R. Let us put ourselves in this room and feel very, very close to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. Let us see His burning Heart, filled with such love for each one of us and know that as we are here, that He is guarding our every breath and our every heartbeat, in deepest love, that we are never alone and that He is forever with us.

The Agony of Our Lord in the Garden

1. R. Let us be with Jesus as He knelt in the garden, put ourselves there against that darkened night and feel the anguish that He felt in His Heart: To know all the sins, of all men, from all times, all the ugly, terrible sins, from the beginning to this present time!

2. R. The anguish was so great in His Heart for Jesus loves each and every soul so much that He gave Himself for love of them.

3. R. As we meditate on the mysteries of the rosary we see the life of Jesus and how He lived. He came to show us the way and His way was sacrifice. As we meditate on these mysteries of the rosary, these sorrowful mysteries, let us see His way. His way is the way of sacrifice.

4. R. Look at all of the terms that are used this day - terms that are used for love. Love is giving of oneself. As we meditate on these mysteries of this rosary, let us see how Jesus gave Himself in greatest love of us. Let us think in our mind how He gives Himself to us this day in the Holy Eucharist. We received Him.

5. R. The world cries out to be fed – the world that is hurting and in pain, that is so involved in such vile deeds, when Jesus comes with a gentle and kind Heart and gives Himself to us. How many reject His love? How He suffered in the Garden, with such pain and anguish in His Heart, for He loves with the deepest love and He cries out for us to come and be so close to Him. He is ignored and forgotten and treated with such disrespect. His name is used in vain, but not spoken with love many times as it should be. We should be kind to Jesus and He loves us so much.

6. R. Jesus calls out how He wants everyone to know how much He loves and we do not hear these words because we do not want to sacrifice. We think that we can do it our way. Jesus comes and He shows us the way. Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. Nothing feeds the starved soul but the love of God.

7. R. Jesus' apostles slept. Jesus calls out to us this day, "Can you not watch one hour with Me?" Who are we that God loves us so much that the Father sent, His only begotten Son into this world and that He gave Himself for love of us on the cross? Jesus gives Himself to us this day in the Holy Eucharist. When we receive the Holy Eucharist, when we are so deeply connected to Him, tell Him how we want to help make reparation to His Heart for all of the neglect and indifference against His precious Heart.

8. R. You know how it is to love someone so much and to be rejected. Jesus is love. Jesus loves with the most perfect love. How His Heart was in anguish for the rejection of those that He loved so dearly. Jesus knelt in the Garden against the darkened night. We walk in this world, this day, that is clouded and surrounded by darkness and as He lives in us we become the lights that shine in this darkness. Let us, in this rosary, open up our hearts wide and let Him unite, deeper and deeper, to us, that He will live in us, more and more and shine His light to this darkened world through us.

9. Hail Mary
10. Hail Mary

 

The Scourging of Our Lord at the Pillar

Song: Come unto me all who are weary and find rest for your soul

1. R. So many times in this world today we are persecuted in the workplace, by those that we come in contact with, for professing our love of God. Jesus is alive and He lives in our hearts. As we meditate on this mystery, see Jesus bound to the pillar, His hands tied, and look at the faces of the men who beat Jesus.

2. Jesus: They will laugh at you, My beloved ones. I am Jesus. I am calling to you to be strong soldiers in this world, to stand as lights, that shine, in the darkest night.

3. R. Jesus' way is love. His way is always love. We see Him bound at the pillar in perfect peace. Jesus did not resist His attackers. Jesus, the Son of God, accepted all that was given to Him.

4. R. Look at the world today and see how the world talks about love.

5. R. Then look at the face of Jesus. See the wounds, to His head from the men that beat Him, the wounds that covered His back, the raw wounds. Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. Jesus came to show us the way - His way is sacrifice.

6. R. Jesus gave Himself that we could share in His life.

7. R. All through the day we go through struggles. It is in accepting these struggles that we live and we share in His life, death and resurrection in our lives. Let the light of Jesus shine from us to the world that is so covered with darkness. Let our hearts be open and let His radiant love flow from us to this world.

8. R. Look at Jesus as He stands at the pillar and see the men as they beat Him, as they raise their arms and the whips come down and tear His precious skin. This is Jesus Christ, the Son of God. He gives Himself for us. We do not realize how dearly He truly loves us. Who are we that God put on a human body and allowed Himself to be scourged and beaten for love of us and we whimper and complain about the little crosses we are asked to bear when they are great gifts that He gives us to share more fully in His life.

9. Hail Mary
10. Hail Mary

 

The Crowning with Thorns

R. Jesus comes and He shows us His Heart, surrounded by thorns, thorns that press into His Heart for the indifference and the neglect of those He loves so dearly.

1. R. Do we know how Jesus longs for us to come to Him and to tell Him how much we love Him? How He wants us to talk to Him all through the day. How He is attentive at every moment and loves us and cares for every single thing that we do. Jesus cares for us more than any human person could love us, He wants us to talk to Him.

2. R. How these words of love comforted Jesus during His bitter Passion - the words that we speak to Him today, when we go to Him and tell Him our heartfelt love and tell Him, Jesus, Jesus how I love you, how I love you - Jesus, my beloved!

3. R. They pounded into His precious head, a sharp crown of piercing thorns, that pierced His skull in so many places. The red blood from our Savior ran down His head, down His face, and into His hair. This is the love He shows us – a head crowned with thorns and a face smeared with dripping blood.

4. R. Jesus tenderly tells us over and over again: I love you, I love you! How do we respond to this love given from our precious Jesus? He loves to hear us all through the day, tell Him how much we love Him.

5. R. Do we pray at church, or pray when we are quiet in our room and then leave the room and when we are with others forget how one in us, He wants to be? How Jesus wants to operate through us as we go about our way in this world. Jesus wants to be one in us in all of our actions. Jesus wants us to know that in all of our cares that He is listening and He is by us, Jesus is comforting us.

6. Song: I Love You Jesus

7. Hail Mary
8. Hail Mary
9. Hail Mary
10. Hail Mary

R. How tenderly He loves us that He gave Himself for love of us.

 

Jesus Carries His Cross

R. Jesus stood, His hands were tied and Jesus was surrounded by those He came to save, by those He loved, by those He was willing to give His life for. Jesus stood there silent and the crowd shouted, "Crucify Him, Crucify Him!"

1. R. How many times today do we feel that we are alone in this world? We are so close to God and the world seems to be so far from God. Do we hear the crowd? They called to Jesus, crucify Him, crucify Him - Jesus, the Son of God was rejected by those He came to save - why should we think that we will be treated any differently this day when we go into the world and talk about Jesus?

2. R. They gave to Jesus a heavy cross that He carried on His back and He fell to the ground. I see His face against the ground and the cross on His back. How many times today do we try so hard to spread the love of Jesus and we are met with such opposition and rejection? We know in our hearts His deep and burning love. We are the lights that He is sending into this darkened world filled with His grace and His love.

3. R. (Mary is illuminated and lights are flashing all around her.) This is our Sorrowful Mother with a sword in her heart and how many times I have sat here and heard her call out to deliver this message of burning love to this world, to come to the Eucharist and be filled as He outpours His grace. The grace that He gives to us whereby we participate more fully in His life. We see our Sorrowful Mother with a sword in her heart and we vow to go into this world and to carry that light in the darkness. Our hearts are filled with love of her Son. We beg you, Mary, to ask your Spouse, the Holy Spirit, to give us all that we need, to do what You are asking of us.

4. R. Jesus comes with a gentle and kind Heart, a Heart that is filled with burning love for love of us. Jesus' greatest agonies are not the agonies suffered to His body, the flesh that was torn, the crowning with thorns - they were the agonies suffered to His most precious Heart filled with the deepest love for men. (She is so beautiful!)

5. Song: A Song from Jesus

R. Let us thank God for all the great graces that He has given to us and let us return to Him our great love.

6. R. Jesus fell three times on the way to Calvary. How many times do we fall and we want to give up. Then we go to Him and He fills our hearts with His burning love. Let us thank Jesus for allowing us to share in His life, whether it be suffering or joy, to walk in the world with Jesus and to share in His life.

7. R. Let us go to that heart of the Sorrowful Mother that watched her Son Jesus as He fell to the ground. Jesus' hands were nailed to the cross. Let us go to her heart and ask her to help us love her Son, Jesus, through her heart as she loved her Son Jesus.

8. Hail Mary
9. Hail Mary
10. Hail Mary

 

Jesus was Crucified and Dies on the Cross

R. The beloved cross of Jesus, the cross that the Savior died on. Let us forever keep before our eyes the cross of Christ, for in this vision, we know more fully, His tremendous love for us. Let us see Jesus on the crucifix and love the crucifix. Look at Jesus' hands that are pierced with the nails, think of how Jesus hung and of how they tore the tissue from Jesus' hands. Let us meditate on the wounds of our Savior. These are the wounds of His love for us.

1. R. Jesus gave Himself for love of us. At every Mass let us unite with the sacrifice of Jesus, to the Father, that we may die to those ways that are not like His, that we may offer ourselves as a sacrifice with Jesus, to the Father - the most pleasing sacrifice to the Father, the gift of His Son!

2. R. Let us unite with the priest at those precious moments when the bread is changed into the Body of Christ and the wine is changed into His Blood - this gift that takes place in every Mass through the hands of the priest, what a gift it is. Let us pray for greater grace to participate more fully in this gift of the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass.

3. R. We join in this intimate act of love between Divinity and humanity when God gives Himself to us. Let us give ourselves to Him and not hold anything back.

4. R. In this most intimate act, God gives Himself to us in the Holy Eucharist. We search and we look for love, when nothing on the face of the earth can compare to this great gift that God gives to us in the Mass. Jesus gives Himself to us in the Holy Eucharist. I see Him hanging on the cross, Jesus' head and Jesus' face covered with blood. Jesus' pierced hands and feet pierced. This is our beloved Savior. Jesus gave Himself! Jesus' Heart pierced with a lance. Jesus gives Himself to us today. Jesus is neglected and treated with such indifference, such irreverence and such disrespect, when we should be in such awe for what we are given in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass.

    Let us, at every Eucharist, help make reparation to Jesus' adorable Heart for the injustices and the offenses against Him. Let us make reparation to the Heart of our beloved Mother for the blasphemies against her Immaculate Heart. Let us keep forever the cross of Christ before our eyes and love the cross that we know more and more, His deep and burning love for us. It is Death/Resurrection. In baptism we receive a sharing in His life. In suffering we can grow in greater life in Him.

5. Hail Mary
6. Hail Mary
7. Hail Mary

8. R. Let us make the Stations very often. It is in walking the Way of the Cross in the Stations with Him that we understand more and more the Passion and Way of the Cross and so His immense love for us. See Mary as she holds the lifeless body of her Son in her arms under the cross. Jesus always did the Father's will. Mary always complied to the Father's will. It is in following the Father's will that we will have peace and joy in our lives. I see Jesus in her arms under the cross. To Jesus' death He complied to the Father's will. This is the love that Jesus has for us - that Jesus gave Himself on the cross, and He gives Himself to us this day in the Holy Eucharist. He calls out, "tell them, Rita, tell them, how I long for their love, how I wait and how I thirst for them to come to spend time with Me." Jesus wants us to talk to Him all through the day, to tell Him of our love for Him. Let us pray for the grace to know, love and serve God more.

9. Hail Mary
10. Hail Mary

January 10, 1996 - 9:00 a. m. at Mass

Emptying Yourself is the Only Way

R. Jesus gave Himself as the greatest sacrifice ever, totally emptying Himself. They pierced His Heart and what flowed out was blood and water. When we love Him we empty ourselves more and more and identify with Jesus' sacrifice of offering Himself. I realized how I was to empty myself because I love Him so much.

    In the Psalm of the Good Shepherd, it says, .."And I will dwell in the courts of the Lord for years to come." My whole desire is to be united with Him in deepest union forever, our lives have meaning in this.

    With all my heart I offer myself as a sacrifice for the spread of the devotion to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary and Their intentions. My whole consuming desire is for this intention of giving myself to God, to use me as you want to, according to the Father's Plan.

    Such love for the Father, giving myself to Him, imperfect as I am, but such great love for Him. The Gospel was about the Father - this overwhelmed me with love for Him, seeing how He is one with Jesus, but knowing Him as My beloved Father. Great joy in this oneness with God. I love the Trinity - I love each Person of the Trinity, I love God.

    I want to give the greatest love to God. The greatest love I can give is in emptying myself - it is in sacrifice wanting the Father's will for me. My great love for Him compels me to see no alternative. I love Him so much. I give myself freely without counting the cost. There is not another way.

    In my overwhelming love for Him I totally empty myself and realizing there is not another way, for to love Him is to give myself to Him as He desires.

    The greatest gift I can give to others is giving myself to Him. Jesus emptied Himself. I understand more, emptying myself with all my heart. Wanting to love Him more, I learn to empty myself, pray for self-lessness.

    We are to love Him with all our heart, all our soul, all our being. Our greatest desire is God's will. We should love to be united to Him in deepest union for all eternity, there is not a choice. It takes giving of oneself, emptying oneself to Him and giving great love to others.

    It is in the Mass we give the greatest love to God as we join in this sacrifice with His Son, Jesus. The Mass, offered through the hands of the priest, to the Father.

    Jesus emptied Himself and gave His all. In the Mass this sacrifice is sacramentally made present. We unite, we die to our selfish ways. When the priest raises up the Host and says, "This is My Body", the Father looks down and sees the sacrifice of His Son. We unite and give ourselves, give our all, offer ourselves, as a sacrifice to the Father, united to Jesus. When the priest raises up the chalice and says, "This is My Blood", we give ourselves - we empty ourselves, and we want to die to all that is not like Him. We die to live more in Him. Jesus feeds us with His Body and His Blood and He gives to us the "Bread of Life."

    He tells us, "I am the Bread of Life. He who comes to Me shall not be hungry." Look at the world. Look at the hungry souls. Jesus gives Himself to us, to feed us. He feeds us with His very own Body and Blood.

    As we unite in this Holy Sacrifice all over the world all day we can unite to the Mass. We see the Body and Blood of Christ raised and elevated in our hearts, we unite every moment of the day in our self-sacrificing gift of our love, given to God.

    We die to our ways not like Jesus and offer ourselves united to Jesus as a sacrifice to the Father. We receive an outpouring of His grace – His life more and more in abundance, dying that we share in His life. All through the day make spiritual communions and unite to this gift of Himself given in the Holy Eucharist. The greatest gift of our love is to empty ourselves and give ourselves to God.

   

January 10, 1996

Priests Raise High the Host

R. This offering continues all day in all our actions, if we unite them to the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass. We offer ourselves as a sacrifice. We die with Him, that we will raise to new life more and more in Him. Our every action is an offering with Jesus, His Son, to the Father in the Holy Spirit.

    This is our continual love, given to God and to all men, as we unite in this our offering. Whatever we do, if it is the Will of the Father, we are offering a great act of love to God.

    Through Him, With Him, and In Him, I die with Jesus and unite in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass.

Special Moments in the Mass:

    Let us celebrate the Mystery of God's love. Let us open our hearts to the graces He gives us that we may understand more fully the great gift of the Mass. Jesus Christ gives Himself to us. Who are we that God gave Himself as a sacrifice on the cross for love of us and the sacrifice of Calvary is sacramentally made present in the Mass, all over the world all day.

    Help us to receive graces to understand more fully this Divine Mystery of God's love and to treasure the gift of Himself, given to us in the Holy Eucharist.

    The world is so hungry, waiting to be fed and He comes with a kind and gentle Heart and gives us the gift of Himself. The world is looking for the perfect love affair. Jesus gives Himself to us and we give ourselves to Him in the deepest act of intimate love in the Mass.

    When the priest mixes the drop of water with the wine and says, "let us share in the Divinity of Christ, who humbled Himself to share in our humanity." Think of this God who gives us a sharing in His life.

    The first miracle at Cana was when God changed water into wine. How great it would be to witness this miracle. How much greater is the gift of the Mass when, through the hands of the priest, bread is changed into the Body of Christ and wine is changed into His Blood.

    I pray the priest raises high the consecrated host that I may love this gift more and more in the Mass, that I may see the great love of God, more and more. Let's spread this message about the intimate love of God at Mass.

    I want to adore His Body and adore His Blood, and to offer my all - to the Father.

    Every word of the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass is so beautiful. Let us savor these special words of greatest love.

    I see the hands of the priest as so sacred. He is so sacred and chosen by God. Such dignity and love should be given to the priest!

   

January 11, 1996

The More I Give to Jesus, the More One I Am

R. Last night at Mass I had such an experience at St. Gertrude's. I was overwhelmed with offering myself united to Jesus as a sacrifice to the Father, in the Holy Spirit.

    They surrounded Him and cried "crucify Him". He carried the cross and offered no resistance.

    I realized, to have a love relationship with God, an intimate love relationship, there must be self giving on my part. I must give myself! An intimate act is the giving of each person to the other.

    I am overwhelmed in wanting to give myself to God. I am filled with this great grace and all I see is Him and His magnificence and I want to give Him my all.

    The more I give, the more intimate the act, the more I empty myself, the more intimate the act between Him and me. The more I give of myself, the deeper the intimacy.

    Yesterday I had a good day, realizing how He is truly with me and attentive to me at every second.

    I recognize it as a sharing in His Passion and He is in control. I accept the cross and seek to live His life, death and resurrection in my life. I am giving myself to Him.

    I see my wretchedness, in this self-giving. How far I am from being like Him! I realize the Holy Spirit will have to change me to be more like Jesus.

    Mary conceived Jesus in her womb through the power of the Holy Spirit.

   

Tuesday, Before the Tabernacle

Glorious Mysteries

The Resurrection

1. R. What a great gift that we are given in Baptism: a sharing in His Divine Life. The price that Jesus paid is His life that He gave for us on the cross. See Jesus as He hangs on the cross, His face covered with blood and crowned with thorns, His body withered, His hands and feet pierced. He gave the last drop of His blood and the last beat of His Heart. He showed us the way. His way is the way of total surrender. He gave His all and He remains with us this day in this room.

    Jesus Christ, the same Jesus that walked the earth, the Son of God, remains in this room, in the tabernacle, and is longing and waiting for us to tell Him how deeply we love Him and give ourselves to Him. He wants intimacy with Him. Love is giving - He gives to us and we give to Him. This is the sharing of this intimacy between Him and us. The more we give of ourselves, the more we die to ourselves in the ways that are not like Him. The more we surrender ourselves, the deeper our relationship with Him becomes, for it is a relationship. He outpours His love to us. We partake more fully as we surrender and give more of ourselves to Him.

    Jesus calls each one of us here in this Shepherds of Christ Movement to deeper intimacy with Him. We have been called and we have been chosen. We are a light that He is sending into this world to take the message of His love and Jesus asks for holiness - holiness in all of our actions, for it is in our speech and the way that we conduct ourselves that we preach the mightiest lessons of His love for us. We are receiving great graces from Him as He promised, to carry out this mission. You have been called and you have been chosen. We have the greatest treasure that there is: the love of God, Jesus Christ, truly present in this room and giving Himself to us. This is a rosary about life, about sharing in His life through baptism and He feeds this life with Himself. We grow more and more in this graced life. We live His life, death and resurrection in our lives.

    To know Him a little is to want so much more, for nothing on the face of this earth is like the love of God. Let us open up our hearts and let Him fill us with His Divine Love that we may be more and more satisfied.

2. Song: Come give me life, abundant life, I thirst to be with Thee

3. R. I see the withered body of Jesus as He hung on the cross and I see Him as He comes forth from the tomb, glistening in light, His glorified wounds - the Almighty God!

4. R. We cannot even comprehend the glory that awaits us. To know Him a little is to know how wonderful it is to share more and more in His life. Jesus wants to abundantly fill us with this life. We must spend time with Jesus. Jesus has the time for us, we are the ones that keep ourselves from Him. We busy ourselves and become more and more busy - and does the work really get done? Jesus calls us to spend time each day to put the fragmented pieces of our life together, for our source of this life is from Him. When we are Baptized we receive a sharing in His Life: the Father, Son and Holy Spirit live within us in a special way. As we go out to the world, as we interact, we must come to the interior of our hearts to know what Jesus is telling us about Himself and about our lives.

    If we do not spend this time every day with Jesus we miss what God wants to communicate to us. This world in many ways has turned godless. It is in these precious moments that we spend with Him that He feeds us, that He comforts us and He fills us deeply with His love. He calls each one of us this evening to make a commitment to Him that we will take time each day to be alone with Him. No matter how busy the day is, that we find time in our day to just sit with Him and enjoy the presence of the Almighty God within our hearts.

5. Jesus: In your busyness you have forgotten how much I am calling you to come and to be with Me. I am calling you this evening in a special way to a commitment to spend time alone every day with the Almighty God.

6. R. You do not see that if we run down the road at a fast pace it doesn't matter if it is the wrong road, or how fast that we ran down the road, if we spin our wheels and we do not go anywhere. It doesn't matter how fast we spin our wheels. Jesus is the Almighty God. He is so present to us. He knows our every thought, our every desire in our heart, and He stands by us and He says to us, "what are you doing? I am here. I am with you. Come to the silence of your heart and know My peace and My love."

7. R. Jesus paid such a price for us to share in His life. What a treasure, that we receive this sharing in His Divine life in baptism.

8. Hail Mary
9. Hail Mary

10. Jesus: You look the other way and I stand and knock on the door of your heart. I want such intimacy with you, My beloved ones. Surrender and give yourselves to Me. Quit controlling your lives, surrender and let go. Come to Me. I am Lord and Master of your life. I guard you. I watch you. I am attentive to your every need.

Sing: God's Love

 

The Ascension of Our Lord into Heaven

Acts 1: 9-11

     As he said this he was lifted up while they looked on, and a cloud took him from their sight. They were still staring into the sky as he went, when suddenly two men in white were standing beside them, and they said, ‘Why are you Galileans standing here looking into the sky? This Jesus who has been taken up from you into heaven will come back in the same way as you have seen him go to heaven.’

R. Before Jesus ascended into Heaven, He gave to the apostles the power to baptize and to forgive sins.

1. R. He took them out to the town near Bethany. Jesus raised His arms and He ascended into Heaven.

2. R. They stood in utter amazement as the cloud took Him from their sight.

3. R. Jesus promised to send the Holy Spirit to them. The apostles were filled with fear and they locked themselves in the upper room.

4. R. We see Mary in the Visitation as she greets Elizabeth and she tells her the good news. I see Jesus ascend into Heaven and He leaves behind the apostles to carry out His work and we see how the Church has grown this day. We are commissioned in Baptism to carry out His life, death, and resurrection in our lives. As we go through our lives we carry out His life, death and resurrection. We walk the walk to Calvary with Him. We fall under the cross. We are persecuted and misunderstood, we are rejected, we share more fully in the life of Jesus. Many may stand around us, ridicule us as they ridiculed Jesus, but we know in our hearts of the love of God. We know what it is to share in this intimacy with the Almighty God and nothing: persecution, ridicule, falling to the ground, spitting in our face, can stop us, for we have been called and we have been chosen as His special apostles to go out to this world and to carry out His life, death and resurrection in our lives.

    Jesus asked us to model our lives after Him. See Jesus in all of His actions. Would He act like me? Would He talk like me? Is there holiness in this action? Jesus is calling us to be His apostles and He is giving to us great graces to grow ever more in our lives in Him. We must constantly look at our actions and see that they are the actions of holiness for He calls us and we have been chosen for this special mission to go into this world that is suffering and in pain and to carry the Gospel  message - the Good News - we are commissioned in baptism to do this.

    We are to be examples in all that we do and in all that we say. Jesus ascended into Heaven but He remains with us this day and He gives to us the bread of life. He gives us His Body and His Blood, to nourish us and He asks us in every Mass that we unite in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass and die to ourselves and offer our lives as an offering to the Father. We are to die to those things that are not like Him, that we may be more and more holy and that we unite in deep intimacy with Him in Communion. Let us open our hearts and let Him work within us.

Song: A Song from Jesus

Jesus: I come to you this day.

Song: A Song from Jesus

Jesus: I call you to holiness. I call you to consecration, to consecrate your hearts every day, to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary. You are My apostles and you are commissioned in Baptism to carry out My life, death and resurrection in your lives.

5. R. Are you hungry? Nothing, nothing feeds the starved soul but the love of God.

Song: I Am the Bread of Life

6. Hail Mary
7. Hail Mary
8. Hail Mary

9. Jesus: Many are called but few are chosen. I have chosen you, My beloved ones for intimate union with Me. Open wide your hearts and let Me fill you with My life.

10. Hail Mary

 

The Descent of the Holy Spirit

R. They were gathered in the upper room with the Blessed Virgin Mary and there was a gigantic-like wind and there appeared over their heads parted tongues of fire and they were filled with the Holy Spirit and they were transformed from fear into fearlessness.

1. R. They went out to preach the Gospel message and they were not afraid for they knew the love of God. To unite with love itself is to be absent of fear.

    Dear Holy Spirit, descend upon us and work in us to make us holy!

2. R. I look at myself, especially at the Consecration of the Mass, and I want to die to all those things that are not like Him, and to be more like Him. I know that I want to be holy, but it takes the action of the Holy Spirit working to sanctify me, to be more and more like Him.

Dear God, help us at every Mass to unite deeper with Jesus, in this offering to the Father, that we can die to the ways that are not like God. Holy Spirit, work within us to sanctify us more and more to be like Him.

3. R. They went out to preach the Gospel Message. Many were converted. They went from town to town. They were locked in prisons. They did not care. They got out singing for they knew the love of God. Give us this fearlessness in the world that has turned cold in many ways toward God. We are sorry the world uses the name of God in vain and does not treat You with the reverence that You deserve. Give us the courage to go out and to speak up for God and to act as You want us to act!

4. R. Help us to unite in such oneness with You that we are as St. Paul says

Galatians 2: 19-20 ...I have been crucified with Christ and yet I am alive; yet it is no longer I, but Christ living in me.

R. Help us to live your life, death and resurrection in our lives. Thank you for this special sharing in Your life. Help our face to radiate the life within - this sharing in Your life within us. Help our actions and speech to be as you want. Help us to put on Christ in all of our actions, that we will preach the Gospel in all of our ways and help us to ask ourselves, would Christ act like this?

5. Hail Mary
6. Hail Mary
7. Hail Mary
8. Hail Mary

9. Jesus: Your answers are found within each moment. Take time to be alone with Me.

10. Jesus: My dear sweet one, I want to be so close to you. Open wide your heart and let Me enter into your hearts and join in the deepest intimacy with you. Surrender and let go, die to yourselves that you will live in Me. I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. It is in Me that you will have peace and joy in your hearts. As you are in your hearts, so shall you be in this world. You are the lights that I am sending into the dark night. Let your hearts be forever pure that your lights will shine the brightest light. I am Jesus, I am calling you to this close union with Me.

 

The Assumption of the Blessed Mother

R. Our Blessed Lady was taken into Heaven.

1. R. Mary is the Mother of our Christ-life. Mary is our spiritual Mother, given to us as Jesus died on the cross. It is in her heart that we are sanctified through the action of the Holy Spirit. Christ was formed in Mary's womb, through Power of the Holy Spirit. We go to Mary's Heart and the Holy Spirit sanctifies us more and more. Let us pray to the Holy Spirit to make us holy, that He works within the heart of Mary and brings us to greater holiness, that we may dwell deeper and deeper in the Heart of Jesus.

 

From Tell My People by Fr. Edward Carter, S.J.

The Holy Spirit

Jesus: "My beloved friend, tell My people to pray daily to the Holy Spirit. They are to pray for an increase in His gifts. My people must realize that the Holy Spirit comes to transform them. The Spirit desires to transform you more and more according to My image. Those who are docile to His touch become increasingly shaped in My likeness. He performs this marvel within Mary's Immaculate Heart. The more one dwells in My Mother's Heart, the more active are the workings of the Spirit. The Spirit leads Mary to place you within My own Heart. In both Our Hearts, then, your transformation continues. The more you are formed after My own Heart, the more I lead you to the bosom of My Father. Tell My people all this. Tell them to pray daily for a greater appreciation of these wondrous gifts. I am Lord and Master. All who come to My Heart will be on fire to receive the gifts of the Spirit in ever greater measure! I love and bless My people!"

Reflection: The Holy Spirit is given to us to fashion us ever more according to the likeness of Jesus. And the more we are like Jesus, the more Jesus leads us to the Father. Do we, each day, pray to the Holy Spirit to be more open to His transforming influence? Do we strive each day to grow in union with Mary? The greater our union with our Mother, the spouse of the Holy Spirit, the greater is the transforming action of the Holy Spirit within us.

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2. R. I see myself in the heart of Mary with the Holy Spirit and the Holy Spirit acts, working on me and I am united in deeper union in the Heart of Jesus, this endless cavern of Divine Love and the deeper I unite to Jesus in His Heart, the more I am united to the Father, for Jesus is one with the Father. We cannot even imagine what it is to be united in this deep union and know the Father, Son and Holy Spirit dwelling within our heart.

3. R. Let us go to the heart of our Mother and dwell there, that we may be united more and more to the Trinity.

4. Song: I am Your Sacred Heart

R. Mary is the Mother of our Christ-life. Mary places us deeper and deeper into Jesus' Heart and we unite with Jesus more and more. We unite with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

5. R. We receive Jesus in the Eucharist. He gives Himself to us. Jesus is one with the Father and the Holy Spirit. If we receive the Almighty God, who are we that we are given this great gift and that we take it so lightly? This is our little heaven on earth - dwelling in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary.

6. R. In the troubled world and in all of the things that press down on us in this world today, let us realize that the true treasure that we seek is within our hearts, so we dwell in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. If we are in the state of grace, the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, live within us. We need this time each day to be alone and to just be with God that loves us so much that He gives us a sharing in His life in baptism. When we go to Jesus, He gives to us knowledge of Himself and knowledge about ourselves. We will find our answers within these precious moments that we spend with Him.

7. Hail Mary
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9. Hail Mary
10. Hail Mary

 

Mary is Crowned Queen of Heaven and Earth

Revelation 12:1  Now a great sign appeared in heaven: a woman, robed with the sun, standing on the moon, and on her head a crown of twelve stars.

1. R. Mary is the highest human person and she was chosen as the Mother of God. How many today blaspheme our beloved Mother? It is in giving her, our Mother, honor, that we realize how much God loves us, that He came into this world in the womb of Mary, a human person, that Mary became the Mother of God, that Mary was conceived without sin, that she conceived the Christ Child by the Power of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is the Spouse of Mary. We are to honor Mary. We realize how much God loves His creatures. Mary is the Mother of God and our Mother.

Luke 1: 35  The angel answered, ‘The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will cover you with its shadow. And so the child will be holy and will be called Son of God.

2. R. Jesus wants His Heart venerated next to the heart of His Mother - this is how He loves His Mother. How it offends Jesus when Mary is ridiculed and treated irreverently!

3. R. Mary wants us to make reparation to her Immaculate Heart for the blasphemies against her, against her as Mother of God, against her Immaculate Conception, against her as a Virgin. At every Communion let us tell Mary how much we love her.

4. R. At every Communion let us help make reparation to the Heart of Jesus for the injustices and the indifference to Him.

5. Hail Mary

6. R. Let us honor Mary and realize that in dwelling in Mary's heart that we will unite more and more to the Almighty God. It is in dwelling in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, Fr. Carter, said it is our little heaven on earth.

7. R. Let this be our greatest desire, to be united with the Almighty God forever and ever in heaven.

8. R. Let us go to the heart of Mary and unite deeper to the Almighty God.

9. R. Let us consecrate our hearts daily to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary and turn our lives over to Them and ask the Holy Spirit to work within Mary's heart to make us holy, that we will carry His great love to this world.

10. Song: Eve Has Not Seen

R. Let us unite in one heart with the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. Let us be in one mind and one heart in Jesus. Satan is division, he prowls this earth trying to trip us up. The Immaculate Heart of Mary will triumph and the Sacred Heart of Jesus will reign, when we consecrate our hearts to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, not in words spoken but in reality, we must consecrate ourselves and give our all to Jesus and Mary and beg the Holy Spirit to make us holy and spread these prayers and the Consecration to the Two Hearts to all.

January 16, 1996

Speak from Your Heart

R. We become one in Him. He lives in us in this world. He acts through us. We live to serve God do His work. This world is godless. Many today have turned their backs on God. Many times His name is used in vain and not spoken with the reverence He deserves.

    Jesus wants to dwell in our hearts. God communicates to us in our hearts. We go to the world and interact, but we go to our hearts to listen to His direction.

    If we spent days being in the world and do not take time to be alone with Him, we can get our answers from others and the world. We need time to sort out all the fragmented pieces we have collected in our lives and ask God's plan for us. God can communicate to us, also, through others, but we need time every day alone to listen to God. We need to spend time alone with God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit everyday. We need to hear the message what God uniquely wants to give to us about our life.

    Jesus says, "I am the vine, you are the branches." If the branches do not receive their nourishment from the vine, they wither and die. No two branches are the same, each one uniquely different. To bear fruit they must be nourished well.

    Our job is to spread the Kingdom of God - This is our calling, this takes knowing God's Plan for us. We can be busy and not do God's will and cause more confusion doing busy work. Do God's will. Pray to know it. Am I too busy to be alone with God?

    If I run down the wrong road at the fastest pace, if I spin my wheels in a rut, nothing is accomplished. When I am one with Him, He operates. His way is not speed, His way is precision. His way is right. His way is the way.

    When we do not go to God as our source we can be too busy doing the wrong thing. The devil is able to direct us to do things in haste. We must be rooted in God. The devil is paralyzing: his work is our mind. He fills us with pride, anger, envy, gluttony, and our starved souls can begin to wither. So as you are in your heart, you will be in this world.

    How can you speak from your heart when all you know is your own will? The mind must be in conjunction with the heart, the heart rooted in God. As a nurtured branch, a heart filled with His grace operates on His Plan.

    The mind, when the devil influences it, acts with vice many times: pride, anger, lust, gluttony, envy.

    The mind and the heart must be rooted in Him. We do not have a right to judge others, to make ourselves better than others. We have so many faults of our own. Spiritual directors and those in authority are to correct as God wants them to. We must stay rooted to the vine. We must have time alone with God. Our mind is to be united to God's Plan for us and we are to work for right reasoning, pray for right reasoning.

    We must have time with God to have a heart rooted in God - every day, time alone with God. Love is giving. We need peace in our homes - we need to consecrate ourselves and our homes to the Sacred Heart and Immaculate Heart.

    I want to be with God before the tabernacle. Here at Immaculata Church I came in and saw Jesus again transfigured. I just wanted to be with God, to be alone and to be so one with Him. I am in awe of Him. I just love Him so much. I have been here three hours and I am so sad I only have one hour left. For the past three days I was unable to be here. I just long and want to know more about Him and be with Him and pray each word of each prayer so slowly and ponder it.

    I have had pains, especially in my left foot and my hands. My body aches and my knees feel as if I don't want to walk. I just want to love Him so much. I love Him - I love Him - I love Him.

 

January 17, 1996

Jesus Lives in Me

R. These wounds hurt our beloved Savior, when some betrayed their friendship with God to do evil. Jesus is our friend. Sometimes more than one treated Jesus with disrespect and criticism.

    To live Christ's life in our life, to live His death, to share in His sufferings, this is the greatest gift of all. We walk the walk, not knowing the great gift He is outpouring and allowing us to suffer to know Him more and share in His life.

    I know today what He gives me is to teach me lessons that I may be more like Him. The hardest thing, it seems to me, is to be mistreated by several friends.

    I show the world the Jesus that lives within. I want to be a light. People act according to how deeply united they are to God. All different levels. To be like Him we must die to all that is not like Him and beg for the grace to be made holy.

    I want to be like Jesus. To do this I must be willing to look at my faults, see my sins, my weaknesses, the way I am not like Him.

    I love God so much. The statue was transfigured and He had on different garments. I realized His humanity.

 

January 17, 1996

Take Time for God

R. There is so little love given this day. We can seek to receive and not give. We can seek others to fill us when only God can. Love is giving. Love takes time. God is the source of all love and so few have time to spend with Him and learn as He teaches the mysteries of His love.

    How can we love one another when we do not have time for God, who is love? We can be too busy to care, too busy to love, too busy to be Christ-like to others.

    We were created in the image and likeness of God, but are we acting like Him?

    Could we see Jesus talk about one another without love? Could we see Jesus rush by and not have time for anyone? Jesus came to give, He came to love, He came to serve.

    The world has made its end here and God speaks of the Kingdom to come. Open your hearts and you will know the mystery of His love.

January 21, 1996 - 6:00 a. m.

I am Rejected by Those Who Speak of Love

Jesus: How My Heart ached for the rejection of those I loved so dearly, some of My beloved priests and religious. I am espoused to them in a special way, and I am treated with such disrespect and irreverence by many of them. They wear the titles, "Father" and "Sister" and do not even come to Me.

    It is being loved by an unfaithful spouse. They are busy for their own self-gratification and have forgotten the great title I have bestowed on them.

    They do not see how favored they are by Me, the Almighty God. They seek their love from all other sources.

    How it offends My aching Heart! The thorns that surround My Heart pierced deeply because of the indifference of some of My beloved priests and sisters.

    It is through their love I give such love to My flock and the devil has led them astray. My flock is withering and dying in their hearts for many of My chief shepherds have gone astray.

    I beg, beg, beg you to speak to the priests and religious, to spread My Second Blue Book to all priests. Do not worry about the funds. My flock is dying from within. Their hearts have shriveled within their chest. They go through motions.

    Do the priests stand before the people and preach the love of God from their hearts or from their mouths?

    The love given to Me from My religious is so shallow. I am rejected entirely by many, yet they continue to administer the Sacraments and carry their titles. They do not realize the great honor that is given to them!

    You suffer the pains in My Heart for My beloved religious. The rejection, the busyness, the lack of love – how this offends My tender Heart.

    The religious are My chosen ones. I picked them and gave them My tenderest love. Some have hearts that have turned to ice.

    The priest is the key to spreading the messages of My burning love in the Church. Many speak without emotion for in their hearts they are dead. They do not fill their own hearts with the love of God. They try to fill their hearts with the world and speak about the love of God.

    I lament the lack of love from My chosen priests. The families come, the hungry souls come to be fed and many priests do not feed their hunger.

    I love, I love so deeply My beloved religious. I cry out to spread these messages of My burning love.

    They are going through motions. My beloved flock comes to My altar with cold hearts. Many priests are cold in their hearts. The world is cold in their heart. The families that go to church are not being fed with messages of My burning love.

    Mass after Mass, after Mass is said lacking emotion. Where are the hearts that empty themselves? Please circulate the messages about the Mass. When will the time be right?

    I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. Unless the messages of My burning love are transmitted in the Church the bloodshed will continue. Your Church bears the marks of sin and suffering. My love, burning and on fire is the mighty medicine for the sick world and the Church. I beg you to circulate these messages on the Mass and the rosary. I am Jesus. My souls are hungry and begging to be fed.

    Pray for the priests as never before. Satan has waged a war against the priesthood. Priests and religious need to have a devotion to My Sacred Heart and My Mother's Immaculate Heart. Until hearts are consecrated to Our Hearts there will not be peace in the world. Consecrate your homes and your hearts to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary. 

    I love with the deepest burning love. I want hearts that love Me with a deep, burning love. Come to Me and I will teach you about love. Go to the world and you will be taught the things of the world. The hearts of many of the members of My Church have turned cold. Give them the messages of My burning love! Little children need to know how I love them! What good is it for a man to run down a road that leads nowhere?

    I am the Way. I am the only way. Life is not life if it is not rooted in Me.    

 

January 21, 1996

Stiff-necked

R. I want to describe what I saw January 20, 1996 when He revealed the oneness at Mass. I saw stiff-necked people, all disconnected, like straight pillars and tears filled me for I experienced the fire of His love deep within my heart and what He wanted at the Mass and I can still cry today from it. I know "stiff-necked". I know oneness.

R. In this message I received January 20, and January 21, 1996, I received deep insight into oneness.

I knew suffering for lack of oneness with each other and with God at the Mass.

At a 4:00 p.m. Mass on Saturday, January 20, 1996, I was given a light and a vision of the depth of oneness God wants for His people at Mass. I cried so hard. They looked so stiff-necked in the pews.

The depth of unity God wants for the members of the body of Christ we do not comprehend.

He can envelope us with His grace and give us such a light we can see so clearly a little glimpse of the depth of God's love. We can experience in a small way what God means when He says "the fire of God's love."

We can be so blind we do not even know the great gifts God is giving to us in the Eucharist.

We may not even realize how important Baptism is and what a gift it is.

I received these messages January 20 and 21, 1996. I suffered so. I went to Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center on a Sunday early on January 21, 1996 called by Our Lord and He gave me a vision and let me experience suffering for the lack of oneness in the world.

The light I was given concerning oneness is a part of the knowledge He has given to me to realize the importance of this mission to help lead men into oneness.

I was changed those two days from the knowledge given to me.

My heart suffers so for lack of oneness amongst men – amongst people in the churches, people in the world.

I remember these dates always for He opened up to me the light of knowing oneness. Giving me insight into how He wants it.

I cried and my heart was in such anguish I cannot describe it for the lack of oneness between people in the Church and the world.

I write from my heart, as a mystic, as one that has been given deep insights into the Divine Mysteries. It seems impossible to even try to describe what I know and yet my precious Jesus has asked me this January 20, 2001, 5 years later, to describe this here. Pray for grace to comprehend more what I try to describe.

I saw the priest and the people at Mass that January 20, 1996, and I knew the connection with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit and all the angels and saints. I knew more from the light given the depths of oneness He desires, and I could hardly stand the anguishing pain of the reality of what He wanted and how it could be and the blindness of us as we participate as "stiff-necks" many times in the Mass.

I cried so hard and my insides hurt like swords beyond belief knowing the reality of oneness and how He desires men to be united and participate in the Mass.

On the following morning January 21, 1996, Sunday, I cried from the depth of anguish within my heart as if I was in the most desolate garden. A garden we have here and yet it seems to be so many times treated like a parched desert.

Oh the fountain of His life that flows through His magnificent Church. The priest is the key, the instrument He uses to administer the Sacraments. The priests are His chosen, the anointed ones He calls and He loves them so much and He wants them to love Him as the most faithful spouse married to God.

Oh if the glasses clouded with such a haze were removed and we would see as I saw those two days.

Oh the love He desires of these chosen men and He cries for us to reach them.

I beg of you to help me reach them as He implored of me those two days, January 20 and 21, 1996.

I suffered so bad every year after that January 20 and 21. I would cry to Father Carter how I anguished for the lack of oneness in the world.

It was anguishing pain to know the depth of His love and oneness and to suffer so for lack of it.

And what is hell, but lack of oneness? What is hell, but isolation. What is hell? It is hell!

We were created to be one.

 

January 31, 1996

Wednesday, Our Lady of the Woods
Before the Tabernacle

Glorious Mysteries

The Resurrection

R. The Pascal Mystery, Death/Resurrection

    Jesus gave His all. He spread His arms and He gave His all and He calls us to love each other as He has loved us. In this act of giving, He shows us that He gave to His death on the cross. He came to show us the way to love. Jesus died to bring us new life. We want to focus on our baptism - sharing in His life in us.

1. R. Jesus calls us to die to all those things that are not like Him. At the Consecration of the Mass, when the priest raises up the host, I hear Him say: This is My Body. I hear the song, "This is My Body ... Given up for you."

2. R. Love is giving and Jesus gave His all. Jesus spread His arms and gave His all. Jesus died on the cross that we could share in His life and in the Resurrection. Jesus gives us a sharing in His life in baptism.

3. R. Jesus sets the exiles free. Jesus gives to us a sharing in His Divine Life in baptism. At the cross, Blood and water poured from His pierced Heart. Water, a symbol of Baptism; Blood, a symbol of the Eucharist. Baptism - whereby we become sharers in His Divine Life and the Eucharist, whereby that life is fed with His own Body and Blood. Jesus is truly present in the Eucharist. Jesus loved us that He gave Himself.

4. Song: Take and Eat

5. R. Death has no power over Jesus and on the third day He rose from the dead.

6. R. In baptism we receive a sharing in His life and God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit dwell in the graced baptized soul. We read His Word, the Holy Scriptures, our hearts burn within us for this is our love for God. The two disciples on the way to Emmaus said, "When he spoke the Scriptures, were not our hearts burning within us." As we grow deeper and deeper in this life, our hearts will burn within us when we hear the Word of God.

7. R. Jesus died on the cross. We die to the ways not like Jesus at Mass. We give ourselves to Him and we die to all those things that are not like Him and we ask the Holy Spirit to come and to work in us in the heart of Mary that we will be more and more like our Beloved Jesus. The Mass is so beautiful for it is there that we offer ourselves as a sacrifice - not a sacrifice that we are given hard things all the time, it is the offering of ourselves to the Father united to Jesus, in the Holy Spirit. We pray to do God's will in love.

Pray: This is my offering Father. Whatever You want I give myself to You. In my joys and in my sorrows, I give You myself with all my love.

8. R. Jesus gives Himself to us. This intimate relationship between me and Jesus depends on how intimately I give myself to Jesus. The more I give of myself, the more fully I will know God's love more deeply.

9. Song: I Love You Jesus

10. Song: God's Love

 

Ascension of Our Lord into Heaven

R. Before He ascended into heaven, Jesus gave to the apostles the power to baptize and to forgive sins. Think of our priest this day - the great honor it is to be a priest. The gift God gives at the Consecration of the Mass when bread is changed into the Body of Christ and wine is changed into His Blood! Let us pray fervently for our priest, for this is such a great honor. When the priest is full of love for Jesus, when he sees the great role he has been called to, the priest will be more and more like Jesus. We want to see Jesus in the priest at Mass. We pray that priests give good example as holy priests, so young men all over will answer the call if Jesus is calling them to priesthood.

1. R. As we go to Mass and we see with eyes unveiled, the great gift, as it unfolds before us, let us pray fervently for our beloved priests.

2. R. Jesus ascended into Heaven but He left behind the apostles to carry out His work. Let us see Jesus at the Consecration of the Mass, for the Father looks down and He sees His Son. The host is changed into the Body of Christ and the wine is changed into His Blood, this is a precious moment. The priest is such a gift to us and the Father sees this and is so pleased. In this Holy Sacrifice of the Mass let us unite with the priest and offer ourselves and all that we do to God and surrender to the will of the Father for we know how much God loves us. The Father sent His only begotten Son into this world that we would be able to share in His life. Jesus gave Himself as a sacrifice on the cross and rose the 3rd day victorious.

3. R. How blessed are we that we can go to Mass. The Mass is the sacrifice of Calvary sacramentally made present and it goes on all over the world. We can unite with the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass in all of our actions all through the day. Everything that we do we do as an offering to the Father, united to Jesus, in the Holy Spirit in the Mass. The most pleasing act of love to the Father is the love of His Son.

4. R. How great was the act of love God gave to this world when Jesus gave Himself and died on the cross. Jesus gives Himself to us this day in the Holy Eucharist. The greatest commandment is that we must love God with our whole heart, our whole soul and our whole being – this is a command! If we are to enter into Heaven we must follow the commandments. They are commands given by God for us to follow. The greatest act we can do on this earth is the act of loving God. The reason for our existence is to love God. Jesus gives Himself to us in the Eucharist. This is the Sacrament of His greatest love. We are called to respond by giving ourselves in love to Him.

5. Song: Take and Eat

6. Hail Mary

7. R. Jesus is the Bread of Life and He gives Himself to us in the Eucharist.

8. R. Jesus ascended into Heaven but He remains with us this day and He is truly present in the Eucharist as the day He walked this earth and Jesus is in this room with us at this moment in His Divinity and humanity. Many times the churches are empty when Jesus is in the tabernacle.

    Let us fervently consecrate our hearts to Jesus, give ourselves to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary and give to Him our greatest love for we are hungry and He will feed us with what our starving souls crave - His Divine Love.

9. Song: Jesus We Adore You

10. Hail Mary

 

The Descent of the Holy Spirit upon the Apostles and Mary

R. They were afraid and they locked themselves in the upper room and there was a gigantic-like wind. There appeared over their heads parted tongues of fire. They were filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in foreign tongues, as He prompted them to.

1. R. We see the apostles before the Descent of the Holy Spirit. They were filled with fear. We see them after the Resurrection. They had not understood the words of Jesus, they did not really know what would happen. We see Peter. Peter denied Jesus, but we see the apostles after the Descent of the Holy Spirit and they go out to preach. They did not care who was first. They were filled with the fire of God's love. They were selfless and they went into the world. Their whole mission was to carry this exuberant love within them to the world.

2. R. Holy Spirit, we ask You to come, descend upon us and work inside of us, fill us with the fire of God's love and transform us more and more into the image and likeness of Jesus.

3. R. Jesus took me to the inner recesses of His Heart and He enveloped me in His deep burning love and I was united to the Father, to the Son and to the Holy Spirit. For, the deeper that I penetrate the Heart of Jesus, the more I unite with the Father, for He is one with Him. Oh, Heart of Jesus, help us to love God more and more through Your deep and burning Heart.

4. R. I give myself to the heart of Mary, to her pure and sinless heart and in that heart the Holy Spirit is active as He works with the fire of God's love, transforming us more and more to this image of Jesus. Mary places us deeper in the Heart of her Son in which we unite to the Father. We feel the presence of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit in our graced baptized soul. To be enveloped by the presence of the Almighty God - it is beyond all words. Dwelling in Their Hearts is our little heaven on earth. It is there that we unite more deeply to the Almighty God.

5. Song: Come Holy Spirit

6. R. It is in giving ourselves to the heart of Mary, that we will be placed by Mary, deeper and deeper into the Heart of her Beloved Son.

7. Consecration cards for children

      

8. R. Die to yourself at the Consecration of the Mass and be enveloped in the heart of Mary and the Holy Spirit will work within you. Mary and the Holy Spirit are there to help us to be more and more like Jesus. Do you feel this at the Mass as you surrender yourself? Do you see the Sacrifice, the Holy Sacrifice, the table and the offering and that it is up to us to unite and to give ourselves that we may share more fully in His deep and burning love?

9. R. Holy Spirit, we give ourselves to You. Fill us with Your gifts. Give us Your light that we may know more and more about our Beloved God, for it is You that fills us with Your Divine Wisdom. With Your grace we partake and know more and more into the mystery of God's love.

10. Hail Mary

 

Assumption of Our Blessed Lady into Heaven

Acts 1: 9-11

     As he said this he was lifted up while they looked on, and a cloud took him from their sight. They were still staring into the sky as he went, when suddenly two men in white were standing beside them, and they said, ‘Why are you Galileans standing here looking into the sky? This Jesus who has been taken up from you into heaven will come back in the same way as you have seen him go to heaven.’

R. Jesus ascended into Heaven. We, hopefully, too someday will be in heaven. What is Heaven like? What will it be like? It will be knowing the presence of the Almighty God, to be enveloped by love itself, it is a presence of Father, Son and Holy Spirit in the beatific vision in heaven for all eternity. Relationship with God. It begins in a special way after Communion at the Mass. Let us thank God for the great gift that He gives to us, the gift of Himself.

1. R. Jesus took me to the deepest recesses of His Heart and it was there I was enveloped by the love of the Almighty God: Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

2. Song: I Am Your Sacred Heart

3. R. Mary said at Fatima, "Until a sufficient number of people have consecrated their hearts to the Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart of Mary, there will not be peace in this world." Let us give ourselves to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. Fr. Carter says dwelling in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary is our little Heaven on earth.

4. R. Jesus showed us love. Jesus mounted the cross and Jesus gave Himself. This is the price Jesus paid that we would share in His Divine Life.

5. R. Mary has appeared to me so many times and she calls out for the children that will be lost and will lose their souls. We must consecrate our hearts to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. Jesus has promised that as Shepherds of Christ members, He is giving to us great graces to join ever closer in our union with Him as we consecrate our heart to Their Hearts. We can give our heart to Mary and she will take us to the Heart of her Son.

6. Jesus: My dear beloved ones, bring your loved ones to the heart of My Mother and she will take them to My Heart. I am giving to you great graces as members of Shepherds of Christ, great graces to unite ever deeper to My Heart. In your consecration, your prayers are heard. Pray with all your heart and your prayers will be heard.

7. R. Oh, Mother of God, I give my heart to you. I beg that I may dwell in your motherly heart and as I dwell in your heart, you take me to the Heart of your Son, Jesus.

8. R. Oh, beloved Heart of Jesus, I place my trust in You.

9. R. In all of the troubles that are in our lives, let us go to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. This is our little Heaven on earth. Take all of our family and all of those situations that we have no control over, to her heart and she will place them deeply in the Heart of her Son.

10. Hail Mary

 

Mary is Crowned Queen of Heaven and Earth

1. R. The peace of the world is entrusted to her. Mary appeared at Fatima and she said, "until a sufficient number of people have consecrated their hearts to the Sacred Heart and the Immaculate Heart of Mary, we will not have peace in this world." Consecration means total giving of ourselves to Their Hearts. We have been called to the Shepherds of Christ Movement as special Shepherd Members to go out into this world and to spread Their love. It is through our consecration to Their Hearts that we unite in such oneness with God. God dwells in us and ministers to many in this world. We have been called Shepherds of Christ and given great graces to carry out this mission. It is in dwelling in Their Hearts that we will unite to the Almighty God. This is our little Heaven on earth.

2. Jesus: No person is too busy to spend time alone with Me each day. I am calling you to this union. My special Shepherds of Christ, I am calling you to the deepest union with My Heart. Surrender and let go and I will care for you and all of your needs. Each day you must consecrate your heart to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. Surrender in the Mass. Give yourselves that you may grow in holiness and unite in deepest union with God in the Holy Eucharist. I am Jesus. Many are called but few  are chosen. You are My special chosen ones that I am sending into this world to spread the devotion to My Heart and My Mother's heart. Come to Our Hearts and live in Us.

3. Song: I Am the Bread of Life

4. Song: Eye Has Not Seen

5. R. Let us partake more fully in His Divine Life that we may see more and more each day all through the Mass. Let us pray to the Holy Spirit that we will see the great gift as it unfolds before our eyes and that we offer ourselves as a Sacrifice with Jesus and unite to this all through the day, thereby making our prayers so magnified and putting all our cares in the Hearts of Jesus and Mary. Bring all your beloved ones to Their Hearts and go about your lives loving as He intends us to love.

6. Hail Mary
7. Hail Mary
8. Hail Mary

9. Song: I Will Raise you Up on the Last Day

R. Our union for all eternity depends on the union we have with Him now. Let us beg Him for the graces that we may unite ever deeper to Him for we will be satisfied if we go to Heaven. Our life forever depends on how we are now. Let us pray for these graces fervently to go to heaven and consecrate our hearts to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary.

    Dear Sacred Heart of Jesus, I give myself to You. Take me, use me, whatever You will. I see You dying on the cross. I know this is the love You have for me.

    Dear heart of Mary, I give myself to you. my heavenly Mother, Mother of my spiritual life, take me into your heart as you carried the Child Jesus within your womb, as you cared for Him and loved Him, care and love me and all my needs. This is my prayer - to be ever united deeper and deeper in my love for the Almighty God. I give myself to you.

10. From the Shepherds of Christ Prayer Manual

Act of consecration to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary

Lord Jesus, Chief Shepherd of the flock, I consecrate myself to Your most Sacred Heart. From Your pierced Heart the Church was born, the Church You have called me, as a member of Shepherds of Christ Associates, to serve in a most special way. You reveal Your Heart as a symbol of Your love in all its aspects, including Your most special love for me, whom You have chosen as Your companion in this most important work. Help me to always love You in return. Help me to give myself entirely to You. Help me always to pour out my life in love of God and neighbor! Heart of Jesus, I place my trust in You!

Dear Blessed Virgin Mary, I consecrate myself to your maternal and Immaculate Heart, this Heart which is symbol of your life of love. You are the Mother of my Savior. You are also my Mother. You love me with a most special love as a member of Shepherds of Christ Associates, a movement created by your Son as a powerful instrument for the renewal of the Church and the world. In a return of love, I give myself entirely to your motherly love and protection. You followed Jesus perfectly. You are His first and perfect disciple. Teach me to imitate you in the putting on of Christ. Be my motherly intercessor so that, through your Immaculate Heart, I may be guided to an ever closer union with the pierced Heart of Jesus, Chief Shepherd of the flock.

Sing: I Am Your Sacred Heart

Sing: I Love You Jesus

 February 1, 1996

My Heart's Desire

R. My whole desire is to be here in prayer with My beloved, to love Him and know Him, but He calls me to serve Him and do His will.

    My heart cries for the joy to be with Him here in Holy Cross-Immaculata, my favorite place, to meet Him and be with Him. I love My love so much. The pains in my feet, not very bad, remind me of how close He truly is.

    Oh my God, I just want these moments to linger when I am alone with you here. I want them to never end.

    I thought I would die today of my great desire to be with Him. I love Him so much. It is so painful to wait to go to heaven. I love Him so much, I want to know Him, more and more and more. The things of this world do not matter to me as much for my whole desire is to be one in Him.

    I love You, God, with all my - my whole being - I empty myself out to You. I want You - You alone, deep in me, so deep, one in Thee, to be united in endless love.

    Love is loving someone, is loving what God wants for them. There are problems in life. Always see your hearts in Jesus and Mary' Hearts. Spiritual attacks happen when people need to work together. We must fight these. Pray for grace.

    There is such oneness with those closest to us in doing this work, that any division is unbearable so we must surrender and work together for Jesus, because we love them.

    Whatever the problem it doesn't compare to the amount of love we have for them and separation is misery because it is as though you cut off yourself. We fight to try to resolve differences for love of Jesus, instead of fighting to be right.

    This is giving when I love someone deeply. My heart is so joined to Their Hearts. To be separate from Jesus is to hurt my own heart.

    To have any division with someone I deeply love is like dividing myself and I cannot have peace and be divided. I must pray and act as God wants.

    My love with Jesus and Mary is connected with those I deeply love. Our hearts are joined in Their Hearts.

    I cannot be separate from some person and be united to Jesus and Mary. There is no division in the Heart of Jesus. My greatest love with any person is centered in the Mass. This is unconditional love that I lay down my life for my friend. Every time I love more deeply, according to God's will, it is rooted in God. I want to grow to have a heart like Jesus. The devil hates love among brothers, doing God's work.

    My love with others grows as I love someone or a few special persons very deeply. God sends these special persons in our lives to teach us about deep spiritual love. In deep spiritual love we share knowledge of God from deep within our hearts. This unites us to Him.

    Any division on my part with someone I deeply love causes me lack of peace. I must always be rooted in love and what God wants, when I differ with a person. I have peace when I am doing God's will in love.

 

February 1, 1996

Obey Authority

R. In today's world men and women are considered equals. Jesus is espoused to the Church and Mary is Mother of the Church. The roles given to men and women are different.

    The role of husband and wife as stated by Jesus: wives should be submissive to their husbands.

Obedience is underplayed. The devil works hard on children to get them to disobey. If children do not learn obedience, they will not obey the will of God.

    The idea of authority has been underplayed. People have authority. Those who are subject to a certain authority must respect it.

    How can we obey God if we do not obey authority?

    The first sin of Adam had to do with obeying authority: Eve wanted to be equal. The first sin was a woman wanting to be equal to God. Many women want to be equal to men. Christ said "Wives, be subject to your husbands, as you should in the Lord." Colossians 3: 18

R. Sisters should be Sisters. God gives the priesthood to men. The priest reads the Gospel, he represents Christ - it is the Word of God!

    Freedom is doing the will of God. I am free when I am dependent on the Father as a little child. This gives me freedom - I am free from attachments and dependent on God for all my needs.

 

February 2, 1996

What Is Love?

R. I do not know what love is. What does love mean?

Jesus: Love is not the word. I am the source of love, I am the Almighty God. Respond in love to others with love in your heart, rooted in Me.

    The more one realizes the love God has for them, the more they give to others. To focus on the self to find the way to love, is to lose the source of love - and the source is found in God.

    Do you see Me in others being loving? To focus on the self is to be met at a dead-end, a stone wall. The self is not the source of love, the prime source is the Almighty God.

    The more you focus on yourself (Rita), the more of Rita you get. You must focus on God and let Him act from you.

R. Many times the devil tricks us by talking in our heads and getting us to focus on ourselves, by playing our faults and deficiencies before our eyes. I have wasted precious time when I know Jesus is longing for my love.

 

February 3, 1996 - First Saturday - Mid Morning

Lost in His Wounds

R. I cried so hard, I was so connected to His crucified body. It was as if I was there and comforting Him and kissing His blood-stained cheek. I have a great love for the crucified Lord. I love His crucifix – I kiss His crucifix and love His wounds! I feel deeply His wound on His left arm, open so wide. I see the depth and the whole insides of My precious God.

    This morning I was deeply lost in the wounds of Jesus, kissing His crowned head and crying in my very being for I feel so deeply His suffering and His rejection. I felt totally gone to this world and when I went to Mass later I was so connected to Him on the cross, at the Consecration. I was totally out of it in this experience, kissing the cross and being with Him and His wounds. I felt as if I was truly there with the wounded Lord, comforting Him, when I kissed His blood-stained cheek. I have been experiencing sharp pains in my left foot, and both my hands hurt sometimes. I kept getting these pains in the left foot where I guess the nails were driven into His foot. (Sunday I had the pains with chills and I had pains in my hands and feet, on and off, since Thursday of last week.) I would not be writing this but my body has hurt all over for two days. I feel as if I have been left to myself and He is so far from me. Thursday when I got up I felt so bad all over, I just didn't want to move and then John called up about going to St. Dominic's and I forced myself to put all the tapes and books in the car. I was going to Immaculata to pray before John called – I felt so bad and had to be with Jesus.

    My body just feels like I don't want to move. I have had such anguish and feeling so rejected and alone. My body just aches all over. On January 13th I could hardly move my legs. I felt so as if I couldn't stand or go up or down the steps. My body hurt but my legs hurt so badly. I have suffered the greatest feelings of rejection and pains all day and my body just hurts.

    He took me to His Passion and I kissed His wounds and His blood-covered cheeks, being filled with an awareness of His great love. I was so engrossed in His sufferings. I begged to share with Him, my whole body hurt, to feel in my heart the rejection and the pain.

    On Thursday morning I was overtaken by sadness and my body ached. For two days I suffered deeply feeling rejected and my heart ached. I was looking for an explanation for my sufferings. He said to me on Friday, "To focus on self is to be met at a dead-end – a stone wall – the self is not the source of love, it is the Almighty God." "The devil has tricked you into focusing on self by playing your faults and deficiencies before your eyes. You have wasted precious time when I am longing for your love."

    I asked for suffering that I might identify and comfort Him. He gave me suffering and I tried to explain it to myself. My pain was hard and cold. He gave me the sweet cup of suffering to identify with Him and I met the dead end by focusing on myself!

    It is in all our joys and all our sufferings, when united to Him, that our burdens are light. It is in walking with Him in the pain that we share in His pain and identify with Him to be closer to Him in deeper love. The pain, the suffering, is living in Him. It reaches a dead end in the self. We can identify our every breath with His or we can wallow in the pain and walk the hard journey for ourselves.

    It is the walk with Him that is the easy way. He carried the cross and fell, but His Heart was fixed on His Father and His love. My every pain and suffering must be identified with Him.

February 9, 1996

Come to Lady of the Holy Spirit Center

Jesus: Today I am writing to you with an urgent request to join Me at Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center on February 13, 1996 for a special rosary. You are My chosen Shepherds I am sending into this world to spread the love of My Heart and My Mother's heart.

    Please come at 7:00, there will be a special meeting as we join to pray for the priests and pray the rosary. My Mother and I are with you each in a special way. I love you with the deepest love. I am giving to you abundant graces to join ever closer to My Heart through the Shepherds of Christ Movement. This is My Movement for the renewal of the Church and the world. I am Jesus, I long to be so close to you. (Please read My message of August 1, 1995.)

R. God commands us to love Him with our whole heart and whole soul and whole mind, and love our neighbor as ourselves. Jesus suffered the greatest rejection and He still loved. Jesus shows us the way, despite the fact that He was rejected, spit on, whipped - He still loved! Jesus gives us the cross to look at it. Jesus loved us to His death on the cross. Jesus says "I died for you, what more do you want?" Jesus gave Himself for me!

    Jesus doesn't want me caved-in and selfish!

    When I was given a special person Jesus wanted me to be close to, it was very "scary" to me.

    A great fear we can have is rejection by others. I cannot love deeply if I choose to hold myself closed. Jesus sends a confessor or other spiritual guide, as a special person to us that we can reveal our soul, that we can tell our fears, our sins and our joys. If the person or priest, is like Christ, he will listen and still love us no matter what we have done. It is we who think people do not love us many times, and they don't like our actions. If we really notice things how they really are, we will probably see that they do love us and pray for us, and we should thank Jesus for their friendship. Some people if they have a good time create problems for themselves because they only think it's safe to trust themselves. People love us, show us they love us, and since we are afraid of getting close, we can do something hateful to push them away. This is not being like Jesus.

Song: Why Do We Hurt the Ones We Love

R. The role of the priest is to be Christ-like, he forgives our sins. Confession is so important for the soul. The priest must be holy so he responds to the sinner as Jesus would respond.

    If we were rejected by our parents, if we were loved only when we pleased them, we learned conditional love.

    Jesus loves us unconditionally. No matter how bad we are, He forgives and loves us when we are sorry, if we ask Him. We are accountable and responsible for our sins.

    When others who should have loved us hurt us, it may be hard to open yourself up and let someone get close for some. We must trust certain others. God commands us to love. Not shut down.

    Jesus gave His all. Jesus spread His arms. Jesus kept giving.

    Confession is so important to the soul. A good, loving confessor, one like Jesus, is important to our spiritual growth - our growth in His love. We cannot deceive ourselves about our sins and grow in the spiritual life. We are accountable and responsible for our sins.

    Priests have a great responsibility to respond as Jesus would respond to the person confessing sins. It is hard for a person to tell someone their sins. The priest must pray to be more and more like Christ that they do not hurt the penitent. The priest must especially put on Christ when He is administering the sacraments.

    If we are hurt in love, we may be afraid to love. We must pray to the Holy Spirit to heal wounded relationships. Jesus is the Divine Healer – Jesus in giving us these letters in God's Blue Book wants us to spread them to all.

    The greatest commandment - commands we love – Jesus is telling us about love in His letters of love in God's Blue Book. And these rosaries are Rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary – all about the love of the Two Most Perfect Hearts of love!!

    Jesus heals our hearts and gives us His love. God gives us others who love us. If we were once hurt and never open up again, we will not learn how to love others. We need healing. We need to pray to the Holy Spirit.

    I learn to love by walking the Passion with Jesus. Jesus allowed me to walk with Him. I know Jesus through the sufferings.

    People are imperfect, they love imperfectly. Jesus sends us some who love us deeply. We must realize when God is giving us such special love and take a chance and love, not hurt others who love us because of our wounds and fear.
 

1 John 4:17-21

Love comes to its perfection in us when we can face the Day of Judgement fearlessly, because even in this world we have become as he is. In love there is no room for fear, but perfect love drives out fear, because fear implies punishment and no one who is afraid has come to perfection in love. Let us love, then, because he first loved us. Anyone who says 'I love God' and hates his brother, is a liar, since whoever does not love the brother whom he can see cannot love God whom he has not seen. Indeed this is the commandment we have received from him, that whoever loves God, must also love his brother.
 

R. Jesus puts the fragmented pieces of my life together when I go to Jesus before the tabernacle. Jesus teaches me about His love and Himself. Jesus teaches me about the Father's will for me. The Holy Spirit is the love of God on fire for love of us.

    There is such a connection between love and suffering. Both Mary and Jesus show us Their Hearts surrounded with thorns. Love endures pain. To love I open myself up to another and know there is pain and joy – misunderstandings, death/resurrection, loneliness, etc. Look at Jesus on the cross. Jesus shows us that to love means giving of ourselves. To love means that we are open to suffering.

    In Jesus' Divine knowing, Jesus knew all the sufferings to His death. He knew all of the rejection. Agonies of agonies to suffer and know the rejection while giving - in the act of giving, to know the scorn and keep on giving.

    Jesus knew all the times He would be rejected in the Eucharist, and the endless hours He would remain alone in the tabernacle.

    Our burning love now is such sweetness to Him. Jesus longs for the love of His priests and Sisters. A holy priest gives Jesus such comfort. We must pray with all our hearts for the priests and the religious.

    The life He gave was paid for with bitter sufferings.

    

  

February 14, 1996 - Valentine's Day

R. The more I become as a little child, the more the Father gives of Himself. The more I give up control, the more I am dependent on God and the more I know God's love.

Matthew 11: 25

At that time Jesus exclaimed, 'I bless you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, for hiding these things from the learned and the clever and revealing them to little children.

R. Jesus is the Heart of greatest love. It is Valentine's Day and look how Jesus is treated! You are my favorite Heart, Jesus. I love You so much!

    The spoken Word is like a two-edged sword. The Word of God is living and it penetrates the heart and soul!

    If priests are filled with this deep love of God, the Word, which is a seed, is planted deeply in their hearts and the congregation hears this!

    It is the Word, planted deeply in the hearts of the flock, that will take them to the Chief Shepherd. They will be led home through the spoken Word.

    The Word is a seed that grows. It should be planted deeply and it will produce sound fruit. It is the spoken Word of God that digs deep into the heart.

    Let us proclaim His Word from the housetops with highest jubilation, let us shout it from the highest pinnacle and let it be planted deeply in the hearts of all that they may know the Word of God and let it live in them. God wants to live and dwell in us – We are given baptism.

John 1: 9

The Word was the real light that gives light to everyone; he was coming into the world. 
 

John 6: 51

'I am the living bread which has come down from heaven. Anyone who eats this bread will live for ever; and the bread that I shall give is my flesh, for the life of the world.’

R. Let His Word penetrate our soul and seep deep into our hearts so we will let others know the Word alive in us.

Jesus: I AM the Word that guards you night and day, sent from heaven above to feed and nurture you. My Word is food, indeed, for the soul.

  

 

February 15, 1996 - After Communion - Cathedral
Feast of St. Claude de la Columbiere

R. The great gift Jesus gave me was the pains in my feet and front of my legs on the morning of the 14th. They hurt so badly I couldn't express how painful it was.

(I gave myself totally to Him after Communion this day.)

  

  

February 16, 1996

R. I went to see Fr. Smith (was tempted not to pray between 12 and 3:00, but went to Immaculata at 12:30. I have been told to pray between 12 and 3:00 - no excuses.)

 

Through Him, With Him and IN HIM
    

Song: God's Love

Excerpt from Response to God's Love by Fr. Edward Carter, S.J.

... In reference to Christianity, God himself is the ultimate mystery. Radically, God is completely other and transcendent, hidden from man in his inner life, unless he chooses to reveal himself. Let us briefly look at this inner life of God.

    The Father, in a perfect act of self-expression, in a perfect act of knowing, generates his son. The Son, the Word, is, then, the immanent expression of God's fullness, the reflection of the Father. Likewise, from all eternity, the Father and the Son bring forth the Holy Spirit in a perfect act of loving.

    At the destined moment in human history, God's self-expression, the Word, immersed himself into man's world. God's inner self-expression now had also become God's outer self-expression. Consequently, the mystery of God becomes the mystery of Christ. In Christ, God tells us about himself, about his inner life, about his plan of creation and redemption. He tells us how Father, Son, and Holy Spirit desire to dwell within us in the most intimate fashion, how they wish to share with us their own life through grace. All this he has accomplished and does accomplish through Christ.
 

R. God's love is surrounding me, a permeating action. God fill me with Your abundant life. Action from the Heart of Christ. Oh, burning furnace of endless love, engulfed by the white mist, the glistening action of the Spirit, in the depth of Jesus' Heart. I am one with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

See Diagram: like a pot-bellied stove - as heat (white heat coming off it) moving to sanctify and fill us with unity - oneness in Him!

 

From the Mass Book

December 15, 1995

He Wrapped Me in His Divine Embrace

Written at 12:30 p.m., in Holy Cross-Immaculata Church:

    I wanted to love Him so much. I realized God’s magnificence and goodness, and I wanted to give Him such great love, but I realize my incapacity to love Him more in my human form.

    I realize how God is so worthy of all my love. My intellectual realization of how worthy He is, does not match with my attempt to love Him. It hurts to want to love Him so much. He gives me an insight, a light into His magnificence, and I realize my littleness.

    So overwhelmed with the desire to give Him love, no thought of myself - my whole being wants to love Him with this immense love. The world is non-existent. It is I and Him, and my whole being merges with Him and this one desire to unite endlessly, forever in the deepest union. Time stands still, and it is the meeting of our hearts, this oneness with Him. I slip into His Heart and nothing here matters, as if I have embraced such depth of union with Him. I want only Him. I see only Him, and I am one in this deep, deep embrace with Him. I lost myself in Him.

    My existence is existence only in Him. It is being wrapped in love’s embrace with Divinity.

    The world existed around me, and all I knew was the embrace of the Almighty God. My heart sunk into His Heart, and I existed only in Him, my whole being seeing myself existing only in Him.

    I saw His body as I stood beneath the cross at Holy Cross-Immaculata Catholic Church. I wanted to unite with Him eternally in this great depth of love I felt. I wanted to be totally lost in Him forever. By being merged with Him, I existed in Him, knowing only Him and loosing myself. I saw the Child Jesus statue, and I was lost in God. I begged the Father through the tears of tender, loving Mary, in the Holy Spirit, to help me to make His love known to this world, to use me, use my life as He willed to make this love of God known. Then, coming back to myself, I begged the Father, through the tears of the tender, loving Mary, in the name of the Christ Child, in the Holy Spirit, to help me to make His love known to this world, to use me, my life as He willed to make this love of God known.

end of excerpt
 

Diagram: Notes: His lament of love - Burning love - given by Him - Burning love - He wants from us.

December 17, 1991: Saw vision of a burning Heart

Jesus gave me gentle messages - told me how precious I was, wooed me into His Heart. Jesus told me He loved me.

December 17, 1991

Jesus: I am Jesus. I have spoken as never before, you will spread My love to all souls on this earth.

His Burning Heart

R. I was alone in All Saints Church after Mass and Communion, in front of the tabernacle, when I saw the Sacred Heart. It was red around the outside, then a layer of yellow and then the brightest light in the center. I felt heat and it looked like an open furnace.

    I thought about it all day and it instantly gave me peace and warmth in my heart. This is the purpose of these letters—to draw hearts to the ardent on-fire love of Jesus. I received the following message that day:

    "Open your heart to the fire of God's love. He is ablaze in your heart. He wants to dwell in you and love you and others through you. Love God, yourself and one another and experience the fire set aglow in your heart and experience the warmth of His love."

end of writing
 

R. Sufferings: December 18, 1993: I heard: "I Died for You". I felt Him in the study sitting next to me and lamented in my chair. He died - Jesus wants to dwell in us. See Blue Book I - p. 151

The Aching Heart messages - on December 17, 1995, I wrote: "O Divine lover of my soul, let me make reparation to Your adorable Heart for the neglect and indifference against You."

Jesus allowed me to suffer so much, then on December 15, 1995 He took me to the other side.

        Excerpt from December 17, 1995 - The Earth Stopped and Touched Heaven

    He allowed me to experience such pain in my heart - wanting Him so badly, so many times-and then on Dec. 15, 1995 - He gave Himself to me in the deepest union.

    Nothing satisfies the soul but Him. He wants the nuns and priests to love Him. He chose them to spread His love.

    Souls are hungry. They will only be fed with His burning love. Priests need to talk about Jesus' love for us from the pulpit. Priests need hearts burning for love of Jesus. This will feed the hungry souls - lip service love doesn't do it.

    He is alive today. He is a Person. He wants us to love Him.

end of excerpt

R. My Heart Bleeds - Blue Book II p. 145 – I allow you to suffer on Saturday and Sundays.

Excerpt from March 6, 1994 - Sunday Night

Jesus: I am Jesus, Son of God. I truly suffered. Your heart is experiencing aching. I allow you to ache and feel some of My emotions. I am a person. When people love one another, they share each other's pain. Your heart aches as I, too, ache for love of My beloved ones. Preach about My aching heart.

Every soul has periods of unrest because the soul was made to love the Lord. Sunday is a day I let you suffer My aching heart. I want you to tell others how I ache for love of them. I allow you to suffer on Saturday and Sunday for My aching heart.

end of excerpt

R. I received the message on January 17, 1994, "I Want My Priests to Come Back" "Prayer for Union with Jesus" in Blue Book II.

February 6th: My Heart Aches for You.

What I remember most:
December 18th, 1993 - sitting in my chair lamenting - He died, what more do we want?

        Excerpt from Blue Book I - Take Up Your Cross

Jesus: ...Pain, child? I suffered so much for love of you! This is how I love you at this moment. In all that befalls you you must know at every moment that I know exactly what you are suffering. There is nothing that happens in your life without My consent and it comes from Him Who loves you.

Take your crosses and truly endure them. Accept them. Know that everything that happens in your life I have allowed. Accept it with the love with which I give it. You are being taught in that pain. You are suffering for yourselves and others. I endured all that pain. Did I once say, "Father, take it away?" I am your model. I showed you the way. I took it all, every last wound, every kick and smack and vileness. I took My cross and I carried it without a word. This is what I ask of you. Know that when you are experiencing pain or suffering, or being taunted by those around you, look to the Master for your course of action. I took it all, every last wound, and accepted it to My death. I did not say, "Oh, how awful." I did not complain. I walked in silence that bumpy road with a heavy cross, with My mother suffering by My side and I never complained. I accepted it all for love of you...

end of excerpt

R. December 25, 1993 - Christmas (pain so bad in my heart, could scream - wanted anything to release pain.)

        Excerpt from Blue Book I - I Came This Day as a Baby

Jesus: I am the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me. The gift I give is eternal life. I came this day as a baby to make ready your way to the Kingdom. I love you with such intensity. This is the reason for My coming.

If I could get inside of you and make you realize My love. I died a brutal death. I came and was born God as a man. I rose again from the dead and you don't even realize My death and how important all this is to your salvation. You doubt My intense love, no matter what I said or did. You need to keep a list every day and put on it the proof that "my Lord loves me." Make this your gift to Me and yourself this Christmas. A list every day of proof of My love for you! I love you so, little one. Cling to Me and My ways. The world is in so much darkness and so much pain. ...

end of excerpt

R. Then it started on the Sundays at 5 - 6:00. I had to go to the tabernacle at St. Phillips. Jesus would lament: I would have this tremendous pain.

February 5, 1994 - Vision

Jesus said important messages were in Blue Book II: March 6th, March 7th and March 13th, 1994. March 20th (said no one is listening) and March 21st., March 22nd - Day of the Big Boom.

Jesus started with Rosaries in Blue Book III and Jesus told me about Mary's pain in Blue Book III in May, 1994.

Blue Book IV - Insight into the Love of the Two Hearts: Jesus and Mary.

On June 16, 1994 - Blue Book III - Jesus told me to go to the Center and I would see as I have never seen before. I saw little white lights on my notebook.

Then July 5, 1994 Mary started appearing. On August 10, 1994, Blue Book IV  I receiving The Peering Eyes message.

The Shepherds of Christ Meetings started Tuesday, August 30, 1994 at the Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center because of the direction of Jesus. This was the beginning of my Core Chapter of Shepherds of Christ. Many of the rosaries in this book came from these Tuesday meetings of the Core Chapter of the Shepherds of Christ.

R. Fr. Carter received the message July 31, 1994.

July 31, 1994

Words of Jesus to Members of Shepherds of Christ Associates:

"My beloved priest-companion, I intend to use the priestly newsletter, Shepherds of Christ, and the movement, Shepherds of Christ Associates, in a powerful way for the renewal of My Church and the world.

"I will use the newsletter and the chapters of Shepherds of Christ Associates as a powerful instrument for spreading devotion to My Heart and My Mother's Heart.

"I am calling many to become members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. To all of them I will give great blessings. I will use them as instruments to help bring about the triumph of the Immaculate Heart and the reign of My Sacred Heart. I will give great graces to the members of Shepherds of Christ Associates. I will call them to be deeply united to My Heart and to Mary's Heart as I lead them ever closer to My Father in the Holy Spirit."

- Message from Jesus to Father Edward J. Carter, S.J., Founder, as given on July 31, 1994,
feast of Saint Ignatius Loyola, Founder of the Society of Jesus (The Jesuits)

 

R. I received this message August 1, 1994. This is on the back of Blue Book IV.

August 1, 1994

Pray For The Success Of The Priestly Newsletter - Shepherds of Christ

R. The following is the first official message I received before the statue of Mary at Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center. It is a personal message for Father Carter.

Mary: (in front of the glowing statue of Our Lady of Sorrows) I am the Immaculate Heart. My Heart is glowing for love of all my beloved children. I am your most loving Mother. I am with you this day. Pray for the success of the priestly newsletter Shepherds of Christ. I am guarding your way. You will receive such graces to accomplish this task! Grace from God is so abundantly bestowed on you and will lead to the success of this endeavor! Pray for this cause at the Center. The priests will lead the people to the love of My beloved Son. This is no little task. It will take many prayers and graces. Pray hard, little one. Your prayers will change many hearts.

I am Mary, your Immaculate Mother. I bring this message to My beloved priest-son.

end of August 1, 1994

R. Mary said how important Father Carter and the Shepherds of Christ Movement was to the world.

These Rosaries from the Hearts of Jesus and Mary were given at the Shepherds of Christ Meetings. And messages where Jesus said we were to go out to the world with this message. I saw a vision of St. Margaret Mary the first night of the Shepherds of Christ Meeting on Tuesday.

August 1994

R. On the last Tuesday of August, 1994, there took place our first Shepherds of Christ meeting. While at mass at the Cathedral, I saw a vision of St. Margaret Mary reading from a white book. This happened right before the meeting. When I drove into the driveway of Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center, I heard Our Lord speak, "These are My apostles of My Sacred Heart.", or something to that effect.

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January 4, 1996; January 11, 1996; January 18, 1996; January 25, 1996; February 6, 1996 - Our Lady of the Woods; February 13, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; February 20, 1996 - Our Lady of the Woods; February 27, 1996 - Our Lady of the Woods; March 5, 1996 - Our Lady of the Woods; March 12, 1996 - Suddeth's Home; March 19, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; and March 26, 1996 - Our Lady of the Woods.

R. The Junior Shepherds of Christ met on Thursdays. Many of these rosaries are in the Parents and Children's Rosary Book. They were received and taped and Melanie Noe transcribed them.

January 6, 1996; January 13, 1996; January 20, 1996; January 27, 1996; February 1, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; February 8, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; February 15, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; February 22, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; February 29 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; March 7, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; March 14, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; March 21, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center; and March 28, 1996 - Our Lady of the Holy Spirit Center.

R. I saw vision of Father Carter with his hand on the Church.

January 1995

R.  Before the 17^th meeting in January of 1995, I had received the following vision when at Mass at the Cathedral of Saint Peter in Chains. It was either late December, 1994 or early January, 1995. I drew the picture in the notebook.

It looks as follows:

The face was a flesh colored, but I could not see the features. The gown was white with a square neck.

The next day Jesus told me it was Father Carter. This vision along with another vision I had received about the same time appeared on the 17^th book in January 1995.

The other vision was a church that looked similar to our church in China, Indiana, and in the front of the church was a gigantic Host with tremendous light coming forth from it.

On the cover was a Shepherd and the world.

The vision of the church looked like this:

There was a message at this meeting. The message said that THE POWER is in the Eucharist.

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R. This vision is on the front of Blue Book 6A, B, and C

R. There was an important message January 5, 1995. The Plan of God the Father will unfold. - See the Big Picture  (Blue Book 6A)

Rosaries began on the 13th of every month starting October 13, 1996 at the direction of Jesus. Special persons Melanie, Ellen, others would come.

May 13, 1995 - Could connect everything I did with Fatima – before I did not understand Fatima.

Florida June 26, 1995 - traveled. Message, "Unless the messages of His love are circulated in the Church, the bloodshed will continue."

December 13, 1995 - suffered for 2 1/2 hours for the priests, Sisters and religious.

December 15, 1995 - taken to the other Side.

January 20, 1996 and January 21, 1996 - Saturday - suffered so much for the nuns and priests.

Vision: We dwell in her heart - I give myself to Mary. Holy Spirit works to make us more like Jesus. Deep cavern of His love - it is in the center I unite with the Father.

God wants us to know all Three Persons and to know God as one.

Notes: Non-Euclidian Geometry - around the 5th Postulate
Euclidian works good in a small plane
Theory of relativity - Airway travel uses non-Euclidean, must use it because of the curvature of the earth.

The ways of the heart - sorrow, pain and elation
Things that are hidden
The Mystery - the depth