THE GREATEST ACT I CAN DO IS TO LOVE GOD

I go deeply inside and unite in a deep place with God. I am as it were in another place, another level. It is not like what I see in this world, it is a world beyond. When I reach this level, whether it is joy or suffering, I am experiencing it and it is beyond here. It is immense joy. It feels like heaven.

Last night, I could see so clearly that the greatest thing I could do on this earth is to love God. Not only could I see that I experienced, as I have been, the overwhelming desire in my soul to love God and the feeling of intensity to love Him as deeply as possible, I realized with all my heart how He deserves to be given the greatest love possible. As I unite more with Him, I can love Him more. This realization has given me great joy.

This has been my greatest desire - to love Him with the very deepest love. I am filled with immense sorrow for my sins and the sins of men because He is so offended by His creatures. I want to cry so hard because I realize how He is offended, and I love Him so much and want Him to receive love as is His due.

It is as if I delve so deeply into Their emotions. It is not suffering. It is immense joy, for I am so one with Them. At this time, I can recall all those experiences. Monday night, after the Mass for Don's wife, I was so one in the experience of Mary's sufferings over the children.

I feel immense suffering for the lost children of this world, how they are being poisoned, seeing them with such clarity, needing the love of Jesus and being poisoned.

Saturday, I went to Mass at St. Xavier and had such a presence of the Trinity. A permanent mark is left on me from experiencing this - a knowing of the Almighty God.

Thursday, the feast of St. John Lateran, I cannot even say what happened - such a presence of the Almighty God, realizing the great reverence that is due to Him, in all His power and might. I am wrapped in their divine presence. I cry from awe of it all.

All through the Mass, sometimes I want to cry for I am seeing with such clarity what is going on. What I write on paper is so beautiful, but it falls so short of actually describing the experience that is going on, for it is indeed beyond words. At each Mass, I can recall these experiences. I feel and know the greatness of the moments at the Mass.

Tonight, I knew, in every cell of my body, how the greatest thing I could do on this earth is to love God. I know He deserves this love and my whole being wants to render to Him this love, and I partake in a union with Him that is far beyond words. For, in this realization or wanting with my whole being to give Him love, He gives me His love in this union, and I am swept away by this love in my being, uniting my humanity with His Divinity in this deep embrace. This is the deepest when I am begging, with all my heart, begging to give Him more love, and in this moment, there is not a thought for me, but a craving with my whole being to love, honor, and serve Him, my great and good God.

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