives, the whole being wants to glorify God, it is the natural coarse of action considering the state of the soul in being possessed by God and knowing His presence in their soul. 

    The being, the soul becomes so one with God that the state of the soul is giving glory, it is a grace given, a light that is given, a place of being, existing in Him and in that is the state of the soul worshiping God.

    We are as blind men with our minds that we think, we act, with God He possesses the soul and the soul is existent in Him. The state of the soul is praising, thanking, loving, wanting God.

    Today after Communion the desire of wanting more and more of Him as He absorbed my being, wanting this with the deepest desire to never end, realizing the temporariness of it and wanting it forever and completely being so absorbed in Him. My heart really hurts now as a sword within it wanting completion and satisfaction, feeling elated and ecstatically united to Him, but oh the sword that feels as if it is piercing my heart because of the ending of this rapture. I desire more. I want Him completely forever. I see myself in my present state in life as living in an endless desert thirsting for this union with Him.

    God comes to me. He possesses my soul. I am caught up in Him, all He is, His immense state of loving, every capacity within me is intensely heightened.

    God possesses my soul and I feel the intense love He has for others. I felt intensely His love for the handmaids and the Elpers and Melanie Noe, for Ellen, when I now think of a person I am absorbed with His love for them, the way He loves them. I feel overwhelming love, , just love. My state is love in Him.

    My being is united to those I intimately love. Loving as He loves in me, loving this state of rapture and purity, of freedom from the dark side of myself, all is pure love in Him, overwhelming pure love, not coming from a tainted fallen nature.

    To be absorbed immensely in Him. This is our desire, for nothing on the face of this earth compares to this presence of God within my soul, when He acts on my soul and finds favor with me.

    Man misses the boat in this world wishing to control their relationship with God.

    It is the Lamb that is the Initiator, that gives the grace and floods the soul with this grace and the soul is absorbed and possessed by the presence of God.

    To explain this in my imperfect state with pen and slate is beyond any means of expression. When the Bridegroom, the Almighty God finds favor with a soul, He acts uniquely on that soul and they share in the love experience of God loving an individual soul most intimately. Each soul is uniquely precious to Him, each one giving Him a unique pleasure, each relationship with each soul is between the infinite God and the particular soul.

    He can be the Bridegroom of each soul and each is its own pleasure for Him.

    Each soul is created in His image and likeness uniquely fashioned to give Him great pleasure by loving Him.

A Prayer for Intimacy with the Lamb, the Bridegroom of the Soul

     Oh Lamb of God, Who take away the sins of the world, come and act on my soul most intimately. I surrender myself, as I ask for the grace to let go, to just be as I exist in You and You act most intimately on my soul. You are the Initiator. I am the soul waiting Your favors as You act in me. I love You. I adore You. I worship You. Come and possess my soul with Your Divine Grace, as I experience You most intimately.

 

 

April 9, 1998

This is a Spouse of the Lamb Entry

My Spouse,

    I have walked through Lent with You by my arm as a Bridegroom. Yesterday was the most fantastic experience where I knew that in the depth of that union, nothing here is like it. There is nothing to fear Your Might far surpasses all else, if I but surrender and let You act in me.

    I surrender myself totally to You. You have brought me to the anniversary of the Last Supper. One other day last week at the Mass, I saw You as one at the Last Supper, I saw Fr. Carter celebrate the Mass, time stood still, all time was one, but the presence of You celebrating the Mass at the Last Supper was there. It was one moment, then and now, all time as one, all together in the hands of the priest and I cried from the experience of seeing You with the bread and the wine. I was so aware of the great miracle taking place, so aware of Your love.

1 Corinthians 11, 23-26

For the tradition I received from the Lord and also handed on to you is that on the night he was betrayed, the Lord Jesus took some bread, and after he had given thanks, he broke it, and he said, 'This is my body, which is for you; do this in remembrance of me.' And in the same way, with the cup after supper, saying, 'This cup is the new covenant in my blood. Whenever you drink it, do this as a memorial of me.' Whenever you eat this bread, then, and drink this cup, you are proclaiming the Lord's death until he comes.

    I am now so aware of Your love for all I love. I want Your love for others to permeate my being. Few words being spoken, only love. I want to be filled with the love You have where the faults are far from You, there is overwhelming love in our weaknesses. This is how I wish to love my brothers, with overwhelming love despite any flaws. This is how I feel You loving me when I am so one with You in the Mass, all I feel is intense love for others.

    Anything that is not right or good or veering from the truth must be handled in a community, but the love of Jesus is always there. Jesus' overwhelming, unconditional love that permeates the heart, but the Lord who is the Way, the Truth, and the Life, acts always to bring forth truth in a soul. We are to be a most perfected religious community. We are to be the spouse of the Lamb. We are to live in the deepest holiest love in the TRUTH following His way, not veering to the right or left and operating with an abundance of His life permeating our very being. He is the Way, the Truth and the Life. I love You my Bridegroom, I have sinned.

 

April 9, 1998

This is a Spouse of the Lamb Entry

My Dear Spouse,

    A priest's heart should be likened to the Heart of Jesus, a priest's virtues should be like the Virgin Mary, his soul should be married to the Lamb, his model is Jesus.

    Mary is the highest human person. Mary is Immaculate. Mary loves Jesus. Mary stands beneath the cross. Mary is the most perfect handmaid of the Lord.

    The earth would be a different place if all priests consecrated their hearts to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary.

    The Priestly Newsletter is a binding force between Jesus and the priests. He is writing His message for the priests to take the priests to His Heart.

    At every Mass we ascend the mountaintop. The priest is Jesus' instrument. The Mass is the sacrifice of Calvary sacramentally made present.

    We must guard our hearts before Mass and pray together fervently.

    We act in such oneness with Christ in the Mass. We act as victors on the mountaintop.

    We are victorious over the tauntings of satan and all the grace flows on the world.

    We go into battle. How do we come to Mass. Before the Mass is a battle. The victory is won with hearts filled with love.

    Our disposition is so important at Mass. Satan wants to divide hearts before Mass. Division in the hearts helps separate a soul from God.

    We are to be deeply one with Christ and others at Mass – Not divided!

    When we are one, the graces flow copiously.

    Souls are to be one – not divided, not full of unrepented sin – pride, anger, jealousy, envy etc.

    We approach the altar of sacrifice, our hearts must be filled with love. These are our arms to fight the battle.

    The more our heart is consumed with love for God and others, the more the graces will flow.

    Christ's heart is consumed with love for souls. He loves, He is love. It is the state of His being.

    Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. Jesus is absolute truth - we must love abundantly as He loves. If we are one in Him, we love.

    Any division and bitterness in our hearts effects the amount of oneness we have with Him. Thus effects our intercessory powers.

    Help me spread the Consecration to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary to the Priests. Great grace is outpoured in the Mass. The Mass is the sacrifice of Calvary sacramentally made present.

    I ascended the mountain of God and I was changed, He showed me Himself, I ate His Body, I drank His Blood and I was transformed.

Jesus: I am the Way, the Truth and the Life.

 

April 12, 1998 - Easter Sunday

Sing: Hosea

 

April 13, 1998

(At the Rosary)

Jesus: I am asking you to pray for healing on Tuesdays at the Morrow Center and to use the Holy Spirit Novena I have given as the format. I ask you to ask Fr. Carter if it can be read by one person before the Tuesday prayer meeting.

    It is not necessary to do everything when you are weary. Some others must assume the responsibility. Some are working so hard. I am very appreciative for all your work. I ask you to continue working if at all possible.

    I cannot tell you how pleased I am, but some need to give more. Do not be anxious. Pray for direction and it will come to you.

    Your main focus is always doing the will of God with love. Thank you, My holy ones. I love you so much!

 

April 16, 1998

R. Our Father is the Father of the human family and Mary is the Mother. Children are brought forth in the Spirit, children of God. God created all of these children, some are willful and in sin.

    The sheep are the ones who hear the voice of the Good Shepherd and they follow Him. The goats do their own will. Yes, there will be peace when men realize they are sons of the Father, that Jesus, our brother, was sent by His Father to show us the way, the truth and the life. Jesus is the Son of Justice. Jesus sits at the right hand of the Father.

    Reference 1 Corinthians 15: 20-28

    Jesus answered, '...and all who are on the side of truth listen to my voice.' 'Truth?' said Pilate. 'What is that?' John 18: 37-38

 R. Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life.

    Judas raised his heel against Jesus.

John 13: 8

I am not speaking about all of you: I know the ones I have chosen; but what scripture says must be fulfilled:

   ‘He who shares my table
    takes advantage of me.
 

Jesus: I am the Good Shepherd. I know Mine and they follow Me. They will not follow a stranger’s voice, they will follow My voice.

    Harken to Me, My Shepherds. You are the flock that will lead the world into oneness. Do not question. The confusion will become greater and greater, a person wishing to adhere to the truth must have the truth within them. This will happen when men are living according to the Word and the commandments, and are dwelling in the Heart of Jesus. The truth is found when one surrenders themselves to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, there must be that constant presence of the Trinity living and dwelling in the soul.

R. I know more and more oneness, in great love in my heart for those I love so much. I am profoundly connected to them in my heart. I declare my love for God and my love for my fellows.

    God gives to us our freedom, yet He loves us with the greatest love. He no longer walks the earth but He is with us, and He is truly present in the Eucharist and alive in our hearts. We must have a high spiritual, mystical union.

Jesus: You once were babies at the breast, now you have matured to Christians in which Christ lives and dwells within you.

R. The Reign of the Sacred Heart will come to this earth when Christ truly lives and dwells within the hearts of men.

Jesus: I am the Good Shepherd. I know Mine and they follow Me. The Good Shepherd

John 10: 1-6

'In all truth I tell you, anyone who does not enter the sheepfold through the gate, but climbs in some other way, is a thief and a bandit. He who enters through the gate is the shepherd of the flock; the gate-keeper lets him in, the sheep hear his voice, one by one he calls his own sheep and leads them out. When he has brought out all those that are his, he goes ahead of them, and the sheep follow him because they know his voice. They will never follow a stranger, but will run away from him because they do not recognise the voice of strangers.'

Jesus told them this parable but they failed to understand what he was saying to them.

John 5: 1-9

After this there was a Jewish festival, and Jesus went up to Jerusalem. Now in Jerusalem next to the Sheep Pool there is a pool called Bethesda in Hebrew, which has five porticos; and under these were crowds of sick people, blind, lame, paralysed. One man there had an illness which had lasted thirty–eight years, and when Jesus saw him lying there and knew he had been in that condition for a long time, he said, ‘Do you want to be well again?’ ‘Sir,’ replied the sick man, ‘I have no one to put me into the pool when the water is disturbed; and while I am still on the way, someone else gets down there before me.’ Jesus said, ‘Get up, pick up your sleeping–mat and walk around.’ The man was cured at once, and he picked up his mat and started to walk around.

R. Many are laying around, but don't really want to be healed. Jesus always asked if they wanted to be healed. Being healed means we can suffer. They do not know it is so hard. They think it should be easy. To follow the way of Jesus we must pick up our cross and follow Him. His way is suffering many times. His way to Calvary was the way of the cross.

    To enter the pierced Heart of Jesus we had to carry our cross and follow in His bloody footprints.

    The way of the world is to take a pill and relieve the suffering. His way was to follow the Father’s will.

    On Good Friday He gave me an urgent message for leaders and apostles.

    This was my calling all through Lent to be the spouse of the Lamb. Good Friday was an important day - it was to stand beneath His cross and know more fully the mysteries into His love. In order to go to the depth He calls me to, I must die to the old self and put on the new self, the one that will live the Father's will in love.

Jesus: No marriage will survive if there is not special time for intimacy with the bridegroom. There must be that time alone with Jesus. Too much time with others ruins the marriage.

R. We can’t be busy all the time and have an intense, deep relationship with Jesus. It take time with Him.

                And ask God to bless your state
                Ask God to bless the United States

                Pray all prayers through the intercession of
                    Our Lady of CLEAR – WATER.

                Ask the Lady of CLEAR - WATER
                    to help with the blessed water.

                Mary has appeared to me for 22 years,
                    in Ohio and Florida.