Song: Live This Day

January 1992

R. And I called and He answered me,
He comforted me. He hugged me in my
heart with the warmth of His love,
He heard and listened and answered
me. He gave me His strength to
wash my soul – He wiped
each tear away with His
love and bathed me in His blood and I
felt His warmth and comfort deep
in my cells as a burst of love
washed through my body.

He filled me with His grace.
He restored my shattered heart –
His Spirit filled me. He breathed life into
my tattered soul and washed
me with the waters of comfort
and He said to me –

Jesus: Yes My child
beloved of My Father, You
are oh so precious and oh so
special to Me and I am Divine.
I see your little bouncy girl,
your beauty and your innocence and
I watch your tears and sorrow and
I know the pain and trials of
your heart, I share in your grief and I
really love you, turn to Me and feel
My presence and comfort in your heart,
I will take care of you, My graces
and support are endless, I love
you, you are not alone. I am
here and I hold your hand, know it
My child, you are indeed
My precious child.

Cling to Me and be not afraid, though you
go in raging waters, I am there with you,
My rod and My staff guide your way and
My light is there to illuminate your path
Oh ye, beloved of My Father, friend and
lover let the Holy Spirit embrace you. God
loves you, I am your God.
I listen to your cries and comfort you, I
turn not away, I love you, I know
you and I want to be with you at every
moment.

I made your tears as a way
to release your sorrow and cleanse yourself
of your pain. I am in touch with you
and I walk with you at every turn of your
path – know Me – you are not alone, I am
here with you now, in this silence,
I speak to you, no whisper, these are
My words to you, I am here in this room
and in your heart and I love you with
My love. My love is Divine Love.
Feel My presence, warm and close
in your heart. I am your
God, I am alive. I
neither slumber or sleep. I know
your sadness deep in your heart.
I am He who comforts you and I say again,
be not afraid, I love your every cell and I
am forever within you – Cry out to
Me and I hear each cry and I free you
from your loneliness and pain. Don’t
be afraid and lonely, I am here with you.
I love you.

 

February 21, 1992

R. My dear Jesus,

Jesus: LET GO! RELAX – I am there
to run the show. Your most important
job in life is being the light to the
world – no tension, no anxiety –
look at your jaw, look at your
voice – pulled taunt like a
string pulled too tight – you
have pulled your throat tight
you are so tensed – you are GOOD
ENOUGH – LET GO – enjoy what
you do – no anxiety – do the same thing
without the pressure – walk and ride
the bike, it is good for you.

You are creating your own
anxiety and tension and taking it out
on your throat. What ever you
do is enough.

You have not taken the time
to write to Me because you have
not wanted to. You are being anxious
I can do more things in a minute
than you can in a week.

LET GO - TRUST in ME – be
with Me and turn it over – I will
not leave you orphaned. I will
be with you that is My Promise.

By name I have called you –
You don’t need a doctor for your
throat – you need to relax and
let go – what does it profit a man
if he gains the whole world and
loses his soul.

I have worked miracles in your life –
LET GO – BE YOU –
love everyone around you and
take time for them. I will help you –
just take it slow, steady, and relaxed.
When you are tired rest – don’t push –
you are important. I will help you –
I love you. LET GO.

Jesus: To sit by a quiet brook and listen
to God’s birds chirp in the trees and
smell the freshness of the outdoor and
let go of school, of church, of work,
of the mess and just be with God and
feel the breeze on your face. You can
do that – I want you to – you are
choosing to not be serene –
You are choosing to ignore the
nurturing you need and I will give –
the warmth of the sun, the sound of
birds, the beauty of the trees – these
visions are alive in your mind – go
there, be there for a little while and
enjoy these things – they will nurture you.
See your children and spend the time
with them – these moments are gone
forever. LOVE them. I will
help you – I heal your chest –
your throat – if you want it
healed, let go, you are attacking
yourself – SO TIGHT are you –
LET GO and LOVE and RELAX –
            Love
                            Jesus

 

February 21, 1992

R. He told me - let go, relax, and let Him run
the show. My most important job is being a
light to the world - no tension, no anxiety.

 

1992

R. At the end of January, 1992, I was given a
message from Jesus that I would suffer.

Next, I lost my voice and I had trouble
breathing. It was the key that helped me let go
of my teaching jobs in colleges, my position
in a special choir, and my job as organist and
choir director at a small church.

Here is a letter I began to write to Jesus and
the message God gave back to me.
My first letters with Jesus were a lot of
dialogue. I would write and He would speak
to me as I opened up my heart to Him.
Many times He woke me in the night with
a lengthy message.

This is a letter I wrote to Him March 17,
1992, when I was having a lot of trouble
breathing and talking.

He was working in my suffering to help me
let go of all I was doing so I could be His
messenger. It was a great time of trial when I
couldn’t breathe very well or couldn’t use my
voice very well. All my jobs depended on it. It
was from this cross that I was given my voice
to do what I am doing today. I had to
surrender to His plan – I couldn’t use my
voice as I had done in the past.
When I finally quit most everything about 1
and 1/2 years later, I had my voice to do His
work, to do this job.

In this suffering, He led me to do His will.
St. John the Baptist’s father lost his voice.
St. John the Baptist’s mother was barren.
St. John the Baptist was the ‘VOICE OF
ONE CRYING IN THE DESERT’.
I prayed to do His will and He helped me
find His will. Through great suffering and
surrender I was given greater life in Him.
The story of my struggle in doing His will
and losing my voice is accounted in an entry
in Blue Book III.

Jesus wanted the message of March 17,
1992, presented today, that we can carry it
with us and live by it. We must surrender and
let Him run our lives and do His will. Some of
the greatest trials are the way He leads us on
the right path for us.

 

March 17, 1992

Note: I couldn’t breathe again. From my
notebook I wrote:

R. Dear Jesus,

I am not feeling calm, I am so grateful for
being able to breathe.
I know an inner voice during the movie
said, I will be okay. Please help me Jesus, I
need you.

God: I am your God and I love you, you are
precious to Me. Remember how I loved you
to My death. This is the season of Lent, a time
to look and listen and learn all you can about
Christ and His passion. I am telling you of My
great love for you and all My children. Hold
close to Me and do not be tempted to go
astray, keep your eyes fixed on the eternal
end, the bright and beautiful light, your glory,
for your reward will be great in heaven. Keep
the glory of the Lord in heaven in front of
your eyes.

Don’t look for worldly pleasures and
satisfaction here on earth. Love and give to
others and forgive and know your reward will
be great in heaven.

I will show you the path to follow. Listen
attentively and be calm. In conflict don’t
react, practice removing yourself from that. It
isn’t necessary to criticize, to shame, to hurt,
to bargain for who is right and who is wrong.
Hold on to peace and love and joy and
happiness. Hold My hand and see My light.
See the big, big picture. The answers are in
you, I love you and I will teach you what you
need to know. Be still and listen, I want to
instruct you, I am talking to you now in your
heart. I love you always, stay close to Me and
know I am your God.

R. You are my God and You love me, I am
Your temple. I know You go with me with
Your rod and Your staff protecting me and
giving me comfort and hope and love and joy
and peace. The moments I spend now will be
gone in 5 minutes.
I want to spend this time with You, I don’t
want to be anywhere else, I want to know
Your presence, Your warmth, Your love.

God: You are powered by Me. You are My
child, you are precious and you know it. You
are special to Me, hold tight to Me. I love you,
My chosen daughter.

R. Create in me, Oh Lord, a CLEAN heart, Oh
Lord – create in me a clean heart.
I offer up my suffering to You.
God, help me live my precious moments.
God, help me.
Thank You, I love You.

 

March, 1992

R. My Dear Jesus,

Jesus: I love you, My child, come and lay
your head on My lap and cry, it is
okay, I know your pain and I
want to comfort you. I will
hold you tight and pat your head and
stroke your hair and I will give
you a healing light to penetrate
your body. I am warmth and
power and perfection. If I say the
word you will be healed, I send
My light through you as a beam
from your head to your neck and
passing each cell in your neck and healing
it with all My warm light and peace.
Your stress I wash away in an
instant, spreading My light through
and about you and caressing you. I
do love you. You My child are so
precious to Me. I don’t want you to
be sad, come to Me and know I am
healing you now, My light, My power
and My peace. You are My precious
child, come to Me. I will give you
rest, I will comfort you and I am
all powerful. I can heal your hurts,
rely on Me, I am your God and
you know Me. I call you by name,
the sound of your name is music
to My ears. I watch you and
you My child are indeed
precious, cling to Me. I am
He who comforts you –
do not be afraid, for I will gently
show you the way of the Lord and
I am holding you and sending My
light and My healing to you – go and
praise God and spread His love as
I do to you. You, My child are beloved
of My Father, you are His precious
child, come to Me in your weariness and
I am there. Why do you fear, you who
are so precious, do you think I would
let you die, your time is not
here. I am with you until you
come to Me on that last day, always
to comfort you and hold your hand
and I love you –
Come to Me, My child – be strong
in your faith, know how great
is My love for you. Yes I have
called you by name, though
you pass through raging waters
you shall not drown, you
shall not be burned. I will be
there with My rod and My staff and
My Heart to love you – know
this and feel comforted in My love.
For you were hungry and I gave
you to eat, naked and I clothed
you, and I sent a shower of blessing,
heated rays into your body to
penetrate and warm you and help
you. I love you My child –
Know Me and know I am He
who comforts you and I am
here with you now.

 

March, 1992

Jesus: Your strength I give to you and
restore your bounce and life for I will be
with you that is My promise, forever more
cling to Me and know My presence, My
healing, My love, My peace, I am
in you now helping you, restoring your
love in yourself. Yes I am He who
comforts you and I don’t want you to be
afraid, cling to Me as a child by the hand,
holds steadfast to his mother in a
crowd. The waters may come and the child
is afraid but holds the hand of the
mother oh so tight and knows that as
long as she has that hand she will
be safe. You My child, hold My hand,
don’t let go – think only of My hand, cling
to it, hold it tight and go about your day
knowing as a mother holds the child’s
hand and they are safe – you My child hold
My hand always, and know you are My
child, you are safe, walk through each
problem and hold My hand, tight –
think of that always through raging
waters, you have the hand of Jesus Christ,
This is how you are not consumed, this is
how you are not rattled, this is how in
the midst of turmoil you are at
peace, at My hand and clinging to Me,
as a child to their mom you will
never be afraid. Focus on your hand and
remember this. Hold it and when you are
weary, come, come to Me, place your
yoke upon My shoulders and lay your
head in My lap. You are comforted by
Jesus the Lord, you are so precious
in My sight, I am there in the
raging waters, I am He who comforts
you. Take My hand and never, ever, ever
let it go, until death hold it tight
and then you will see on that day that
light – that blinding light and feel this
love in the intensity that you cannot
as a human even imagine – My love
is over powering, nothing you can
even feel right now, IS like My
presence in your heart, it is like
the heart on fire you saw once, that
warmth that heat that intensity in
My presence that you can only feel
a glow in your heart, that can only
come from Me and the Holy Spirit –
touch My Heart and know it is
there and beating for you.
I died for you on the cross.
I loved you so much that
I would die for you. Think of that -
I would die and suffer persecution for your
sake – you are My child, I died for you.
I would suffer for you. I love you this
much. Think of this death in your
music, in your choir, make it come
alive so others can hear this and realize
it is so true.

R. We celebrate and we believe. I want
to receive the Eucharist, to know Your
presence in my heart. I want your
peace and Your presence in my heart.

Jesus: Naked and I clothed you, hungry
and I feed you and you are My child,
hold My hand, know My love, I am here.
I am talking to you, it is real.
You know Me, know My presence,

I am Jesus.

 

March, 1992

Jesus: I died on the cross for you.
It is no myth, believe and
know My presence now.
Believe, believe and live in My love,
I am He who powers you, you are My
motorboat and you are being powered.
I am keeping you afloat,
I am the power that is
endless, I never run out of gas,
you can go, go, go and know you will
not drown, you will stay afloat and
stay steady in the raging waters –
My power is there keeping you, oh
so steady, hold My hand and feel
My power, know My presence,
My power, My glory, you are My
child and I love you. I am here with you
every second of your life, hold My
hand until that day in which you
will see the light and enter into
eternal glory, because you lived to
do God’s will in love. Oh beloved
of My Father, the glory that waits those
who love and serve the Lord, you will
never know, how it will be, like this
presence in your heart, like the warmth,
like the hand and I will help you do what
you need to do, I will give you your
strength and your healing, you will be
your old self now, take My hand and
do not be afraid, I am He who
comforts you and I am He who powers
you, you are My motorboat – you
won’t falter, you will be steady and
you will have power.

R. Whatever You want me to do I will do
Lord, show me Your path and give me
Your direction. I want to be Your light
to the world, I love You and
I worship You, help me
to honor You at everything I do,
help me in my music to praise
You the way You want to be praised
and spread Your love in my
being to be what I need to be
to my children. Help me Lord
to live my life the way You
want me to. Thank You for my
children and my gifts and my pleasures
and food and my everything I have.
I have been blessed by You Lord.
Thank You, thank You, Your servant.

Love Rita

 

March 26, 1992

Jesus: Your door is open – I will
watch over you, haven’t I always
done that? When you walk through
raging waters, you My child
I will hold your hand, don’t be
afraid, you are precious to Me.

 

April 2, 1992

R. Dear Jesus,

I am so happy to have You in my heart.
Thank You for this day and the sunshine,
thank You for helping me give my life
to You and bringing me to this point in
my life. Thank You for the trials that
has brought me closer to You and
teaching me how to love more.
Jesus, I give You my will and my life,
I give You what I am and I ask You
to run my life, please what ever happens
I surrender to You running my life.
Please Jesus help me to know the way
of life You call me to. Help me surrender
to what ever You want me to do. I will
let You run the show. I am going to do
what You want, I know today I was to go
to All Saints and spend this time with You.

Thank you for Your relationship,
thank You for the Holy Spirit and my
heavenly Mother, thank You for real
joy which I now feel in my heart.
Thank You for the image of the
wall of rocks and the door for me
to walk through.

R. That was my image from You, at that
point seeing the gray rocks oh so close
like a wall and a door, You were taking
me to a new beginning in my life – a life
of surrendering and realizing that You are
running my life. What is for today? I do
Your will. That is what is to be. I am
filled with Your love and Your joy as I
walk through this door into surrender
with You – on the other side there are
still rocks, but they are not closing in
they are opening up and the light, as
the warm sun is now seen atop the
rocks and my body is warm and secure
in Your love. You oh my Lord are in
the driver's seat. I walk through that
door. My relationship with You is alive
and new, and I surrender and walk
through the door. I have a deep relationship
with my children and my close
friends – they are there, all around me –
I, Lord Jesus walk through the door –
the rocks open up and I am not closed
in anymore, but I can always look up
and see the opening and the sky. You are
in the driver’s seat, You are rowing my
boat and driving my car, though I
tread in raging waters, I do not
need to be afraid, You are there with
Your rod and Your staff and You
comfort me, I am not afraid, Your
warmth and Your love is always there,
I am secure, I am Your child, I am
protected and held and You will stand
for me, You will say, ‘she is indeed
My child, I love her, she is Mine.
She is My child.’

Jesus: I will never forget you,
I will not leave you orphaned, I
will hold your hand and lead you.
You dwell in My Heart at this moment.
Die to the old ways not likened to
Me – to live a deeper life of resurrection
in Me. I am here and I am still in your
heart. My love for you is
real, I will not abandon you. I
will nurture you and prune you and
watch you grow in My light, I
will be your light, you will not
flicker or fade, but be constantly
aglow with the light of My love, I am
ever present in your heart. Reach out
and touch My heart, it is warm and alive
and beating for you, know you are
loved child. No earthly person can give
this love to you. Look up and see the
heavens and count the stars if you can,
your life will be even brighter, brighter
than all the stars. Bathe yourself
in My love and know it is constant and
there for you, I am your God – you
shall have no gods before Me, nothing
can compare to this love, I give to you.
Do not turn to the world, I will provide
you with nurturing and love, with
peace and joy, do My work and be attentive
to the voice within you, it is there and
you must constantly listen, you will
know when I am talking to you –
listen My child, I do not slumber or
sleep, I am attentive to your needs
and I love you, I will strengthen and
protect you always. Jesus died
upon the Cross, Christ arose from
the dead and you too will live a deeper
life of resurrection in Me. You are
through the door, surrender to Me.

Listen to My directions and carry them
out, I am in your life, I am in your heart,
I am He who comforts you, do not,
My child, be afraid, walk in the confidence
of knowing I, your God walk
before and with you every step
of the way. I am He who comforts
and walks with you. I love you,
I love you, Jesus.

  

April 16, 1992 - Holy Thursday

R. We cannot close the door on the past, we
are a product of the past, it is shutting the door
on ourselves. We can only grow if we accept
the past and learn from it.

As in a business, the boss looks back and
sees how he did it before and tries to
improve it. He would never close the door
on past interactions and start everything
new. He can only build on the past so
the company can grow.

So too with our lives, we must look to our
past and embrace it to know it well,
it is the key to our happiness and growth.
We need to live a balanced life one side
is the thinking side and the other
side is the feeling side and expressive
side (expression of self), we need
both sides in balance.

Jesus: I am the way, the truth and the life
no one comes to the Father except through Me.

The Our Father

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed
be Thy name. Thy Kingdom come, Thy
will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread and
forgive us our trespasses as we forgive
those who trespass against us. And lead
us not into temptation, but deliver us
from evil. Amen.

R. The truth shall set you free. I am
speaking the truth, lies are deception and
cause confusion and hurt. The truth is that
which we need to embrace and spread to
have happiness. Covering up of the truth
usually is not to our advantage. Covering
up the action to protect another person can
be enabling them to continue their lewd
behavior. In the light of truth – that which
really is, is brought to light and dealt with
– hiding the truth is what allows it to
go on. Say for example: in an alcoholic or
dysfunctional family you are not protecting
the person but enabling them to continue
their problem.

Jesus: Be of a clean heart and you will not
have to cover things up – love one another
and try honestly to give each their just due
and there will be nothing to hide. All evils
shall be brought to light and all goods shall
be revealed in the day of reckoning. Fight
a good fight live a good life, love, be kind
and be ever attentive to the needs of those
around you and you will be blessed with
ever lasting happiness.

For I say unto you, many are called
but few are chosen, it is up to you to follow
the path of right. You can do My will or
reject My will. My will is the WAY, the
TRUTH and the life. The way to a long
lived happy life and to experience life is
through the truth. The truth in all things.
Do unto others as you would want them
to do unto you. Love one another and
cherish your precious moments you
have together.

The gift of children are the great gifts
of all, in them is life and
love and innocence. Cherish these
years when they are young and teach them
honesty and truth at all cost, for you are
molding them to bear fruit. They are My
precious gifts to you to have and hold and
teach. Your example is the way you teach.
Each moment is precious to behold
because when it is over it is gone forever.
More precious than jewels are the moments
of your lives because you will only live the
moment now and it is gone forever.

Make each moment precious, by loving
one another. God is first always – Before
anything else – any other order is OUT of
ORDER and does not work – any other
ORDER is not God’s order. His life is
simple – it is not confused,
it is simple LOVE AND TRUTH – these
are the jewels of each moment.
Do the will of God.

I am your God, you shall have
no other gods before me – not WEALTH,
FOOD, SEX, DRINK, I am your God
and I am first, when I am first, I give you
everything necessary to live. You are
working for Me, I will work in you, I will
make your life work, you let go and know
I am your captain. I love you and I know
what you need to make you happy. I
have your best interest at heart. Trust
in Me and come to Me and make your
ways, My ways. I love you more than
any other human person could love you.
I love you with My Divine Love. I am your
God and you are My precious creation, I
made you to love Me and love My other
children, do this and I will bless you with
peace. I am your God and I love you,
forever, every moment in every trial and in
every tear. I cried, I cried when Lazarus
died. I wept bitterly, I cried when I carried
My cross and felt betrayed and hurt, I
created your tears as a cleanser for you. A
way to release that which builds up in you.

I am your God, I hold your hand, I want
you to put your head in My lap and weep
and come to Me and tell Me of your joy,
I want you to be you, created by God, I am
there to listen and support and love you.
I am your best friend, and I love you more
than you can love yourself – trust Me with
your will and your life and I will make it
beautiful for you. Be happy and spread
your love to each other – the devil comes
with his lies. The devil says “You are not
enough, you didn’t do enough, you can’t
do it.” – I am your God, listen to Me not
the devil. Believe in your life living
according to your vocation for My honor
and glory. Don’t be jealous, angry, envious,
mean seeking dominance for dominance
sake –

Don’t be willful. Do God’s will with love.
You were created by Me, I LOVE you
My precious child.

 

April 17, 1992 - Good Friday

R. Dear Jesus,

I am sorry for my sins. I am sorry You had
to suffer for my sins. Thank You for coming to
earth and taking on a little baby body to save
me and my family.

Thank You for Your pain and Your sorrow
and Your tears, Jesus. Thank You my God.

Oh Jesus, my Savior –
Thank You for giving me the gift of faith –
I am Your child, God!
I give my will and my life to You.
I want You to talk to me.
I want to know how You want
me to act.

Dear Father, thank You for creating me.
Dear Jesus, give me Your gentleness and
Your love, Your compassion and help me to
give myself for others.

I love You Jesus, I love You with my whole
heart and my whole soul.
God is guiding me on the right path today.

 

April 30, 1992

R. Dear God, help me to do Your will, fill me
with Your love and Your goodness so

I can be like You and give myself
to others as You intend.

Jesus: You are My most precious child,
I love you every minute of the
day, I dwell in you, I love
you and I am in your heart –
teach all about My love for them,
teach them about the Eucharist –
I am blessing you in so
many ways. I love you, I
am taking care of you –

I am your God, I am ever present in
your life,
I guard you –
I am watching you –
I do not slumber –
I do not sleep –
I constantly watch over you.
I am your God.

 

 

May 2, 1992 - Saturday

R. My Dearest Jesus,
Please help me to do Your will – fill me
with Your love and goodness so I can give to
others what You want me to give them.

Jesus: You are My precious child, I love you every minute of the day. I am in you and I love you, I am in your heart – teach your children to love Me – teach them about the Eucharist – I am blessing you each in a special way. I love you and I will take care of you – I am there for you. I am your God, ever present in your life, guarding you, watching out for you. I neither slumber or sleep. I am your God. I constantly watch out for you. I love you.

 

May 8, 1992

Jesus: Pray for them, I will
strengthen you and show you the
way to walk. I will make
your enemies your footstools -
I will fill you with My grace and
love through you. I will make
you as an instrument to spread
My love. I love you, My most
dear precious child, I love you. You
are kind, and caring and giving and
loving and ask so very little in
return. I will love through
you, you are My precious
child, hold fast to Me and
never let go of Me. I love you.

 

May 9, 1992

Jesus: Though you walk in raging waters –
you will not drown, you are precious to Me.
Live your life in the joy of Christ –
My light is within you lighting your path,
Feel My presence and My warmth
within you, I am here My daughter
My arms embrace you and
My touch is there for you,
I hold you.

R. Dear Jesus
I am Your servant Lord, I give
You my will and my life –
I surrender and ask Your forgiveness
for all my errors and ask You to
wipe away any hate and anger and
anxiety with Your spiritual
healing rays, I am here and I
feel Your rays in my heart
cleaning out my debris –
please let me live in the now
in happiness and joy –
Jesus, my Savior, Father, my Creator,
Holy Spirit my Sanctifier give to me
Your gifts of wisdom, knowledge,
understanding.