HOT AND COLD SOULS

The hot and cold souls. He has allowed me to suffer much since the feast of the Sorrowful Mother and two or three days before. My heart aches so intently now, but I feel He has relieved my heart.

I understand more and more the anguish Their Hearts suffered.

I see Jesus as He kneels in the garden, the darkness of the night, such pain beyond belief to know in His knowing all the sins, all the rejection of all of the hearts of all time, His personal love for each and experience the pain.

How He suffered for those souls who love Him, and then in their busyness forget about Him and fill their hearts with the pleasures of the world. How He intently loves His beloved religious. They were called by Him to unite in a special espousal relationship with Him. How He suffered in the garden for the religious, His chosen ones who go to the world for their love. A holy priest, sister, and brother gave Him such comfort with their love. As He suffered so much agony to His Heart all through His bitter passion, the acts of great love were such sweetness to His wounded Heart.

I want to roll up in a ball and scream or do something but nothing, nothing will relieve this pain so deep within.

Then the angel appeared to Him in the garden to comfort Him. He comforted me in my suffering and I feel relief, but the pain in my chest, the ache continues.

Yesterday, I had the ache most of the day. I felt as if I had swords in my heart for one and a half hours. Mary had a constant ache in her heart since the time of the prophecy of Simeon.

I prayed to my Father as a little child, and He gave me relief. This happened on the day after I led the rosary and Fr. Carter consecrated Ellen's house to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary. I opened up my notebook and read, "If you then, evil as you are, know how to give your children what is good, how much more will the heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!" (Lk. 11:13)

From the time of Adam to the Resurrection and Ascension of Jesus into heaven, how were the lives of the people of the human family? It is through Him that we are restored to new life. His way is the way. He takes on a human nature. He is the New Adam and Mary is the New Eve. Mary and Jesus both suffered such agony to Their Hearts. Think of the swords invisible piercing the heart of Mary. His Heart suffered such anguish, His Heart was pierced with a lance. Jesus and Mary appear and show us Their Hearts. Their Hearts are surrounded by thorns. In love there is suffering.

It is in suffering, we go more deeply into His life. Jesus was taken to the temple. "Simeon blessed them and said to Mary his mother, 'Look, he is destined for the fall and for the rise of many in Israel, destined to be a sign that is opposed-and a sword will pierce your soul too-so that the secret thoughts of many may be laid bare.'" (Lk. 2:34-35)

Mary pondered all these things in her heart.

Mary had an ache in her heart since the prophecy of Simeon.

She knew many souls would be lost.

The Christ Child lived in the womb of the Virgin Mary. How blessed this womb to hold the Son of God. Think of the inner dwelling of Mary's body holding the Son of God.

She is our Mother, so graced is she, the Mediatrix of all graces. We go to her heart which dwells in the Heart of Jesus. We are bathed by this life.

Oh Holy dwelling place of God! How holy we should be to hold Him in us after Communion. How holy we are that He gives us His divine life and He lives in us, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. He lives in us; we carry out His life, death, and Resurrection in our lives. Through the struggle - we are brought to a deeper life in Him. There would not be the resurrection without the death.

Mary is contemplative in action. She went to Elizabeth's house. The Source of life is in Him. We must go to Him for our life. We must not look other places for the Source of life. We must have this interior connection to Him or the outside world will press in on us. The real Source is within us. We must go to our hearts. When we are baptized and in the state of grace the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit dwell in us in a special way. We must see Him in others. We must see Him in the world.

He is my center. It is in Him I have peace, love and joy.

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