Whenever I got an interior vision inside my
                        eye lids, there would be the sparkle of heavenly
                        light and then the movie would begin inside
                        of my eye lids or so it seemed. It was vividly
                        clear and I wanted to see it so intently, I would
                        try to sit up and look harder into my eye lids,
                        but nothing I could do would change it. It was
                        the way it was given. I wouldn't dare open my
                        eyes for I knew I wouldn't see it if I did.
                        I looked at it as hard as I could, but nothing I
                        did would ever change it.

                            I remember a vision in St. Gertrude's Church
                        I saw the face of Jesus like this.

Messenger:         I don't know if it was an interior or exterior vision.
                        I saw Him clearly it was like a little movie
                        playing then the vision went into the host.

                            Our Lord told me to take these pictures of Jesus
                        in Florida, last month. The face I saw that
                        looked like Jesus was the side view at Holy Cross-
                        Immaculata where He appeared transfigured to
                        me in January 1996 several times in the 
                        Sacred Heart Statue.

                            It was there I received so many gifts to write the Mass
                        Book and so many experiences there. The great
                        vision of December 15, 1995 and the vision of Jesus at
                        the point of death on the cross December 5, 1996.
                        So many, many things happened in Holy Cross-Immaculata
                        Church. So many ecstasies and experiences.

                            But when I got the picture back of the Jesus'
                        statue in Florida, His face was just like that
                        vision I saw on that day to the side of the altar
                        at St. Gertrudes.

                            I account an interior vision in Blue Book II.
                        I can still see it and it was February 6, 1994. The
                        visions are chiseled inside of me. I can recall
                        them as if they just happened.

                            Here is what I wrote.

Messenger:     Also between Ascension Thursday and Pentecost, I
                            saw the golden open door with the
                            little sheep that hobbled in.

                        Someone tried to draw my vision of the golden door
                            and we put it on the internet—here it is,

Messenger:         but it bothered me so much because
                            it was so "concrete" and it didn't
                            look like what I saw at all. It was
                            mystical, the light like nothing here below.
                            The shape even seemed it couldn't be
                            duplicated. Nothing looked the same to
                            me. It looked hard and the black wall
                            outside was deep black. What I saw
                            was a deep black wall, but it was
                            colored with a mystical pen with
                            a color from God. It seemed far beyond
                            any pen or paper.

                           There is an aura to the visions usually.
                        It is not so hard and distinct, it is soft
                        and beautiful in a way I can never describe,
                        duplicate or write about expressing it in any
                        terms here. Even the white of a snow capped
                        mountain does not compare in anyway to the
                        beauty of the sacred host at elevation when
                        he clothes it with an aura and it is a translucent
                        host coming out of the elevated host. I have
                        seen all kinds of visions around the sacred
                        host. It was always a host that came out of
                        the central host.

                            Once at St. Gertrude's I saw three hosts
                        come from the central host. They are this "see-
                        through" color of an aura I cannot explain—
                        my eyes see, my knowledge of things here do
                        not describe it, it is mystical, and I cannot
                        describe the colors and lights, their intensity, their
                        beauty, their quality, but I know them so well.
                        I know aura's that adorn the sanctuary or
                        front of the church. I know the splendor of
                        a vision where He places a golden aura -
                        veil before me.

                            Last week He sent me to St. Ignatius Church. The
                        Eucharist would soon be exposed after Mass. As soon
                        as I arrived there, there was a circular aura around
                        the whole sanctuary and a golden veil covered
                        the whole circle it took in the whole sanctuary.
                        The steps glisten, the hard edges are accented
                        with a softness I cannot describe and the
                        presence of God there and within me is so
                        very strong. It is as if the connection between
                        here and heaven is so strong and my heart and
                        soul is lifted into a deep intense union with 
                        God where I know things, I know deep insights
                        into the mysteries in my soul and my heart
                        pants to be so deeply embraced by God and
                        feel His touch as He envelopes my soul
                        and my heart sings a song of joy united
                        to those in heaven in a depth I can
                        never describe on this paper. The touch of
                        the hand of God, the beauty more splendid
                        than the most gentle dew gracing the fragile
                        petal of a heavenly flower.

                            Yeah, it is beyond all here to describe any of it
                        and I could write forever about a vanishing moment
                        when He touches my soul and gives me a glimpse
                        of eternity, a peak into that inexhaustible place
                        of depth into the Mystery of God.

                            And I quote from December 17, 1995, one year 
                        before Mary appeared on the building. This was
                        written in the Mass book.

THE EARTH STOPPED AND TOUCHED HEAVEN

    I long to unite in the deepest union with Him in the Eucharist. I long for the Mass. I long for Thee, oh God. My every moment, I join as I did to You December 15 under the cross, where I felt Your presence. You whisked me away, and I was totally absorbed in that moment of celestial union with You. For that time, I existed only in You, in the deepest union, and I was in this moment existing in You. The earth stopped, and I touched the heavens, all my bodily cares were existent in You. I existed in Your Divinity, my being was in You. There was no desire or wish or wanting, for in that moment, I had all I wanted in You. I was satisfied and wanted nothing but to remain in that embrace. You were the Being, and my being existed in You, but I was only as I was in You - merged in You, knowing and being in Your Divinity and being so full as to feel complete in myself.

    You are so enormous, and You surrounded me in a burning embrace, the presence of red fire. I was not little, or "nothing", but existed in this enormous power and being so complete!

    I touched eternity, and in that embrace, I knew all the waiting was worth the glory. You enveloped my being, and I was truly merged in the Divine Presence. I was merged in Your being. I existed IN You, with You, in the highest union with You, although I knew I was still distinct from You.

    I was fused and absorbed in You, feeling complete and satisfied. To describe this union is far beyond any work of my pen and paper. I pray for the reader of this page to receive the grace to share this experience with Him, I will now live for this union-to be forever merged In Him, to be One in Him, to reach higher perfection as I exist in Him, for He takes the lowly and gives to them a sharing in Himself. He merges with us and we exist in Him. The word "in" - I could write pages about. I long for the deepest union with Him, where I am swept up in the heavenly embrace of the Divine God, and I am IN Him.

    This is heaven on earth: to be merged as one with Divinity, although remaining distinct from God, to take our feeble hearts, our lowly status and to unite ourselves with the Divine, Almighty, powerful God and in this union to be meshed with Him, that His power dominates and our humanity reaches its heights of fulfillment in this union, in this oneness with Him.

    The word I have looked for is "oneness." I understand some of the meaning of the words "One in Him." Oneness is the word to describe this union of our humanity with His Divinity. The depth to which we could meditate on oneness with God is incomprehensible. In that moment, the earth stood still, and He, my Divine Lover, the Bridegroom of my soul, took me to Himself, and I knew the embrace of the Divine God.

    Nothing on the face of this earth can describe our union with Divinity. Oh, good God, that creatures are so ungrateful regarding Your divine love. I am so sorry. Let me help make reparation to Your adorable Heart. Please unite with me now that I may more deeply love Thee.

    Oh, Divine Lover of my soul, let me help make reparation to Your adorable Heart for the neglect and indifference against You.

Song from Jesus: I come to you with greatest love. I am your loving Savior. I am your God. I died for you. I come to you this day.

    He allowed me to experience such pain in my heart - wanting Him so badly, so many times-and then on Dec. 15, 1995 - He gave Himself to me in the deepest union.

    Nothing satisfies the soul but Him. He wants the nuns and priests to love Him. He chose them to spread His love.

    Souls are hungry. They will only be fed with His burning love. Priests need to talk about Jesus' love for us from the pulpit. Priests need hearts burning for love of Jesus. This will feed the hungry souls - lip service love doesn't do it.

    He is alive today. He is a Person. He wants us to love Him.

Messenger:         And so I end with this. I write from the same table
                        I received the Prayer for Union with Jesus. (I am on the other
                        side of the table) On that morning sometime between 9 and
                        10 closer to 10 in about 2 1/2 minutes Jesus gave
                        me the Prayer for Union with Jesus.

                            Here it is.

Prayer for Union with Jesus

   Come to me, Lord, and possess my soul. Come into my heart and permeate my soul. Help me to sit in silence with You and let You work in my heart.

    I am Yours to possess. I am Yours to use. I want to be selfless and only exist in You. Help me to spoon out all that is me and be an empty vessel ready to be filled by You. Help me to die to myself and live only for You. Use me as You will. Let me never draw my attention back to myself. I only want to operate as You do, dwelling within me.

    I am Yours, Lord. I want to have my life in You. I want to do the will of the Father. Give me the strength to put aside the world and let You operate my very being. Help me to act as You desire. Strengthen me against the distractions of the devil to take me from Your work.

    When I worry, I have taken my focus off of You and placed it on myself. Help me not to give in to the promptings of others to change what in my heart You are making very clear to me. I worship You, I adore You and I love You. Come and dwell in me now.

-God's Blue Book, January 17, 1994

      

Messenger:         That was the morning He had awakened me and
                        given me this message January 17, 1994 3:40 a.m.
                        At this table I wrote the message
                                I want My Priests to Come Back

                            as Jesus spoke to me.

                        When He talked about the priests, I didn't
                            want to write. He told me two times
                            "write the message"

                        Here it is, then He wanted it to go to the
                            priests.

I Want My Priests to Come Back

January 17, 1994 3:40 a.m.

Jesus: You know I am He Who lifts you up. In one second I can turn your feelings around and lift you up. Constantly pray to Me. You need Me through these times. Remember, I truly died for you on the cross. Remember, little one, I have chosen you to write to Me. Do you think I will ever abandon you? I am a God who truly loves His people. I love you with such ardent love. You must never doubt.

    Look into My face and see My gentleness. I am the kindest of all hearts. I am He who knows how to love with such love. Become totally lost in My arms.

    Do you think Satan will not taunt you? Put him behind you. You are being guarded by God and His heavenly court. Walk in My ways and the angels walk with you on your path. You are escorted on your way and you are never alone. You are guarded as a precious treasure that is being transported to another place.

    You need to put all your cares in My hands. You are developing true trust when you let go and let Me take over. Keep trusting and silence the ugly prompting of Satan who wants you to worry about useless things. Quit worrying and pray and play with your children. I am telling you there is so much peace and grace gained by private prayer with them. I will tend to all the details of your life. Do not worry for one moment. Put your life in My hands. I am here, little one. Read this message and all of them over and over again.

    You need to go to the Blue Book for your answers. Your answers are found there. I never leave your side. God is guarding you. Just continue to have a union with Me all through the day. All the prayer time alone with Me in one day is not enough. I want you in constant prayer.

    Turn to Me and My Blue Book. This will help many priests to come back and sit before Me in private union with Me. When priests come back to the tabernacle, the flock will begin to be led back to His altar. Priests need to read these letters. They are the preachers. If they do not value their own relationship with Jesus, if they are being led away from Me with busyness, they will not preach the intimate love of Jesus. They are so busy, but it is like throwing out the baby with the bath water. I am the center and their relationship with Me is utmost.

    The priests need these messages. They need to have an intimate, close union with Me. They should be preaching "time in front of the tabernacle." They should be preaching My intense love for My people and how I have so much to give. Some sermons are so complicated--yet nothing about union with Me in the Eucharist and in front of the tabernacle.

    I want My priests to come back and pray before My tabernacle. I want them to read these messages and make Jesus the Center of their lives. When they are led back to Jesus, they will lead the flock home. Priests need adoration every day for at least an hour. I don't care how busy they are. None of it matters if they are not spending time in private prayer alone with Me. They need to come and get their supplies. They need to quit thinking they are doing it and turn back to turning their lives totally over to Me, to totally letting their burdens and busy lives off at the foot of My cross and letting Me lead the way.

    There is not one priest who has so much to do that he cannot do private adoration daily. When the priest comes back to the power in the Eucharist and the tabernacle, the congregation will turn to God for their troubled hearts. Satan has led priests away from Jesus. They are so busy they cannot do all their work, but this must all take second place to praying silently before God and reading His words. These letters will help many priests to come back and be intimate with Jesus.

    All the rituals, all the upkeep of the churches, all the little details, and the King of Glory sits alone! You have thrown out the baby with the bath water. You are missing the boat.

    I want the priests to read this message. Where is the reverence after Communion and who has even heard it mentioned in the church? Private union with Jesus! What an honor! I have all you need. Come to Me and I will give you rest. I am all powerful. I have all the power. I am hyper--vigilant over your lives. I guard you. Quit trying to do it yourselves. Become selfless and let Me possess your souls.

    Have the priests spread these messages. Read them in church. I want adoration of the Eucharist back. I want people to know I am God and I am coming to them in Holy Communion. I want the Blessed Sacrament exposed. I want My churches open. Union with Jesus, the love of Jesus, trust, faith, love for one another, love of God--I want all of these preached from the pulpit!

    I am the Alpha and the Omega. I want My people to be led back to the center, which is Jesus. Pray for your priests. They are under attack. If Satan can wreck the family, the priests, the children, he has it made.

    You are under attack, My beloved priests, and you, in your busyness, are being led away from your union with Jesus. Bring yourselves back to Me and let Me give you My love. I am indeed the bridegroom of your souls. I wait for My beloved ones at the altar. I long for private union with all My beloved ones.

    Come to Me, all who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Come and be lifted up to heights you never dreamed possible. I am God. Put your lives in My hands. Let Me run your life. Quit running amok. You have lost your way and are running down the wrong road. Bring your lives back to Jesus in the tabernacle.

    The world is getting farther from God every minute. Read the messages at prayer meetings. Spread them by word of mouth. The time you waste is valuable. These words are not meant to be saved. Spread them here by any means possible. I want them out, I tell you! If someone wants to read some messages, give them to them and let them read them at prayer meetings. There is no secret here. They are from Me and I want them out. I want you to speak. A lot of your discontent is in sitting around with all these messages and not spreading them. Tell your friends to speak. Speak My words here. You don't have to mention the source. Spread the messages. You are not what is important. The messages are. You will be exposed. Don't worry who knows, but don't spread your own story. Spread the messages. Like ripples on a pond, the love of God will be spread throughout the land. I have so much to give to My hurting ones. I am your God. I died for you out of deepest love. I have come in these messages to lead you back home.

    Quit worrying of details. I am He Who runs the show. Pray for guidance every day. Spend one hour in front of the tabernacle. You cannot do in a million years what I can do in one moment. Quit relying on yourselves. You are only pushing buttons. When you are fixed in Me, the right door opens. When you go it alone, you have a hard road to walk. One hour in private adoration. Be silent or read the Blue Book. Your life will become uplifted by My teaching and you will sail a blue sky.

    Spend time in silence and some in reading My words in front of Me. I am talking to you in these letters. What power, to read them in front of the tabernacle! You can't go it alone. You need My help. You need your supplies. But you must come and get them! You are following your tail around if you do it alone. I am He Who can do all this. When you realize My power in adoration, your lives will change. As long as you are too busy you will have a hard time. The soul craves this union with Me.

    Lead the priests back to adoration and the people will follow. Our leaders have become too busy for adoration. This is the key, the key to unlock the doors to the world's problems. It is found in front of the tabernacle, at daily Mass and Communion. Do the priests ever preach any of this? You have forgotten your center, Jesus, in the Eucharist! All the power is found in Jesus. You have all that you need and you walk about and decorate My churches and clean every speck of dust and repair My pews and carpet My house and fix My organs but you walk about and miss the King of Glory who sits there all alone! Spread the messages on the tabernacle. I want them out!

Messenger:    It was the first mailing to go to priests from us.
                            It was sent to all the Bishops in the United 
                            States with the message "The Bridegroom Awaits"
                            This message was given December 27, 1993 at 4:00 a.m.

                        I didn't know Father Carter yet.

                        The message went out very soon after
                            January 17, 1994.

                        Our first mailing to the bishops in the U.S.

                        The next mailing was the Priestly Newsletter.
   

                            Well I wanted to write to you about sin. We do
                        not feel good when we sin.

                        All I want is purity. Anything that is not the
                            truth effects us if we are trying to be united
                            to Him.

                        The key to being one in Him is to just want what
                            He wants.

                        Anything that is not right that we do drives
                            us apart from Him so all we seek is
                            to do what He wants for our goal is
                            Him and deeper union with Him.

                        Sometimes people we love "a lot" want us
                            to do things we can't do because
                            we only want union with Him.

                        Freedom comes in pleasing Him.

                        Peace comes only in serving Him and
                            obeying His commandments.

                        Mary loves her children so deeply.

                        Jesus loved us so much He gave His
                            life for us.

Messenger:     I see myself like this with Jesus.

                        Jesus loves us so much and wants to
                            comfort us.

                        He wants us to rest our head on
                            His Heart.

                        Jesus is so gentle and loving in Heart.

                        Jesus is God.

                        Jesus' love for us is so tender.

                            I close this writing from the Jesus room.
                        Many of The Blue Book messages were written here.
                        May the love of Jesus flood your heart and soul and
                        give you peace.

September 24, 2001 message continues

                        From Blue Book III June 16, 1994:
                        "R. (I see little white lights on my notebook)."

                        Then Mary began appearing
                            daily July 5, 1994 for
                                14 months.

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